You have a lot of pre-conditions on what you'll listen to, but I'll try. Is having watched someone you love die a horrible death qualification enough? If not, I also have a best bud who came close to checking out, got with the program, and has lived a way better life apres alcohol, 9 years and getting better all the time. I've had a front row seat to see what works and what doesn't.

Kidding yourself doesn't work. Staying screwed up while your judgment gradually slips away, being replaced by the judgment in the chemicals in your brain, doesn't work.

I've been to one AA meeting as a guest. Most straight-forward, no b.s. people I ever saw in my life, and they (with no sentimentality) cared about helping each other get off the slippery slope and move on. Get your butt to one and just tell them you think you might have a problem. If by some bizzarre chance the group doesn't 'click' with you (not your age demographic, etc.) don't sweat it, look up another one.

And in your favor, is the fact you're looking around for help from other human beings. That is one of the main things you have to do to get it together, so you got that going for ya. Go for it.