So you are an alcoholic.

Great! You admit it. A big BIG first step.
No AA crap? What, you can suddenly change your life around by yourself? You'll need much more than "good luck".
And I'm one of those people "without experience": I have never been an alcoholic.
But my father was. It affected the family. It affected me.
My brother is an alcoholic. His family is dysfunctional.
Let me tell you what's in store for you: 30 or 40 years of increasing ill health for you.
The same amount of time in misery--for you and those that love you, until they find they can't help you, and have to leave you, for their own sanity.

It's up to you. But you have do something soon.