Lovely to hear from you, Pat. Hope things aren't too grim for you, but that you can make a good new start. Is cycling a possibility. I've been pedalling to work (in Hull) for rising 6 months, and there isn't a downside to it. I feel great, and really enjoy the ride, even when it's pissing down.
The smurkin' will go when you're ready, but do keep working towards it.
Lots of love, pet.