Good to hear from you Pat, but sorry to hear that things have gone pear-shaped for you.
I think we both know that you're not going to give up your fought-for independence and self-confidence after all you've been through, and that you're not going to settle for something that's not right. Good for you! Do something YOU want to do, and let others fit in with you for a change! *smile*
Doing something positive like exercise works for me - makes other things fall into place.