khandu,

You are certainly not alone in this group! I expect to turn 50 this March. Many parts of my life are not what I thought they'd be, but, generally, I like myself & I feel that I've done enough to be the age I am. When you feel anxious or depressed, focus on the good things in your life. That's the part you *can* control--where you put your mind & your actions--not the passing of time or what it's doing to your body! We don't control what happens to us, but we always control how we respond. And don't forget to keep in touch w/ loving friends. That surely helps us through!

best,

bbc