Guest - sometimes you need to wallow for a while before you can actually move on. As long as you do move on, it's an appropriate, healthy response to a tough situation. I think I'm about ready to move on.

Mary - I think trying to recover the $100 admission that I signed a form saying it was non-refundable for... is a lost cause.

Winter term - January, right? I think that's what I meant. *Blush*

Re: Doctor situation - The first thing I do is get myself in TO and look up my old (childhood) doctor, which I wasn't able to do before leaving. Since he has experience with my mother as well, he might have a better understanding of how to start getting the support I need to get better. Then I'll look up the Doctors you've listed. And thank you very much for that, it is definitely going to be useful.

Susan - there is no equivalent for the Disabilities Act, however the Human Rights Commission has some sections dealing with diabilities. So there should be alternatives.

Re: Tough Comments - Getting welfare last year would have not been the solution, as I wouldn't have been using it as a stepping stone, but as a giving up. Practically speaking, other people might not have had to support me as much as they had to, but... it really would have been the wrong thing in both a short-term and long-term sense. I had never been off welfare before.

I had no other understanding of the way the world was or could be, than that of being emotionally hassled as a welfare person and mentally under strain every second for lack of money and lack of support and lack of understanding. Now I've seen the way normal people with jobs live. And I can recognize that I'm not yet at that level, so I need to go on welfare in order to get there. Now I know what I'm going for.

Carol - yeah, pushing usually causes more problems than it solves, eh? Glad things are working out for you!

Concerned - Nope.

Mary - My eyes are supposed to both be -3.0 but it varies. I'm currently using pinhole glasses so that I can read street signs. Usually I can read them from about 20-30 ft away with these. The other day I missed several streetcars because my eyes were hurting and I couldn't see far enough to get to a stop by the time the streetcars came, and with the glasses I still had to be right by the sign in order to read it. So... it really does vary.

Housekeeping - Marion suggested that, too. I'm not very outgoing and need a lot of private time, and I'm just not awake in the morning most days. I like people fine, but... please, at a reasonable hour of the DAY.
\Also, I was housesitting in Burlington and I'm sure I never want to do that again. Of course, she was being somewhat difficult around the issue of my allergies, but still.

"soul of a file clerk" - LOL! I love it. I have the soul of a nun, I think.

Oh, and I finally found a colour that makes me look like a human being instead of a ghost. A GORGEOUS deep blue with turquoise leanings. I actually looked like I had COLOUR in my cheeks!

LH - I am addicted to computers. It's a good thing, particularly if I can actually get a job in that field. NICE money. Very nice money. And work I like. ;)

Mary - Thanks for the link! I'm checking it out NOW. If it's shared, might be shared phone... we'll see. Much more hopeful.

LH - yeah. There are people in lower levels of government who really do want to help people though. I think it's more a case of the right hand not knowing what the left is doing, and the brain not realizing that no matter how cool technology is, it's never as cool as the person who invented the technology. If there was some way to truly tap the power of every person, and get them really contributing... this society would be amazking. (Hmmm, think I'll leave that typo in.)

Jande - Whoa, girl. That would have been better in a PM, I think. You can't choose your feelings but you can choose your reaction. To a certain extent, and if you've trained yourself that way. It's no more an insensitivity than pushing to stay awake in order to get something done, which all of us have done at some point.

And yes, the ex-bf is an EX-bf. lol.

Cat - *Hugs to you too* So how's the social services situation in jolly ole England?

Susan - Yeah, we're all humans.