We have been very worried about you and it is good to see you back here! I am very sorry we didn't get together but I'll tell you later about all of that. I too have something (quite silly) for you and we'll work all that stuff out later as well. For now, just take the best care of yourself and hold onto those great feelings you got from Mariano. Bless you my friend, you've had a great burden to carry.

Pat