Talk about disillusion, I was into 'the word' very heavy when I was young. I was into it so much I wanted to grow up and become a preacher of 'the word'
Then my idea got flattened when a pastor said to me, " You can never be a preacher, there are no women preachers." Now that was disillusion. I probably cryed that night.
But, then I got out of the belief of that religion, and it was almost instant. The word hypocrites shot through me like an arrow.
I turned to other things, like a lot of drugs. I became a wild child. Joined a band, got layed, you know,'wild child' things.
Anyway to get to my point, I think that was the day that saved my belief system. I grew older and developed my spirituality. I remembered my spirit. I remembered who I really am. I created my own.
Perhaps I should look that guy up and thank him!
I know what your saying here JennyO, to explain it all I would have to write a book!
Peace, Rustic