Naemanson:
      For 35 years, I've worked professionally, of and on, with situations like yours. Lots of great advice has already been given.
      I would add a few thoughts.
      The first is that you probaly are depressed, and it is a natural response to a deeply felt loss.
      What really jumps-out at me is the statement that you have started taking meds "again." In neuro-biological disorders, the right mix of meds occurs in about 5% of the cases, on the first try. In other words, it might take some time to get the right meds at the right strength. Also, it takes about a week or two for meds like proaac and paxil to "kick-in." Sometimes. you might have to try several meds to get the right one.
      Don't isolate yourself. Make it a point to go places, see people, do things, etc.
      If I've learned anything in 35 years, it's this: Time really does heal lots of things. We have all had our hearts broken too.
      feel free to PM me.

Wilco in Tennessee

      It is important to talk to somebody, a good friend will do.