Amos – That's a good suggestion but in the process of losing my fiancée I also lost my house and my bank account. I now live in a one bedroom apartment. Plus it's winter and it's Maine with three feet of snow on the ground and temperatures hovering near and below zero. Still, it's warmer than her heart.

Bagpuss – Thanks. I try to keep on keeping on. Counseling is not an option because of my financial/health insurance situation. I managed to get my doctor to prescribe the same antidepressants I used a couple of years ago and they seem to be helping somewhat. I am still trying to do music but my heart just doesn't seem to be in it. I've tried keeping a diary but I have to be careful not to read it because that deepens my depression.

Jeri – Yes, I am alone. My kids have both gone off to college and with Rebecca gone I tend to spend a great deal of time by myself. I am getting used to it and I do get out and about occasionally but that is very dependent on money. The toughest part is in the morning when I have to force myself into my clothes and out the door. Once I get moving I am better but there have been mornings when I lose that fight.

No-brain activity – Yeah, I've found that helps. In my case it's video games. I figure every hour spent not thinking of her is a successful hour.

nutty – She used to enjoy coming to my performances. It was nice to see her in the audience. It played hell with my ability to sing heartbreak songs when I was in love. I now do a hell of a job on Sally Free And Easy though.

There are several suggestions for exercise. I try but there are times when I can't get past the inertia of the depression. I used to work out daily and felt great but now I am having a tough time getting to the gym on a regular basis. I gotta work on this.

Keeping busy should help. I have a great spot in my apartment for a small workbench. I've always wanted to explore the mysteries of the hand cut dovetail joint so I will try to build a woodshop in the pass through between the kitchen and living room.

mary garvey – Unfortunately the last thing I need is anything to add to my already ample padding so chocolate should not figure in my cure.

wilco48 – The meds I settled on were the result of a lot of tinkering while under professional care. They seemed to be helping but I was never able to figure out how much was due to the pills and how much was due to my own improvement. I quit taking the pills several months into my relationship and didn't notice any diminution of good attitude. Go figure.

Hooking up again – Never more. All relationships end in tears and I am done crying. I am discovering the good parts of a single life and I hope to settle into it as best I can.

I am planning to move to Europe this year so a change of environment is in the cards. This one is the third failed relationship in this area and I am surrounded by reminders. It's time to move on.

Thanks to everyone for your help and support. I appreciate al those who have offered their services by PM. I am riding an emotional roller coaster right now, some days I am up and some days I am down. I cannot seem to cross that half way line and get up into the upper half of the scale though. And I don't derive a great deal of pleasure from music either. But I have hope.

By the way, I only have internet access at work these days so don't worry if you don't see me here for the next three days. I will see you, Jeri, tomorrow as I will be in Portsmouth for the day and want to hit the Press Room in the evening.