It was so cold that night
but there was no wind
and it felt like the air would never move again
the porch light forgot to turn on
as I creaked open the door
and padded across the grey carpet
when I finally reached the bathroom
the light was too brittle
and it smashed against the faucet as it fell
but it kept on falling
I didn't feel the water on my hands
and I'd swear it never touched my face
although I saw my cheeks were wet in the wavering mirror
I wanted to see the stars
but I thought if I opened the window for sure I'd fall out
so I stood there
and clutched the curtains tightly closed

just in case