At some point in time, an older banjo player will try to introduce you
to BJR. Be very careful with this (or any other) kind of BJR. What you have is a disease; and, it IS TREATABLE. It is related to brain chemistry. And, I can say, from personal experience, that there is always hope. At age 23, you have your whole life in front of you, and you can live a good, productive life, despite the affliction of a banjo. Look for an older mentor, who is in recovery with BJR (Banjo Recovery). I would offer my help, but I am still not able to sleep without my banjo. I gotta go, it's looking at me very funny......