Hiya,

Depression *SUCKS*, there's just no 2 ways about it (been there as well, although under rather different circs). When you're in the midst of it you can't even see the dense fog all around you; I was utterly abject for about 6 months before seeking counselling, and for another 6 months vehemently objected to the mere suggestion that I could be in need of pharmaceuticals, since I fely my own stiff upper lip should be adequate to the purpose.

Long story short: the meds helped me be a functional & productive person, and while they weren't able to cure the cause of my unhappiness, they at least alleviated the symptoms. That said, I SO hear you re:reeling from the grief NOW; this is very probably because you were so mired in the clinical depression at the time of your break-up that you weren't able to really feel it.

Sadly, there's no way around our emotions, but only through them; when we delay doing so we only wind up having to pay the piper later (sometimes with interest, alas). Please keep the faith & know that in all likelihhod this, too, shall pass. It bites heartily that your ex has "moved on"; maybe he has, maybe he hasn't, but YOU have to allow yourself your emotions and focus on doing what's best for yourself.

Sorry to be so long-winded, but I guess your note struck a chord in me; I'll be thinking of you.

All the best,

D.