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If it feels like a bereavement, fibs , Mate, IT PROBABLY IS, so give yourself some slack and let yourself recover, it takes a time some times until you feel sufficiently recovered to even think of letting somone close again, BUT you will recover, and we all think the Star organiser of Portaferry is pretty good,and will all help if we can.
You know you have aplace to stay in London if you need it!