I think the word your looking for Amos is Bollox, and boy, there's been a lot of that on this thread.
There is only Now, and then Nothing.
No jam tomorrow never never land,
No self-obsessed wish fulfilling come again Carousel.
Just non-existence.
Yet am I sad?
No. Life is good, and the fact that I will make dust inevitable.
No life without death.
Leave these arrogant childish fantasies behind, accept the gift no mater how temporary and live in the moment.
PP