Ok, this is it.

I need a minimum of two years to reach financial stability. I have three days. To afford market rent for a place that won't make me sick in itself I'd need to be earning at least $1000 a month. Market rent is at least twice what welfare "allows" for it, and if I earn money to help myself out then welfare will deduct anything after $145, which isn't enough to cover the difference between what they give and what my most barebones budget is.

I'm not going to make it through this one without a full-fledged miracle, and you know what? God doesn't help people who can't help themselves. I've asked everyone I can think of for help and no-one is able *and* willing to help, not even people who have disposable income at greater than $10000 a year. I can't find a place to go that won't make me sick and that I can actually afford, and now I'm sick again so can't look, even though over 99% of the places I've called in the last two months have not even called me back so there's not much point in looking. I won't even be able to pack until the fourth day, which is when I have to be out of here.

I've been relying on God and on other people for a year now, and people are sick of helping. So there goes God, too.

I just hope that the people in Aurora will be ok with taking my stuff, then maybe I'll have a chance to start again later if I'm still alive.

I need to live in a bubble and because of that I'm just not going to make it this time. There's nothing I can do anymore. I've tried everything.