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LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!

keberoxu 20 Jan 19 - 11:14 AM
Noreen 18 Jan 19 - 04:04 PM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Jan 19 - 02:17 AM
Stilly River Sage 15 Jan 19 - 11:24 PM
ChanteyLass 15 Jan 19 - 08:46 PM
LilyFestre 15 Jan 19 - 08:38 PM
Stilly River Sage 17 Jan 17 - 08:03 PM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Jan 17 - 11:55 PM
LilyFestre 16 Jan 17 - 07:14 PM
Stilly River Sage 16 Jan 17 - 03:53 PM
Noreen 16 Jan 17 - 02:57 PM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Jan 17 - 02:07 AM
ChanteyLass 15 Jan 17 - 09:06 PM
LilyFestre 15 Jan 17 - 08:06 PM
Sandra in Sydney 17 Jan 16 - 05:55 AM
olddude 16 Jan 16 - 02:48 PM
LilyFestre 16 Jan 16 - 02:24 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Jan 16 - 11:21 PM
ChanteyLass 15 Jan 16 - 06:44 PM
GUEST 15 Jan 16 - 02:00 PM
LilyFestre 15 Jan 16 - 12:04 PM
Dorothy Parshall 16 Jan 14 - 11:35 AM
ChanteyLass 15 Jan 14 - 11:19 PM
Noreen 15 Jan 14 - 06:04 PM
maeve 15 Jan 14 - 04:57 PM
VirginiaTam 15 Jan 14 - 04:29 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Jan 14 - 10:18 AM
LilyFestre 15 Jan 14 - 10:07 AM
Sandra in Sydney 27 Feb 13 - 01:41 AM
Little Robyn 26 Feb 13 - 03:32 PM
LilyFestre 26 Feb 13 - 12:00 PM
ChanteyLass 25 Feb 13 - 11:20 PM
Sandra in Sydney 25 Feb 13 - 08:09 PM
maeve 25 Feb 13 - 06:19 PM
gnu 25 Feb 13 - 06:09 PM
LilyFestre 25 Feb 13 - 06:06 PM
Bobert 25 Feb 13 - 10:04 AM
Sandra in Sydney 25 Feb 13 - 09:12 AM
maeve 25 Feb 13 - 08:27 AM
LilyFestre 25 Feb 13 - 08:02 AM
Bobert 08 Jan 13 - 05:26 PM
Sandra in Sydney 08 Jan 13 - 05:22 PM
ChanteyLass 08 Jan 13 - 03:42 PM
maeve 08 Jan 13 - 03:02 PM
LilyFestre 08 Jan 13 - 01:53 PM
Stilly River Sage 31 Oct 12 - 10:07 PM
ChanteyLass 31 Oct 12 - 07:03 PM
Bobert 31 Oct 12 - 11:47 AM
Sandra in Sydney 31 Oct 12 - 09:55 AM
Sandra in Sydney 31 Oct 12 - 09:54 AM
LilyFestre 31 Oct 12 - 08:19 AM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Aug 12 - 07:32 AM
Stilly River Sage 20 Aug 12 - 07:18 PM
Bobert 20 Aug 12 - 06:56 PM
maeve 20 Aug 12 - 06:43 PM
ChanteyLass 20 Aug 12 - 06:37 PM
Little Robyn 20 Aug 12 - 05:57 PM
LilyFestre 20 Aug 12 - 05:50 PM
Sandra in Sydney 18 Jul 12 - 11:12 AM
Stilly River Sage 18 Jul 12 - 12:55 AM
LilyFestre 18 Jul 12 - 12:46 AM
katlaughing 18 Jul 12 - 12:29 AM
Stilly River Sage 23 May 12 - 09:59 PM
ChanteyLass 23 May 12 - 09:07 PM
Sandra in Sydney 23 May 12 - 10:53 AM
Bobert 23 May 12 - 10:01 AM
LilyFestre 23 May 12 - 09:55 AM
Stilly River Sage 20 May 12 - 10:19 PM
Bobert 20 May 12 - 09:48 PM
ChanteyLass 20 May 12 - 08:09 PM
Sandra in Sydney 20 May 12 - 05:19 AM
LilyFestre 19 May 12 - 11:49 PM
ChanteyLass 19 May 12 - 11:20 PM
LilyFestre 19 May 12 - 01:13 AM
LilyFestre 19 May 12 - 01:04 AM
Stilly River Sage 18 May 12 - 11:29 PM
ChanteyLass 18 May 12 - 10:03 PM
Stilly River Sage 18 May 12 - 11:50 AM
Sandra in Sydney 18 May 12 - 10:12 AM
LilyFestre 18 May 12 - 08:28 AM
Sandra in Sydney 18 May 12 - 02:58 AM
ChanteyLass 17 May 12 - 08:44 PM
Bobert 17 May 12 - 07:29 PM
Stilly River Sage 17 May 12 - 07:17 PM
Bobert 17 May 12 - 06:57 PM
LilyFestre 17 May 12 - 06:51 PM
Bobert 15 Mar 12 - 06:14 AM
Sandra in Sydney 15 Mar 12 - 02:23 AM
ChanteyLass 14 Mar 12 - 06:02 PM
LilyFestre 14 Mar 12 - 02:16 PM
maeve 14 Mar 12 - 12:50 PM
LilyFestre 14 Mar 12 - 11:01 AM
LilyFestre 14 Mar 12 - 10:08 AM
Sandra in Sydney 14 Mar 12 - 09:01 AM
olddude 13 Mar 12 - 10:22 PM
maeve 13 Mar 12 - 10:16 PM
ChanteyLass 13 Mar 12 - 10:07 PM
Sandra in Sydney 13 Mar 12 - 01:39 AM
maeve 12 Mar 12 - 11:39 PM
LilyFestre 12 Mar 12 - 11:35 PM
olddude 12 Mar 12 - 11:02 AM
katlaughing 11 Mar 12 - 11:13 AM
Maryrrf 11 Mar 12 - 09:35 AM
Sandra in Sydney 11 Mar 12 - 04:18 AM
Little Robyn 11 Mar 12 - 03:17 AM
katlaughing 11 Mar 12 - 01:21 AM
Stilly River Sage 11 Mar 12 - 12:28 AM
ChanteyLass 10 Mar 12 - 11:18 PM
gnu 10 Mar 12 - 10:04 PM
maeve 10 Mar 12 - 08:47 PM
Bobert 10 Mar 12 - 07:42 PM
LilyFestre 10 Mar 12 - 07:24 PM
Sandra in Sydney 03 Mar 12 - 03:29 AM
ChanteyLass 02 Mar 12 - 10:22 PM
jimmyt 02 Mar 12 - 07:11 PM
Bobert 02 Mar 12 - 05:35 PM
maeve 02 Mar 12 - 05:24 PM
LilyFestre 02 Mar 12 - 04:28 PM
ChanteyLass 15 Jan 12 - 08:40 PM
Sandra in Sydney 15 Jan 12 - 07:36 PM
Bobert 15 Jan 12 - 06:46 PM
katlaughing 15 Jan 12 - 02:55 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Jan 12 - 11:07 AM
LilyFestre 15 Jan 12 - 10:14 AM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Dec 11 - 03:24 AM
ChanteyLass 20 Dec 11 - 09:16 PM
maeve 20 Dec 11 - 08:30 PM
Bobert 20 Dec 11 - 08:19 PM
LilyFestre 20 Dec 11 - 08:11 PM
Sandra in Sydney 20 Dec 11 - 03:58 AM
ChanteyLass 19 Dec 11 - 08:02 PM
katlaughing 18 Dec 11 - 10:25 PM
ChanteyLass 18 Dec 11 - 09:00 PM
Bobert 18 Dec 11 - 06:41 PM
LilyFestre 18 Dec 11 - 06:35 PM
maeve 17 Dec 11 - 01:48 PM
maeve 16 Dec 11 - 07:35 AM
ChanteyLass 15 Dec 11 - 11:52 PM
Sandra in Sydney 15 Dec 11 - 09:21 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Dec 11 - 10:16 AM
LilyFestre 15 Dec 11 - 10:06 AM
ChanteyLass 11 Dec 11 - 01:17 AM
Bobert 10 Dec 11 - 08:53 PM
Sandra in Sydney 10 Dec 11 - 08:21 PM
Stilly River Sage 10 Dec 11 - 02:51 PM
LilyFestre 10 Dec 11 - 12:01 PM
GUEST,ChanteyLass 24 Sep 11 - 12:51 AM
Sandra in Sydney 23 Sep 11 - 10:51 PM
LilyFestre 23 Sep 11 - 10:22 AM
Sandra in Sydney 23 Sep 11 - 08:01 AM
LilyFestre 23 Sep 11 - 12:14 AM
Bobert 22 Sep 11 - 11:15 PM
Stilly River Sage 22 Sep 11 - 10:49 PM
Sandra in Sydney 22 Sep 11 - 01:35 AM
GUEST,ChanteyLass 21 Sep 11 - 10:53 PM
Stilly River Sage 21 Sep 11 - 10:43 PM
GUEST 21 Sep 11 - 10:35 PM
Little Robyn 21 Sep 11 - 09:36 PM
LilyFestre 21 Sep 11 - 06:26 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 21 Sep 11 - 08:22 AM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Sep 11 - 05:47 AM
katlaughing 20 Sep 11 - 11:04 PM
Stilly River Sage 20 Sep 11 - 10:42 PM
ChanteyLass 20 Sep 11 - 09:46 PM
GUEST,Lilyfestre 20 Sep 11 - 08:09 PM
GUEST,Lilyfestre 20 Sep 11 - 08:08 PM
Stilly River Sage 20 Sep 11 - 08:02 PM
GUEST,LilyFestre 20 Sep 11 - 01:07 PM
SINSULL 20 Sep 11 - 11:40 AM
olddude 19 Sep 11 - 11:11 PM
Stilly River Sage 19 Sep 11 - 10:50 PM
Sandra in Sydney 19 Sep 11 - 10:17 PM
LilyFestre 19 Sep 11 - 10:10 PM
Stilly River Sage 14 Sep 11 - 11:20 PM
ChanteyLass 14 Sep 11 - 11:14 PM
LilyFestre 14 Sep 11 - 10:11 AM
Stilly River Sage 14 Sep 11 - 09:04 AM
Bobert 14 Sep 11 - 08:56 AM
Sandra in Sydney 14 Sep 11 - 03:32 AM
olddude 13 Sep 11 - 11:26 PM
GUEST 13 Sep 11 - 11:23 PM
LilyFestre 13 Sep 11 - 11:09 PM
Sandra in Sydney 04 Sep 11 - 02:30 AM
ChanteyLass 03 Sep 11 - 11:12 PM
Little Robyn 03 Sep 11 - 09:38 PM
katlaughing 03 Sep 11 - 04:16 PM
LilyFestre 03 Sep 11 - 11:29 AM
saulgoldie 03 Sep 11 - 09:49 AM
olddude 03 Sep 11 - 09:09 AM
ChanteyLass 03 Sep 11 - 12:55 AM
Bobert 02 Sep 11 - 12:04 PM
Stilly River Sage 02 Sep 11 - 11:58 AM
Sandra in Sydney 02 Sep 11 - 04:21 AM
katlaughing 02 Sep 11 - 12:24 AM
LilyFestre 02 Sep 11 - 12:12 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 22 Jun 11 - 10:20 AM
maeve 21 Jun 11 - 09:48 PM
Stilly River Sage 21 Jun 11 - 09:07 PM
olddude 21 Jun 11 - 08:16 PM
Bobert 21 Jun 11 - 08:08 PM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Jun 11 - 07:26 PM
LilyFestre 21 Jun 11 - 06:45 PM
maeve 21 Jun 11 - 07:41 AM
LilyFestre 21 Jun 11 - 07:34 AM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Jun 11 - 04:48 AM
LilyFestre 20 Jun 11 - 04:19 PM
GUEST,Tinker 20 Jun 11 - 09:46 AM
Sandra in Sydney 20 Jun 11 - 02:43 AM
Bobert 19 Jun 11 - 10:13 PM
katlaughing 19 Jun 11 - 09:49 PM
maeve 19 Jun 11 - 09:38 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 19 Jun 11 - 09:25 PM
LilyFestre 19 Jun 11 - 09:22 PM
Little Robyn 11 May 11 - 02:52 AM
Sandra in Sydney 11 May 11 - 02:44 AM
LilyFestre 10 May 11 - 07:18 PM
Bobert 18 Apr 11 - 08:12 PM
Sandra in Sydney 17 Apr 11 - 11:48 PM
LilyFestre 17 Apr 11 - 11:39 AM
Sandra in Sydney 10 Apr 11 - 07:02 AM
Little Robyn 09 Apr 11 - 05:41 PM
Stilly River Sage 09 Apr 11 - 11:16 AM
LilyFestre 09 Apr 11 - 10:47 AM
LilyFestre 09 Apr 11 - 10:05 AM
Stilly River Sage 08 Apr 11 - 11:25 PM
LilyFestre 08 Apr 11 - 10:46 PM
Sandra in Sydney 01 Apr 11 - 10:13 PM
Sandra in Sydney 01 Apr 11 - 10:00 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 01 Apr 11 - 04:32 PM
LilyFestre 01 Apr 11 - 01:31 PM
Bobert 31 Mar 11 - 05:24 PM
olddude 31 Mar 11 - 03:00 PM
LilyFestre 31 Mar 11 - 01:57 PM
LilyFestre 19 Mar 11 - 04:21 PM
Stilly River Sage 19 Mar 11 - 02:20 AM
Bobert 18 Mar 11 - 08:40 PM
katlaughing 18 Mar 11 - 07:24 PM
Sandra in Sydney 18 Mar 11 - 11:36 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 17 Mar 11 - 07:01 PM
LilyFestre 17 Mar 11 - 10:16 AM
maeve 17 Mar 11 - 07:10 AM
Sandra in Sydney 17 Mar 11 - 04:51 AM
Stilly River Sage 16 Mar 11 - 12:16 PM
maeve 16 Mar 11 - 09:15 AM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Mar 11 - 06:40 AM
LilyFestre 16 Mar 11 - 05:55 AM
Stilly River Sage 28 Jan 11 - 11:09 PM
LilyFestre 28 Jan 11 - 10:42 PM
Bobert 28 Jan 11 - 10:03 PM
Stilly River Sage 28 Jan 11 - 04:41 PM
maeve 28 Jan 11 - 01:25 PM
LilyFestre 28 Jan 11 - 01:19 PM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Jan 11 - 01:51 AM
LilyFestre 15 Jan 11 - 10:47 PM
mouldy 13 Jan 11 - 02:39 AM
LilyFestre 12 Jan 11 - 02:08 PM
Little Robyn 12 Jan 11 - 02:00 PM
mouldy 12 Jan 11 - 01:07 PM
maeve 12 Jan 11 - 01:05 PM
LilyFestre 12 Jan 11 - 01:03 PM
Sandra in Sydney 12 Jan 11 - 10:00 AM
mouldy 12 Jan 11 - 02:41 AM
Stilly River Sage 11 Jan 11 - 08:20 PM
maeve 11 Jan 11 - 06:33 PM
LilyFestre 11 Jan 11 - 06:16 PM
Bobert 11 Jan 11 - 04:26 PM
Sandra in Sydney 11 Jan 11 - 04:08 AM
Ebbie 11 Jan 11 - 03:22 AM
LilyFestre 10 Jan 11 - 09:52 PM
katlaughing 10 Jan 11 - 06:20 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Dec 10 - 09:18 PM
LilyFestre 15 Dec 10 - 05:21 PM
SINSULL 15 Dec 10 - 01:36 PM
Sandra in Sydney 17 Nov 10 - 06:04 AM
katlaughing 16 Nov 10 - 10:35 PM
LilyFestre 16 Nov 10 - 05:06 PM
Bobert 16 Nov 10 - 04:47 PM
LilyFestre 16 Nov 10 - 12:00 PM
Stilly River Sage 16 Nov 10 - 11:31 AM
LilyFestre 16 Nov 10 - 11:11 AM
Sandra in Sydney 12 Nov 10 - 05:49 PM
Stilly River Sage 12 Nov 10 - 05:40 PM
LilyFestre 12 Nov 10 - 04:45 PM
Sandra in Sydney 04 Nov 10 - 05:33 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 04 Nov 10 - 09:52 AM
maeve 03 Nov 10 - 05:10 PM
katlaughing 03 Nov 10 - 04:44 PM
LilyFestre 03 Nov 10 - 11:40 AM
maeve 02 Nov 10 - 09:36 PM
LilyFestre 02 Nov 10 - 04:32 PM
Sandra in Sydney 01 Nov 10 - 11:00 PM
Stilly River Sage 01 Nov 10 - 09:02 PM
maeve 01 Nov 10 - 09:01 PM
LilyFestre 01 Nov 10 - 08:52 PM
LilyFestre 31 Oct 10 - 08:04 PM
Sandra in Sydney 31 Oct 10 - 07:28 PM
Stilly River Sage 31 Oct 10 - 03:55 PM
LilyFestre 31 Oct 10 - 01:27 PM
VirginiaTam 31 Oct 10 - 12:44 PM
wysiwyg 31 Oct 10 - 11:41 AM
LilyFestre 31 Oct 10 - 11:36 AM
Stilly River Sage 12 Oct 10 - 01:39 PM
Sandra in Sydney 12 Oct 10 - 01:11 AM
Bobert 11 Oct 10 - 09:18 PM
katlaughing 11 Oct 10 - 09:12 PM
LilyFestre 11 Oct 10 - 09:01 PM
SINSULL 05 Oct 10 - 12:54 AM
wysiwyg 04 Oct 10 - 09:57 PM
Sandra in Sydney 04 Oct 10 - 08:58 PM
LilyFestre 04 Oct 10 - 05:01 PM
Little Robyn 04 Oct 10 - 04:10 AM
LilyFestre 03 Oct 10 - 11:26 PM
LilyFestre 03 Oct 10 - 09:00 PM
katlaughing 03 Oct 10 - 03:59 PM
mg 03 Oct 10 - 03:34 PM
GUEST,Ebbie, housesitting 03 Oct 10 - 11:27 AM
VirginiaTam 03 Oct 10 - 08:38 AM
Stilly River Sage 02 Oct 10 - 11:07 PM
LilyFestre 02 Oct 10 - 10:58 PM
katlaughing 02 Oct 10 - 10:41 PM
LilyFestre 02 Oct 10 - 09:22 PM
GUEST,mg 02 Oct 10 - 07:12 PM
LilyFestre 02 Oct 10 - 04:08 PM
Stilly River Sage 01 Oct 10 - 07:16 PM
LilyFestre 01 Oct 10 - 06:06 PM
katlaughing 01 Oct 10 - 04:28 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 01 Oct 10 - 01:41 PM
Stilly River Sage 01 Oct 10 - 01:10 PM
wysiwyg 01 Oct 10 - 11:44 AM
LilyFestre 01 Oct 10 - 11:36 AM
wysiwyg 01 Oct 10 - 04:08 AM
GUEST,Ebbie, housesitting 01 Oct 10 - 01:14 AM
katlaughing 01 Oct 10 - 01:11 AM
Stilly River Sage 01 Oct 10 - 12:44 AM
maeve 01 Oct 10 - 12:28 AM
LilyFestre 30 Sep 10 - 10:45 PM
katlaughing 23 Sep 10 - 11:44 PM
SINSULL 23 Sep 10 - 08:56 PM
katlaughing 23 Sep 10 - 08:29 PM
SINSULL 23 Sep 10 - 06:51 PM
LilyFestre 23 Sep 10 - 04:09 PM
Stilly River Sage 22 Sep 10 - 07:26 PM
SINSULL 22 Sep 10 - 06:17 PM
SINSULL 22 Sep 10 - 08:31 AM
Stilly River Sage 21 Sep 10 - 08:35 PM
wysiwyg 21 Sep 10 - 08:17 PM
jacqui.c 21 Sep 10 - 07:59 PM
SINSULL 21 Sep 10 - 07:05 PM
katlaughing 21 Sep 10 - 06:48 PM
LilyFestre 21 Sep 10 - 06:41 PM
wysiwyg 21 Sep 10 - 06:13 PM
LilyFestre 21 Sep 10 - 05:55 PM
wysiwyg 21 Sep 10 - 12:56 PM
SINSULL 21 Sep 10 - 08:57 AM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Sep 10 - 05:09 AM
LilyFestre 20 Sep 10 - 11:41 PM
Bobert 20 Sep 10 - 10:05 PM
LilyFestre 20 Sep 10 - 09:55 PM
wysiwyg 08 Sep 10 - 10:29 AM
LilyFestre 14 Aug 10 - 07:49 PM
VirginiaTam 14 Aug 10 - 01:42 PM
Sandra in Sydney 13 Aug 10 - 10:14 PM
LilyFestre 13 Aug 10 - 10:04 PM
Sandra in Sydney 13 Aug 10 - 02:15 AM
Stilly River Sage 12 Aug 10 - 08:46 PM
LilyFestre 12 Aug 10 - 08:28 PM
Stilly River Sage 12 Aug 10 - 12:12 PM
Bobert 12 Aug 10 - 10:56 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 12 Aug 10 - 09:38 AM
Sandra in Sydney 11 Aug 10 - 08:55 PM
VirginiaTam 11 Aug 10 - 05:45 PM
gnu 11 Aug 10 - 04:24 PM
katlaughing 11 Aug 10 - 04:14 PM
LilyFestre 11 Aug 10 - 01:52 PM
katlaughing 09 Aug 10 - 11:09 PM
Stilly River Sage 26 Jul 10 - 12:45 PM
LilyFestre 26 Jul 10 - 12:44 PM
LilyFestre 26 Jul 10 - 12:42 PM
LilyFestre 26 Jul 10 - 11:34 AM
GUEST,USPS postal pixie 26 Jul 10 - 11:27 AM
Bobert 26 Jul 10 - 10:05 AM
Ebbie 25 Jul 10 - 07:45 PM
Severn 24 Jul 10 - 11:35 PM
Stilly River Sage 24 Jul 10 - 04:28 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 23 Jul 10 - 06:05 PM
LilyFestre 23 Jul 10 - 02:39 PM
Stilly River Sage 23 Jul 10 - 02:04 AM
GUEST, All Of Us at Mudcat 22 Jul 10 - 11:18 PM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Jul 10 - 06:26 AM
wysiwyg 20 Jul 10 - 11:01 PM
LilyFestre 20 Jul 10 - 06:44 PM
wysiwyg 20 Jul 10 - 04:04 PM
VirginiaTam 20 Jul 10 - 03:12 PM
Sandra in Sydney 20 Jul 10 - 04:26 AM
Stilly River Sage 20 Jul 10 - 01:49 AM
Bobert 19 Jul 10 - 10:04 PM
jacqui.c 19 Jul 10 - 09:05 PM
LilyFestre 19 Jul 10 - 09:04 PM
LilyFestre 14 Jul 10 - 09:06 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 14 Jul 10 - 06:02 PM
Sandra in Sydney 14 Jul 10 - 10:43 AM
VirginiaTam 14 Jul 10 - 02:47 AM
LilyFestre 13 Jul 10 - 10:27 PM
Stilly River Sage 11 Jul 10 - 11:31 PM
Sandra in Sydney 11 Jul 10 - 11:10 PM
LilyFestre 11 Jul 10 - 01:28 PM
wysiwyg 11 Jul 10 - 08:49 AM
Sandra in Sydney 11 Jul 10 - 03:18 AM
Stilly River Sage 10 Jul 10 - 02:19 PM
Noreen 10 Jul 10 - 02:14 PM
LilyFestre 10 Jul 10 - 12:52 PM
wysiwyg 10 Jul 10 - 11:54 AM
Stilly River Sage 09 Jul 10 - 12:29 AM
Bobert 08 Jul 10 - 08:34 AM
Sandra in Sydney 07 Jul 10 - 09:46 PM
LilyFestre 07 Jul 10 - 08:58 PM
Bobert 07 Jul 10 - 08:19 PM
LilyFestre 07 Jul 10 - 07:19 PM
Bobert 06 Jul 10 - 12:40 PM
Sandra in Sydney 06 Jul 10 - 10:49 AM
Stilly River Sage 06 Jul 10 - 10:45 AM
LilyFestre 06 Jul 10 - 09:45 AM
LilyFestre 05 Jul 10 - 09:43 PM
LilyFestre 05 Jul 10 - 01:40 PM
wysiwyg 05 Jul 10 - 11:34 AM
jacqui.c 03 Jul 10 - 12:23 PM
wysiwyg 30 Jun 10 - 10:54 AM
Sandra in Sydney 30 Jun 10 - 10:33 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 30 Jun 10 - 08:05 AM
LilyFestre 30 Jun 10 - 07:59 AM
LilyFestre 30 Jun 10 - 07:56 AM
VirginiaTam 30 Jun 10 - 02:42 AM
wysiwyg 29 Jun 10 - 11:13 PM
LilyFestre 29 Jun 10 - 07:32 PM
Noreen 29 Jun 10 - 06:23 PM
Stilly River Sage 29 Jun 10 - 06:01 PM
LilyFestre 29 Jun 10 - 05:48 PM
LilyFestre 29 Jun 10 - 05:28 PM
VirginiaTam 29 Jun 10 - 04:42 PM
gnu 29 Jun 10 - 03:35 PM
ClaireBear 29 Jun 10 - 03:32 PM
LilyFestre 29 Jun 10 - 11:01 AM
Noreen 29 Jun 10 - 08:48 AM
Bobert 29 Jun 10 - 08:41 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 29 Jun 10 - 07:54 AM
Sandra in Sydney 29 Jun 10 - 04:00 AM
wysiwyg 28 Jun 10 - 11:15 PM
LilyFestre 28 Jun 10 - 10:15 PM
LilyFestre 28 Jun 10 - 10:09 PM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Jun 10 - 10:03 PM
LilyFestre 21 Jun 10 - 08:05 PM
wysiwyg 21 Jun 10 - 04:01 PM
LilyFestre 21 Jun 10 - 12:19 PM
wysiwyg 21 Jun 10 - 12:09 PM
LilyFestre 21 Jun 10 - 11:36 AM
Stilly River Sage 21 Jun 10 - 11:12 AM
LilyFestre 21 Jun 10 - 10:36 AM
wysiwyg 21 Jun 10 - 09:53 AM
Tinker 21 Jun 10 - 09:45 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 21 Jun 10 - 09:36 AM
LilyFestre 21 Jun 10 - 08:16 AM
Tinker 21 Jun 10 - 08:13 AM
LilyFestre 21 Jun 10 - 06:19 AM
Stilly River Sage 20 Jun 10 - 10:24 PM
SINSULL 20 Jun 10 - 08:51 PM
Bobert 20 Jun 10 - 08:28 PM
LilyFestre 20 Jun 10 - 07:37 PM
Stilly River Sage 20 Jun 10 - 01:17 PM
Sandra in Sydney 19 Jun 10 - 11:52 PM
maeve 19 Jun 10 - 08:00 PM
LilyFestre 19 Jun 10 - 07:52 PM
jacqui.c 19 Jun 10 - 12:57 PM
Stilly River Sage 18 Jun 10 - 11:29 PM
Bobert 18 Jun 10 - 10:14 PM
LilyFestre 18 Jun 10 - 10:06 PM
mouldy 18 Jun 10 - 08:55 AM
Tannywheeler 18 Jun 10 - 08:47 AM
Catherine Jayne 18 Jun 10 - 08:35 AM
LilyFestre 18 Jun 10 - 07:56 AM
GUEST,jimmyt 17 Jun 10 - 10:02 PM
Rapparee 17 Jun 10 - 08:20 PM
Sorcha 17 Jun 10 - 06:47 PM
wysiwyg 17 Jun 10 - 05:09 PM
Stilly River Sage 17 Jun 10 - 03:15 PM
wysiwyg 17 Jun 10 - 02:28 PM
LilyFestre 17 Jun 10 - 02:10 PM
wysiwyg 17 Jun 10 - 09:20 AM
SINSULL 17 Jun 10 - 08:07 AM
Bobert 17 Jun 10 - 07:11 AM
Sandra in Sydney 17 Jun 10 - 06:17 AM
VirginiaTam 17 Jun 10 - 05:31 AM
LilyFestre 17 Jun 10 - 01:28 AM
gnu 16 Jun 10 - 01:10 PM
wysiwyg 16 Jun 10 - 10:51 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 16 Jun 10 - 08:36 AM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Jun 10 - 04:09 AM
Stilly River Sage 16 Jun 10 - 12:54 AM
LilyFestre 15 Jun 10 - 10:30 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Jun 10 - 08:11 PM
wysiwyg 15 Jun 10 - 08:11 PM
Bobert 15 Jun 10 - 07:55 PM
LilyFestre 15 Jun 10 - 06:48 PM
wysiwyg 15 Jun 10 - 04:21 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Jun 10 - 03:09 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 15 Jun 10 - 02:39 PM
LilyFestre 15 Jun 10 - 02:25 PM
ClaireBear 15 Jun 10 - 02:00 PM
LilyFestre 15 Jun 10 - 11:00 AM
wysiwyg 15 Jun 10 - 10:27 AM
Stilly River Sage 15 Jun 10 - 09:33 AM
wysiwyg 15 Jun 10 - 08:52 AM
Sandra in Sydney 15 Jun 10 - 06:58 AM
LilyFestre 14 Jun 10 - 10:26 PM
Bobert 14 Jun 10 - 08:45 PM
LilyFestre 14 Jun 10 - 08:34 PM
ClaireBear 14 Jun 10 - 12:28 PM
Stilly River Sage 14 Jun 10 - 11:00 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 14 Jun 10 - 08:42 AM
LilyFestre 14 Jun 10 - 08:08 AM
Bobert 14 Jun 10 - 07:38 AM
Sandra in Sydney 14 Jun 10 - 07:26 AM
wysiwyg 13 Jun 10 - 10:59 PM
jacqui.c 13 Jun 10 - 08:58 PM
ClaireBear 13 Jun 10 - 08:53 PM
gnu 13 Jun 10 - 07:16 PM
wysiwyg 13 Jun 10 - 06:29 PM
VirginiaTam 13 Jun 10 - 05:49 PM
wysiwyg 13 Jun 10 - 02:22 PM
mouldy 13 Jun 10 - 02:16 PM
Ebbie 13 Jun 10 - 12:01 PM
Stilly River Sage 13 Jun 10 - 11:40 AM
SINSULL 13 Jun 10 - 10:18 AM
Tannywheeler 13 Jun 10 - 09:18 AM
wysiwyg 13 Jun 10 - 08:41 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 13 Jun 10 - 08:35 AM
gnu 13 Jun 10 - 05:29 AM
VirginiaTam 13 Jun 10 - 04:40 AM
Little Robyn 13 Jun 10 - 03:19 AM
KT 13 Jun 10 - 03:09 AM
katlaughing 12 Jun 10 - 10:59 PM
LilyFestre 12 Jun 10 - 10:49 PM
LilyFestre 12 Jun 10 - 10:48 PM
Bobert 12 Jun 10 - 10:00 PM
Ebbie 12 Jun 10 - 09:59 PM
LilyFestre 12 Jun 10 - 09:51 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 12 Jun 10 - 02:48 PM
Bobert 11 Jun 10 - 08:10 PM
LilyFestre 11 Jun 10 - 09:57 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 10 Jun 10 - 07:42 PM
Sandra in Sydney 10 Jun 10 - 06:40 PM
Bobert 10 Jun 10 - 06:22 PM
katlaughing 10 Jun 10 - 06:13 PM
LilyFestre 10 Jun 10 - 05:54 PM
wysiwyg 10 Jun 10 - 11:43 AM
wysiwyg 10 Jun 10 - 11:41 AM
katlaughing 10 Jun 10 - 10:37 AM
Ebbie 10 Jun 10 - 09:56 AM
LilyFestre 09 Jun 10 - 01:54 PM
katlaughing 09 Jun 10 - 01:45 PM
wysiwyg 09 Jun 10 - 01:36 PM
LilyFestre 09 Jun 10 - 12:30 PM
SINSULL 09 Jun 10 - 09:39 AM
Sandra in Sydney 08 Jun 10 - 10:54 AM
LilyFestre 08 Jun 10 - 10:09 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 08 Jun 10 - 08:34 AM
wysiwyg 07 Jun 10 - 08:33 PM
SINSULL 07 Jun 10 - 08:25 PM
Bobert 07 Jun 10 - 08:14 PM
Sandra in Sydney 07 Jun 10 - 07:39 PM
LilyFestre 07 Jun 10 - 07:14 PM
LilyFestre 07 Jun 10 - 07:02 PM
wysiwyg 07 Jun 10 - 06:45 PM
LilyFestre 07 Jun 10 - 05:37 PM
jacqui.c 07 Jun 10 - 04:59 PM
LilyFestre 07 Jun 10 - 04:47 PM
jacqui.c 07 Jun 10 - 03:22 PM
wysiwyg 07 Jun 10 - 02:19 PM
VirginiaTam 07 Jun 10 - 02:07 PM
SINSULL 07 Jun 10 - 01:15 PM
Bobert 07 Jun 10 - 11:15 AM
LilyFestre 07 Jun 10 - 10:32 AM
Bobert 07 Jun 10 - 08:14 AM
SINSULL 07 Jun 10 - 07:52 AM
LilyFestre 07 Jun 10 - 07:13 AM
VirginiaTam 07 Jun 10 - 05:07 AM
gnu 06 Jun 10 - 05:55 PM
Stilly River Sage 06 Jun 10 - 05:38 PM
SINSULL 06 Jun 10 - 12:58 PM
LilyFestre 06 Jun 10 - 09:40 AM
Sandra in Sydney 06 Jun 10 - 06:55 AM
LilyFestre 05 Jun 10 - 10:19 AM
LilyFestre 05 Jun 10 - 10:06 AM
Bobert 05 Jun 10 - 09:25 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 05 Jun 10 - 09:11 AM
LilyFestre 04 Jun 10 - 08:08 PM
Stilly River Sage 04 Jun 10 - 06:38 PM
Bobert 04 Jun 10 - 06:24 PM
LilyFestre 04 Jun 10 - 05:27 PM
katlaughing 31 May 10 - 01:25 PM
Tannywheeler 31 May 10 - 01:24 PM
LilyFestre 31 May 10 - 11:36 AM
Bobert 31 May 10 - 09:18 AM
LilyFestre 31 May 10 - 07:53 AM
wysiwyg 30 May 10 - 02:01 PM
LilyFestre 30 May 10 - 01:02 PM
wysiwyg 30 May 10 - 11:38 AM
LilyFestre 30 May 10 - 10:05 AM
VirginiaTam 30 May 10 - 05:05 AM
Ebbie 29 May 10 - 09:43 PM
Bobert 29 May 10 - 08:55 PM
gnu 29 May 10 - 03:58 PM
wysiwyg 29 May 10 - 03:52 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 28 May 10 - 06:11 PM
Stilly River Sage 28 May 10 - 12:55 PM
SINSULL 28 May 10 - 12:02 PM
wysiwyg 28 May 10 - 11:36 AM
Sandra in Sydney 28 May 10 - 01:41 AM
Little Robyn 28 May 10 - 12:51 AM
LilyFestre 28 May 10 - 12:40 AM
Bobert 27 May 10 - 08:59 PM
LilyFestre 27 May 10 - 08:24 PM
gnu 27 May 10 - 05:19 PM
VirginiaTam 27 May 10 - 04:36 PM
SINSULL 27 May 10 - 10:46 AM
GUEST 27 May 10 - 10:44 AM
SINSULL 27 May 10 - 09:57 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 27 May 10 - 09:05 AM
Stilly River Sage 26 May 10 - 11:40 PM
LilyFestre 26 May 10 - 10:35 PM
LilyFestre 26 May 10 - 08:47 PM
jacqui.c 26 May 10 - 08:53 AM
Bobert 25 May 10 - 07:39 PM
LilyFestre 25 May 10 - 06:42 PM
Ebbie 25 May 10 - 05:31 PM
wysiwyg 25 May 10 - 04:08 PM
Stilly River Sage 25 May 10 - 01:08 PM
katlaughing 24 May 10 - 08:47 PM
Sandra in Sydney 24 May 10 - 05:47 AM
LilyFestre 24 May 10 - 03:35 AM
LilyFestre 23 May 10 - 09:39 PM
LilyFestre 23 May 10 - 09:03 PM
wysiwyg 23 May 10 - 08:18 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 23 May 10 - 05:11 PM
gnu 23 May 10 - 03:31 PM
LilyFestre 23 May 10 - 01:12 PM
Bobert 23 May 10 - 01:08 PM
Ebbie 23 May 10 - 01:08 PM
LilyFestre 23 May 10 - 12:51 PM
LilyFestre 23 May 10 - 12:27 PM
katlaughing 23 May 10 - 12:20 PM
VirginiaTam 23 May 10 - 10:25 AM
Sandra in Sydney 23 May 10 - 05:28 AM
VirginiaTam 23 May 10 - 04:57 AM
LilyFestre 23 May 10 - 01:55 AM
Stilly River Sage 23 May 10 - 01:17 AM
katlaughing 22 May 10 - 11:33 PM
Bobert 22 May 10 - 08:13 PM
LilyFestre 22 May 10 - 08:01 PM
LilyFestre 22 May 10 - 04:23 PM
LilyFestre 22 May 10 - 03:59 PM
VirginiaTam 22 May 10 - 11:54 AM
Tannywheeler 22 May 10 - 11:37 AM
jacqui.c 22 May 10 - 11:08 AM
Sandra in Sydney 22 May 10 - 03:16 AM
Bobert 21 May 10 - 10:53 PM
LilyFestre 21 May 10 - 10:48 PM
Sandra in Sydney 21 May 10 - 08:45 PM
jacqui.c 21 May 10 - 07:20 PM
LilyFestre 21 May 10 - 05:52 PM
SINSULL 21 May 10 - 11:38 AM
wysiwyg 21 May 10 - 10:43 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 21 May 10 - 08:22 AM
LilyFestre 20 May 10 - 08:50 PM
Bobert 20 May 10 - 08:01 PM
katlaughing 20 May 10 - 07:24 PM
Stilly River Sage 20 May 10 - 11:31 AM
wysiwyg 20 May 10 - 10:22 AM
SINSULL 20 May 10 - 07:57 AM
LilyFestre 20 May 10 - 07:42 AM
LilyFestre 20 May 10 - 07:39 AM
Bobert 20 May 10 - 07:26 AM
jacqui.c 20 May 10 - 06:35 AM
Sandra in Sydney 20 May 10 - 03:58 AM
My guru always said 20 May 10 - 03:23 AM
Bobert 19 May 10 - 10:47 PM
LilyFestre 19 May 10 - 10:39 PM
LilyFestre 19 May 10 - 09:32 PM
SINSULL 19 May 10 - 05:02 PM
LilyFestre 19 May 10 - 04:32 PM
SINSULL 19 May 10 - 04:16 PM
jacqui.c 19 May 10 - 04:04 PM
SINSULL 19 May 10 - 01:13 PM
wysiwyg 19 May 10 - 12:52 PM
LilyFestre 19 May 10 - 12:15 PM
LilyFestre 19 May 10 - 11:40 AM
wysiwyg 19 May 10 - 10:40 AM
LilyFestre 19 May 10 - 03:18 AM
VirginiaTam 19 May 10 - 02:47 AM
Stilly River Sage 18 May 10 - 11:56 PM
Bobert 18 May 10 - 09:29 PM
katlaughing 18 May 10 - 09:26 PM
SINSULL 18 May 10 - 09:09 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 18 May 10 - 08:32 PM
LilyFestre 18 May 10 - 07:57 PM
Pistachio 18 May 10 - 07:47 PM
Bobert 18 May 10 - 07:46 PM
Sandra in Sydney 18 May 10 - 07:29 PM
LilyFestre 18 May 10 - 06:31 PM
katlaughing 18 May 10 - 05:59 PM
wysiwyg 18 May 10 - 05:13 PM
LilyFestre 18 May 10 - 04:44 PM
LilyFestre 18 May 10 - 04:29 PM
LilyFestre 18 May 10 - 04:21 PM
wysiwyg 18 May 10 - 02:07 PM
Stilly River Sage 18 May 10 - 01:54 PM
SINSULL 18 May 10 - 11:50 AM
LilyFestre 18 May 10 - 10:00 AM
wysiwyg 18 May 10 - 08:42 AM
VirginiaTam 18 May 10 - 02:42 AM
Stilly River Sage 18 May 10 - 12:30 AM
katlaughing 17 May 10 - 11:56 PM
LilyFestre 17 May 10 - 09:59 PM
Sandra in Sydney 17 May 10 - 09:56 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 17 May 10 - 05:18 PM
Bobert 17 May 10 - 03:57 PM
wysiwyg 17 May 10 - 02:58 PM
jacqui.c 17 May 10 - 01:29 PM
LilyFestre 17 May 10 - 12:56 PM
LilyFestre 17 May 10 - 12:52 PM
LilyFestre 17 May 10 - 12:47 PM
Stilly River Sage 17 May 10 - 12:12 PM
LilyFestre 17 May 10 - 06:56 AM
Stilly River Sage 16 May 10 - 11:51 PM
LilyFestre 16 May 10 - 10:29 PM
wysiwyg 16 May 10 - 02:27 PM
mouldy 16 May 10 - 01:19 PM
Sandra in Sydney 16 May 10 - 12:23 PM
Stilly River Sage 16 May 10 - 11:30 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 16 May 10 - 08:51 AM
LilyFestre 16 May 10 - 08:45 AM
JennieG 16 May 10 - 02:28 AM
VirginiaTam 15 May 10 - 02:24 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 15 May 10 - 01:47 PM
LilyFestre 15 May 10 - 01:46 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 May 10 - 01:24 PM
LilyFestre 15 May 10 - 01:12 PM
SINSULL 15 May 10 - 11:01 AM
wysiwyg 15 May 10 - 09:52 AM
jacqui.c 15 May 10 - 07:21 AM
gnu 15 May 10 - 07:10 AM
kendall 15 May 10 - 07:05 AM
Sandra in Sydney 14 May 10 - 09:57 PM
LilyFestre 14 May 10 - 07:04 PM
Sandra in Sydney 13 May 10 - 06:07 PM
LilyFestre 13 May 10 - 03:33 PM
Bobert 13 May 10 - 08:35 AM
jacqui.c 13 May 10 - 07:56 AM
Sandra in Sydney 13 May 10 - 03:28 AM
SINSULL 12 May 10 - 07:16 PM
LilyFestre 12 May 10 - 05:47 PM
Sandra in Sydney 12 May 10 - 11:13 AM
SINSULL 12 May 10 - 10:58 AM
VirginiaTam 12 May 10 - 09:33 AM
VirginiaTam 12 May 10 - 09:31 AM
SINSULL 12 May 10 - 08:00 AM
Stilly River Sage 12 May 10 - 12:09 AM
LilyFestre 11 May 10 - 10:36 PM
Sandra in Sydney 11 May 10 - 07:33 PM
SINSULL 11 May 10 - 02:02 PM
LilyFestre 11 May 10 - 01:57 PM
SINSULL 11 May 10 - 08:09 AM
Sandra in Sydney 11 May 10 - 04:48 AM
LilyFestre 11 May 10 - 02:59 AM
LilyFestre 10 May 10 - 10:25 PM
LilyFestre 10 May 10 - 09:20 PM
Rowan 10 May 10 - 06:07 PM
Ebbie 10 May 10 - 09:55 AM
SINSULL 09 May 10 - 02:33 PM
katlaughing 09 May 10 - 12:47 AM
LilyFestre 09 May 10 - 12:16 AM
Sandra in Sydney 08 May 10 - 11:36 PM
Bobert 08 May 10 - 11:08 PM
LilyFestre 08 May 10 - 10:39 PM
wysiwyg 08 May 10 - 11:28 AM
LilyFestre 08 May 10 - 10:28 AM
LilyFestre 07 May 10 - 09:16 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 07 May 10 - 08:21 AM
Sandra in Sydney 07 May 10 - 05:01 AM
LilyFestre 06 May 10 - 06:51 PM
jacqui.c 06 May 10 - 01:55 PM
VirginiaTam 06 May 10 - 01:50 PM
LilyFestre 06 May 10 - 01:37 PM
LilyFestre 06 May 10 - 11:59 AM
Bobert 06 May 10 - 07:02 AM
Sandra in Sydney 06 May 10 - 03:14 AM
maeve 05 May 10 - 10:57 PM
LilyFestre 05 May 10 - 10:51 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 05 May 10 - 06:41 PM
Sandra in Sydney 05 May 10 - 06:35 PM
Stilly River Sage 05 May 10 - 06:08 PM
SINSULL 05 May 10 - 01:42 PM
LilyFestre 05 May 10 - 01:39 PM
LilyFestre 04 May 10 - 05:52 PM
Stilly River Sage 04 May 10 - 12:17 PM
SINSULL 04 May 10 - 10:05 AM
Sandra in Sydney 04 May 10 - 10:00 AM
LilyFestre 04 May 10 - 09:54 AM
LilyFestre 04 May 10 - 09:13 AM
gnu 04 May 10 - 08:44 AM
Sandra in Sydney 04 May 10 - 08:44 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 04 May 10 - 08:17 AM
LilyFestre 04 May 10 - 08:16 AM
LilyFestre 04 May 10 - 06:29 AM
maeve 04 May 10 - 02:41 AM
Stilly River Sage 03 May 10 - 06:43 PM
LilyFestre 03 May 10 - 11:31 AM
jacqui.c 03 May 10 - 11:29 AM
LilyFestre 03 May 10 - 11:18 AM
Janie 03 May 10 - 09:45 AM
SINSULL 03 May 10 - 08:33 AM
Sandra in Sydney 03 May 10 - 03:07 AM
LilyFestre 02 May 10 - 11:04 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 02 May 10 - 08:04 AM
jacqui.c 01 May 10 - 11:17 AM
Bobert 01 May 10 - 09:43 AM
Sandra in Sydney 01 May 10 - 08:12 AM
LilyFestre 30 Apr 10 - 10:31 PM
LilyFestre 30 Apr 10 - 10:20 PM
jacqui.c 30 Apr 10 - 01:34 PM
SINSULL 30 Apr 10 - 11:43 AM
wysiwyg 30 Apr 10 - 11:15 AM
Stilly River Sage 30 Apr 10 - 10:59 AM
VirginiaTam 30 Apr 10 - 08:58 AM
LilyFestre 30 Apr 10 - 08:29 AM
LilyFestre 30 Apr 10 - 08:28 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 30 Apr 10 - 07:22 AM
Bobert 30 Apr 10 - 06:54 AM
VirginiaTam 30 Apr 10 - 04:05 AM
LilyFestre 30 Apr 10 - 01:14 AM
wysiwyg 29 Apr 10 - 11:20 AM
jacqui.c 29 Apr 10 - 09:46 AM
LilyFestre 29 Apr 10 - 09:19 AM
LilyFestre 29 Apr 10 - 08:32 AM
Sandra in Sydney 29 Apr 10 - 07:48 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 29 Apr 10 - 07:38 AM
LilyFestre 29 Apr 10 - 03:16 AM
wysiwyg 28 Apr 10 - 11:52 AM
LilyFestre 28 Apr 10 - 11:33 AM
wysiwyg 28 Apr 10 - 11:23 AM
jacqui.c 28 Apr 10 - 08:15 AM
LilyFestre 27 Apr 10 - 04:41 PM
VirginiaTam 27 Apr 10 - 02:51 PM
maeve 27 Apr 10 - 09:01 AM
SINSULL 27 Apr 10 - 09:01 AM
jacqui.c 27 Apr 10 - 08:46 AM
Bobert 26 Apr 10 - 09:33 PM
Ebbie 26 Apr 10 - 09:03 PM
LilyFestre 26 Apr 10 - 08:10 PM
Bobert 26 Apr 10 - 07:32 PM
KT 26 Apr 10 - 07:10 PM
wysiwyg 26 Apr 10 - 06:46 PM
LilyFestre 26 Apr 10 - 06:45 PM
wysiwyg 26 Apr 10 - 05:48 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 26 Apr 10 - 02:40 PM
wysiwyg 26 Apr 10 - 11:33 AM
Stilly River Sage 26 Apr 10 - 10:50 AM
LilyFestre 26 Apr 10 - 10:33 AM
LilyFestre 26 Apr 10 - 12:45 AM
jacqui.c 25 Apr 10 - 02:06 PM
VirginiaTam 25 Apr 10 - 01:19 PM
LilyFestre 25 Apr 10 - 12:30 PM
wysiwyg 25 Apr 10 - 09:28 AM
LilyFestre 25 Apr 10 - 09:07 AM
LilyFestre 24 Apr 10 - 09:13 PM
wysiwyg 24 Apr 10 - 08:32 PM
LilyFestre 24 Apr 10 - 04:48 PM
jacqui.c 24 Apr 10 - 07:41 AM
wysiwyg 23 Apr 10 - 09:09 PM
Ebbie 23 Apr 10 - 05:05 PM
LilyFestre 23 Apr 10 - 04:51 PM
katlaughing 23 Apr 10 - 04:43 PM
VirginiaTam 23 Apr 10 - 03:23 PM
SINSULL 23 Apr 10 - 02:37 PM
Cuilionn 23 Apr 10 - 02:32 PM
jacqui.c 23 Apr 10 - 02:25 PM
LilyFestre 22 Apr 10 - 04:59 PM
jacqui.c 22 Apr 10 - 01:38 PM
Sandra in Sydney 22 Apr 10 - 09:33 AM
LilyFestre 22 Apr 10 - 08:25 AM
maeve 22 Apr 10 - 04:42 AM
LilyFestre 21 Apr 10 - 08:07 PM
gnu 21 Apr 10 - 06:09 PM
katlaughing 21 Apr 10 - 05:24 PM
Stilly River Sage 21 Apr 10 - 10:53 AM
SINSULL 21 Apr 10 - 09:33 AM
Micca 21 Apr 10 - 09:06 AM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Apr 10 - 08:16 AM
maeve 21 Apr 10 - 07:42 AM
LilyFestre 21 Apr 10 - 07:36 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 21 Apr 10 - 07:32 AM
Rowan 20 Apr 10 - 07:03 PM
mouldy 20 Apr 10 - 09:00 AM
GUEST,Neil D 20 Apr 10 - 08:29 AM
kendall 20 Apr 10 - 08:14 AM
SINSULL 20 Apr 10 - 08:11 AM
Sandra in Sydney 20 Apr 10 - 08:08 AM
maeve 20 Apr 10 - 07:53 AM
LilyFestre 20 Apr 10 - 07:43 AM
Rowan 20 Apr 10 - 12:44 AM
Sandra in Sydney 19 Apr 10 - 09:24 PM
Bobert 19 Apr 10 - 08:24 PM
wysiwyg 19 Apr 10 - 07:54 PM
LilyFestre 19 Apr 10 - 07:50 PM
Stilly River Sage 19 Apr 10 - 01:04 PM
wysiwyg 19 Apr 10 - 08:55 AM
Sandra in Sydney 19 Apr 10 - 07:25 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 19 Apr 10 - 07:23 AM
LilyFestre 19 Apr 10 - 06:15 AM
Rowan 17 Apr 10 - 12:54 AM
katlaughing 17 Apr 10 - 12:15 AM
Bobert 16 Apr 10 - 08:51 PM
LilyFestre 16 Apr 10 - 05:50 PM
katlaughing 16 Apr 10 - 04:52 PM
SINSULL 16 Apr 10 - 11:06 AM
katlaughing 16 Apr 10 - 10:44 AM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Apr 10 - 10:16 AM
LilyFestre 16 Apr 10 - 07:25 AM
maeve 16 Apr 10 - 06:57 AM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Apr 10 - 06:35 AM
Micca 16 Apr 10 - 05:20 AM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Apr 10 - 04:20 AM
Micca 15 Apr 10 - 08:24 PM
LilyFestre 15 Apr 10 - 06:13 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 15 Apr 10 - 06:01 PM
LilyFestre 15 Apr 10 - 05:42 PM
Rowan 15 Apr 10 - 02:12 AM
Stilly River Sage 15 Apr 10 - 12:26 AM
SINSULL 14 Apr 10 - 09:11 PM
Sandra in Sydney 14 Apr 10 - 08:57 PM
LilyFestre 14 Apr 10 - 07:40 PM
jacqui.c 14 Apr 10 - 08:56 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 14 Apr 10 - 07:50 AM
LilyFestre 14 Apr 10 - 07:41 AM
Stilly River Sage 14 Apr 10 - 12:53 AM
LilyFestre 14 Apr 10 - 12:24 AM
LilyFestre 14 Apr 10 - 12:02 AM
LilyFestre 13 Apr 10 - 10:23 PM
gnu 13 Apr 10 - 05:24 PM
LilyFestre 13 Apr 10 - 02:26 PM
LilyFestre 13 Apr 10 - 02:23 PM
wysiwyg 13 Apr 10 - 12:50 PM
LilyFestre 13 Apr 10 - 12:13 PM
katlaughing 13 Apr 10 - 12:05 PM
Sandra in Sydney 13 Apr 10 - 11:30 AM
maeve 13 Apr 10 - 10:51 AM
LilyFestre 13 Apr 10 - 10:33 AM
maeve 13 Apr 10 - 10:33 AM
SINSULL 13 Apr 10 - 10:19 AM
VirginiaTam 13 Apr 10 - 10:14 AM
LilyFestre 13 Apr 10 - 09:48 AM
Sandra in Sydney 12 Apr 10 - 09:24 PM
LilyFestre 12 Apr 10 - 09:05 PM
Rowan 12 Apr 10 - 08:38 PM
katlaughing 12 Apr 10 - 12:00 AM
VirginiaTam 11 Apr 10 - 02:41 PM
SINSULL 11 Apr 10 - 02:30 PM
LilyFestre 11 Apr 10 - 01:16 PM
Bobert 11 Apr 10 - 08:45 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 11 Apr 10 - 08:25 AM
Sandra in Sydney 11 Apr 10 - 04:11 AM
LilyFestre 10 Apr 10 - 10:22 PM
katlaughing 10 Apr 10 - 09:48 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 10 Apr 10 - 07:20 PM
LilyFestre 10 Apr 10 - 03:49 PM
SINSULL 10 Apr 10 - 01:26 PM
wysiwyg 09 Apr 10 - 10:55 PM
LilyFestre 09 Apr 10 - 09:21 PM
Severn 09 Apr 10 - 09:07 PM
LilyFestre 09 Apr 10 - 09:00 PM
Bobert 09 Apr 10 - 08:09 PM
LilyFestre 09 Apr 10 - 07:50 PM
VirginiaTam 09 Apr 10 - 06:29 PM
SINSULL 09 Apr 10 - 11:02 AM
maeve 09 Apr 10 - 06:51 AM
Stilly River Sage 09 Apr 10 - 01:01 AM
LilyFestre 08 Apr 10 - 10:40 PM
LilyFestre 08 Apr 10 - 09:11 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 08 Apr 10 - 01:16 PM
wysiwyg 08 Apr 10 - 11:54 AM
LilyFestre 08 Apr 10 - 10:38 AM
SINSULL 08 Apr 10 - 08:59 AM
LilyFestre 08 Apr 10 - 07:49 AM
Sandra in Sydney 08 Apr 10 - 02:40 AM
LilyFestre 07 Apr 10 - 11:35 PM
LilyFestre 07 Apr 10 - 10:17 PM
Sandra in Sydney 07 Apr 10 - 09:09 PM
katlaughing 07 Apr 10 - 12:29 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 07 Apr 10 - 10:34 AM
Bobert 07 Apr 10 - 08:31 AM
SINSULL 07 Apr 10 - 08:16 AM
jacqui.c 07 Apr 10 - 07:57 AM
GUEST,Wys cookie broken 06 Apr 10 - 08:16 PM
LilyFestre 06 Apr 10 - 05:50 PM
jacqui.c 06 Apr 10 - 08:30 AM
Sandra in Sydney 06 Apr 10 - 08:22 AM
SINSULL 06 Apr 10 - 07:57 AM
Stilly River Sage 06 Apr 10 - 01:04 AM
GUEST 05 Apr 10 - 11:05 AM
SINSULL 05 Apr 10 - 10:04 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 04 Apr 10 - 06:38 PM
LilyFestre 04 Apr 10 - 05:25 PM
Stilly River Sage 04 Apr 10 - 01:48 PM
LilyFestre 04 Apr 10 - 01:20 PM
SINSULL 04 Apr 10 - 12:49 PM
gnu 02 Apr 10 - 08:24 PM
LilyFestre 02 Apr 10 - 08:10 PM
LilyFestre 02 Apr 10 - 07:33 PM
gnu 02 Apr 10 - 07:06 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 02 Apr 10 - 06:00 PM
SINSULL 02 Apr 10 - 12:05 PM
jacqui.c 31 Mar 10 - 07:21 PM
VirginiaTam 31 Mar 10 - 09:45 AM
GUEST,Neil D 31 Mar 10 - 09:22 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 31 Mar 10 - 08:46 AM
GUEST,SINS at work 31 Mar 10 - 08:23 AM
LilyFestre 31 Mar 10 - 07:53 AM
Bobert 31 Mar 10 - 07:47 AM
LilyFestre 31 Mar 10 - 06:57 AM
Stilly River Sage 30 Mar 10 - 10:30 AM
LilyFestre 30 Mar 10 - 08:41 AM
VirginiaTam 30 Mar 10 - 08:39 AM
Sandra in Sydney 30 Mar 10 - 08:27 AM
SINSULL 30 Mar 10 - 08:24 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 30 Mar 10 - 08:17 AM
maeve 30 Mar 10 - 07:03 AM
Sandra in Sydney 30 Mar 10 - 01:48 AM
katlaughing 29 Mar 10 - 09:58 PM
KT 29 Mar 10 - 09:46 PM
LilyFestre 29 Mar 10 - 09:38 PM
Stilly River Sage 29 Mar 10 - 07:14 PM
wysiwyg 29 Mar 10 - 04:58 PM
SINSULL 29 Mar 10 - 04:38 PM
KT 29 Mar 10 - 03:05 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 29 Mar 10 - 02:44 PM
LilyFestre 29 Mar 10 - 11:46 AM
SINSULL 29 Mar 10 - 09:35 AM
Bobert 28 Mar 10 - 09:47 AM
VirginiaTam 28 Mar 10 - 08:18 AM
LilyFestre 28 Mar 10 - 07:35 AM
maeve 27 Mar 10 - 10:56 PM
LilyFestre 26 Mar 10 - 02:42 PM
Stilly River Sage 26 Mar 10 - 12:10 PM
Ebbie 26 Mar 10 - 11:43 AM
Sandra in Sydney 26 Mar 10 - 10:49 AM
SINSULL 26 Mar 10 - 09:03 AM
LilyFestre 26 Mar 10 - 08:28 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 26 Mar 10 - 08:22 AM
Sandra in Sydney 26 Mar 10 - 02:38 AM
LilyFestre 25 Mar 10 - 10:50 PM
Micca 25 Mar 10 - 08:43 PM
LilyFestre 25 Mar 10 - 08:35 PM
LilyFestre 25 Mar 10 - 07:00 PM
VirginiaTam 25 Mar 10 - 03:15 PM
Micca 25 Mar 10 - 01:06 PM
SINSULL 25 Mar 10 - 08:11 AM
LilyFestre 25 Mar 10 - 08:08 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 25 Mar 10 - 07:54 AM
jacqui.c 24 Mar 10 - 05:08 PM
katlaughing 24 Mar 10 - 04:40 PM
LilyFestre 24 Mar 10 - 03:41 PM
wysiwyg 24 Mar 10 - 03:13 PM
LilyFestre 24 Mar 10 - 01:50 PM
wysiwyg 24 Mar 10 - 01:29 PM
katlaughing 24 Mar 10 - 01:03 PM
LilyFestre 24 Mar 10 - 12:51 PM
SINSULL 24 Mar 10 - 11:13 AM
LilyFestre 24 Mar 10 - 10:59 AM
jacqui.c 24 Mar 10 - 08:03 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 24 Mar 10 - 07:41 AM
Stilly River Sage 23 Mar 10 - 05:53 PM
katlaughing 23 Mar 10 - 03:17 PM
GUEST,tam logged out 23 Mar 10 - 03:14 PM
SINSULL 23 Mar 10 - 11:13 AM
katlaughing 23 Mar 10 - 10:56 AM
jacqui.c 23 Mar 10 - 10:42 AM
SINSULL 22 Mar 10 - 08:44 PM
Sandra in Sydney 22 Mar 10 - 08:38 PM
LilyFestre 22 Mar 10 - 07:05 PM
VirginiaTam 22 Mar 10 - 03:24 PM
SINSULL 22 Mar 10 - 08:47 AM
Stilly River Sage 22 Mar 10 - 01:58 AM
wysiwyg 21 Mar 10 - 10:53 PM
LilyFestre 21 Mar 10 - 09:53 PM
wysiwyg 21 Mar 10 - 08:24 PM
jacqui.c 21 Mar 10 - 02:45 PM
katlaughing 21 Mar 10 - 12:25 PM
LilyFestre 21 Mar 10 - 11:02 AM
SINSULL 21 Mar 10 - 10:51 AM
LilyFestre 21 Mar 10 - 09:21 AM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Mar 10 - 09:06 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 21 Mar 10 - 08:31 AM
LilyFestre 20 Mar 10 - 09:56 PM
SINSULL 20 Mar 10 - 12:28 PM
LilyFestre 20 Mar 10 - 08:13 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 20 Mar 10 - 08:00 AM
Stilly River Sage 20 Mar 10 - 01:17 AM
SINSULL 19 Mar 10 - 08:03 PM
SINSULL 19 Mar 10 - 08:01 PM
LilyFestre 19 Mar 10 - 07:55 PM
katlaughing 19 Mar 10 - 06:42 PM
gnu 19 Mar 10 - 02:21 PM
SINSULL 19 Mar 10 - 01:09 PM
wysiwyg 19 Mar 10 - 12:54 PM
Rowan 18 Mar 10 - 11:25 PM
LilyFestre 18 Mar 10 - 10:08 PM
wysiwyg 18 Mar 10 - 11:42 AM
SINSULL 18 Mar 10 - 08:12 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 18 Mar 10 - 08:02 AM
Sandra in Sydney 18 Mar 10 - 05:09 AM
LilyFestre 17 Mar 10 - 10:45 PM
katlaughing 17 Mar 10 - 10:14 PM
LilyFestre 17 Mar 10 - 09:54 AM
VirginiaTam 17 Mar 10 - 03:42 AM
Sandra in Sydney 17 Mar 10 - 03:13 AM
LilyFestre 17 Mar 10 - 12:49 AM
LilyFestre 16 Mar 10 - 09:39 PM
wysiwyg 16 Mar 10 - 11:18 AM
LilyFestre 16 Mar 10 - 11:00 AM
SINSULL 16 Mar 10 - 10:57 AM
LilyFestre 16 Mar 10 - 10:39 AM
wysiwyg 16 Mar 10 - 10:01 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 16 Mar 10 - 08:57 AM
SINSULL 16 Mar 10 - 08:26 AM
LilyFestre 16 Mar 10 - 08:03 AM
VirginiaTam 16 Mar 10 - 03:38 AM
VirginiaTam 16 Mar 10 - 03:36 AM
Severn 16 Mar 10 - 02:52 AM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Mar 10 - 12:46 AM
Rowan 16 Mar 10 - 12:38 AM
katlaughing 15 Mar 10 - 09:25 PM
LilyFestre 15 Mar 10 - 08:31 PM
wysiwyg 15 Mar 10 - 12:28 PM
LilyFestre 15 Mar 10 - 09:50 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 15 Mar 10 - 08:51 AM
LilyFestre 15 Mar 10 - 08:34 AM
SINSULL 15 Mar 10 - 08:24 AM
wysiwyg 15 Mar 10 - 07:10 AM
Sandra in Sydney 14 Mar 10 - 06:49 PM
Stilly River Sage 14 Mar 10 - 03:51 PM
LilyFestre 14 Mar 10 - 03:01 PM
wysiwyg 14 Mar 10 - 12:35 PM
SINSULL 14 Mar 10 - 11:45 AM
LilyFestre 14 Mar 10 - 10:35 AM
VirginiaTam 14 Mar 10 - 09:52 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 14 Mar 10 - 08:05 AM
Sandra in Sydney 14 Mar 10 - 01:26 AM
LilyFestre 14 Mar 10 - 12:47 AM
LilyFestre 14 Mar 10 - 12:19 AM
wysiwyg 13 Mar 10 - 10:14 PM
LilyFestre 13 Mar 10 - 08:59 PM
Ebbie 13 Mar 10 - 07:46 PM
wysiwyg 13 Mar 10 - 02:17 PM
VirginiaTam 13 Mar 10 - 12:17 PM
SINSULL 13 Mar 10 - 12:05 PM
jacqui.c 13 Mar 10 - 10:10 AM
Dharmabum 13 Mar 10 - 09:32 AM
LilyFestre 13 Mar 10 - 08:57 AM
wysiwyg 13 Mar 10 - 06:35 AM
VirginiaTam 13 Mar 10 - 05:32 AM
katlaughing 13 Mar 10 - 03:10 AM
Sandra in Sydney 13 Mar 10 - 02:52 AM
LilyFestre 13 Mar 10 - 01:14 AM
wysiwyg 12 Mar 10 - 07:50 PM
katlaughing 12 Mar 10 - 05:07 PM
SINSULL 12 Mar 10 - 02:56 PM
jacqui.c 12 Mar 10 - 02:53 PM
LilyFestre 12 Mar 10 - 02:27 PM
maeve 12 Mar 10 - 06:44 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 12 Mar 10 - 06:40 AM
Sandra in Sydney 12 Mar 10 - 12:57 AM
SINSULL 11 Mar 10 - 08:07 PM
LilyFestre 11 Mar 10 - 05:00 PM
wysiwyg 11 Mar 10 - 11:01 AM
jacqui.c 10 Mar 10 - 07:15 PM
wysiwyg 10 Mar 10 - 05:10 PM
LilyFestre 10 Mar 10 - 05:05 PM
gnu 10 Mar 10 - 02:59 PM
wysiwyg 10 Mar 10 - 02:56 PM
wysiwyg 10 Mar 10 - 09:53 AM
Sandra in Sydney 10 Mar 10 - 08:50 AM
SINSULL 10 Mar 10 - 08:08 AM
LilyFestre 10 Mar 10 - 07:06 AM
Rowan 09 Mar 10 - 05:36 PM
Stilly River Sage 09 Mar 10 - 02:51 PM
VirginiaTam 09 Mar 10 - 02:51 PM
SINSULL 09 Mar 10 - 02:20 PM
LilyFestre 09 Mar 10 - 02:16 PM
wysiwyg 09 Mar 10 - 11:19 AM
SINSULL 09 Mar 10 - 09:00 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 09 Mar 10 - 07:31 AM
LilyFestre 09 Mar 10 - 06:11 AM
wysiwyg 09 Mar 10 - 04:16 AM
maeve 08 Mar 10 - 09:54 PM
Stilly River Sage 08 Mar 10 - 06:46 PM
katlaughing 08 Mar 10 - 06:22 PM
Bobert 08 Mar 10 - 05:27 PM
Rowan 08 Mar 10 - 05:14 PM
gnu 08 Mar 10 - 03:46 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 08 Mar 10 - 03:41 PM
VirginiaTam 08 Mar 10 - 03:33 PM
LilyFestre 08 Mar 10 - 03:17 PM
wysiwyg 08 Mar 10 - 11:23 AM
SINSULL 08 Mar 10 - 11:21 AM
katlaughing 08 Mar 10 - 11:03 AM
SINSULL 08 Mar 10 - 08:26 AM
SINSULL 08 Mar 10 - 08:20 AM
LilyFestre 08 Mar 10 - 08:05 AM
katlaughing 08 Mar 10 - 01:20 AM
Ebbie 07 Mar 10 - 11:58 PM
LilyFestre 07 Mar 10 - 11:27 PM
LilyFestre 07 Mar 10 - 05:03 PM
GUEST,SINS 07 Mar 10 - 04:52 PM
maeve 07 Mar 10 - 07:33 AM
jacqui.c 07 Mar 10 - 07:29 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 07 Mar 10 - 07:29 AM
wysiwyg 06 Mar 10 - 05:43 PM
VirginiaTam 06 Mar 10 - 02:36 PM
katlaughing 06 Mar 10 - 02:25 PM
LilyFestre 06 Mar 10 - 01:04 PM
wysiwyg 06 Mar 10 - 11:07 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 06 Mar 10 - 08:30 AM
Bobert 05 Mar 10 - 07:42 PM
Ebbie 05 Mar 10 - 05:32 PM
Bobert 05 Mar 10 - 05:24 PM
Stilly River Sage 05 Mar 10 - 02:01 PM
VirginiaTam 05 Mar 10 - 01:43 PM
SINSULL 05 Mar 10 - 10:35 AM
Sandra in Sydney 05 Mar 10 - 09:21 AM
SINSULL 05 Mar 10 - 08:06 AM
LilyFestre 05 Mar 10 - 07:47 AM
LilyFestre 05 Mar 10 - 07:44 AM
Bobert 05 Mar 10 - 07:16 AM
VirginiaTam 05 Mar 10 - 02:44 AM
Sandra in Sydney 05 Mar 10 - 01:56 AM
LilyFestre 04 Mar 10 - 07:19 PM
katlaughing 04 Mar 10 - 07:05 PM
maeve 04 Mar 10 - 06:44 PM
VirginiaTam 04 Mar 10 - 01:58 PM
jacqui.c 04 Mar 10 - 10:16 AM
SINSULL 04 Mar 10 - 08:08 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 04 Mar 10 - 07:52 AM
Janie 04 Mar 10 - 07:15 AM
GUEST,Eyelander 04 Mar 10 - 05:26 AM
GUEST 04 Mar 10 - 05:24 AM
wysiwyg 03 Mar 10 - 09:06 PM
Sandra in Sydney 03 Mar 10 - 07:26 PM
wysiwyg 03 Mar 10 - 02:18 PM
VirginiaTam 03 Mar 10 - 01:55 PM
wysiwyg 03 Mar 10 - 09:02 AM
SINSULL 03 Mar 10 - 08:04 AM
wysiwyg 02 Mar 10 - 02:46 PM
Micca 02 Mar 10 - 02:39 PM
VirginiaTam 02 Mar 10 - 02:19 PM
SINSULL 02 Mar 10 - 01:16 PM
Stilly River Sage 02 Mar 10 - 09:10 AM
SINSULL 02 Mar 10 - 08:42 AM
maeve 02 Mar 10 - 06:19 AM
Rowan 01 Mar 10 - 09:01 PM
jacqui.c 01 Mar 10 - 07:51 PM
wysiwyg 01 Mar 10 - 04:52 PM
SINSULL 01 Mar 10 - 11:00 AM
wysiwyg 01 Mar 10 - 09:35 AM
Stilly River Sage 28 Feb 10 - 11:27 PM
Severn 28 Feb 10 - 09:56 PM
maeve 28 Feb 10 - 05:51 PM
katlaughing 28 Feb 10 - 05:49 PM
Sandra in Sydney 28 Feb 10 - 05:37 PM
katlaughing 28 Feb 10 - 05:24 PM
VirginiaTam 28 Feb 10 - 04:54 PM
wysiwyg 28 Feb 10 - 11:02 AM
LilyFestre 28 Feb 10 - 10:00 AM
jacqui.c 28 Feb 10 - 09:45 AM
LilyFestre 28 Feb 10 - 09:30 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 28 Feb 10 - 08:17 AM
LilyFestre 28 Feb 10 - 06:58 AM
LilyFestre 27 Feb 10 - 04:26 PM
wysiwyg 27 Feb 10 - 01:00 PM
wysiwyg 27 Feb 10 - 11:22 AM
LilyFestre 27 Feb 10 - 10:03 AM
wysiwyg 27 Feb 10 - 09:48 AM
Rowan 26 Feb 10 - 05:47 PM
VirginiaTam 26 Feb 10 - 12:49 PM
LilyFestre 26 Feb 10 - 10:47 AM
katlaughing 26 Feb 10 - 10:41 AM
SINSULL 26 Feb 10 - 10:31 AM
LilyFestre 26 Feb 10 - 10:23 AM
maeve 26 Feb 10 - 05:38 AM
wysiwyg 25 Feb 10 - 10:09 PM
Rowan 25 Feb 10 - 04:54 PM
Stilly River Sage 25 Feb 10 - 04:20 PM
VirginiaTam 25 Feb 10 - 03:57 PM
Sandra in Sydney 25 Feb 10 - 12:58 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 24 Feb 10 - 08:00 PM
LilyFestre 24 Feb 10 - 07:35 PM
LilyFestre 24 Feb 10 - 07:27 PM
GUEST,Eye Lander (not logged in) 24 Feb 10 - 05:33 PM
SINSULL 24 Feb 10 - 04:16 PM
Stilly River Sage 24 Feb 10 - 04:11 PM
Ebbie 24 Feb 10 - 12:56 PM
maeve 24 Feb 10 - 12:43 PM
wysiwyg 24 Feb 10 - 12:24 PM
Stilly River Sage 24 Feb 10 - 12:15 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 24 Feb 10 - 12:01 PM
LilyFestre 24 Feb 10 - 10:55 AM
Sandra in Sydney 24 Feb 10 - 08:50 AM
Bobert 23 Feb 10 - 07:18 PM
LilyFestre 23 Feb 10 - 07:03 PM
Bobert 23 Feb 10 - 06:31 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 23 Feb 10 - 06:20 PM
Stilly River Sage 23 Feb 10 - 06:06 PM
gnu 23 Feb 10 - 05:59 PM
VirginiaTam 23 Feb 10 - 05:35 PM
Bobert 23 Feb 10 - 04:08 PM
SINSULL 23 Feb 10 - 01:41 PM
VirginiaTam 23 Feb 10 - 01:33 PM
wysiwyg 23 Feb 10 - 12:00 PM
GUEST,Neil D 23 Feb 10 - 11:04 AM
jacqui.c 23 Feb 10 - 10:47 AM
Ebbie 23 Feb 10 - 10:35 AM
katlaughing 23 Feb 10 - 10:25 AM
LilyFestre 23 Feb 10 - 09:58 AM
SINSULL 23 Feb 10 - 08:14 AM
Rowan 22 Feb 10 - 10:06 PM
Leadfingers 22 Feb 10 - 05:54 PM
Leadfingers 22 Feb 10 - 05:52 PM
katlaughing 22 Feb 10 - 05:27 PM
jacqui.c 22 Feb 10 - 05:04 PM
Bobert 22 Feb 10 - 03:52 PM
VirginiaTam 22 Feb 10 - 03:44 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 22 Feb 10 - 03:43 PM
Stilly River Sage 22 Feb 10 - 01:17 PM
SINSULL 22 Feb 10 - 12:09 PM
LilyFestre 22 Feb 10 - 11:41 AM
jacqui.c 22 Feb 10 - 11:19 AM
wysiwyg 22 Feb 10 - 10:21 AM
GUEST,Neil D 22 Feb 10 - 09:23 AM
SINSULL 22 Feb 10 - 08:49 AM
LilyFestre 22 Feb 10 - 08:41 AM
Stilly River Sage 21 Feb 10 - 01:27 PM
SINSULL 21 Feb 10 - 12:55 PM
gnu 21 Feb 10 - 12:50 PM
LilyFestre 21 Feb 10 - 12:30 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 21 Feb 10 - 09:20 AM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Feb 10 - 08:33 AM
LilyFestre 20 Feb 10 - 09:18 PM
Janie 20 Feb 10 - 06:55 PM
Severn 20 Feb 10 - 05:21 PM
jacqui.c 20 Feb 10 - 03:53 PM
VirginiaTam 20 Feb 10 - 11:59 AM
LilyFestre 20 Feb 10 - 08:25 AM
GUEST,Jack Sprocket 19 Feb 10 - 03:33 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 19 Feb 10 - 02:28 PM
jacqui.c 19 Feb 10 - 02:16 PM
gnu 19 Feb 10 - 02:15 PM
katlaughing 19 Feb 10 - 12:43 PM
LilyFestre 19 Feb 10 - 12:31 PM
Ebbie 19 Feb 10 - 10:47 AM
SINSULL 19 Feb 10 - 09:54 AM
LilyFestre 18 Feb 10 - 07:09 PM
Sandra in Sydney 18 Feb 10 - 04:34 PM
Stilly River Sage 18 Feb 10 - 11:20 AM
LilyFestre 18 Feb 10 - 08:06 AM
SINSULL 17 Feb 10 - 03:59 PM
wysiwyg 17 Feb 10 - 03:01 PM
open mike 17 Feb 10 - 02:01 PM
VirginiaTam 17 Feb 10 - 12:57 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 17 Feb 10 - 11:17 AM
Stilly River Sage 17 Feb 10 - 10:27 AM
Sandra in Sydney 17 Feb 10 - 10:26 AM
LilyFestre 17 Feb 10 - 06:25 AM
wysiwyg 16 Feb 10 - 11:03 PM
Bobert 16 Feb 10 - 09:03 PM
Severn 16 Feb 10 - 08:48 PM
Bill D 16 Feb 10 - 08:34 PM
gnu 16 Feb 10 - 08:29 PM
catspaw49 16 Feb 10 - 08:29 PM
Bill D 16 Feb 10 - 08:25 PM
Bobert 16 Feb 10 - 08:00 PM
Bobert 16 Feb 10 - 07:37 PM
Stilly River Sage 16 Feb 10 - 07:31 PM
LilyFestre 16 Feb 10 - 07:16 PM
SINSULL 16 Feb 10 - 06:49 PM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Feb 10 - 05:33 PM
wysiwyg 16 Feb 10 - 03:53 PM
gnu 16 Feb 10 - 02:44 PM
VirginiaTam 16 Feb 10 - 02:32 PM
VirginiaTam 16 Feb 10 - 02:12 PM
LilyFestre 16 Feb 10 - 02:11 PM
wysiwyg 16 Feb 10 - 01:48 PM
LilyFestre 16 Feb 10 - 12:22 PM
wysiwyg 16 Feb 10 - 12:19 PM
wysiwyg 16 Feb 10 - 12:12 PM
wysiwyg 16 Feb 10 - 11:58 AM
maeve 16 Feb 10 - 10:50 AM
LilyFestre 16 Feb 10 - 10:38 AM
SINSULL 16 Feb 10 - 09:22 AM
Revelations 16 Feb 10 - 08:30 AM
LilyFestre 16 Feb 10 - 08:24 AM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Feb 10 - 12:27 AM
LilyFestre 15 Feb 10 - 09:34 PM
VirginiaTam 15 Feb 10 - 12:23 PM
wysiwyg 15 Feb 10 - 12:08 PM
LilyFestre 15 Feb 10 - 10:44 AM
SINSULL 15 Feb 10 - 10:16 AM
wysiwyg 15 Feb 10 - 10:08 AM
Sandra in Sydney 15 Feb 10 - 08:29 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 15 Feb 10 - 07:44 AM
jacqui.c 15 Feb 10 - 07:39 AM
LilyFestre 15 Feb 10 - 06:45 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 14 Feb 10 - 08:19 PM
wysiwyg 14 Feb 10 - 07:31 PM
Rowan 14 Feb 10 - 03:31 PM
wysiwyg 14 Feb 10 - 11:51 AM
LilyFestre 14 Feb 10 - 09:47 AM
wysiwyg 14 Feb 10 - 09:14 AM
LilyFestre 14 Feb 10 - 08:56 AM
wysiwyg 14 Feb 10 - 08:38 AM
VirginiaTam 14 Feb 10 - 06:55 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 13 Feb 10 - 08:12 PM
TheSilentOne 13 Feb 10 - 05:12 PM
wysiwyg 13 Feb 10 - 04:19 PM
katlaughing 13 Feb 10 - 12:58 PM
Stilly River Sage 13 Feb 10 - 10:52 AM
wysiwyg 13 Feb 10 - 10:42 AM
maeve 13 Feb 10 - 10:39 AM
LilyFestre 13 Feb 10 - 09:59 AM
maeve 13 Feb 10 - 09:26 AM
LilyFestre 13 Feb 10 - 09:21 AM
LilyFestre 13 Feb 10 - 09:03 AM
Bobert 13 Feb 10 - 08:27 AM
LilyFestre 13 Feb 10 - 07:46 AM
LilyFestre 13 Feb 10 - 07:26 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 13 Feb 10 - 07:18 AM
Rowan 12 Feb 10 - 10:03 PM
wysiwyg 12 Feb 10 - 09:28 PM
wysiwyg 12 Feb 10 - 09:14 PM
Sandra in Sydney 12 Feb 10 - 08:55 PM
LilyFestre 12 Feb 10 - 08:42 PM
wysiwyg 12 Feb 10 - 11:24 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 12 Feb 10 - 09:17 AM
Stilly River Sage 12 Feb 10 - 01:24 AM
LilyFestre 11 Feb 10 - 10:09 PM
maeve 11 Feb 10 - 08:46 AM
SINSULL 11 Feb 10 - 08:43 AM
wysiwyg 11 Feb 10 - 08:39 AM
LilyFestre 11 Feb 10 - 08:24 AM
jacqui.c 11 Feb 10 - 07:51 AM
VirginiaTam 11 Feb 10 - 02:49 AM
Stilly River Sage 11 Feb 10 - 02:01 AM
Sandra in Sydney 11 Feb 10 - 12:56 AM
wysiwyg 10 Feb 10 - 07:19 PM
katlaughing 10 Feb 10 - 05:42 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 10 Feb 10 - 05:31 PM
SINSULL 10 Feb 10 - 04:52 PM
LilyFestre 10 Feb 10 - 04:49 PM
Sandra in Sydney 10 Feb 10 - 08:41 AM
wysiwyg 10 Feb 10 - 08:20 AM
jacqui.c 10 Feb 10 - 08:18 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 10 Feb 10 - 07:55 AM
SINSULL 09 Feb 10 - 07:19 PM
LilyFestre 09 Feb 10 - 07:14 PM
Rowan 09 Feb 10 - 04:49 PM
SINSULL 09 Feb 10 - 08:10 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 09 Feb 10 - 08:01 AM
katlaughing 08 Feb 10 - 11:28 PM
LilyFestre 08 Feb 10 - 07:45 PM
Bobert 08 Feb 10 - 07:19 PM
jacqui.c 08 Feb 10 - 07:13 PM
katlaughing 08 Feb 10 - 06:08 PM
wysiwyg 08 Feb 10 - 05:32 PM
LilyFestre 08 Feb 10 - 05:17 PM
SINSULL 08 Feb 10 - 04:18 PM
wysiwyg 08 Feb 10 - 04:07 PM
LilyFestre 08 Feb 10 - 03:59 PM
jacqui.c 08 Feb 10 - 03:50 PM
wysiwyg 08 Feb 10 - 03:30 PM
LilyFestre 08 Feb 10 - 03:20 PM
wysiwyg 08 Feb 10 - 10:37 AM
LilyFestre 08 Feb 10 - 10:25 AM
SINSULL 08 Feb 10 - 10:07 AM
LilyFestre 08 Feb 10 - 09:47 AM
wysiwyg 07 Feb 10 - 01:31 PM
LilyFestre 07 Feb 10 - 10:44 AM
wysiwyg 06 Feb 10 - 05:23 PM
Stilly River Sage 06 Feb 10 - 04:03 PM
wysiwyg 06 Feb 10 - 03:36 PM
katlaughing 06 Feb 10 - 01:41 PM
SINSULL 06 Feb 10 - 12:36 PM
LilyFestre 06 Feb 10 - 12:19 PM
wysiwyg 06 Feb 10 - 11:57 AM
jacqui.c 06 Feb 10 - 11:23 AM
LilyFestre 06 Feb 10 - 11:15 AM
Bobert 05 Feb 10 - 09:18 PM
wysiwyg 05 Feb 10 - 09:04 PM
Sandra in Sydney 05 Feb 10 - 06:15 PM
katlaughing 05 Feb 10 - 05:03 PM
SINSULL 05 Feb 10 - 04:36 PM
Bobert 05 Feb 10 - 04:30 PM
wysiwyg 05 Feb 10 - 03:09 PM
SINSULL 05 Feb 10 - 03:03 PM
gnu 05 Feb 10 - 02:14 PM
wysiwyg 05 Feb 10 - 02:00 PM
VirginiaTam 05 Feb 10 - 01:47 PM
jacqui.c 05 Feb 10 - 01:43 PM
SINSULL 05 Feb 10 - 01:24 PM
LilyFestre 05 Feb 10 - 01:13 PM
VirginiaTam 05 Feb 10 - 12:47 PM
SINSULL 05 Feb 10 - 08:51 AM
Catherine Jayne 05 Feb 10 - 08:32 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 05 Feb 10 - 08:13 AM
Stilly River Sage 04 Feb 10 - 10:28 PM
Stilly River Sage 04 Feb 10 - 10:27 PM
maeve 04 Feb 10 - 09:04 PM
LilyFestre 04 Feb 10 - 09:01 PM
katlaughing 04 Feb 10 - 03:25 PM
VirginiaTam 04 Feb 10 - 01:58 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 04 Feb 10 - 01:49 PM
Cuilionn 04 Feb 10 - 10:42 AM
SINSULL 04 Feb 10 - 09:11 AM
wysiwyg 04 Feb 10 - 09:10 AM
maeve 04 Feb 10 - 08:01 AM
kendall 04 Feb 10 - 07:24 AM
Sandra in Sydney 04 Feb 10 - 04:51 AM
Janie 03 Feb 10 - 08:45 PM
LilyFestre 03 Feb 10 - 08:08 PM
wysiwyg 03 Feb 10 - 07:34 PM
Leadfingers 03 Feb 10 - 07:29 PM
Bobert 03 Feb 10 - 07:25 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 03 Feb 10 - 07:25 PM
SINSULL 03 Feb 10 - 07:19 PM
jacqui.c 03 Feb 10 - 07:15 PM
wysiwyg 03 Feb 10 - 07:15 PM
wysiwyg 03 Feb 10 - 07:12 PM
Stilly River Sage 03 Feb 10 - 07:10 PM
gnu 03 Feb 10 - 06:32 PM
maeve 03 Feb 10 - 06:30 PM
LilyFestre 03 Feb 10 - 06:16 PM
Janie 03 Feb 10 - 06:14 PM
wysiwyg 03 Feb 10 - 04:46 PM
Bobert 03 Feb 10 - 04:19 PM
maeve 03 Feb 10 - 04:17 PM
gnu 03 Feb 10 - 04:12 PM
SINSULL 03 Feb 10 - 03:59 PM
wysiwyg 03 Feb 10 - 02:24 PM
VirginiaTam 03 Feb 10 - 02:19 PM
SINSULL 03 Feb 10 - 11:29 AM
wysiwyg 03 Feb 10 - 10:59 AM
LilyFestre 03 Feb 10 - 10:58 AM
wysiwyg 03 Feb 10 - 10:39 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 03 Feb 10 - 10:37 AM
maeve 03 Feb 10 - 10:21 AM
LilyFestre 03 Feb 10 - 10:17 AM
wysiwyg 02 Feb 10 - 09:50 PM
LilyFestre 02 Feb 10 - 09:23 PM
SINSULL 02 Feb 10 - 07:31 PM
Sandra in Sydney 02 Feb 10 - 05:32 PM
Janie 02 Feb 10 - 03:52 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 02 Feb 10 - 03:26 PM
jacqui.c 02 Feb 10 - 02:33 PM
wysiwyg 02 Feb 10 - 11:28 AM
LilyFestre 02 Feb 10 - 11:25 AM
SINSULL 01 Feb 10 - 11:40 AM
wysiwyg 01 Feb 10 - 11:31 AM
jacqui.c 01 Feb 10 - 11:10 AM
Catherine Jayne 01 Feb 10 - 11:07 AM
Tinker 01 Feb 10 - 11:07 AM
LilyFestre 01 Feb 10 - 10:48 AM
katlaughing 01 Feb 10 - 10:41 AM
LilyFestre 01 Feb 10 - 10:19 AM
SINSULL 01 Feb 10 - 08:56 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 31 Jan 10 - 04:56 PM
LilyFestre 31 Jan 10 - 03:54 PM
SINSULL 31 Jan 10 - 12:47 PM
jacqui.c 30 Jan 10 - 04:32 PM
Maryrrf 30 Jan 10 - 11:32 AM
VirginiaTam 30 Jan 10 - 11:19 AM
SINSULL 30 Jan 10 - 11:06 AM
katlaughing 30 Jan 10 - 11:02 AM
Stilly River Sage 30 Jan 10 - 10:43 AM
Sandra in Sydney 30 Jan 10 - 09:24 AM
LilyFestre 30 Jan 10 - 08:57 AM
SINSULL 30 Jan 10 - 08:27 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 30 Jan 10 - 08:02 AM
LilyFestre 30 Jan 10 - 07:58 AM
LilyFestre 30 Jan 10 - 07:55 AM
VirginiaTam 30 Jan 10 - 04:17 AM
Sandra in Sydney 29 Jan 10 - 09:29 PM
Stilly River Sage 29 Jan 10 - 09:24 PM
LilyFestre 29 Jan 10 - 06:34 PM
LilyFestre 29 Jan 10 - 05:08 PM
SINSULL 29 Jan 10 - 05:06 PM
VirginiaTam 29 Jan 10 - 10:37 AM
LilyFestre 29 Jan 10 - 10:25 AM
SINSULL 28 Jan 10 - 08:59 PM
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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: keberoxu
Date: 20 Jan 19 - 11:14 AM

This thread reminds me that
Mudcat can be a big extended family through good and scary.
Thanks for keeping the dream alive.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Noreen
Date: 18 Jan 19 - 04:04 PM

Hello again Michelle! How lovely to be reminded about you and your lovely family :)

Much love to all xx


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 16 Jan 19 - 02:17 AM

congratulations.

the traditional birthday greeting wishing you many more is very apt!

hugs to you & your family

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 19 - 11:24 PM

How the photos have changed, from you sitting feeding a small baby to now with everything moving forward and that talented young man in your care. Congratulations on everything!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 15 Jan 19 - 08:46 PM

Love from me to you, too!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Jan 19 - 08:38 PM

Today I am celebrating my 9th Cancerversary!!! NINE YEARS!!!!

I am beyond thankful, grateful and blessed.

My love to everyone!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 17 Jan 17 - 08:03 PM

I loaded this thread the old fashioned way, from the beginning, and it was wonderful to read some of the voices that are gone or we don't see here often. And from those early days till now, you've gone through a huge positive transformation. The old saying "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" certainly applies here.

This week I saw a video of Jeremiah reading - he's very good, and he's hooked. If there was one thing I could name that is so important a thing to teach a child, it is to read. From there, all things are possible.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 16 Jan 17 - 11:55 PM

excellent - life goes on!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 16 Jan 17 - 07:14 PM

An update?

Oh where to begin?

Jeremiah is now 6 years old and in the first grade. He absolutely loves school and is doing really well. He is reading like crazy, learning to play guitar and loves to play soccer. He is the light of my life to be sure!

I finally almost have my pre-cancer energy back. I don't think I will ever have it all back but it's at a reasonable level now, so much so that I recently accepted a full time position and am loving it. :) I haven't worked in 7 years, at least not outside the home, but it our Pre-cancer, pre-Jeremiah plan was always that one of us would stay home with our child if at all possible, until he was completely settled into school. That time is now and while it is an adjustment, it is one that is going to be incredible once I find my stride! I love the people I work with and the job I have.....finding the perfect way to balance my energy reserve is going to be the icing on the cake!

Life is good and I am ever so thankful.

Love to all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 16 Jan 17 - 03:53 PM

Michelle has barely slowed down during all of this time - cancer didn't stand a chance when she was doing the fighting!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Noreen
Date: 16 Jan 17 - 02:57 PM

Great stuff, Michelle!
Yes, let's have an update please- how are things going with you and your lovely family?


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 16 Jan 17 - 02:07 AM

adding my cheers!

"baby" is now 7 years old? What is he up to?

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 15 Jan 17 - 09:06 PM

I guessed that was the reason this thread was revived! I'm delighted to read your update. It's wonderful news!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Jan 17 - 08:06 PM

Today I celebrated being cancer free for 7 years!!!!!

Life is amazing and I remain thankful for this life and all of you.

Love to all of you who have supported me and loved me along the way. Words will never be able to clearly explain just how much that has meant to me.

Blessings!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 17 Jan 16 - 05:55 AM

belated congratulations

keep doing what you're doing

love from sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: olddude
Date: 16 Jan 16 - 02:48 PM

Love you michelle, always in my prayers xxo
Dan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 16 Jan 16 - 02:24 PM

Thanks everybody!!!!!!!!!!!!


XOXOXO

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 16 - 11:21 PM

Good work, Michelle! Congratulations, and many many more anniversaries to come.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 15 Jan 16 - 06:44 PM

I never got to give you 5 hooray last year, but here come some for this year!
Hooray, hooray, hooray, hooray, hooray, hooray!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: GUEST
Date: 15 Jan 16 - 02:00 PM

The blessings ripple outward. Grateful for your good news, Michelle!
Maeve


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Jan 16 - 12:04 PM

Happy 6th Cancerversary to me!!!!!!!!!

I am so blessed to be here and thankful beyond words.

Love to All!

XOXOOXOXOX

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Dorothy Parshall
Date: 16 Jan 14 - 11:35 AM

THAT is wonderful news! No wonder you are doing all manner of good things!

Did you know: Hans Selye was diagnosed with an inoperable "fatal" cancer. I heard him lecture in Montreal when he was in his 70s. "I walked out of the doctor's office and thought about all the things I needed to accomplish before I died - and went to the lab." (roughly remembered.) His book, The Stress of My Life, is a good read. Two of his findings have stayed in my mind: It is not the stress that hurts us, it is the way we handle the stress. And "Altruistic self-centredness": taking care of oneself so we are able to take care of others.

You seem to do pretty well on both these.

His cancer never went anywhere. Probably a mis-diagnosis?


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 15 Jan 14 - 11:19 PM

Hooray! Hooray! Hooray! Hooray! And next year I hope I remember to add another Hooray!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Noreen
Date: 15 Jan 14 - 06:04 PM

What an amazing journey you have been on- and all recorded here!

Well done you :)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 15 Jan 14 - 04:57 PM

Soooo happy for you!

Maeve


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 15 Jan 14 - 04:29 PM

Big old hug and a smooch on the cheek.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 14 - 10:18 AM

Continuing congratulations, Michelle!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Jan 14 - 10:07 AM

Today I CELEBRATE being 4 years CANCER FREE!!!!!

********HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY DANCE**********

Sending lots of love and gratitude for all of you!!!!!

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 27 Feb 13 - 01:41 AM

love & hugs


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Little Robyn
Date: 26 Feb 13 - 03:32 PM

XO
Robyn


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 26 Feb 13 - 12:00 PM

I do not have to wait for any test results for this particular check up as it was a manual exam. He takes a look, feels around for any lumps and bumps and does a breast exam too.

I did not talk to him about my anxiety because I know it was completely due to the actual appointment and that it would disappear the second he walked out the door. That is exactly what happened. I will say that I think the level anxiety I was having yesterday (and even the day before) was much higher than normal. If I hadn't had to drive myself there, I would have probably taken some Xanax. When it was time to leave yesterday, my husband walked me to the car, we strapped Jeremiah into his car seat and I just leaned on the car to try and catch my breath...I'm pretty sure I had myself a mini panic attack at that point. I couldn't breathe, cried....gave it a few minutes and when that passed, I got in the car and left. It sucks but what else can I do? I did several minutes of yogic 3 part breaths to settle myself, turned on some music and sang myself silly as I drove down the road.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 25 Feb 13 - 11:20 PM

I just got onto the 'Cat and read today's posts. Michelle, i am glad you got home before I opened this thread. I hope you have been able to relax, but do you now have to wait for any test results? Did you talk to your doctor about your anxiety?


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 25 Feb 13 - 08:09 PM

I'll second that!

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 25 Feb 13 - 06:19 PM

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzippity dodah!

Let the celebrations commence!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: gnu
Date: 25 Feb 13 - 06:09 PM

GREAT NEWS!!!!!!!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 25 Feb 13 - 06:06 PM

I'm home. Tired and sore but everything looks good!!

HOORAY.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Love to all of you beautiful people!

XOXOXOXOOXO

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 25 Feb 13 - 10:04 AM

Yes... Breathe...

Seriously, this is all good news, Michelle... If the docs are thinking every 6 months, that is great...

My mom is a cancer survivor twice (colon some 35 years ago and breast some 15 years ago) and with each she had to be weened off the check-ups... You'll be fine...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 25 Feb 13 - 09:12 AM

looking forward to your post, Michelle

& sending lots of hugs

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 25 Feb 13 - 08:27 AM

We'll be here when you return. I'm planning to celebrate with you.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 25 Feb 13 - 08:02 AM

I've been having check ups every 2 months since my chemo treatments ended. As it goes, the appointments alternated (one with the GYN/ONC and the other with Hematology/Oncology)...leaving me running but also feeling checked in on. I still go to see my Hematologist every 2 months at my request to have tumor marker levels checked. However, the visit with the Gynecologist Oncologist have been moved to once every 6 months.    Today is the day I will go for that check up. I am finding myself a bit more unnerved than usual and I don't think I like waiting to be checked only twice a year. The appointments aren't fun or comfortable physically but I feel like I've gotten unused to them...if that makes sense.

I just wrote a bunch more and my computer ate it.

Basically, I'm thankful that my doctors are confident enough to spread my appointments out...they know what's going on and I trust they will take excellent care of me as they have done all along.

Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.

It will all be over with in less than 6 hours.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 08 Jan 13 - 05:26 PM

The best part of the story is the last sentence...

Good job, Michelle...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 08 Jan 13 - 05:22 PM

onwards & upwards!!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 08 Jan 13 - 03:42 PM

Good job!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 08 Jan 13 - 03:02 PM

Well done, Michelle!


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 08 Jan 13 - 01:53 PM

Recently I was asked by the American Cancer Society's Voices of Hope Division to share my story for their newsletter. Of course many of you already know the story. Being that in 7 days, I will celebrate being cancer free, I thought you might like to see/read it (again, maybe?). It is brief and as concise as I could possibly make it due to their format. There are also 4 photos.

Next week, I will celebrate my 3rd anniversary by going for a checkup with hematology oncology...keeping a close eye on things continues.
:)

Voices of Hope Newsletter January 2013

Much love to you all!
XOXOXOXO

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 31 Oct 12 - 10:07 PM

Great photos, Michelle! Thanks for the link to the albums.

Big hug offered to help you through the day on Friday.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 31 Oct 12 - 07:03 PM

How fast children grow! He's quite the handsome fellow. I wish blessings for you and your family!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 31 Oct 12 - 11:47 AM

Hey, dude... Yer mama is awesome!!!

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 31 Oct 12 - 09:55 AM

oops, forgot to add, hugs & kisses & good thoughts for your test results


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 31 Oct 12 - 09:54 AM

Jeremiah's blicky

thanks for posting these pics - he is a little treasure!


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 31 Oct 12 - 08:19 AM

SRS made a comment on my Facebook page last night about a photo of Jeremiah and it made me think about all of you here at Mudcat. I read over some of this thread, particularly the dates after Jeremiah arrived and I am sorry to post that I have neglected putting up photos for my friends here. Today, we remedy that!!! Last night I spent some time going through my photos from this year and picked out a few of my favorites so that you can see Jeremiah growing. He is now 2 1/2 and a very busy, chatty, sweet little boy.

On the cancer front, everything seems to be going well. I still am tired much sooner than I think I should be, my body doesn't move like it used to and I have regained a significant amount of weight to which my GYN/ONC shrugs and says it comes with the hysterectomy and will be very difficult to lose. HMPH. I keep telling myself that I have my life and my family...the belly is what it is. I have a tumor marker check up on Friday and as usual, I am praying for low numbers.

Enough of that, here is Jeremiah: http://jeremiahthomaslawrence.shutterfly.com/

Love to you all!!!!
XOXOXOOXOXO

Michelle


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From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 21 Aug 12 - 07:32 AM

all of the above

love from sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 20 Aug 12 - 07:18 PM

Michelle, I'm so proud of you! You've come so far and grown so much! What a dynamo!

Maggie


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From: Bobert
Date: 20 Aug 12 - 06:56 PM

Onward and upward, Michelle... Reading your good news is music to my eyes...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 20 Aug 12 - 06:43 PM

What a bouquet of well deserved honors, Michelle!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 20 Aug 12 - 06:37 PM

Hooray!


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From: Little Robyn
Date: 20 Aug 12 - 05:57 PM

Wonderful!
Robyn


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 20 Aug 12 - 05:50 PM

I had my tumor marker test/check up on Friday late in the afternoon and got the results this morning. My CA-125 actually dropped down a little over a point with a reading of 14.7!!! YAHOOO!!!

Also, I have been invited by the American Cancer Society to facilitate a pilot group called Cancer: Surviving and Thriving.

Further, the American Cancer Society invited me to apply for a program called Voices of Hope. This is a very selective program accepting maybe 50 people from the state of Pennsylvania. I applied and recently received my acceptance letter!!! I will be going to an all expense paid training adventure for a few days later this fall. I am so honored and excited!!!! I'll be sharing my story with other Relays, Coping with Cancer Groups, various health organizations, with medical students, etc.   It feels really, REALLY good to be able to give something back!!!

And finally, I am the Chair of the Survivorship Committee for the area's Relay For Life next year!!! YAHOO!!!!

Much love to you all!

Michelle


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From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 18 Jul 12 - 11:12 AM

lookimg forward to reading your next post, Michelle when the time is right

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 18 Jul 12 - 12:55 AM

Thanks for that note, Kat, I'll pass it on to a friend of mine at work who might use it.

SRS


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 18 Jul 12 - 12:46 AM

Oh there is so much to share about a recent Relay and my experience now being on the other side of the diagnosis.....but not tonight.

Kat,

   I think what you have shared is a GREAT thing and I don't mind one bit!! I remember many days when I hurt so much that I couldn't stand long enough to do the dishes....those things have a way of piling up while all you can do is sit and watch, feeling useless. I would have LOVED it someone would have come in once a month to vacuum, dust, give my husband a break from the double duty he had to pull!!!

   There are also organizations that will bring meals to a chemo patient as well. I'll have to look up that site and get it on here too!

LuvYaKat!!!! XOXOXOXO

Michelle


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From: katlaughing
Date: 18 Jul 12 - 12:29 AM

Michelle, you have become such an eloquent writer amongst all of this. That was beautiful and wonderful to read. What a grand example you set.

I received the following by email and thought this might be a good place to make note for folks to be able to pass it along. Hope you don't mind:

Cleaning for a Reason

       If you know any woman currently undergoing chemotherapy, please pass the word to her that there is a cleaning service that provides FREE housecleaning - once per month for 4 months while she is in treatment. All she has to do is sign up and have her doctor fax a note confirming the treatment. Cleaning for a Reason will have a participating maid service in her zip code area arrange for the service. This organization serves the entire USA and currently has 547 partners to help these women. It's our job to pass the word and let them know that there are people out there who care. Be a blessing to someone and pass this information along:


http://www.cleaningforareason.org


luvyakat


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 23 May 12 - 09:59 PM

Of course they cheered when you got to the part about Jeremiah! We all did!

Maggie


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From: ChanteyLass
Date: 23 May 12 - 09:07 PM

What a positive experience. I am glad you were able to do this, and I'm glad I got to read about it.

And I, too, look forward to seeing your pics!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 23 May 12 - 10:53 AM

a wonderful report, Michelle, thanks for posting it

& I second Bobert!!

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 23 May 12 - 10:01 AM

We want pictures!!!

B~


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 23 May 12 - 09:55 AM

So…
Montour County Relay For Life. What a great event! Normally this relay is held on the track of a local school however last year's flooding caused a huge amount of damage so that wasn't possible. This year the Relay was held in Riverside at the Fire Department. All the trucks had been pulled out of the building and parked in front so that a Survivor's Dinner could be held inside. The actual Relay was outside in back of the fire department where it was grassy with lots of shade trees, a large pavilion where luminaries were being made and a white line marked the path for the walkers and runners. Around this path were all manners of tents and campsites which made for a very welcoming sense of community.
Valerie and I left Mansfield around 1:00, stopped at Wegmans for lunch, another stop at Best Buy so I could get a new photo card and then a stop at her favorite yarn shop and then finally the Relay. We got there around 4:30pm, the sun was hot and we weren't sure of where everything was so we poked around a bit. I signed myself in as a Survivor, got my goodie bag (which contained a t-shirt and a pin) and went in search of my contact person. I finally found her and she told me that I should be near the stage around 5:50pm. No problem. Time flew by and before I knew it there were announcements being made over the loud speaker for people to gather at the stage to begin the Survivor Ceremony. Not long after that, I was being introduced and invited to share my story. I started out just fine, barely needing my notebook (because I had the entire thing written down to read) but there was a part where I choked up and after that I did read from what I had written. I knew it well so I was able to look up and around frequently. (It feels WONDERFUL to be that prepared….I wasn't nervous at all….more excited than anything). People were attentive, some cried right along with me and when I got to the part about Jeremiah something unexpected happened. They cheered. They clapped. I cried. To feel that kind of love and support all around is an overwhelmingly wonderful feeling…..and my tears were of gratitude for both Jeremiah and the love of this crowd.
I finished up and introduced the hematologist who was to speak after me. He did an excellent job in sharing the personal side of what it means to be a doctor that deals with treating people with cancer. I loved that he was personal and not clinical…it's what I love best about Geisinger.
Afterwards, several people came over to give me hugs and one lady in particular hugged me for a long time and sobbed. She was on a team called Carol's Crusaders….all dressed in teal….she lost her friend Carol to ovarian cancer last year. She said that the things I had said touched her….how do you respond to that? I hugged her tight. Sometimes words just aren't necessary. I imagine she felt my heart ache as much I as felt hers.
Survivors were asked to line up for the Survivor's Lap. The hematologists were asked to carry the Survivors banner and I was to walk in front, leading them all while carrying a torch. There were a lot of people wearing purple shirts (indicates cancer survivor) at this event and I was honored to have been chosen to lead the way.
The parade ended at the fire hall where survivors and caregivers were invited to a sit down dinner of chicken, baby carrots, mashed potatoes and a dessert of our choosing. On every table were pots of petunias…enough for everybody to take one or two or an armful if they wanted!
After dinner, we had fun getting our faces painted, wandering around looking at the different team sites and the things they had for sale and then it was time for the luminaries to be lit. The luminaries that were in honor of someone (Valerie made one for me), were red bags and they were in the middle of the field in a design. The bags that were in memory of someone were white and there were so many that the entire path around the field was full of them all crowded together. The visual was intense and I think Valerie summed it up best: "Dear God."   Very sobering.
By that time it was about 9:30pm so we packed it up and started on our way home. The conversation couldn't have been better…..serious stuff but lots of silly stuff too. We stopped in Liberty to use the restroom and we went in with our glow stick necklaces perched on our heads like a crown and with our face painted and tattoos…..we were punchy and having fun! As we got back in the car, there was a man standing nearby and our silliness interested him. We completely ignored him! As Valerie was getting in the car, I noticed a butterfly that had his wing stuck under a garbage can. I gently picked him up, showed Valerie and then put him down. He immediately spread his wings and let me take his picture (which I'll put up later).
Our next stop was Smythe Park in Mansfield where they were also having their Relay For Life event. I am sorry to say that it was pitiful. There were maybe 4 tents/team sites there…everything was picked up for the night and only the luminaria was there to remind us that there was indeed an event taking place. Also, there were only 6 other people walking the track. I think it was pitiful and a sad commentary on our community with the lack of participation….and in comparison to the event we had just come from…it was obvious which community needs MUCH MORE awareness to take place.
It was a day well lived. I felt alive, silly, happy and thankful for my life. It was a reminder to me that not so very long ago it was unclear which luminary would hold my name….in honor or in memory.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 20 May 12 - 10:19 PM

Great photos!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 20 May 12 - 09:48 PM

The pics filled with happy people...

Great job, Michelle...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 20 May 12 - 08:09 PM

Yes, great photos! I love all the smiling faces!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 20 May 12 - 05:19 AM

love the pics! especially boy & bunny.

sandra (patiently awaiting the rest of the story)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 19 May 12 - 11:49 PM

Here is a link to a few recent photos including: A quilt I made today, yesterday's Relay For Life, the glucose implant sensor and Jeremiah.

Photos

Enjoy!

Michelle

PS. Details of Relay to come soon...too busy today!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 19 May 12 - 11:20 PM

Take your time. Tell us more when you can.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 19 May 12 - 01:13 AM

Today was a day well lived.
A day to inspire and to be inspired.
A day that leaves me longing for more.
Amazing, exhausting and amazing.
Huh. I sad that twice, didn't I?
Meant every word of it!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 19 May 12 - 01:04 AM

Today was a day WELL lived! Details later this weekend!

:) Michelle :)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 18 May 12 - 11:29 PM

I imagine you're exhausted. Report back after a good night's sleep!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 18 May 12 - 10:03 PM

I hope the weather was great and you got a thrill out of every minute. Hooray for you!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 18 May 12 - 11:50 AM

Sassypants - is what it sounds like! She's revved up and ready to go, she has some attitude and some energy and is ready to rock!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 18 May 12 - 10:12 AM

sassypants?


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 18 May 12 - 08:28 AM

Today is the day!!! I've got my Sassypants on and I plan to ROCK IT!!!!

Both cameras are charged and ready!!! :)

Thanks for cheering me on!!!!

I love you guys!!!!

XOXOXOXO

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 18 May 12 - 02:58 AM

photos, please!

have a great day

sandra (in the chair)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 17 May 12 - 08:44 PM

Any chance you can put some photos of you at the event where we can all see them? Or links to photos/articles from newspapers?

Enjoy your day! I wish we could all be there in person to cheer you on!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 17 May 12 - 07:29 PM

We can just pass the chair around...

B;~)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 17 May 12 - 07:17 PM

I think you'll have to be honorary co-chair of that fan club, Mr. Beaubear - there are a lot of other folks here cheering with you!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 17 May 12 - 06:57 PM

Hey!!!

Send me some of that dessert...

They couldn't have a finer person for Honorary Chair, Michelle...

You've come a long way, Baby...

B~ (Honorary Chair of the Michelle Fan Club)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 17 May 12 - 06:51 PM

Fantastic day here, got tons done and am now packing up my gear for tomorrow's Relay For Life event where I have been asked to be the Honorary Chair. I will share my story in front of a few hundred people, be a judge on the dessert committee (oh the horror of it all), lead the Survivor's Lap carrying an Olympic torch (that's the theme of this particular relay) and lighting the larger torch that will burn for the remainder of the relay. I am STOKED!

Love to you all!!!

XOXOOXOX

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 15 Mar 12 - 06:14 AM

You know that this ol' hillbilly's prayers of thanks have been delivered...

Love ya' bunches, Michelle...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 15 Mar 12 - 02:23 AM

me too


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 14 Mar 12 - 06:02 PM

I'm smiling--at YOU!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 14 Mar 12 - 02:16 PM

Beautiful!!!! Thank you!!!! XOXOOXOXOXOXOXO How can you NOT smile at a sunflower????

XOXOOXOX

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 14 Mar 12 - 12:50 PM

Of course it's good! Here's a smile for you:
Sunflowers to celebrate victory!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 14 Mar 12 - 11:01 AM

Test results are in...up a little bit but not a huge jump. I'm thinking this is good!!! :)

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 14 Mar 12 - 10:08 AM

:) You guys sure do know how to make me smile!!! I don't have my test results yet, might not have them until tomorrow. In the meantime, I've been asked to be the Survivor speaker at the Danville Relay For Life. Some of you might remember that I spoke last spring at the local university Relay to about 400 students. Danville, however, is where I go for all my surgery and chemo. It is a large town and I imagine there will be way over 400 people (although I'm not sure really). While I was at the clinic yesterday and milling around the back where folks get their chemo while a dissolving solution was working on my ever-loving fussy port, one of the nurses came over and asked me if I would be the speaker on survivorship. I just kinda looked at her and she said that they were discussing who might be a good speaker and that my name came up. I am feeling very honored to be asked because they see hundreds of cancer patients on a weekly basis...must be I made an impression somewhere along the line (oh and it might not be a good impression..probably more of a GOOFY impression...I love to play with my nurses!). Anyway, what an absolute honor.

Keep those prayers coming please....I KNOW that they work!!

XOOXOXOXO

Love you all!!!!!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 14 Mar 12 - 09:01 AM

fantastic! & thoroughly deserved

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: olddude
Date: 13 Mar 12 - 10:22 PM

Getting out my rosary ... it never fails me ...
nothing but good reports ya hear ... nothing else is acceptable

xxo


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 13 Mar 12 - 10:16 PM

Tired Michelle has posted a brief update here:
Exercise & Declutter March into Spring 2012


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 13 Mar 12 - 10:07 PM

Add me to the list of people watching for that report.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 13 Mar 12 - 01:39 AM

well said, maeve


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 12 Mar 12 - 11:39 PM

Watching for your report, Michelle. Go find someone who needs to be given one of your blazingly beautiful smiles.

Maeve


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 12 Mar 12 - 11:35 PM

Tumor marker check tomorrow, 2 months early due to slowly rising numbers. Mammogram to follow port flush/blood return/labs.

Results in a few days. :/

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: olddude
Date: 12 Mar 12 - 11:02 AM

I love you, I am so so sorry my dear friend
anything I can do for you family you shout

I am so sorry

Dan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 11 Mar 12 - 11:13 AM

Little Robyn, that is beautiful.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Maryrrf
Date: 11 Mar 12 - 09:35 AM

I'm so sorry to hear this. Some warriors fall in battle - sounds like she fought the good fight. May she rest in peace.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 11 Mar 12 - 04:18 AM

condolences & hugs


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Little Robyn
Date: 11 Mar 12 - 03:17 AM

(((((Brandi)))))(((((Michelle)))))

Here's a slightly different version of the Irish Blessing, for you and for your friend:

May the road rise with you.
May the blessing of the rain be on you—
the soft sweet rain.
May it fall upon your spirit
so that all the little flowers may spring up,
and shed their sweetness on the air.
May the blessing of the great rains be on you,
may they beat upon your spirit
and wash it fair and clean,
and leave there many a shining pool
where the blue of heaven shines,
and sometimes a star.

May the good earth be soft under you
when you rest upon it,
and may it rest easy over you when,
at the last, you lay out under it,
And may it rest so lightly over you
that your soul may be out
from under it quickly,
and up, and off,
And be on its way to God.

Robyn


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 11 Mar 12 - 01:21 AM

My deepest condolences, Michelle. May you find peace in remembering.

Much love,

kat


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 11 Mar 12 - 12:28 AM

I'm so sorry - she was a beautiful vibrant young woman. No way should this be happening.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 10 Mar 12 - 11:18 PM

I cannot imagine how you feel. I can only guess that you both supported each other in ways that nobody else could and that you must have built a strong bond. My heart goes out to you. Virtual hugs.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: gnu
Date: 10 Mar 12 - 10:04 PM

Oh dear. My sincerest condolences.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 10 Mar 12 - 08:47 PM

(((Michelle)))

I'm sorry, Michelle. Anger is a healthy response.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 10 Mar 12 - 07:42 PM

Brandi!!!

Sniff...

I am so sorry, Michelle... Healing thoughts and prayers to you, her family, her doctors, nurses and her friends...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 10 Mar 12 - 07:24 PM

My beautiful, young, vibrant Teal Sister, Brandi Chaney has been taken away from her family, friends and life by ovarian cancer.

My whole chest aches at the thought of it and a very quiet anger is settling in.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 03 Mar 12 - 03:29 AM

me, too

love to all

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 02 Mar 12 - 10:22 PM

What Maeve said.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: jimmyt
Date: 02 Mar 12 - 07:11 PM

Prayers coming your way kiddo! have missed talking to you for a few years. Sounds like you have had some rough times.   jimmyt


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 02 Mar 12 - 05:35 PM

Tell Brandi that there is a skinny hillybilly down South who is praying for her... Or PM me her contact info and I'll tell her myself...

Yer marker will be fine... Seems they can move around a little when your resistance is low...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 02 Mar 12 - 05:24 PM

Michelle, I am sorry to hear about your friend. Thinking of you, Brandi, and both of your families tonight.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 02 Mar 12 - 04:28 PM

I should have posted this a few weeks ago but I didn't think to do it. At my last check up (2-16), my tumor markers were up a little bit. My oncologist says that it's not the amount of numbers that it goes up but rather the upward trend to be concerned with. So...he has offered to do another CA-125 in a month rather than to make me wait the full 3 months. I have been sick with a severe cold for almost a month now and an ear infection that has affected my hearing (although I think it is starting to sound better) and sometimes those kinds of things CAN have an impact on the tumor markers. Let's hope that is the case.

In other news...very sad news...a teal sister....someone who I have made friends with is no longer allowed to receive chemo (that was last week) and today they removed the pic line. She is now in hospice. A young (early 30s at the most), vibrant, sweet, kind human being lost to ovarian cancer.

It's the first death from OC that I've seen since my own diagnosis...brings it home in a big way. Breaks my heart that it's taking Brandi. It's not right. It just isn't right.

My heart aches.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 15 Jan 12 - 08:40 PM

Complete agreement from me, too!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 15 Jan 12 - 07:36 PM

definitely!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 15 Jan 12 - 06:46 PM

Been a wild ride but here we all are and hopefully will be for many years to come...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 15 Jan 12 - 02:55 PM

We couldn't have done it without YOU!:-) You brave, beautiful, woman. Thanks for opening your life and spirit of endurance, love and beauty to us and allowing us to participate. It has been a wonder as are YOU!

luvyamuchlykat


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 12 - 11:07 AM

Thanks, Michelle!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Jan 12 - 10:14 AM

Two years ago on this very day, I was waiting for the surgery to take all the cancer out of my body. I am overwhelmed with gratitude for my life.

I sat and read through many of the posts you all sent while I was waiting for my surgery and in the days that followed and I am still brought to tears by ALL the love, prayers and positive energy that you sent to help bring me through this.

God bless every single one of you. I love you today just as much as I did then....what would I do without my Mudcat friends?

XOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 21 Dec 11 - 03:24 AM

joining you in the happy dance


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 20 Dec 11 - 09:16 PM

Yippee, another treatment done! Sorry about the bleeding, though.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 20 Dec 11 - 08:30 PM

Wonderful news. Thanks for letting us know the good news tonight.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 20 Dec 11 - 08:19 PM

Whad I tell ya a long time ago, Michelle???

Believe me now???

No matter... Great Day!!! Thou I'm not too happy about the bruising... I might have to make a couple calls... LOL...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 20 Dec 11 - 08:11 PM

Well, they made a mess of the port access today...lots of blood all over the place and some bruising (which is a first) but it was painless and I wasn't even aware of it until later in the day.

My oncologist called tonight (usually I don't get results until the following day) and said my number is 12.1 which is PERFECT!!!!! :)   YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!


************HAPPY DANCE**************

I am SO relieved and my body has finally relaxed itself and I am exhausted!   HAPPILY EXHAUSTED!!!

Thanks for the good thoughts, love and prayers! You guys are the best!!!

XOXOOXOXOX

Love to All!!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 20 Dec 11 - 03:58 AM

patiently awaiting your report & sending more love

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 19 Dec 11 - 08:02 PM

Wishing you well again.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 18 Dec 11 - 10:25 PM

Tuesday, an auspicious time for looking forward with all good cheer. All will be well, darlin'.

luvyakat


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 18 Dec 11 - 09:00 PM

Sending Light and Love.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 18 Dec 11 - 06:41 PM

Love ya' back, Michelle...

And Tuesday will be more good news...

And 1700...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 18 Dec 11 - 06:35 PM

The initial exam went well. He did a test for something that I've not had before and the results were good. The second half of my check up is on Tuesday. They will access my port and check my tumor markers. Here's hoping everything continues to go well!!!

Love to you all!!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 17 Dec 11 - 01:48 PM

Checking in; I expect you're driving home and having a snuggle with the wee one!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 16 Dec 11 - 07:35 AM

Good morning, sweet lily Michelle.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 15 Dec 11 - 11:52 PM

Wrapping love around you.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 15 Dec 11 - 09:21 PM

love right back to you

& hugs & kisses

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Dec 11 - 10:16 AM

We're behind you, offering whatever support we can, Michelle!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Dec 11 - 10:06 AM

Today I am off to the House of Care for an overnight. My chemo partner is getting her port out very early in the morning and I'm going with her and then on to my own check up. Those damn butterflies are starting to piss me off. I can't tell if I'm having a medical issue with my belly or if it's anxiety. So...I keep telling myself that if there is something wrong, they will take care of my just like they always have. I love my medical team!!

Love to all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 11 Dec 11 - 01:17 AM

I hope you continue to do well. Keep us posted!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 10 Dec 11 - 08:53 PM

Still here ridin' shotgun...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 10 Dec 11 - 08:21 PM

you certainly have

love & hugs

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 10 Dec 11 - 02:51 PM

You've come a long way, baby!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 10 Dec 11 - 12:01 PM

Two years ago today I started my unwelcome adventure with cancer. I find myself feeling somewhat lost in thought and remembrances...some good, some not so good. Lots of changes in my life and in my perspective!

Check up with the oncology surgeon next week and with my oncologist the following week. Butterflies abound.

Love to all!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: GUEST,ChanteyLass
Date: 24 Sep 11 - 12:51 AM

Well, that's a relief!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 23 Sep 11 - 10:51 PM

a Calendar girl!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 23 Sep 11 - 10:22 AM

Just a note to say that I'm feeling MUCH better today. Whatever the problem was...port or bug...it has passed. :) Still a little achey but NOTHING like yesterday!

Later today I am posing for a Survivor calendar...I am so excited to have been asked!!! :)

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 23 Sep 11 - 08:01 AM

love & hugs back


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 23 Sep 11 - 12:14 AM

About the port. Here's the thing. It has been clogged for the last 3 months. I'm pretty sure I wrote about it but here's a refresher. At my appointment I they flushed my port and then tried to get a blood return. Because a fibrous sheath has grown over part of my port, they were unable to get any blood out. Ok...well, this means I can get meds if I need them but they have to draw the blood out of my arm. Kinda defeats part of the purpose of the port but ok. So....the way my check ups go is like this. I go to the lab, get my blood work done, wait 45 minutes to see my oncologist (this gives the lab time to get some of the results to my dr). So...they drew the blood out of my arm and then injected some kind of med into my port to dissolve the sheath. It takes a good 45 minutes to work so they left the tubing in my chest while I went to see the doctor, Tracy, etc. When the time was up, they checked the blood return and it worked like a charm. Great! It should work well next time too. :)

Today, however, I am not feeling so hot. I'm exhausted...slept 12 hours last night and a full 5 hour nap earlier today (Pete is home today so he had the baby). The muscles in my abdomen and legs are really aching and my stomach has informed me that food is just a plain bad idea. I don't know if this is a side effect of the med they gave me to unstop my port or if I have a bug. If I still feel bad in the morning, I'll call the clinic.

I could have picked up a bug...I did stay at the House of Care and I did wander the hospital for quite a bit plus I was at the chemo clinic....there are germs everywhere so who knows? I am obsessive about washing my hands but there's always stuff in the air.

I appreciate the offer to look things up but let me see what the doctor says first. I'll be ok. :)

How do I know? Cuz Bobert says so!!! ;)

Love to you all!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 22 Sep 11 - 11:15 PM

Great news, Michelle...

...but I've always known this was going to turn out fine...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 22 Sep 11 - 10:49 PM

Michelle, I just read your description of how you're feeling on facebook. I wish there was some way we could absorb that and help you feel better - just remember we're here holding your hand (virtually, at least!). It sounds like the port is more of a problem than a help - if you want me to do any research in my medical databases at the university, let me know. It's a shame to get over the cancer yet still feel bad because of a remnant of it. Say the word, and I'll do the research and send PDF via email or can print and put in the postal mail.

Maggie


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 22 Sep 11 - 01:35 AM

joining the dancers on the floor!!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: GUEST,ChanteyLass
Date: 21 Sep 11 - 10:53 PM

Uh-oh, where did my cookie go? Has it been absent from all the threads I've posted on? That was me a few messages back with the post that started Yippee.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 21 Sep 11 - 10:43 PM

We never had a doubt that you'd have great numbers, Michelle!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: GUEST
Date: 21 Sep 11 - 10:35 PM

Yippee for the great news!
Waiting to hear the good news! You know how to build suspense!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Little Robyn
Date: 21 Sep 11 - 09:36 PM

Hooray!!!
Singing and dancing for you!!!
Robyn


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 21 Sep 11 - 06:26 PM

The numbers are in and they are GOOD!!!   12.8 to be precise. :)

****HAPPY DANCE*******

Michelle

PS. There is more good news today but since this is GREAT news, I'll wait to share the other!!!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 21 Sep 11 - 08:22 AM

Wish I's seen this last night. Love and hugs to you, dear one. Let us know how today goes!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 21 Sep 11 - 05:47 AM

what kat sez!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 20 Sep 11 - 11:04 PM

G'night, sweetie...trust in yourself, as you have been doing so well...you'll be home before ya know it.

luvyakat


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 20 Sep 11 - 10:42 PM

Of course you're missing your guys - and they're realizing right now how much you do to sustain them - but this time apart makes the time together all the better. :)

Kindle sounds good - I don't have one, don't really want one (I have tons of paper books here) but the idea of reading is the important part.

Looking forward to your news tomorrow, expecting it to be good!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 20 Sep 11 - 09:46 PM

Even though I'm not one of your guys, or a guy at all, virtual hugs and wishes for a peaceful night and good news tomorrow.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: GUEST,Lilyfestre
Date: 20 Sep 11 - 08:09 PM

PS. I'm missing my guys tonight in a big way.

XOXOX

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: GUEST,Lilyfestre
Date: 20 Sep 11 - 08:08 PM

On the agenda for this evening is yoga with the House of Care manager and later my Kindle. The rooms here are very quiet..no tv, no music. And this time, no company. I have my Kindle and will probably fall into bed after yoga tonight. I'm beat.

Love to all!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 20 Sep 11 - 08:02 PM

What kind of self-comforting ceremony will you come up this evening? Maybe sit down and hand write some letters or post cards? Read a good book? Order a pizza and a glass of wine and have a nice evening watching a movie or TV? I think letters or cards will give you more time to reflect, if that is helpful.

The evening will be over before you know it - enjoy yourself, good wishes for tomorrow's results, and we'll see you back online here later on tomorrow!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: GUEST,LilyFestre
Date: 20 Sep 11 - 01:07 PM

So...my port was blocked again. They said it has a fibroid sheath on it so they added a med to dissolve it. It takes awhile to work so in the meantime they took blood from my arm and I met with my oncologist. Tumor marker results will come later today or tomorrow depending on how busy they are. So after talking with the doctor, they accessed my port again (not another needle stick as they left the tubes and syringe thing hanging from my chest all morning) and the blood return was immediate! YAY!!!

I love that you still have the photo up Auntie SINS!!! :)

I have the entire afternoon and evening to myself and am missing my boys. An early morning appointment tomorrow means I stay here tonight. Tell me again why this is a good idea?

There is a crying baby here in the hallway (someone is with him) but all I can think about is holding that baby and trying to comfort him. I'm sure that's already happening but...well...you know.

Time to scoot.

How cool is it that there are some computers for public use in the lobby of the hospital?

Love to all,

Michelle who is hanging onto her port for a bit. I don't mind having it flushed too much and now that's it's working, it's great. I HATE needle sticks and they give me a numbing cream for my port. YAY


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: SINSULL
Date: 20 Sep 11 - 11:40 AM

Get that damn thing out and start a new thread. This one is starting to get too long. LOL A long life.

I keep the photo of Dad, Mom and Baby on my desk at home. Maybe it will join the babies on my desk at work. It makes me smile.
Auntie SINS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: olddude
Date: 19 Sep 11 - 11:11 PM

love you in my prayers always


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 19 Sep 11 - 10:50 PM

Have a good and uneventful visit with your oncologist, and think about having that port out. It'll make life a lot easier, and I think you'll feel more yourself without a leftover device from the earlier procedures. It's food for thought, anyway.

Maggie


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 19 Sep 11 - 10:17 PM

& the same to you!

and stay well

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 19 Sep 11 - 10:10 PM

It's time for another check up. This time I'll have my port accessed, flushed, blood drawn and a visit with my chemo oncologist. He will do a physical and go over any lab work that comes in. He usually doesn't have my tumor markers until the following day.

Here's to hoping that my port works tomorrow and LOW LOW LOW numbers for the tumor markers!!!

Be well.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 14 Sep 11 - 11:20 PM

Michelle, I think you're able to read from your body what IT thinks about the port. Excess baggage. And I think having a companion going through the same time is great, if you both decide to wait till October. I bet you can work with Jeremiah enough now that he'll understand when you can't pick him up - make it a game for him to climb into your lap or do something that helps him get the cuddles he needs without hurting your surgery site.

Sounds like you have it all under control. Keep us filled in as you're comfortable with it!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 14 Sep 11 - 11:14 PM

Whatever you decide to do about the port, you know you have friends here wishing you the best.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 14 Sep 11 - 10:11 AM

Hi Guys!!!

   Thanks for all your continued support!!!! :) :) :)

I talked to my surgeon about 2 weeks ago about the port and he said I can keep it for my security blanket if I want. However, it has been clogged the last two times we tried to do a blood return. He said as long as they can flush the Heparin through, it would work, if God forbid, I would need chemo. I asked him if it was an easier procedure getting it out than putting it in and he said it was. I asked if that meant it was easier for the patient or the doctor. He smiled and said, "Both." He said he could take it out himself (Interventional Radiology put it in). I told him I wanted to be asleep when he removed it and he said that he could do that!!! YAY!!!!!! Having it put in was AWFUL!!! So....with that said, I am considering having it taken out. One drawback is that I won't be able to lift my baby for a week or two.

The woman that went through all the same surgery and chemo with me is going to have hers out in October and we have talked about having ours taken out at the same time since we did everything else together. I think that would make it easier.

I have to have my port accessed again next week and if it's clogged up again, I'm seriously going to consider having it taken out.

And Bobert, I'm going to be seeing my GYN/Oncologist for the rest of my life. He's my pal. I could do without the exam but always love seeing him. He hugs me, we laugh, talk about chickens (he talks about the darndest things during that exam) and is serious when I have questions. He's perfect. :)

And Dan....ask your beautiful wife to describe the removal of her port in one word....let me know what she says!

And anyone who wants to join our yoga party next Tuesday night...COME!!! That would be so much fun!!!!

XOXOOXOX

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 14 Sep 11 - 09:04 AM

I have a friend who was reluctant to get her port out for a while also. She finally did it about 18 months ago and in hindsight knows she could have done it earlier.

Have a good visit, Michelle, and enjoy the Yoga!

SRS


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From: Bobert
Date: 14 Sep 11 - 08:56 AM

Sounds great, Michelle... I'll do a little "support" yoga here in NC fir ya'...

How long doc want to keep that port in??? Until yer 100??? He's keepin' it in just so he can get to see you every 6 months... Tell him to take the danged thing out and give him your address so he can come visit...

B;~)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 14 Sep 11 - 03:32 AM

happy yoga-ing! & best wishes for your treatment & results

love from sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: olddude
Date: 13 Sep 11 - 11:26 PM

guest was me sorry


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: GUEST
Date: 13 Sep 11 - 11:23 PM

You just make sure you are ok. that hurts getting that thing out for a day or two ... I love you and if you need anything you just email me ok

in my prayers Michelle
have fun partying also

Dan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 13 Sep 11 - 11:09 PM

Next week I will have my port flushed, labs done and a visit with my (chemo) oncologist. Early the next morning I have another appointment. Since the hospital is about 2 hours away, I have decided to stay at the House of Care overnight. I made my reservation and this evening the woman that runs the HOC wrote that she will invite some friends over and make the giant living room (complete with a gorgeous fireplace) into a yoga studio just for me!!!!!!   YAY!!!   How cool is that?

I can honestly say that I never thought I'd be excited to stay at a place for cancer patients!!!!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 04 Sep 11 - 02:30 AM

yah


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From: ChanteyLass
Date: 03 Sep 11 - 11:12 PM

Wonderful news!


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From: Little Robyn
Date: 03 Sep 11 - 09:38 PM

Hooray!
Luv,
Robyn


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 03 Sep 11 - 04:16 PM

YEE-HAW!!!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 03 Sep 11 - 11:29 AM

My oncologist laughed and laughed. He's such a good egg and I love him to bits! My report was EXCELLENT!!! YAY!!!!! He told me that I am the "Poster Child for Ovarian Cancer Survivorship!" Everything looks good, feels good and my heart sounds great!!!

HOORAY!!!!!


Love to all!!

Michelle


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From: saulgoldie
Date: 03 Sep 11 - 09:49 AM

All the best, Michelle.

Saul


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: olddude
Date: 03 Sep 11 - 09:09 AM

That will be great ... let us know how the doc reacts my friend

Love you
Dan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 03 Sep 11 - 12:55 AM

I'll bet many of us would love to see a photo of you in that boa--and street clothes. Those sheets are so unflattering!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 02 Sep 11 - 12:04 PM

I'm there with ya', Michelle... Tell me when I need to leave the room... *g*...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 02 Sep 11 - 11:58 AM

The boa is probably a better option than the sparkles and glitter in the old joke - woman heading to her exam doesn't have time for a shower so runs into the bathroom, pickes up a washcloth on the sink and gives the old three-point washup. Her doctor later comments that she didn't need to go to any great lengths for her exam. Back home her daughter is complaining what happened to the washcloth with all of her glitter. (It's a weak premise, but it still makes the rounds.)

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 02 Sep 11 - 04:21 AM

wishing you lots of fun & silliness on your life journey


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From: katlaughing
Date: 02 Sep 11 - 12:24 AM

Love that image, Michelle!! Good to have a doc with a sense of humour and who makes you feel comfortable enough to wear your boa.

Thanks givings for continued good health and calmness for you.

All is well,

luvyakat


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 02 Sep 11 - 12:12 AM

September is National Ovarian Cancer Month. Tomorrow is Wear Teal Day as well. In addition, I have a checkup with my GYN Oncologist. I love him but the exam...well, not so much.

In honor of both Ovarian Cancer Month and Wear Teal Day, I'm going to wear my teal boa for my exam. Here's how it goes...the nurse checks me in....leaves me alone to undress and cover up with a sheet, the resident comes in and does a breast exam and then my GYN oncologist comes in and does the full check. And there I'll be in my sheet and boa....can't wait to see his face!!!

He has a great sense of humor so I'm actually looking forward to this visit!!! :)

Any good thoughts or prayers are always more than appreciated!!!

Love to you all.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 22 Jun 11 - 10:20 AM

Well, so then it's just business as usual.
By that I mean, celebrate life, be grateful and joyful for each beautiful day, love that baby all up, and laugh a lot!

You're doing just fine.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 21 Jun 11 - 09:48 PM

Michelle- Wise choice!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 21 Jun 11 - 09:07 PM

Michelle, you need to make a trip over to North Carolina and swim with Jeremiah in Bobert's new pool!

Keep up the good work, keep up the healthy living, and enjoy the family. That's my Rx!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: olddude
Date: 21 Jun 11 - 08:16 PM

Love you my friend, thank you from my heart for all that you have done for me and my wife ... you are wonderful


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 21 Jun 11 - 08:08 PM

Stick with me, baby...

Ol' Bobert will get get you old and gray... Just like me... LOL...

But seriously, Michelle... This is exactly what I expected... You are doing great and will continue to do so...

"Hey" to that little troublemaker (jus kiddin') youngin'... Well, kinda kiddin'... Wait another year... lol...

Love ya,

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 21 Jun 11 - 07:26 PM

now you can get back to playing with Jerimiah!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 21 Jun 11 - 06:45 PM

Maeve,

    I played with the baby of course!!!

My tumor marker test came back, slightly elevated but within range. It is the highest jump I've had but the oncologist says it's ok and to be expected. He's not worried so I'm not going to be either. They would like to test every 6 months but I prefer a little more often (just to ease my mind) and they are good with that.

I had some kidney tests as well....there's some cause for concern there but I won't know more until early July.

I am thrilled with the tumor marker test and am going to hold that close for a bit!!!

XOXOXOOX

Love to All,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 21 Jun 11 - 07:41 AM

You'll get them, Michelle. For now, will you play with the baby first, or go for a walk?

Maeve


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 21 Jun 11 - 07:34 AM

No. :(


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 21 Jun 11 - 04:48 AM

any results yet?


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 20 Jun 11 - 04:19 PM

I slept for an entire 25 minutes this morning before I had to leave for my appointments. My port wasn't cooperating but after a few big coughs and a good shove or two, it worked just fine.

It's 8 hours later and I'm waiting to hear the results. I keep telling myself that should something not be ok, they will take good care of me...just as they did the first time.

Thank you for all the prayers, good thoughts and encouragement....I very much appreciate it!!!

Love to Everybody,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: GUEST,Tinker
Date: 20 Jun 11 - 09:46 AM

Blessings and Light to follow you through the day .... sweet lullabies to drift in the night.....


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 20 Jun 11 - 02:43 AM

adding my good wishes to the mix heading your way

also sending lotsa' love!

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 19 Jun 11 - 10:13 PM

Ol' hillbilly still here with as many prayers as it's gonna take to get you thru this, Michelle, and you will get thru this...

Lots of prayers, love and full confidence that you're fine and will just get finer...

Don't ask me how I know this but I know this...

Bobert


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 19 Jun 11 - 09:49 PM

Exactly what maeve said, well...except I don't know beans about the hens.:-)

All is well, as Allison said.

luvyakat


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 19 Jun 11 - 09:38 PM

I missed this when you posted a week ago, Michelle.

For the hens, try an oatmeal mash with groats or rolled oats, yogurt, some apple cider vinegar, and hot water, no salt. You can add flax seed and/or sunflower seeds, too. Once a week or so is a good start.

For yourself, continue as you have begun. Remembere you have friends and family who love you, including a feisty young son. You're stuck with us, so you might as well look forward to years of joyous living.

Maeve


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 19 Jun 11 - 09:25 PM

Light and love shining your way, dear one. All shall be well.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 19 Jun 11 - 09:22 PM

Time to have my tumor marker and port accessed again tomorrow.

*Deep breath*

Prayer said.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Little Robyn
Date: 11 May 11 - 02:52 AM

(((((((((((((((((((()))))))))))))))))))
Now breathe in slowly.........and out........

Robyn


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 11 May 11 - 02:44 AM

I still get pain where my cancer was removed 2 yrs ago - my surgeon isn't worried & my Dr & physio keep reminding me that traumatised muscles/nerves need time to heal. My scar is long & deep & yours is even longer & deeper. Some of the pain in my right groin area relates to a muscle in my lower back, some of it happens cos it is along the top of my leg, the bit that folds when I sit!

Pain comes from different causes & places so a pain near the original site could be caused by other things than a recurrance.

BIG HUGS & LOTSA' LOVE coming your way

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 10 May 11 - 07:18 PM

A phone call today reminded me that I have an GYN/Oncology appointment on Friday. I knew it was coming up but thought it was next week. That's what I get for not writing it down.

I've been having pain on the left side of my abdomen (which is where the initial cyst was found) so I'm feeling a bit rattled. I'm hoping it's adhesion pain and nothing more.

I've also been reading about ovarian cancer and the lack of progress over the last 30 years. It's the only cancer that does not have an accurate diagnostic test. The average survival rate of an ovarian cancer survivor is said to be 10 years. I've reached the platinum level which means the carboplatinum drug seems to have worked for me. There are so many recurrences. I can't go there. I just can't. I won't. I won't. I WON'T.

"We [survivors] can't be consumed by ovarian cancer. We attend too many funerals. We have to do other things and be with other people."

I don't know who said it but I think this is true. For the most part, I do ok with it simmering in the background like a bad, hazy dream but then sometimes, like today, it's in the forefront of my brain. They have taken excellent care of me so far and I have no reason to believe that if there was a recurrence that they wouldn't continue to take excellent care of me. I still have my port because there are timelines as to when most recurrences happen (IF they happen) and I never want to have to have another port put in in my life. It's working just fine and doesn't bother me...it's my safety net. I know I could have treatment immediately, if need be. Sometimes when they access my port, they leave the tubing attached to my chest for just in case. I see the doctor and then they take it out afterwards.

I always take my doctors something seasonal (food wise but not sweets). You might remember I used to take them fresh eggs but my hens aren't laying like they used to. Any suggestions? Fresh rhubarb maybe? Chives? Asparagus?

Michelle who is trying to maintain a sense of calmness


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 18 Apr 11 - 08:12 PM

Just how long they gonna keep that port in, Michelle??? I mean, ain't it time for it to go???

But, as per usual, always great to hear that you are doing fine... Make my day...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 17 Apr 11 - 11:48 PM

more good news.

keep up the good work.

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 17 Apr 11 - 11:39 AM

Last time I went for a checkup, my port was clogged. YIKES. I had my port flushed on Friday and had a good blood return which means it's working as it's should! HOORAY!!!

I got to visit with some of my favorite nurses and ran into a friend from a local cancer support group who was getting her treatment. We made plans to schedule our appointments on the same days (if possible) so we can carpool. Nice!

Love to all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 10 Apr 11 - 07:02 AM

YAH!!!!!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Little Robyn
Date: 09 Apr 11 - 05:41 PM

(((((((((((((Go Michelle ))))))))))))
Robyn


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 09 Apr 11 - 11:16 AM

That's great news, that they wrote back to tell you how helpful your talk was. So often people forget to say thanks!

Actually, I figured you would mention Mudcat, but when it comes to the point of trying to describe this group and how our declutter threads shifted into a cancer thread - that alone could take a few minutes to try to articulate. :)

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 09 Apr 11 - 10:47 AM

From the Relay For Life Director:

" You were amazing. Many students came up to me and said you were the best speaker they heard in the 4 years they have been here. I cannot thank you enough. Thank you"

From the American Cancer Society:

"Congratulations to the Mansfield University Relay for Life for surpassing their goal by $3000! Way to go!! And congrats to Michelle Lawrence for sharing her cancer story and giving what I heard was an amazing presentation!"


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 09 Apr 11 - 10:05 AM

SRS....ABSOLUTELY!!!!!!!

I shared about support and friendships made throughout my journey and you guys are a HUGE part of that!!!!   I can't begin to tell you how many times I read through this thread along the way!!!!

((((((((((((((((GROUP HUG)))))))))))))))))))))))

Wish you all could have been there!!!

I got an email from the director of the Relay For Life for Tioga and Bradford counties this mornig. She said that after I left, many of the students told her I was the best speaker they had heard in 4 years!!! WOOOO!!! Made my day!!! :) :) :)

The experience was definitely good for my soul!!!

Love to all!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 08 Apr 11 - 11:25 PM

Does Mudcat come into your talk? Just curious. . . we're a sort of ad hoc support group. :)

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 08 Apr 11 - 10:46 PM

Sandra,

I love my pink hair....it's so much fun!!!!! :)

Tonight I shared my *story* with well over 100 people. WOOOOO HOOOOO!!! It was an AMAZING experience!!!!!!!!

I LOVE THE RELAY FOR LIFE!!!!!!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 01 Apr 11 - 10:13 PM

you could wear your pink wig! & all your hats & headcoverings -

what an inspiration you montage is! what an inspiration you are.

love from sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 01 Apr 11 - 10:00 PM

re. speaking in public - ignore the "millions" watching you, look at one person or close your eyes & just see one woman with cancer - and say what you need to say that might help or inspire her.

you could wear your pink wig!

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 01 Apr 11 - 04:32 PM

Bless you, bless you, bless you beautiful woman. When I saw your curls I cried for joy.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 01 Apr 11 - 01:31 PM

I updated my montage to share at the MU Relay For Life. I thought I'd post it here too if anyone is interested!

Updated Montage

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 31 Mar 11 - 05:24 PM

You be sure to tell 'um that ol' Bobert thinks bald womenz is sexy and also tell 'um that if they shave it off themselves before the chemo gets to it it really pisses the chemo off so it beats up the bad guys twice as hard!!!

I wish I could find the picture that Judy had done when she was bald... She went to one of them glamor-pics places... Real hot!!!

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: olddude
Date: 31 Mar 11 - 03:00 PM

Michelle
In my heart and thoughts and prayers always my dear friend
love you


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 31 Mar 11 - 01:57 PM

I have been asked to be the speaker before the Survivor's Lap at Mansfield University's Relay for Life!!!! I am honored beyond words and a little nervous as I've never spoken in front of a large number of people. I'm working on what I should share and have added to my montage which we hopefully will be able to use (tech issues) as well. I always like visuals so hopefully everybody else will too. It's one thing to talk about chemotherapy and going bald but an entirely different to actually see what that means.

    Lots to think about and remember to get ready!!!!

Love to all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 19 Mar 11 - 04:21 PM

They have asked me about having the port taken out and I asked to keep it. As long as I have it flushed periodically, they told me it would be fine. I'm keeping it for 2 reasons...first, the obvious. Having the port put in was awful and I don't EVER want to have to repeat that. Second, I still have to go for bloodwork on a regular basis...not just for my CA-125 but for multitudes of other things as well. I've been told that my veins are very small (took 6 tries for my IV) so the port means only 1 stick and they can draw whatever they need easily and relatively pain free....beneficial for both parties. I will call and ask about having it in so long and if it will create any problems like you mentioned. To be honest, I've wondered about that myself but more along the lines of does your body adhere itself to the port? I've heard that it's not bad having it taken out and from others I've heard it's awful. More good stories than bad though.
    The only real reasons I'd like to have it removed are that Jeremiah insists on thumping on it (it's bumpy and sticks out a little bit...YOUCH) and there are some things in yoga I simply can not do because of the angle it moves my chest...other than that, I'm good with it. I can swim and kayak with it...so no problem there.

Bobert....you crack me up. I'll have my oncologists give you a call...they both have a great sense of humor!!! You tell 'em!!!

XOXOXOOXOXO to All!!!

Michelle, Queen of the Ten Thousand!!!!   ;)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 19 Mar 11 - 02:20 AM

Michelle,

I have a friend here (my boss' wife) who held onto her port for a long time, for fear she'd need it again. They finally removed it last year, and I think she is now wishing she'd had it removed earlier. There was some damage that may have resulted from keeping it so long. She feels light-headed at times, because the jugular vein is blocked on one side now. It seems to be related to the port and chemo process.

If you can get over the fear (yes, please!) and have it removed, I think you'll find that you're more than fine without it.

Take care, and whateever you decide is fine. But this is just to say that someone in a similar situation gives permission to remove the darned thing. :)

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 18 Mar 11 - 08:40 PM

Chocolate???

Just like a woman... lol...

Glad that things are movin' along... 'Bout time to ditch the port... Tell yer doc that ol' hillbilly says yer fine and to take the port out.... No, have him call me....

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 18 Mar 11 - 07:24 PM

Whoo-Hoo!!!!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 18 Mar 11 - 11:36 AM

happy dance!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 17 Mar 11 - 07:01 PM

Hooray for you, dear one! I haven't been around here much lately but it's great to see your good news!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 17 Mar 11 - 10:16 AM

I am so incredibly pleased to tell you that my bloodwork was excellent!!! They normally don't have the results back in the same day but yesterday was different!!!

My latest CA-125 is 10!!! My oncologist tells me that it probably will not drop much lower and that any flucuation up to the number 20 is nothing to be concerned with.

They did have some trouble getting my port to work properly...it didn't want to let go of my blood. It was easy enough to remedy (coughing hard) but makes me wonder if it's just getting old and soon will need to be removed. I'm keeping it until it they tell me it has to go for medical reasons.

I celebrated with a good piece of chocolate (a rare treat)!!!

Thanks for your ongoing support....it means so much!!!!

XOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXO


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 17 Mar 11 - 07:10 AM

Checking in, Michelle.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 17 Mar 11 - 04:51 AM

refresh


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 16 Mar 11 - 12:16 PM

Your cheering section is ready and willing! Keep your chin up!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 16 Mar 11 - 09:15 AM

Standing by in Maine, Michelle,

Maeve


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 16 Mar 11 - 06:40 AM

fingers crossed & sending lots of love & hugs!

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 16 Mar 11 - 05:55 AM

I can hardly believe it but it's time for another check up. I stayed at the House of Care last night as my lab work is scheduled for very early today. Here's hoping and praying for good results.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 28 Jan 11 - 11:09 PM

You do have a unique tool for looking back at your experiences with this thread, online or on paper. You could extract portions of what you wrote and turn it into a book or essay or whatever. And I think you seriously ought to consider doing something with it.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 28 Jan 11 - 10:42 PM

Maeve...........Thank you!!!!

SRS............One day I hope to meet Doug in person and will share my treasured pink book! He's seen the video and has asked permission to use it for his organization!

Bobert........((((((((Right back atcha my friend)))))))))))

:) Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 28 Jan 11 - 10:03 PM

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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 28 Jan 11 - 04:41 PM

Has he seen your videos, or read your Mudcat thread? That's a wonderful letter, it's nice to know that someone else sees the inspiration in this experience.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 28 Jan 11 - 01:25 PM

That's a lovely letter, Michelle...and well deserved.

Maeve


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 28 Jan 11 - 01:19 PM

I got the most beautiful email this morning from Doug Barron, the CEO of the Georgia Ovarian Cancer Alliance. He wrote:
"I want to thank you for the past year. You and your journey with the ups and down being right there for everybody to see has taken such strength and courage. Documenting your treatment has brought an honest insight to the reality that a lot of people never see. And you are smiling in 95% of the pictures, what's up with that? Your never give up though out the process and your commitment is so evident with your following through after your diagnose with Jeremiah. "I have just had major surgery, gone through chemo, and now I am going to be a new mother, okay bring it on". I think you have passed John Wayne on my hero list and he is really close to the top. Congratulations, I am so proud and happy for you and your beautiful family. Mazel Tov"

Sometimes it feels like my cancer adventure was a lifetime ago and sometimes, well, it feels like yesterday. Just when I think I'm going along ok (and really I am), something beautiful and full of love appears and I can't help but just sit and cry. I sure don't feel very strong or that I have courage but it does make me feel really good to know that maybe I've helped someone along the way. GOCA does trainings with oncology students, holds large fundraisers (galas, a walk, stuff with the Atlanta Braves too) and I am very touched that the head of that organization remembers me and took the time to write this morning. :)

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 16 Jan 11 - 01:51 AM

we look forward to many more Teal Beads & Tiara Day observances!

love & hugs


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Jan 11 - 10:47 PM

Today I celebrated being cancer-free for one year!!!! I wore my teal beads and tiara all day.....enjoying my family and giving thanks for my life.

Love to all who helped me through a very difficult year!!!!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: mouldy
Date: 13 Jan 11 - 02:39 AM

Well done too, Robyn!

The pair of you are a shining example of what happens more often than we hear about: early detection + medical science + positive energy = good outcome!

Andrea


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 12 Jan 11 - 02:08 PM

YAY Robyn!!!!!

   A healthier new year to you too!!!!! *High Five*

:) Much love,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Little Robyn
Date: 12 Jan 11 - 02:00 PM

Wonderful.
Here's to a much happier and healthier new year.
Robyn, (also clear).


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: mouldy
Date: 12 Jan 11 - 01:07 PM

Woop! Woop!

Andrea x


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 12 Jan 11 - 01:05 PM

That's wonderful news, Michelle.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 12 Jan 11 - 01:03 PM

The test results are in! My CA-125 (tumor marker) test result is the lowest it's ever been: 12.4!!!!   HOORAY!!! ****HAPPY DANCE****

Also...that lump has been taken care of! YAY!!!!! :)

Love to all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 12 Jan 11 - 10:00 AM

yah!

love & hugs from sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: mouldy
Date: 12 Jan 11 - 02:41 AM

Well done and congrats!

Andrea


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 11 Jan 11 - 08:20 PM

Great news all around, Michelle!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 11 Jan 11 - 06:33 PM

Sounds good, Michelle. I'm keeping track even when I don't post.

Maeve


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 11 Jan 11 - 06:16 PM

We're home from the hospital. The port flush went well...love that nurse! Everything looks exceptionally good from the tests that were returned quickly. The tumor marker test result will not be in until tomorrow.

And Bobert? LOL. I love you man!

PS. The doctor told me that my anniversary date is from the date of the surgery, not the end of chemo so my 1 year anniversary is coming up with weekend!!! I'm going to start a tradition for that day....not sure just what that will be but I'm sure I'll think of something!!!!

PSS. I have more hair than my doctor now!   ;)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 11 Jan 11 - 04:26 PM

6 Months!!!

Guess what, Michelle... in 9 1/2 years you'll be celebrating 10 years of cancer free life...

Hey to the little guy, fir me...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 11 Jan 11 - 04:08 AM

has brother progressed into the hairdressing field?

thanks for the update, Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Ebbie
Date: 11 Jan 11 - 03:22 AM

Michelle, my daughter's twins were still toothless at almost a year. Her doctor assured her that he'd never heard of a kid who remained so.

At age 20 they have the normal complement.

Oh- I just remembered: their sister, two years younger than they, got little or no hair for the longest time. When she finally got some fuzz that hung over her collar in a mullet-like effect her brother took his safety shears and cut her hair. :)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 10 Jan 11 - 09:52 PM

Time for an update!

Tomorrow is my 6 month checkup! I'll have my port flushed, bloodwork done and a visit with my oncologist.

Things have been going fairly well except last week I found a lump. Need I say more? Of course it freaked me out. It's visible which is unusual. I had it checked out today by a local doctor who thinks it is a retentive cyst. Benign. I hope she's right! I have a mammogram scheduled for later this month on the same day I have a checkup with my surgeon. The appointment was made last month before this popped up. Good timing. :)

My hair is really growing! It's darker than it was before...currently a light to medium brown, kinda curly in the back and wavy in the front/sides. And thick!!!!

Jeremiah is now 10 months old, crawling forward and can pull himself up to the standing position. We are teaching him basic signs. So far he has mastered the sign for more. He sometimes will do the sign for fan and hello. Still no teeth. I love our little boy more than words will ever express and so thankful for him. Pete is an incredible daddy too!!!

Love to all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 10 Jan 11 - 06:20 PM

refresh


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Dec 10 - 09:18 PM

Revisiting the old grief and fear is how we evaluate where we are. I used to pay attention to the anniversary of the surgeries after my diagnosis, but it has been 10 years. I do still tell people how old I am when they ask, and mention my birthday - I'm glad to be around still to celebrate them.

I'm so glad your friend has come through her surgery so well - I'm sure your presence helped her a lot.

SRS

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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Dec 10 - 05:21 PM

Tracy came through the surgery with flying colors (after being told she had a 37% chance of survival...who comes up with these numbers?!?!?) and not only that but both tumors look to be benign!!! Pathology still has to come back but the surgeon says all looks GREAT! HOORAY!!!

As for me, I spent today watching ovarian cancer videos....survivors and stories of those who didn't survive. I don't know why I needed to do that today....I just did. It's been a year since the beginning of my journey....maybe that's why I needed to watch and remember....and to think of all the gifts I found along the way. Who knew?

I am feeling very blessed at the moment.

Love to all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: SINSULL
Date: 15 Dec 10 - 01:36 PM

Some time spent with you and the baby is probably just what she needs. Enjoy your time together, Lily.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 17 Nov 10 - 06:04 AM

I can't add anything to what Kat, Stilly & Bobert have said

love from sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 16 Nov 10 - 10:35 PM

You learned from other "wise women" on the same journey and now, as we all knew, you are your own wise woman and passing that gift on to others. What SRS and Bobert both say are important, as you know. The other is to protect yourself from the fear, too. It can so easily come to the heart and mind when we empathise so well, esp. with someone who is going through what we've been through ourselves. It is all too easy to imagine ourselves in their shoes. Just remember, fear is not helpful for anyone. You are here, well and capable. Yes, it is very sad and there will be tough times to get through in helping your friend, but you are here, well, and have a strength born of courage through adversity and we all love you.:-)

kat


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 16 Nov 10 - 05:06 PM

Bobert,

   I remember well how much it meant to me to be able to talk to someone or write and read a response. I'm not sure I'd have made it through without it.

Seriously.

The least I can do is listen. She called again today, by the way and said thank you for being (kind &) firm with her (as she has been with me when I'm a disaster area). She did sign the surgery papers and was happy to be reminded that it is her body and that she has choices.

A plan is in the works for them to come over for a BBQ and a night of Scrabble, cards, a movie or just mindless (or maybe not so mindless) chatter. She is delighted.

Me too. :)

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 16 Nov 10 - 04:47 PM

Yes, cancer sucks... Glad yer out there for these folks, Michelle... It means alot to them...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 16 Nov 10 - 12:00 PM

Yeah....I know. You are right. I'm not feeling guilty or trying to fix anything....I'm just wanting to hug my friend, cry on her shoulder while she cries on mine.

I told her today that I have her Christmas gifts already (neener neener...I said that too) and her response was to not wait until I have to put flowers on her grave.

*Pause*

Perhaps Santa will arrive at Tracy's house a little sooner than she expects.

Cancer sucks. Cancer sucks. Cancer sucks. Cancer sucks. Cancer sucks. CANCER SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS.

*rant over for now*

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 16 Nov 10 - 11:31 AM

Even without practicing a religion, one can always understand the sentiment "there but for the grace of god go I."

I think this is an example of how we can heap guilt, through sadness, upon ourselves. This news opens an opportunity where you can offer a huge amount of help, but don't forget to protect your heart just a little. Here's wishing the best of luck to Tracy, and take care of yourself in the process, Michelle. The weight of the world is to big for one person.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 16 Nov 10 - 11:11 AM

I never in a million years would have thought I'd say that having cancer comes with certain gifts, but it does. One of the biggest gifts for me has been meeting and getting to know Tracy. You've seen me write about her before. The weekend before last, she stood with my family as Jeremiah's Godmother.....she means so very much to me and I am thankful for her on a daily basis.

This morning she called me with some test results that require action and soon. She isn't sure she wants to follow through with those actions and she knows (and has shared) the consequences of waiting or not acting at all. She called me from outside in the rain to ask what I would do. She didn't call her family. She didn't call her pastor, she called ME because (she said) I understand. We talked about what each choice would mean and possible outcomes. The doctors were wanting her to sign a consent for surgery and she didn't know what to do. I told her that if it were me, I'd sign the papers, go home and enjoy Thanksgiving with my family and THINK about it. It is HER choice and she can always cancel if she decides that is the road she wants to take. She said she hadn't thought of that and quickly hung up the phone to go sign papers.

I totally respect her and whatever her choice may be...both are difficult and my heart is aching for her today.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 12 Nov 10 - 05:49 PM

I'll second that!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 12 Nov 10 - 05:40 PM

Five or six years ago my boss' wife found a lump, and she called him at work to tell him the biopsy came back breast cancer. He went home for a few hours, and when he returned he looked shell shocked. I didn't have breast cancer, mine was a uterine form, but I think he was feeling so adrift when the diagnosis first hit that it was a huge boost to his morale when I stopped in his office to ask how things were.

"You had cancer!" he stated, and realized of course, there were several of us in the library, all walking around to talk about it. And our library family of cancer survivors, just being there, was a big help to them, I think. He looked so much better just to have had a cancer survivor come by and provide the clear evidence that it isn't a death sentence. That phone call you made was probably critically important for your friend's friend.

Keep up the good work, Michelle!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 12 Nov 10 - 04:45 PM

Today a friend emailed me about another friend who has recently been diangnosed with ovarian cancer. She sent me contact information (with the woman's permission) and I spent an hour and a half on the phone answering questions and sharing. It felt really, REALLY good to be able to be of some help and to pay it forward a bit.

Also, I met a woman at yoga last night (it was her first time there) and I was wearing one of my Survivor t-shirts which opened up a conversation about cancer in her family. We talked to freely and openly that my yoga teacher came over and asked if we knew one another...we laughed and said no. It was one of those instant connections and a knowingness that a new friend has been found. Bonus? She lives maybe 3 miles from my house. :)

Love to all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 04 Nov 10 - 05:33 PM

adding my cheers to the chorus

hugs

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 04 Nov 10 - 09:52 AM

Oh, simply marvelous! Hooray, hooray!
(I'm here, just very busy!)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 03 Nov 10 - 05:10 PM

That's wonderful news Michelle. Thanks for letting us share the good news.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 03 Nov 10 - 04:44 PM

Yes!! Yes!!!! Yes!!!

Congratulations!!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 03 Nov 10 - 11:40 AM

CA-125 Levels (Tumor marker) has dropped from 14.8 to 14.6!!!!!

This is wonderful news!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 02 Nov 10 - 09:36 PM

I'm glad you are one member of such a supportive and joyful medical team, Michelle. It makes such a difference to each partner in the battle!

Maeve


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 02 Nov 10 - 04:32 PM

My appointment went well. My favorite nurse was working in the lab today so she accessed my port (and she's SO good at it...both getting that giant fish hook needle in AND out...sometimes the out part is VERY ouchie) and they drew 8 or 9 vials of blood. I try not to watch (there is a window conveniently by the chair so I stare out at all the cars and a big white house on the hill) and she is really good about distracting me with conversation while it's all going on. She gives me smiles, conversation and hugs...how can I not love her?

So. Then it was on to the oncologist. My CBC counts were good and I can FINALLY (it's been since last December) shave my legs and arm pits!!!! I'm SURE that's what you ALL wanted to hear but seriously, I am excited about that!! I swear I can feel the hair on my legs blow in the breeze sometimes!!!! I can also go back to vitamins and fish oil! Some of the side effects are just going to be for now as the chemo continues to work it's way out of my body (last chemo was in June!). He said things look good but the final word will be the number read-out which will come sometime tomorrow and he promised to call with it.

I asked about a number of things and it turns out that it was smart of me to see my surgical oncologist a few weeks back because I had ongoing pain in my abdomen for more than 5 days. YAY. I asked about symptoms of recurrance or things to note and call them about and will make a list of it so I don't forget or when I get nervous, I can look at it to remember. Ongoing abdominal or pelvic pain that is persistant for more than 5 days. Bloating. Bleeding of any kind. Involuntary weight loss. Lack of appetite. Of course, these are also the symptoms of ovarian cancer (just in case you didn't know).

The clinic usually has some kind of fund raiser going on. Today they were selling beautiful pink Longaberger bags (cloth) that are for breast cancer awareness..they are pink and have really a lovely design on them. I purchased 3 to share with friends who are currently going through treatment for breast cancer. The color for ovarian cancer is teal...so today I wore my teal ribbon (metal) pin and donned 4 teal strings of mardi gras beads! The nurses loved it and it made me feel that ovarian cancer was being represented in the building too (although now that October is over, breast cancer awareness has changed to lung and pancreatic cancers). I love that breast cancer awareness is HUGE and money is pouring in for research but let us be aware and ever mindful that breast cancer is only ONE of MANY kinds of cancer and they ALL need funding for research!!!

Anyway...like I said, my results are due tomorrow.

Thanks to all of you who listen and offer support....that is so incredibly important!!!

Love to all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 01 Nov 10 - 11:00 PM

Good health practitioners are treasures.

I never warmed to the specialist who didn't read my notes before delivering the basic 'Don't Do' list of his speciality/my condition each time I saw him. Had he read my notes he would have realised almost all of those Don't's were things I already didn't do & in some cases had never done.

I also didn't appreciate him telling my Dr that he knew I wouldn't follow his (useless in my physio's opinion) advice so I could come back & get his next suggestion (ie pay for another appointment!) So I never went back & kept following my physio's advice & life is good.

My cancer surgeon has a very good surgery/bedside manner. He laughs & jokes & I trust him. I've never thought of feeding him - tho I could probably pull a blossom off one of my flowering plants when I see him next week. Or give it to his receptionist.

sandra (eagerly awaiting the pics)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 01 Nov 10 - 09:02 PM

Good luck with it.

My dentist seems kind of like your oncologist. For last week's appointment I took him a big eggplant that I picked right before I left the house.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 01 Nov 10 - 09:01 PM

Thanks, Michelle. Sail on!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 01 Nov 10 - 08:52 PM

I received an early morning phone call from the clinic that my doctor was sick and not coming in today so my appointment has been rescheduled for tomorrow.


Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 31 Oct 10 - 08:04 PM

Well, I've worked myself silly physically today and even did some yoga in the middle of my kitchen. I wore myself out and that is a good thing....helps to ease the anxiety.

My nearest neighbors are sheep so unless they are dressing up and looking for candy, we won't have any trick or treaters up here on the mountain (although I have been surprised by a few students some years).

Since Jeremiah's costume goes over his clothes, I am thinking about dressing him up to meet up with my mom tomorrow so she can see him in it. I'll be taking pictures for sure....the camera battery is charging as I type. I may post a few photos but I've been working on a very large montage and maybe I'll just include the photos there. Should I tell you what he's going to be for the day after Halloween? Nah...let's let it be a surprise. Depending on the day, I may take him into the clinic all dressed up. It's an amazing thing to see how people waiting for chemo or to have their ports accessed perk up at the site of a smiling baby....you can't help but smile back...it's contagious. :) And in turn, that makes my heart happy.

I normally take my oncologists fresh eggs but my hens are really troubled with all the gas drilling activity going on and are not laying as often as they had been so this time I am taking homemade applesauce, dilly green beans a few cookies that just came out of the oven...an odd combination but one that I know he will love anyway. :) My chemo oncologist is a homesteader wanna be...love him. And another thing...with ALL the people he sees (and there are A LOT), he KNOWS me. He REMEBERS me. Where most of the time a nurse will come to the very large waiting room and call a name, waiting for that patient to get up and go into the offices in the back, my doctor comes to the door, looks around, points to me and wiggles his finger. He KNOWS who he is looking for and I love that I am not a number in his book. :)

In addition to working myself silly, I took a Xanax. My husband is home to tend to the wee one (besides, it's just about bedtime) and there is no need for me to have this panicky feeling if I don't have to...that is why I have the meds in the first place. :)

Thanks for all the PMs.....you guys are the best. <3

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 31 Oct 10 - 07:28 PM

we need a pic of Jeremiah in his suit! (please)

sending wishes for good readings & a bit of halloween fun.

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 31 Oct 10 - 03:55 PM

Perhaps dressing him in his costume and answering the door with him a couple of times so he can see the kids in costumes would be fun. He'll take a reading from you, so if you're happy at the door, I think he'll enjoy the activity. You might vet the traffic through a window, not scare him with the zombie traffic, etc. I wouldn't do it for long, he'll get tired, but for his first Halloween it would be nice to dress up and be seen! When my kids were little, up until probably about four years old, they only trick or treated to a few family friends right there in the neighborhood, and they were finished.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 31 Oct 10 - 01:27 PM

VT,

   Actually, I've been cleaning. Reading when the baby is sleeping and now that he is awake, he is having a bottle after playing in his crib while I rearranged the nursery and packed up more clothes that no longer fit. I also found a stash of larger winter things that I had tucked away and forgotten about...good thing because I am in need of winter jammies for my boy (he has sleep bags but those are kinda miserable to play in or snuggle in before bedtime as he can't move his legs about as he'd like.
    His little Halloween costume hangs upstairs in his room and we had had plans of going out last night (parade and to visit Nana and a few friends in his costume) but it was cold and he's had a little cough so we decided to stay in.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 31 Oct 10 - 12:44 PM

distraction from anxiety then... what trick or treat plans have you? staying in a greeting the kiddies? dressing up and going out?


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 31 Oct 10 - 11:41 AM

It's not based in reality. The reality is in Jeremiah's eyes. (Stay there.)

~S~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 31 Oct 10 - 11:36 AM

Tomorrow I'm off to visit my chemotherapy oncologist, have my port accessed and flushed and to discusss a few side effects I've been experiencing. I'll also find out (the following day) what my CA-125 is. I am praying for low numbers.

Anxiety level is pretty high today.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 12 Oct 10 - 01:39 PM

These updates are wonderful and life-affirming. I suspect you have a lot of readers who never make a peep, who have benefited from all of this. So the continuing news adds to the richness of the thread. Thanks!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 12 Oct 10 - 01:11 AM

definitely good news

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 11 Oct 10 - 09:18 PM

How do you spell "cancer survivor"???

Great new news, Michelle...

"Hey" to the little guy...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 11 Oct 10 - 09:12 PM

Yippee!!!

Now, quite fretting, okay?:-)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 11 Oct 10 - 09:01 PM

I went to see my surgical oncologist today and I left with good news. :) My bloodwork from last time looks good and my exam went well. He did tell me that it's possible I would have some strange pains from the surgery as my insides have been rearranged. If I'm still feeling this at my next appointment, he said they might consider a scan but at this point he doesn't think it's necessary.

:) HOORAY!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: SINSULL
Date: 05 Oct 10 - 12:54 AM

iF YOU FEEL ILL AND ARE NOT SURE IT IS WITHIN ACCEPTABLE "NORMAL" LIMITS, RUN DON'T WALK TO YOUR DOCTOR BOTH FOR AN EXPERT OPINION AND SOME REASSURANCE.
dAMN cAPSLOCK!
aLICE IS ON THE KEYBOARD AGAIN.
bY THE WAY, lILY, IF HE OFFERS YOUY SOME aMBIEN, i WILL TAKE IT. tHE OLDER THE BATCH, THE BETTER.
mUCH LOVE.
sins, BACK FROM THE gETAWAY.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 04 Oct 10 - 09:57 PM

I also feel better knowing that I have an appointment to have this looked at.

This is a hot clue that the anxiety is connected (TBTG) through your thinking-brain center-- that doing what your best thinking says is needful is actually helping to reduce the anxiety.

If you still decide to talk with a counselor, that will be an important clue to share, when it comes to planning strategies to reduce the anxiety-- and lucky you! It's a very good thing.

It is also a very strong indicator that trusting yourself (and IMO your Lord) is a very practical and reliable thing to do. :~)


This means that the next time you feel like you do not know what to do, you might find it helpful to remind yourself that a feeling, however strong, is not as reliable as your own best thinking... that your best thinking does eventually make itself clear... and that when it IS clear, it is good to act upon it... and that when you do, it helps.


It's all related to that little trick I taught you during the worst of the V-stress-- the mindful decision to put your attention on a particular place of positivity to move away from the confusion caused by pain? At the time, you implemented that by starting the wonderful "Today is a good day because..." thread. And it worked very well for you during a really bad time. It was the act of a strong, wise woman-- you.

Trust THAT woman, who is even stronger and wiser now, and you cannot go wrong.

~Susan

CC: Cn CS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 04 Oct 10 - 08:58 PM

good news

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 04 Oct 10 - 05:01 PM

I finally got to talk to my surgeon's head nurse...she said she'd talk to him and call me back tomorrow....however, she called talked to him and called me back maybe 20 minutes ago. From my description, she says he is not overly concerned, especially because my last CA-125 was well within limits but that if I wanted to come in, he'd gladly see me. I have an appointment with him first thing next week and he said he'd feel around and check out my belly. I love this man and trust him implictly. I feel better knowing he isn't concerned and will feel MUCH better after he's had a chance to look and feel around. They think that it's probably adhesions and food moving through is irritating it. That, I can live with.

I also feel better knowing that I have an appointment to have this looked at.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Little Robyn
Date: 04 Oct 10 - 04:10 AM

It could be scar tissue - did you have a drain near there?
I still have a lump under my arm near where the drain was.
They tell me it will go away - eventually.
I still get twitches and aches from around the scar that used to be my left boob but it's beginning to settle down and most of the time I can just forget about it.
Soon it will just be a bad dream!
XOXOXO
Robyn


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 03 Oct 10 - 11:26 PM

Whatever this weird thing going on in my gut is, it's still going on. I'll be calling my surgeon (to talk to the nurse about the possibility of this being healing underneath the skin) and my oncologist. It's just too scarey to NOT call. I am NOT messing with this.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 03 Oct 10 - 09:00 PM

Please watch and check this site out:
Georgia Ovarian Cancer Alliance

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 03 Oct 10 - 03:59 PM

Yum. My acupuncturist advised me to have cottage cheese mixed with plain yoghurt and some fresh or frozen, unsweetened blueberries. It was really good, but too much protein for me, except for once in awhile.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: mg
Date: 03 Oct 10 - 03:34 PM

Read up on a German doctor..Johanna Budwig I think...who treated cancer patients with a mixture of something similar to cottage cheese mixed with flax oil..I imagine you could add a few low-carb berries...anyway, something to do with sulpher bonds and she has great results. It couldn't hurt..probably won't taste great but not awful either with a bit of fruit or chives or something and would be healthy regardless..would give you something else proactive to do against any recurrance. mg


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: GUEST,Ebbie, housesitting
Date: 03 Oct 10 - 11:27 AM

Might it help if you went back to the beginning of this thread and followed the journey from Day One? If you haven't cut and pasted them,before, creating a document chock full of symptoms and outcomes, hints, tears and laughs and hugs and sadnesses and happinesses, laments and gratitudes, at the very least will change your mood and mindset and might just re-charge your batteries.

{{{{hug}}}


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 03 Oct 10 - 08:38 AM

Dear Michelle

I know you are anxious about your health. Completely understandable given what you have been through. Hope you are also looking into ways of managing the anxiety as it is an unhealthy stress.

I am not not advocating complacency re how your body feels. Do all you can to define and treat the causes of pain. Just pay special attention to avoiding the worry about the pain.

I know it is very difficult. Recommending that you immerse yourself in activity is pointless, as it is clear from your posts that you do keep yourself extraordinarily busy. Having a little one about the house is certain to help with that.

Maybe try to keep your focus completely in the moment when you are busy, rather than letting the niggling worries grow into a black hole that sucks up everything in your life at the present moment.

Rereading this post makes me feel a bit too preachy naggy.... but it is sent with much love and concern to the Michelle you need to be. The person you are for yourself and those who love and need you.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 02 Oct 10 - 11:07 PM

Great advice, Mary. Thanks for posting citations (names of authors). I suspect it will help more than just Michelle.

Michelle, you just illustrated how close you still are to this with your remark about seeing your friend in church. You still have short hair, you're still really close to the process. I'm sure all of this will relax as time passes. Hugs, kiddo, and get a good night's sleep.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 02 Oct 10 - 10:58 PM

I'm not much of a night time snacker as my husband gets home late and we have a late dinner.

I did go to talk to someone at a nearby cancer center (closer than where I travel to) and she just kind of sat there and looked at me. No suggestions were given other than to try and take things a day at a time, to find a support group and to try journaling. I already do those things. She was a very kind woman but not at all helpful. I don't know what I expect....well...yes I do. I want some answers. I want to make the anxiety and cancer disappear forever. I want to know that I'm going to be ok. And no one can give me those answers. No one.

Anyway. I am sick of hearing this stuff in my own head...can't imagine what you all must be thinking. It will be fine. I will be fine.

Got to see a friend this evening who has had cancer and lost his hair before I did and has his normal hair back now. After church, I grabbed a hold of him and took off my chemo cap (my head was cold tonight...had the hat on most of the day) and said, "Hey Lou.....I've ALMOST got more hair than you!" He smiled a big hug and ran his hands through my hair commenting on soft it is.

:) Thanks Buddy. I needed that. I needed that familiar knowing smile tonight.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 02 Oct 10 - 10:41 PM

I second the celery and cream cheese before bed. It's not that many WW points and is very satisfying, for me. About the only bread I eat is Ezekiel raisin bread, approved by the kidney specialist and a a slice or two of oat nut bread which is really tasty. I know my Rog needs to cut back on carbs and Susan Weed, in her Wise Woman Way books recommends cutting out ALL white foods, i.e. white flour, pasta, rice, potatoes, etc.

I am glad you are going to talk with someone. I don't think I'd be too strict about whether they have been through something similar, but more that they have effective experience in treating PTSD. Just my opinion, though, of course.

Oh, and I understand not wanting to take xanax with the baby and all. I do still take one at night...my own reasons..I am being patient with myself...sometimes that's the hardest thing of all!:-)

luvyakat


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 02 Oct 10 - 09:22 PM

Duly noted. I'm not a big bread eater so no worries there. My husband, however, IS and wants homemade bread for his lunches....hence the breadmaker. I do eat some of it, maybe 1 or 2 slices per loaf. I do, however, love potatoes and fruit which is where most of my carbs come from. I am diabetic and they are indeed messing with my meds...never thought about the higher blood sugars and their involvement in where I'm at.

My anxiety comes from fear of the cancer spreading or coming back and the what ifs that follow that train.

I did have a lot of carbs today and really should reign that in. Arg. Thanks for the suggestions. :)

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: GUEST,mg
Date: 02 Oct 10 - 07:12 PM

I haven't really followed this thread..are you having panic attacks? You also mentioned diabetes. You also mentioned bread machines and various high carb dishes..bad combination all the way around. If blood sugar becomes unstable the body will release adrenaline to force some changes and the adrenaline rush can be the panic attack. What makes blood sugar unstable? Carbs. If you are diabetic, you need to find a doctor who really understands carbohydrate metabolism in diabetics (and diabetes is a way of telling you that you do not metabolize them in high numbers) and good luck finding such a doctor because they are scarce and will keep telling you bad information. Read Dr. Rob Thompson of Seattle..has some books out for those with diabetes and metabolic syndrome. The informaton is out there..and shouted down by medical establishment. Also read Dr. Gerald Raven? of Sanford University Medical Center endocrinology. And have your insulin levels tested, notjust blood sugar..

So anyway, you have all this plus have been through cancer and of course are worried about things, plus a new baby. LThis all interacts wih stress, cortisol, adrenaline..add in PTSD from surgery etc..more stress..the s in ptsd stands for stress which stands for endocrine hormones..probably mainly cortisol and adrenaline but also insulin ...if you are taking insulin that is another factor...

So..I can not offer medical advice but I suspect part of this is a blood sugar problem and the absolute recommendation I would make is to quit eating bread period..does not matter if white, brown, whole wheat..has to do with not just denaturing but also of grinding and air surface etc. So read up and see if there is any reason int he world you should eat anythjing with white flour. I would cold turkey it. OK carbs for some are lentils, beans etc, buckwheat which is a herb they say..depends on body how much we can tolerate. My body tolerates basically zero and fights like crazy to keep weight on..

What stabiizes blood sugar? fats. I find bacon is a wonder drug for me. Depending on your ancestry, try it in salads tc..not with any carbs. If some people get carbs low enough even with high fat diet they can lose weight..and it gets harder as your body gets more damaged. It is way harder for me now to even maintain high weight but I stay off drugs at least. When I say carbs I mean carbs with calories, such as sugars and starches, and Dr. THompson, whom I go to, says starches are the worst because we evolved to handle a small amou8nt of sugars from fruit and honey, but we (at least Northern Euuopean we) did not evolve for grains as well, particuarl wheat, hence all sorts of problems with celiac disease, perhaps even schizophrenia etc. Meditteranean ancestry is different and can tolerate some wheat.

Well, that is my suggestion..you are probably going through a natural process of unstable blood sugar caused by high stress and doctors that encourage you to eat some standard diabetic diet that istoo high incarbs for your particular body, especially a body under great stress. So there is no reason to eat bread unless you are an active lumberjack so I would try giving that up totally and seeing if your blood sugar numbers don't get better,your medications drop (you must measure things carefully) and your panic attacks don't lessen. Eating right before bed..something with protein, fiber and fat, like celery sticks and cream cheese, can often help till morning, especially if you have nightmares, panic attacks at night etc. mg


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 02 Oct 10 - 04:08 PM

I'm with you about the drugs. I only take the Xanax when I absolutely can't function due to panic and when Pete is home. I will NOT take it when I have Jeremiah here by myself. I don't like to take it at all, really. It doesn't ever fix what has caused my panic but rather allows my body to have a break....slows my heartbeat, steadies my breathing, makes me sleep....then when I wake up I get a second shot at dealing with whatever.

I have talked to someone locally but I think I'd like to make an appointment with someone who deals with cancer patients on a regular basis.....preferably someone who has had heard You Have Cancer themselves (not that I'd wish that on anybody...but my thinking is just that they might have a more clear understanding of the panic if they've been there themselves). I think this is part of the path....

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 01 Oct 10 - 07:16 PM

Drugs are the easy out for physicians to recommend, too easy, in my opinion (and the following is my opinion - based on growing up in a household of a psychiatric social worker practitioner.) And you do have an infant to care for, you can't be zonked.

Freud called psychotherapy "the talking cure" for a good reason - it is indeed a cure. The drugs aren't a cure, they defer the problem until later.

It has been said that talking to a good friend can be as therapeutic as counseling. Getting it off your chest, looking at it from different angles. I went into counselling a couple of times when I was college age, and before the divorce, and found it helped me to understand what I was feeling. It also gave me a process to work through things on my own. That residual effect of counselling is worth its weight in gold.

Whether you find a cancer survivor's support group, a new best friend, or a counselor, I hope you'll find something, and soon, so you don't have to go the drug route. You'll feel better in the long run.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 01 Oct 10 - 06:06 PM

Hi Everybody,

Thank you for the suggestions. I have discussed the ongoing anxiety with my oncologist and he gave me a huge script for Xanax. That's all well and good but it also makes me REALLY tired and I can NOT function that way with the baby so I don't take it. He also said that at my next appointment (which is a month from today unless I call on Monday for something sooner), we can talk about seeing someone to help me deal with the anxiety. It's not ALL the time but when it hits, it's bad. My head knows that more than likely I am fine as that is what all the tests say and the doctors are telling me but there's a voice inside of me that lives primarily in my chest and gut that says....what if? And I am blessed with an imagination that loves to RUN. So....maybe talking with someone about PTSD is something that will help.

Maybe the fiber will help too. LOL.

I love you people!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 01 Oct 10 - 04:28 PM

Five and a half years later, I still get twinges and sudden pains in my chest. The tissues they have to cut through are so deep, we are bound to feel stuff for quite awhile, as SRS says.

Until a year ago, this time, I didn't realise I was also suffering from PTSD; diagnosed by a psychologist/therapist. It's something most docs know about, but don't say anything about. Therapy really helped me to live with it until it lessened. Willingly putting our bodies within someone else's hands, literally, surrendering, if you will, completely, and not knowing if our lives will continue or to what extent they might continue, can have profound psychological effects on us. After checking with the oncologist, etc. you might ask them about therapy to help you through these episodes. Just a suggestion, as SRS said, YMMV.

kat


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 01 Oct 10 - 01:41 PM

{{{ HUGS }}} dear Michelle. Yes, call the oncologist- why wait? And take that baby out and savor every precious moment.

I'm not trivializing your very real anxiety when I offer you this a quote from a funny comedienne, Loretta Laroche:
Yesterday is history, tomorrow's a mystery.
Today is a gift, that's why they call it the Present!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 01 Oct 10 - 01:10 PM

I think I read somewhere that it takes upwards of a year for all of the healing to finish after major surgery. The tissues are rejoined and all of that, but for the area to stabilize after my surgery, I am sure I went for quite a long time wondering about the tinges or aches I experienced.

On a different surgery, a bunion on my right foot a couple of years later, I remember being able to more closely observe the healing. The surgery area was smaller, it was where I could see it, I could tell how my foot felt and behaved, etc. Again, I'd say it took a year before it seemed healed, and I know it was at least that long before the ultimate test for me - that I could use that foot on a shovel to dig in my garden. Prior to that the foot ached if I tried that move.

You're just far enough past the surgery that it seems like everything should be back up to speed, but it isn't, and it won't be for several months yet. Be careful not to strain anything, etc.

Relax and let your body and your spirit heal. Your mileage may vary from what I've described, but it takes more time than you've given it so far. Give yourself a hug, give Pete and Jeremiah each a hug, and don't overdo with the canning.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 01 Oct 10 - 11:44 AM

I think the smartest thing would be to call the oncologist

And there it is right there-- you really do know what to do. You posted over and over during the chemo that you wanted us all to trust what our bodies are telling us. If that is what you think is the smartest thing to do, apparently you need also to trust your mind's answer to what you body is saying?

I know-- it does not FEEL like you know what to do-- that's normal for most of us!-- but under the fear and panic is the same very smart lady the rest of us know, made even wiser by the cancer experience.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 01 Oct 10 - 11:36 AM

The thing is that I DON'T know what I need to do. The feeling is very much like what I imagine a deer in headlights feels like..where do I go? What happened?

I have been to the local dr. a few times with things that didn't feel right and she just looks at me and tells me things are fine. The Dr. that initally got the ball rolling in December with all the cancer stuff has retired and so I go to the same clinic but I'm not feeling it with this woman. She's very nice but I think because I've been two or three times and it turned up as nothing that she thinks I'm a hypocondriac or something. I hesitate to call her about this because I don't want to be that patient who becomes the one that they no longer believe. If you cry wolf too many times....you get the idea.

Pete reminds me that I have no idea of the incisions made beneath my giant scar, that there is likely some scar tissue, that the baby jumps on my belly sometimes, that Jeremiah does kick my belly sometimes, etc.

It just scares me and I really do NOT know what to do with it. I think the smartest thing would be to call the oncologist as I've told him before about belly pain and he always checks it without question or eye raising. My numbers were the best they've ever been at my last checkup. I practically begged to have them do my numbers once a month but was told that if something was to develop, it would not develop a horrible, untreatable something in the matter of 2 months. I have my doubts about that but my oncologists haven't been wrong about ANYTHING yet. They knew the day my hair would start coming out, they said cancer was *ho-hum* (I can't believe that ANY cancer is HO-HUM to anyone hearing that diagnosis) and my surgeon who was so skittish about saying if I would be ok finally did say not too long ago...you are going to be just fine. I trust this man beyond words and I just need to make peace with it somehow. Both of my oncologists say that the people who do the best are the ones who can say, yep...that was a bump in the road and they keep going. I try very hard to do that....but sometimes that's much harder than it sounds.   

In any case, I am getting myself and Jeremiah out of the house...sometimes that helps a great deal and we have some errands to run anyway.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 01 Oct 10 - 04:08 AM

You know exactly what you need to do, Michelle.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: GUEST,Ebbie, housesitting
Date: 01 Oct 10 - 01:14 AM

{{{{Michelle})))


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 01 Oct 10 - 01:11 AM

Excellent advice, maeve and SRS.


{{{{Michelle}}}}}


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 01 Oct 10 - 12:44 AM

Michelle, as a survivor of uterine cancer, I can tell you that you're not alone, and that as panicked as you might feel right now, your fears are probably unfounded. I'm also missing all of those parts, cervix, uterus, ovaries, fallopian tubes, and a few lymph nodes. I also have occasional aches or twinges, and wonder if maybe something has developed. So far, nothing.

Human bodies are remarkable things, but they have so many moving parts that you have to take a lot into account. I won't get indelicate here, but I will mention that if you were to run over to Sam's Club and pick up a $10 bottle of their Member's Mark Fiber Capsules and take 5 a day every day, that you might find some of these twinges you're worrying about go away. No matter how many veggies you eat, I think you'll find that as a supplement this makes a difference. It is harmless, it is good for you, and is pro-active. You can ask me how I know this. . . :)

Relax. Don't beat yourself up. Get enough exercise (accountability!) every day, and take some fiber to supplement your diet. See if that doesn't help some of what is bothering you.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: maeve
Date: 01 Oct 10 - 12:28 AM

You're not the only one with the late night fears, I assure you.

You are a survivor taking healthy action on behalf of your family. As long as you can also focus on this moment, this precious hour with husband, son, family and friends you will create workable balance. Blessings to you, Michelle.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-MomOmy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 30 Sep 10 - 10:45 PM

Ok. Reality. I have something feeling off in my stomach...kinda feels like a ping pong ball in their. I can't physically feel it with my hands when I press down on my abdomen but I feel it in there. It's been there for maybe 2 weeks. It doesn't usually hurt. If it's still there on Monday, I'm calling the oncologist to see about having a scan done. Of course my absolute worst fear is that the cancer has spread. In my head I hear the numbers of my last test...they were GREAT. The doctors told me everything was fine. I've looked up the symptoms of pancreatic cancer and they don't match up with what I'm feeling. Good. Very good. I'm still waking up in the morning feeling like something bad is pulsating through my veins...it's an acutal physical feeling that I have to talk myself down from or out of every morning. I'm ok. My numbers are ok. Both oncologists wrote letters for me stating no evidence of disease (NED).
       Soooooooo...late at night when my brain has carried this line of thought too far, I freak out. I decided that if the worse case scenario would be to happen, I'd want my family to have things that I made for them out of love. Not stuff I bought but stuff I've made. So...during the last few sleepless nights I've been working on a scarf for my husband. He's been asking me for one since I learned to knit (maybe 2 years ago) and this year, he's going to have his scarf. I wish I knew how to knit more than a scarf but I don't so that is what he will get. I've been working on montages and photo albums as well. I plan to have everything put on DVD and also on flash drives that will be stored in my safety deposit box so my family will always have it. I know it's morbid but I can't help it. I don't think the cancer has spread (although I do worry about it) but on the same hand, if it has, I want something for my husband, child, mother and friend that they can hold close and remember me.
    I think about who might have to clean out my nightstand or go through the stuff on my side of the bed and have been keeping it cleaned up. Silly? Maybe. I hope so. I hope it is a totally useless exercise in keeping things neat and orderly.
    I suppose this is on my mind because it seems that when random people find out I have ovarian cancer they go on to tell me that they know someone with ovarian cancer and how it has spread to their pancreas, stomach, lungs, brain....you get the idea.   I wish they wouldn't share that kind of thing because it scares the snot out of me and fires up my imagination while my logical brain SCREAMS, THAT'S NOT YOU!! CANCER IS SO INDIVIDUAL. THAT SCENARIO IS NOT YOU. BREATHE. BREATHE. BREATHE.
    Today I found a very talented artist and have commissioned a family portrait painting. I want reminders here of the life we live together and the happiness that lives here in this house.
    No wonder I can't sleep at night on my own. My brain is like a runaway train with this.
    *Deep Breath*   I hear Bobert in the distance telling me I am going to be Queen of the 10,000 survivors.....I have every intention of proving him right.

XOXOXOXO

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 23 Sep 10 - 11:44 PM

NO! NEVER! LOL!

Sorry, Michelle, back to Wiggle Worm...or could it be Wiggles? Or, how about "Wiggly" in honour of Uncle Wiggly?. I have several of those books and loved them so much when I was a kid!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: SINSULL
Date: 23 Sep 10 - 08:56 PM

Just so long as it doesn't deteriorate into Bubba.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 23 Sep 10 - 08:29 PM

Morgan has been "Bubby" some of the time, since he was born.:-) Don't know why or which of us even started it, but so far he doesn't seem to mind.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: SINSULL
Date: 23 Sep 10 - 06:51 PM

LOL Lily - he will outgrow that one too fast. When do we get to hear what LilyFestre means? Maybe we can work from there.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 23 Sep 10 - 04:09 PM

I'm partial to JT WiggleWorm. :)

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 22 Sep 10 - 07:26 PM

How about something unique and subtle, like Lagniappe. It's a small gift (often from a merchant to a customer, but it can also simply mean an unexpected gift.)

Pronounced Lan-Yap. It's French. We'd all have to remember how to spell it, though. :)

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: SINSULL
Date: 22 Sep 10 - 06:17 PM

Village of the Damned - sorry.
I think we should start a contest to give Jeremiah a Mudcat name. He can change it if he doesn't like it. Everyone else does.
So, how about J-Boy? LOL
Auntie SINS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: SINSULL
Date: 22 Sep 10 - 08:31 AM

It is amazing to think where we all were a year ago.

Today I received a "Best Scary Face" picture from a Catter whose grandson knew that I wasn't feeling my best. I printed it and hung it on my cubicle to the amusement of all. Kind of Bela Lugosi does Children of the Damned.

Can't wait until Jeremiah is offering his image for the mix. This one will be added to the fridge.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 21 Sep 10 - 08:35 PM

Good! Bout time.

If any of you is interested in the pink book (wish I'd known about teal when I bound it) that Michelle has, if you set this thread to open completely and then toggle "printer friendly," you'll see that it is immense. That's what I printed out. I did and at the time it was about 225 sheets printed double-sided. This is a huge resource if someone outside of Mudcat decides they need to know how the process worked for at least one person.

Turns out there is a family history of ovarian cancer, my mother's sister developed it in old age. She died of emphysema, and was so ill when it was discovered that they didn't treat it. So having the ovaries removed with the other form of cancer may have been a blessing in disguise.

I almost posted earlier, but hesitated to get mushy. I'll just point out now that this family is going to have one heck of a holiday season, when they start looking at all of the things they have to be thankful for. ;-D

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 21 Sep 10 - 08:17 PM

Michelle, it was just a prayer request, with a heads-up that others in the parish have been and/or are dealing with the same thing as you.

My last word on this,

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: jacqui.c
Date: 21 Sep 10 - 07:59 PM

What SINSULL said.

Michelle - as always, I take my hat off to you. You are amazing.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: SINSULL
Date: 21 Sep 10 - 07:05 PM

Lily, as one still in possession of her ovaries, I view you are both a hero and a wealth of information. I sincerely hope I never have to ask for your help. I also hope that if someone could use that help, embarrassment is the last reason for not coming to you. I appreciate privacy. When things are at their worst I rarely share. Just crawl into a shell and stick it out. Each of us deals with our troubles differently.Your ability to be so open with every aspect of your illness has been a gift to the rest of us.Your ability to get on with your life with a husband and new baby is astonishing.
Write that book. I suspect that more than one woman will be grateful for it.
SINS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 21 Sep 10 - 06:48 PM

Very well put, Michelle, and you are to be admired for being so willing to share what you have been through in an effort to ease someone else's path through similar circumstances.

I have often thought of writing a small pamphlet for surgeons/docs to pass out to women facing open heart surgery, things they don't think to tell the patient because women are in the minority when it comes to that kind of surgery. The psychologist and a couple of other docs have told me they think it would be a great help. With your example, I may be ready to do just that.

Proud to *know* you and glad today went well,

kat


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 21 Sep 10 - 06:41 PM

I don't ask people why they are on the prayer list.

There are loads of people with cancer who don't want to talk about it with anyone or other health issues for that matter. It's a personal decision for each person.

People know I have gone through chemo (some know what kind of cancer and others do not but only because they didn't ask) which was obvious from my oh so beautiful snow white bald head, lack of eyebrows, eyelashes etc...it was a visual thing. Otherwise, would they have none? Not unless they were family friends. I didn't make a point of going around in church announcing what my problem was. I did answer when asked though.

Anyway, I totally respect the privacy of anyone of the prayer list. If there is someone there with ovarian cancer and she wants to live quietly with it, that's her choice. I would have LOVED to talk to more women with ovarian cancer when I received my diagnosis but there is a certain hush-hush about gyn. cancers.....and there is a HUGE movement to remove the stigma and silence around it. In any case, it feels really good to know that there was a woman who wanted to talk about it, about what can help with the day to day survival of the ovarian chemo cocktail and that I was able to give her as much information as I could so that she might be able to have even the smallest bit of comfort where she didn't before. I would talk to anyone about it if they were searching for a soul who's been on the path and has a deep understanding of what it really means....if I was asked to.

I'm not sure what I'm saying is coming across clearly but it's the best I can do at the moment.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 21 Sep 10 - 06:13 PM

I'm just letting you know that there are folks around the parish to pray for, around now, that you would not know about because the name is mixed into the list without any details, that's all.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 21 Sep 10 - 05:55 PM

Thanks Sins and Sandra!!! The port accessing went well and it was nice to see some familiar faces at the clinic!! :)

And Susan, I have no idea what you are talking about but clearly everyone handles having cancer differently. I choose to share a good deal of it, if others aren't comfortable doing that, that's fine too.

It's been a good day. :)

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 21 Sep 10 - 12:56 PM

Noting our parish prayer list, Michelle, please know that from time to time, others there have also worked to overcome ovarian cancer, who want only prayer and privacy.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: SINSULL
Date: 21 Sep 10 - 08:57 AM

How lucky Jeremiah is to have a Mom so wise that she knows exactly what is important. I am not here often but I am with you in spirit.
Hugs, little one.
Auntie SINS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 21 Sep 10 - 05:09 AM

you have a lot of wisdom to share, Michelle

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 20 Sep 10 - 11:41 PM

Thanks Bobert!!

About a month ago I was in Ithaca, NY and I was parking my car when I noticed that the car next to me had a teal ovarian cancer ribbon magnet on the back of it. I wrote a note explaining that I had ovarian cancer too and wished her well, leaving my email address. Tonight she contacted me. The owner of the car does not have ovarian cancer but her grandmother does. She was looking for information, practical day to day, how to get through, what to expect, etc. kind of information. I think I spent over an hour writing back. I also shared my phone number and told her that she or her grandmother were welcome to call anytime.

It feels really, REALLY good to be able to share something that might be helpful to someone else....of course you all know that already....but still....my heart feels really good. :)

Sweet dreams my friends,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 20 Sep 10 - 10:05 PM

Still here and still with ya', Michelle... Kinda like relivin' a victory lap... 2nd lap ***ever*** as good as the first one... Keep on truckin'...an' truckin'...an'..........

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 20 Sep 10 - 09:55 PM

Just an update:

Tomorrow I will have my port accessed. It's a short procedure and thankfully they gave me some Lidacaine cream ahead of time so I can numb the spot to make it less painful. On the way home, I'll be stopping at the American Cancer Society to pick up a few new hats. My hair is growing faster than I thought it would but I imagine it will still be plenty short when the colder weather sets in...hence the hats (although I have a pretty nice collection thanks to my friends here at Mudcat!).

No testing tomorrow or anything like that....just a fast needle into my chest....then they suck some blood into the tubing and put it back to make sure all channels of the port are open and working as they should.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 08 Sep 10 - 10:29 AM

Sad news today about Rowan, who was so helpful in LF's journey: http://mudcat.org/thread.cfm?threadid=132000

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 14 Aug 10 - 07:49 PM

I'm posting a link to a video that strikes something deep down in me. The father in this video is to his son what my mom has been to me during my cancer diagnosis and ongoing treatment. I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!

Never Ever Give Up

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 14 Aug 10 - 01:42 PM

deep exhale..... very good news to hear.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 13 Aug 10 - 10:14 PM

YAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how's baby?


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 13 Aug 10 - 10:04 PM

GREAT NEWS!!! My CA-125 test (tumor marker) came back with the lowest numbers yet which is the best possible scenario!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cried for 20 minutes after I got the news....relief, letting go of all the fear.....I am SO THANKFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love, love and Love to every single one of you!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 13 Aug 10 - 02:15 AM

I'll second all that, too

sandra (sending more hugs)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 12 Aug 10 - 08:46 PM

You know that worry doesn't help anything, so try to relax. Have you been to your yoga class for a while? What exercises or breathing techniques will help you through this? Chin up, kiddo! You're doing fine!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 12 Aug 10 - 08:28 PM

Visit with oncologist went well, he said he THINKS everything is good HOWEVER the blood test that gives the absolute answer was not ready to be read when I left. He said he would call me today and leave a message with the results. He did not do that. I am about out of my mind with worry. :(


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 12 Aug 10 - 12:12 PM

You'll be able to keep up with the book by selecting more recent posts and dropping them into a word processor. It's difficult to get just a few late pages to print if you've selected print view, but I suspect if you set up print view and then copy and paste you can capture them.

I'm glad to hear the thyroid readings have indicated adjustment - in the sense that once that is at the correct level the rest of this will be more comfortable to anticipate.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 12 Aug 10 - 10:56 AM

Fingers crossed on those numbers...

Forget the hair... It's just friggin' hair... Get a BIC razor and let yer freek flag fly!!!

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 12 Aug 10 - 09:38 AM

Yay for hair, and lots of loving thoughts for your appointment today. When is Jeremiah's court date?


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 11 Aug 10 - 08:55 PM

I'll second all that

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 11 Aug 10 - 05:45 PM

yes thanks for keeping us informed... more good nergy headed your way.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: gnu
Date: 11 Aug 10 - 04:24 PM

Hair hair!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 11 Aug 10 - 04:14 PM

Thanks for the updates, Michelle. Keep those fears at bay with the knowledge that prayers, thanks-givings, etc. are still here for you and your family. One step at a time, you have done it and ARE doing it, very well.

kat


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 11 Aug 10 - 01:52 PM

Jeremiah turned 5 months old yesterday and he is now a well integrated part of our life! His court date is coming up soon and we'll all breathe a big sigh of relief when everything is final.

In other news, tomorrow I go for my first post-chemo checkup where they will take blood from my port and check the CA-125 levels. I am hoping the numbers have stayed nice and low....any significant rise indicates tumor activity. Any good thoughts and prayers would be more than appreciated! To be honest, it scares the hell out of me.

I've been feeling pretty darn good....still pretty tired but I just found out today (at a local doctor appointment) that my thyroid medication needs to be raised and I need prescription levels of vitamin D...both of which should help my energy levels! YAY! My hair is growing (sorry Bobert) and I have eyebrows and (small) eyelashes again!!! HOORAY! My hair had been coming in almost white and now it's fairly dark and so SOOOOO soft!!! One of my friends says it's like "baby bird fur." :)

The book that was made from this thread sits on my piano and I thumb through it almost daily, opening it to random spots taking in all of your love and support. :)

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: katlaughing
Date: 09 Aug 10 - 11:09 PM

Hey, Michelle, how's that head of hair coming? And, that gorgeous little boy...still outgrowing his clothes, I'll bet. It doesn't doesn't stop, btw. I just measured Morgan-the Grandson and he's grown another 1.5 inches since March. He'll be 7 in November!

Hope all is well.

luvyakat


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 26 Jul 10 - 12:45 PM

A Mudelf will be able to fix that: http://watchmyhairgrow.shutterfly.com/

Been out washing dawgs. They each have a new collar (no skunk smell embedded!) and I'll be fixing their Invisible Fence collars later today. I have to drill those and put the receivers on.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 26 Jul 10 - 12:44 PM

Well, that link isn't working for some reason but you can see the photo at:

www.watchmyhairgrow.shutterfly.com


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 26 Jul 10 - 12:42 PM

Ok...this album is JUST the start so there isn't much here, but I wanted you to be able to see the sign....

My Survivor Sign Made By Tracy

XOXOXOXO

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 26 Jul 10 - 11:34 AM

My package arrived today.

Breakfast was cooking....english muffins in the toaster, eggs on the stove and me ignoring it all to open my package.

I carefully cut through the tape and couldn't believe what I found.....this ENTIRE thread printed out and spiral bound!!! Knowing me like you do, I'm sure it comes as no surprise that I stood and cried. I am overwhelmed with your kindness and seeing the entire story there in front of me....I can't believe it. There's so much there...so many tears went into so many of those posts and so much love.....this is a gift that I will treasure forever and ever. I randomly opened the book to different pages and read....there are things that I remember clearly and other details that I had forgotten already.
    Thank you. Thank you. THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Somehow words don't seem adequate but know that I absolutley love that everything was printed out and bound.....something that contains a good deal of my heart and soul as well as all of you....I sometimes wonder if you know just how much you all have helped me through the last 7 months?
    At the Relay for Life, my friend Tracy made 2 signs...one for her and one for me. She had told me she was going to do it, asking me for my favorite colors and then for the names of the people who I couldn't have done without. So..there's my name: Michelle Lawrence, SURVIVOR along with Pete, Mom, Linda, Laurie AND MUDCAT!!!! I will post a photo of it soon.....I hope the message I'm trying to convey is coming across as thank you with all my heart. And I love you. XOXOXOXOOXOX

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: GUEST,USPS postal pixie
Date: 26 Jul 10 - 11:27 AM

Check your mail today!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 26 Jul 10 - 10:05 AM

Yeah, I'm all fir "a trim"... Think razor here... Eeeeowwwww.... Bald womenz is sexy...

Ya'll want yard sales??? Well, there one weekend every year where the entire Route 11 corridor which runs thru the Shenandoah Valley is yard sale weekend so ya end up with a hundred miles of 'um... I mean, thousands and thousands of up up and down the highway... Somethin' to behold... Bring money... Small bills... Bring yer station wagon, too...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Ebbie
Date: 25 Jul 10 - 07:45 PM

Oh- Michelle, how is your hair growth coming along? Time for a trim? Don't forget to post pictures.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Severn
Date: 24 Jul 10 - 11:35 PM

Best of thoughts, Chemo Sabe, from a fellow survivor. You've inspired us all!

I never had to deal with a port, so good luck with that. And the experience of getting to know your body again and coming to terms with it (as opposed to resigning yourself to it). Keep doing things and finding ways of pleasantly surprising yourself on your path forward.

You seem to have wonderful in-home support. I had Mudcat support helping me get through a few crises, and I'm pleased and proud to be giving some back.

Take care.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 24 Jul 10 - 04:28 PM

I saw signs for several garage sales this weekend, but it is hot, then it rained. And when I saw the signs it was too late in the day - most of the good stuff was probably gone. How did your garage sale work out, Michelle? They are so much work!

I've decided the best time to have one is on the first weekend of the month, if possible. It's the day right after payday, when people are more likely to have cash in their pockets.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 23 Jul 10 - 06:05 PM

Well, twice in the past week I've posted stuff that never showed up! Hmmm..

Hope these good cheers make their way. The docs were right about your transformation, dear one- you are a joy to watch!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 23 Jul 10 - 02:39 PM

Cancer certainly was a wake up call for me on many levels and I don't think you can go through it without learning to look at things in a new way. Sometimes I find myself thinking the way I used to and then wonder what the heck my problem is!!! I am much more appreciative of each day and for the love and kindness of people in my life....including all of you!!!

And watch my mailbox? *PERK* Now I'm curious and all excited!!! But then again, most of you know that I'm really a 12 year old at heart....how thoughtful of you all!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait!!

Our multi family yard sale is today and I've been there for most of the morning and afternoon with Baby Jeremiah. It is now upwards of 85 degrees...far too hot for the little one to sleep in his seat and he is now getting fussy so I brought him to Nana's house which is nearby. He's snoozing and I'm taking a break. :)

Love to all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 23 Jul 10 - 02:04 AM

Michelle, we've all noticed the new confidence. It's a wonderful transformation. Cancer kind of helps you sort out what's really important, doesn't it? I found that to be the case.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: GUEST, All Of Us at Mudcat
Date: 22 Jul 10 - 11:18 PM

Michelle, Sweetheart,

Watch Your Mail.

With Love, all of your Mudcat Friends


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 21 Jul 10 - 06:26 AM

Michelle, it has been a honour watching your journey

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 20 Jul 10 - 11:01 PM

Goodonya!

Speaking scientifically, a large part of that is the tears and the re-evaluation that occurs after the cleansing kind of tears. I have a book for you about it, to pass along to Miss Vee/new mommy. Will bring Sat'day.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 20 Jul 10 - 06:44 PM

Thanks for the good thoughts and prayers...they worked!!! The Dr. said everything looks great! I have to go back in 3 months. He also said that I win the award for the most transformed patient he has ever had...going from a very fearful, tearful, timid person to one that is beaming with confidence. :) I think it has something with all the writing I did, being able to express myself (or at least tried to) and the support I found...which you are all part of! YAY!!!!!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 20 Jul 10 - 04:04 PM

LF, I've been out running around and you have been in my prayers.

~S~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 20 Jul 10 - 03:12 PM

maybe a bit late but I'm right here doll baby.... positive thoughts at the ready...


ready.... aim.... fire....

zinging across the Atlantic.....


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 20 Jul 10 - 04:26 AM

add some good thoughts from me to the mix

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 20 Jul 10 - 01:49 AM

Been there, done that. It's nice to leave the oncologists behind and just go back to the normal doctors, if you can. When appropriate. My ob/gyn assisted with the big surgery -- the oncologist said he usually invites the referring surgeon to assist, but they don't always have time. I called Suzanne's nurse and begged with her to talk Suzanne into being there, and she was! She is very good, and does such tidy stitching and was pleased when I remarked later that I never could find the stitch that was supposed to be in my navel. She has a special trick for that, apparently. :)

Anyway, the regular folks are always glad to have you back when you're finished with the specialists!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Bobert
Date: 19 Jul 10 - 10:04 PM

Good thoughts here, as well...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: jacqui.c
Date: 19 Jul 10 - 09:05 PM

Good luck Michelle - here's hoping that all goes well.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 19 Jul 10 - 09:04 PM

Tomorrow morning I have my second post-op check up with my surgical oncologist....any good thoughts would be appreciated.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 14 Jul 10 - 09:06 PM

Ah yes. The port flush. It wasn't so bad. I had misplaced the numbing cream so I stopped by the clinic before we went to lunch and they gave me a new tube of it and the plastic covering. I had a new nurse for the port flush which made me kind of nervous...never know how long they have been doing it, etc. She was very good! I talked to her for a minute before parking myself in the big chair and I got kinda teary. She gracefully tried to distract me with chit chat and I let her...it helps. It took all of about 5 minutes to flush the port with saline and heparin and then to remove the needle. It really did go better than I was anticipating.

Next week I have an appointment with my surgeon for a check-up.

After they flushed my port, I walked Jeremiah over to the House of Care where he got to meet the woman who runs the house...she has been looking forward to meeting him so that was fun!!!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 14 Jul 10 - 06:02 PM

I've been without internet again, but now I can say: HOORAY FOR MICHELLE! You've been in my heart all week leading up to the Relay, and you're in my heart today. Let us know how you feel after the port treatment!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 14 Jul 10 - 10:43 AM

what an amazing day & congratulations to all who participated.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 14 Jul 10 - 02:47 AM

what a Love you are!

Viking helmet indeed you have regularly plundered our hearts (and most welcome too)with your experiences. chuckle....

With that baby to fill your time and mind, you may surprised to find that soon the nasty disease and all the nasty treatments will be little more than a faint unpleasant memory. Learn to attach a good thing to each unpleasant bit. How kind this nurse was, the day you met this person, this milestone passed, etc. and so on to make the memories positive.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby over $1,200 for relay!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 13 Jul 10 - 10:27 PM

Well, I think I have finally caught my breath from this past weekend! The Relay was incredible and brought about lots of emotion...as expected.

Jeremiah and I arrived at the Relay around 9:00am. The relay didn't start until 10:00 but I wanted to be early....just to have time to settle in and people watch. My team tent was in a prime spot for this...right at the base of one of two paths leading to the track. Before long, my friend Tracy showed up with her BF. She had hand painted 2 signs...one for her and one for me...they had our names on it, the word SURVIVOR and then the names of people who have helped us through. I'm happy to share that MUDCAT was painted on my sign!!!

Before the actual relay started, my mom, Tracy and I went nosing around the track to see what some of the other teams had set up. The truth is, I never did really find that out because I was too busy stopping along the way to talk to people and to share Jeremiah. When the opening ceremonies began, I was at another tent and because the first lap is really a parade of all teams, we had to jump in line when our team went by because we weren't at our tent! The morning passed quickly and before I knew it, it was time to get some lunch and get Jeremiah to his doctor appointment (which went just fine). Jeremiah and I went back to the Relay for a few hours and then left to get my husband for the survivor's lap. As it turned out, the sky was black and when it began to thunder, we were sent to the high school gym. The gym bleachers were FULL. Standing room only. A few remarks were made, a raffle ticket was drawn for a quilt and then there was the Survivor's Lap. All the survivors, many of us wearing a dark purple t-shirt given to us by the American Cancer Society, lined up facing one way. Our caregives lined up facing another way. Music played as we walked in our directions meeting halfway. At that point, people were hugging one another (even if we didn't know the people) and lots of tears were flowing. The Relay Committee Members formed two lines down the center of the gym floor making a tunnel of sorts and the survivors, paired with their caregivers walked through the tunnel to a standing ovation. I had the purple t-shirt on and I was also wearing a viking helmet complete with a teal (for ovarian cancer) boa hanging from my horns (got lots of giggles and smiles). I thought I would cry for this, but I didn't....I was so overwhelmed with the number of people and feeling very proud to be there with my husband....we linked arms and wheeled Jeremiah through the tunnel, stopping at the end to cheer others on. It was AMAZING. Afterwards, they had entertainment in the form of a dance troupe....or maybe the dance people came before the survivor's lap...I don't remember. Anyway, they were good!!! Afterwards we went home. I got back up at 3am to walk for my allotted time. It was still very dark out and I was really, REALLY tired but kept telling myself, cancer never sleeps. Cancer never sleeps. Cancer never sleeps and neither will I!!! The morning walk was actually very nice...it was cool out, the rain had stopped and Mom and I walked until dawn. At 7 or so, they announced a morning yoga class in front of the bleachers...you KNOW I went to that. Mom kept walking. I kicked off my shoes in the wet, muddy grass and stretched myself silly. Later that morning I put tickets into various raffle bags (they had a Chinese raffle and I had purchased the tickets the day before...just hadn't used them all) and relaxed a bit.
   I walked until my hips hurt. It was more activity for me than I had done in months....so yeah...it hurt but I had SUCH a good time that I didn't much care. During the 24 hours that this took place, they had all kinds of music going, lots of raffles, food and activities.....talk about a community coming together!!!
    I ended up raising very close to $1200.00. As a whole, the Wellsboro Relay for Life made over $110,000.00!!! Now THAT is something to be excited about!
    What's next? Hopefully a return to a somewhat normal life. I am looking forward to being Mommy and taking care of both of the men in my life and our home. I know the chemotherapy is over but there are still check ups every month and a half (staggered between my surgeon and my chemo doctor). I have to have my port flushed every thirty days and then in a few months, I have to have the port taken back out (not looking forward to that at all). I'm excited to tell you that my hair is coming back in (sorry Bobert!!) and if you are face to face with me, you can actually see it! I still look bald in my photos but I'm not!!!! Mostly I am looking forward to staying healthy and making the most of my life with my family.
    Tomorrow my mom will drive Jeremiah and I to the hospital where I will have my port flushed which means they will put that giant ass needle in my chest AGAIN. I have cream to help numb it (although it doesn't do the trick entirely) and it won't take long and I don't need any more meds pumped into me....trying to keep a positive eye on this. Also, I've received a letter from the woman who runs the House of Care and she misses me and has asked that I stop by. My friend Tracy is there for the week so maybe I'll get some time with her too (she's staying at the House of Care....not a patient in the hospital....just having multiple appointments). Afterwards, we are headed to a farmer's market, something I love to do!!!
    I'm sure I've left things out about the Relay but suffice it to say that it was a totally memorable event filled with friendships and love and I can't wait to do it again. Thank you to everyone for all your support!!

Love to all! Pictures to come soon!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby over $1,200 for relay!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 11 Jul 10 - 11:31 PM

So Rose Red is better than Snow White, eh?

So you've finished the cancer, you've finished the walk, you have a baby keeping you busy. This thread has certainly run an amazing course.

I hate to ask what's next - it's hard to top getting over cancer. :)

What projects do you have in mind, or is it some concentrated Mommy time for a little while? (That isn't a bad choice, by any means. I took 9 years off, all told, to raise my kids.)

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby over $1,200 for relay!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 11 Jul 10 - 11:10 PM

pink head? pink wig!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby over $1,200 for relay!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 11 Jul 10 - 01:28 PM

I will be posting soon....too much to do and not enough oomph to post what I want to just yet....but I will (and soon I hope!)

Michelle with a slightly sunburned noggin. (kinda on purpose....didn't put tons of sunscreen on as my head was snow white and thought a little sun might tone it down some!)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby over $1,200 for relay!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 11 Jul 10 - 08:49 AM

She mus' be bizzeh with babeh

She came, she saw, she conquered-- she slept. Isn't that all of us wimminz way? :~)

What makes we'uns wimminzes 'ottehs.

You Latin-speakers-- would that be, "Vini, vidi, vinci, dormi"?

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby over $1,200 for relay!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 11 Jul 10 - 03:18 AM

ditto


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 10 Jul 10 - 02:19 PM

Good Work! Well done, and I'm glad you enjoyed it!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Noreen
Date: 10 Jul 10 - 02:14 PM

Well done you! Sleep well :)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 10 Jul 10 - 12:52 PM

The Relay was EXCELLENT! I raised just about $1,200.00....many thanks to those of you who helped with that!! This small community raised over $110,000.00!!! That's a new record and one that I am very excited about!!! I have been up since 3am and am exhuasted. I normally walk about 3500 steps a day lately (I wear a pedometer) but as of right now, I have in over 12,000 steps in. I'm tired and on my way to bed....more later on....I wish this event would go on for a week...I absolutely enjoyed ALL OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: wysiwyg
Date: 10 Jul 10 - 11:54 AM

It was a good Relay (would have ended about 2 hours ago), and wee Jeremiah was so cute in his togs! I got to meet and re-connect with a few people despite some limits on my participation due to ministry constraints and weather. I did enjoy scootering the track and visiting with walkers.

Hardi and I are both wondering how the infield held up after the deluge that broke the heat and drought last night, all over the Relay folks. We were told that they had all been ordered off the track and into the HS-- when LF looks in I am sure she will report more. I do know she raised a boodle of cash for the cause-- kudos!

Looking forward to next year's laps,

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 09 Jul 10 - 12:29 AM

;-D

Did I mention, Michelle, that I've actually been to Wellsboro? My father's family had a house in Salladasburg, south of there. I was visiting my great aunts one summer and we went for a drive and ended up there. It was a beautiful little place. Enjoy your walk!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Bobert
Date: 08 Jul 10 - 08:34 AM

Hurrrrrummmptttt!!!

I wasn't tryin' to be "silly"... I just find bald womenz very sexy... Fir real... I mean, look around ya'... Plenty of womenz got plenty of hair... Might of fact, we gotta a surplus of the stuff... Need a little balance...

I donno...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 07 Jul 10 - 09:46 PM

do you have tiny little curls?

Some years back I knew a woman whose hair was re-growing after chemo & she had a cap of soft silky little curls, like baby hair under her stylish wig. She would often sweep off her wig to show her off new curls!

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 07 Jul 10 - 08:58 PM

LOL.

Request denied!!!

LOL!!!

I had a photo taken of my hair today and I'll post a link to it just for you! SILLY, SILLY MAN!!!! ;)

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Bobert
Date: 07 Jul 10 - 08:19 PM

Ahhhhh, seein' as I have sent out my check is there any way I could make one small, little bitty request??? I think ya'd look great without hair growin' back... I'll send you a razor???

B;~)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 07 Jul 10 - 07:19 PM

YAY Bobert!!!   Thank you!!!! HOORAY!!!!! SMOOCH!!!!

Anyone else? I could use a few more sponsors! The Relay begins on Friday morning which is only 2 days away! I'm putting up a link to my American Cancer Society Relay for Life website where you can easily (and securely) make an online donation! It doesn't take long and is tax deductable too! I am hoping to raise another $100.00 and any amount you can share will get me closer to my goal! Please consider it!!!!!

Please Help Sponsor Me in the Relay For Life!!

Love to you all!!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Bobert
Date: 06 Jul 10 - 12:40 PM

Sorry to read that yer still havin' some bone pain... I'd bet it completely gone in a week...

Sent out my Relay check today...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 06 Jul 10 - 10:49 AM

what a great garden - is that what you do in your spare time?

there are some lovely pics of you & family. how's baby going?


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 06 Jul 10 - 10:45 AM

What an amazing journey. Thanks for updating that, Michelle!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 06 Jul 10 - 09:45 AM

I didn't sleep much last night (although Jeremiah did) and I'm having some bone pain in my knees....not sure what that's about. I'm just about 3 weeks out from my last chemo so I shouldn't be having bone pain...GRRRRR. Anyway, while I was awake, I updated my montage and thought I'd share.

Michelle's Montage Update

Love to all!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 05 Jul 10 - 09:43 PM

While you can't take your dog to the upcoming Relay For Life in Wellsboro, the American Cancer Society does have an event that you can take your dog to....check it out:

Bark For Life

Michelle :)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 05 Jul 10 - 01:40 PM

I would say no. I don't recall seeing any animals at the Relay For Life. You could ask Sonee G....she would know for sure.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: wysiwyg
Date: 05 Jul 10 - 11:34 AM

A week from today Faulkner will have a lump removed and biopsied-- hopefully his last, tho I doubt it.

Do dogs go in Relay, on leashes?

~S~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: jacqui.c
Date: 03 Jul 10 - 12:23 PM

He is gorgeous - such a happy looking little guy. Congratulations to you all and I'm so glad that the home visit set your mind at rest.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: wysiwyg
Date: 30 Jun 10 - 10:54 AM

Bragbragbrag

Been's as we'uns iz local, we gitz to SEE him.

Can haz hugs?

~S~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 30 Jun 10 - 10:33 AM

he is sooo cute

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 30 Jun 10 - 08:05 AM

You know that we here cannot see YOU as anything less than radiantly beautiful.
I'm on another forum (gasp) called Ravelry.com that has buttons you can click: Agree, Love, Funny, etc. I've come to look for the "agree" button wherever I go- if I could, I'd click it big time for your comment!

Does anyone else here just long to hug that beautiful baby?


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 30 Jun 10 - 07:59 AM

Susan,

   I have some goodies coming for the Relay, one of which is a button that says, "Chemo is ovr, I kin haz hair now?" LOL

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 30 Jun 10 - 07:56 AM

VT,

    :) :) :) ((((Hugs)))))

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 30 Jun 10 - 02:42 AM

Michelle! You know that we here cannot see YOU as anything less than radiantly beautiful.

Thanks anyway for the pics of the Little man. Such a darling.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: wysiwyg
Date: 29 Jun 10 - 11:13 PM

Huh, jes tell your menzes that soon you will have more hair than ALL of them put together!

~S~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 29 Jun 10 - 07:32 PM

WOOOO HOOOOOO!!!!

    SRS, Allison and Mary...thank you SO SO much for your donations to help support me in my walk against cancer!!   I can't believe I've topped $500.00....actually, I'm very close to $600.00 now!!! Dare I set my goal to $750.00? I think so!!!!!!
    C'mon Mudcatters....help me out! Any amount is WONDERFUL!!!! It's easy to do right online AND it's tax deductable!!! Here's the link: Relay for Life Donations for Michelle Lawrence

YAY!!!! Thanks again!!!!!

Much Love,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Noreen
Date: 29 Jun 10 - 06:23 PM

jeremiahthomaslawrence.shutterfly.com/pictures

Pleased to meet you, Michelle! :)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 29 Jun 10 - 06:01 PM

Whoo Hooo! I have been kind of out of circulation, but it dawned on me that I hadn't sent my donation for the

Angel Walkers team for Michelle Lawrence.

So I did, and guess what?

She is over the top on her goal!!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 29 Jun 10 - 05:48 PM

New photos are up! www.jeremiahthomaslawrence.shutterfly.com


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 29 Jun 10 - 05:28 PM

To be honest, I have only a few photos of Jeremiah and Mommy. I don't like how I look....definitely NOT like a mommy. I still look like the creepy albino guy in the B rated horror flicks.....everybody is afraid of him but really, he's a gentle soul that is just misunderstood.

I know Jeremiah doesn't care. He's never seen me any other way except bald...although lately Pete has taken to calling me Sprout because I do have LOTS of little white (or very, very blonde) hair coming in!

I do think my bald head causes lots of people to stare, especially in this small town community. Now I have a baby that looks different from me and that creates a stir too. I'm getting quite used to it!

So...ok...let me see if I have a picture to add to Jeremiah's website: www.jeremiahthomaslawrence.shutterfly.com

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 29 Jun 10 - 04:42 PM

I want to see more baby pictures. I particularly want to wee some baby interacting with mom pictures.

Where's da pictures?


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: gnu
Date: 29 Jun 10 - 03:35 PM

sniff, sniff...


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: ClaireBear
Date: 29 Jun 10 - 03:32 PM

That's fabulous news. Congratulations, happy family!

Michelle, I continue to be in awe of you and thrilled for you, in equal measure. You go girl!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 29 Jun 10 - 11:01 AM

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Noreen
Date: 29 Jun 10 - 08:48 AM

Great news!
You can relax about EVERYTHING now, and just get on with being a happy family.

How lovely.

Hugs to everyone.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Bobert
Date: 29 Jun 10 - 08:41 AM

Whew... Got that one outta the way, too... Clear sailin' now, Michelle...

BTW, I will get a check out to ya' in a day or two for Relay...

"Hey" to J(eremiah)...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 29 Jun 10 - 07:54 AM

♫☼HOORAY!!☼♬ Jeremiah so clearly belongs to you and Pete- it's wonderful when others see that as well.

Love to you all♡♥♡♥♡


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 29 Jun 10 - 04:00 AM

another great day for your family

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: wysiwyg
Date: 28 Jun 10 - 11:15 PM

TBTG!

~S~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 28 Jun 10 - 10:15 PM

sorry..hit the submit by mistake...anyway, both doctors wrote letters stating that I had a complete hysterectomy, underwent a rigorous series of chemotherapy with no lasting side effects and there is no sign of disease. HOORAY!!! The real test for today was talking to our worker. She arrived and we discussed Jeremiah, the things he likes, what he's eating, his health, etc and then she said that everything looked good and was glad that everything was going smoothly. That's when we told her about the cancer (I was wearing my wig). She was GREAT about it and thanked us for being honest with her. She asked me if I was worried that she would take the baby and I told her that I have been concerned about it. She said there was no way she was going to take the baby away from us and that she felt we were doing an excellent job!!! I am SOOO relieved! I was SO afraid that she might take Jeremiah. It's been weighing on my mind heavily because it wouldn't just affect Jeremiah and myself but also my husband (and Mom too) who is absolutely in love with this sweet little boy.
    :) It's been a good day. Thank God for answered prayers.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 28 Jun 10 - 10:09 PM

Today we had our 2nd homestudy. The first one happened last year, long before Jeremiah was even born. Our house is in great shape so I wasn't worried about THAT part. I was, however, worried about sharing what has been going on with my health for the past 7 months. I didn't know if people who had so recently gone through chemotherapy would be allowed to adopt a child. I researched it and found that some agencies require that you have to be cancer free for a year...some countries require a 5 year cancer free report from the doctor. I called the American Cancer Society to discuss the situation. They felt things would be fine but gave me 2 legal advocate offices should the need arise. I called my ob/gyn oncologist and my chemo oncologist who both wrote me letters stating that I had a hysterectoy, underwent rigorous chemotherapy without


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 21 Jun 10 - 10:03 PM

sleep well, busy person

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 21 Jun 10 - 08:05 PM

I did a lot this mornig while Jeremiah napped but then I lost my oomph. Met my Mom and Grandma for some iced tea and then hit the grocery store where I spent half an hour making photo prints for friends and family. Grocery shopping on top of that....Mama figured out how to use the car carrier in the shopping cart seat so baby doesn't have to touch the icky store cart. *all proud of myself* Jeremiah behaved himself very well. Mommy is tired and cranky...pulled something in my belly near my incision. ARG. Too much hoisting the baby in his car seat I'm afraid. No more for the next few days....ok, well...visiting some friends but really...it's all home time from now on for a bit. Chemo is whooping my butt energy wise...I NEED to slow down.

Dinner is done, chores for the day are done and my Relay site is up and running...YAY.

Night all.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: wysiwyg
Date: 21 Jun 10 - 04:01 PM

A tip is just a tip-- sometimes, to save for later.

You will find, though, that just about as soon as you get used a particular schedule-- his growth will change it. A large part of parenting is the mental gymnastics to keep up with the inevitable changes. We're usually just a tad behind their curve! :~) One of the lovely things about children, especially babies-- they really do wake up each day practically a new person.

My younger brother had a great paradigm for this with his infant son. He explained to me that Nick had recently arrived from a different planet than the rest of us, and that his job as Dad was to respect that Nick had his own way as well as to show him, "But this is how we Earth people do things, and you'll want to know our ways, too." He saw his role (partly) as being the ambassador between Nick and the new world he was growing into.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 21 Jun 10 - 12:19 PM

Regarding Jeremiah.

He sleeps quite a bit and we are on somewhat of a schedule now...needs to be tweaked a little bit but really, I think he does very well.

In the evening he falls asleep around 9:00 or so and then wakes up anywhere between 11:00 and midnight for a diaper change and feeding. Then he is AWAKE. Bright eyes, cooing, smiling. He plays for maybe 30 minutes to an hour (despite mommy not playing...he's totally interested in his hands)and then drops off to sleep for the night. Up for a diaper change and feeding between 3:30 and 4:30....drops back to sleep until 5:00-5:30 at which point he is UP and wants active play. We play with him and then he goes back to sleep which really works out fine with us. That gives me time in the morning to do morning household chores, make breakfast, pack Pete's lunch and some quiet time with Pete (breakfast conversations are always the best time of day here). Jeremiah is back up at 9:00ish and we begin our day.
   
I'm sure he will sleep through the night soon enough. Right now, I'll settle for 5 hours of sleep at once. :)

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: wysiwyg
Date: 21 Jun 10 - 12:09 PM

Another hot tip to address babies who flip their schedules, mixing up night and day-- turn down (around 9PM), and then OFF (at 10), all the lights in the house. Keep any night-time babytending very, very dim, quiet, lowkey. Give attention, but not playtime. Their brains figger it out from there if we do not over-stimulate them with light, noise, and facial responsiveness. You act sleepy, they get the idea before too long.

~S~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 21 Jun 10 - 11:36 AM

Here's a direct link to make a donation to the American Cancer Society for me!

Donate to The Relay For Life in Michelle's Name

WOOO HOOOOO!!!! YEEE HAAWWWWW!!!!

Thanks in advance!!!!!!!

Love to all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 21 Jun 10 - 11:12 AM

Michelle, a feeding tip: Kids form habits, so if Jeremiah expects to be fed at midnight and 4am, he'll wake at midnight and 4am. But if he gets a bottle of water at midnight or 4 am (you might want to take out one of those feedings at a time, not both), then he'll stop waking up wanting it after a few attempts because water just isn't as exciting to wake up for! Check with one of the nursing books (La Leche League has some good ones) to see what the number of feedings at any given age are recommended. He may be a little young yet to go all night without, but you might manage to do a feeding at bedtime, then one very early, and then the regular daytime feedings.

I'll go into the web site and see about making a donation.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 21 Jun 10 - 10:36 AM

Tinker,

   That's the page!!! YAY!!! I am Michelle Lawrence (there are a couple Michelle's!). THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!   I am working on my personal page for the team too via the ACS! Cool beans!

Susan,

    As far as I know, that's fine. Our team captain was going to ask about it at the last meeting just to be sure...don't know why it wouldn't be. If you are leaving it there for the duration and others would be permitted to use it, I'd like to request it for the Survivor's Lap (first thing) for my friend Tracy....she is currently undergoing all kinds of physcial and occupational therapy but a lap around the track would just be too much for her.

Cool beans! I love when things work out!

Love,

Michelle and Jeremiah (who is going to the Relay with a onsie that reads, "I wear teal for my mommy!"


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: wysiwyg
Date: 21 Jun 10 - 09:53 AM

LF, I am still planning to park my scooter at Relay for the duration, for my use, yours, and anyone who needs it.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Tinker
Date: 21 Jun 10 - 09:45 AM

I think this will bring you to your team page

Angel Walkers


If this is right people can contribute to any individual by clicking on their name or make a whole team donation.

If you make a link to your personal page ( I absolutely spaced on which Michelle you might be...BG) ( IF you are yet a third Michelle click join team and go from there) People can contribute from your page toward your goal and we can all watch the numbers grow....


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 21 Jun 10 - 09:36 AM

Count me in- and PayPal is a great idea. I've been off the puter again but just chiming in to celebrate a new day, and the great news about Relay for Life!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 21 Jun 10 - 08:16 AM

Tinker,

   I am walking in the Wellsboro, PA Relay For Life which is being held on July 9th & 10th. :) I am on the Angel Walker Team that is part of the Niles Valley United Methodist Church. :)

I'll have to check that out! I'm sure you can donate to the national site but no sure how that works with teams. Thanks for the heads info!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Tinker
Date: 21 Jun 10 - 08:13 AM

What town is your Relay for Life walk in? The main site should let us donate once you and you team are registered. I found Hanover and Windber in Pennsylvania on that date.....


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: LilyFestre
Date: 21 Jun 10 - 06:19 AM

Up early with a playful Jeremiah. *yawn*

About the Relay. I am going to take it easy, I promise. I am going to walk at the opening ceremony for the survivor lap and then for the first half hour of the event.....right around 10:00am. Then at 4:00am I am scheduled to walk another 30 minutes.....everything is at my own pace, of course. I am on a team so there are plenty of people to keep walking during the 24 hour event. Pete and I are taking a tent and I plan to be there for the full 24 hours. My mom will be there for part of the event too as will Jeremiah. I'm not planning on having him there for the full 24 hours....his nana will be more than happy to have him for the night. Also, if it's too hot, I will walk when I'm supposed to and go to Mom's house for the in-between times....guess I'll just have to play it by ear. I'm really excited about the relay though....I have a shirt just for this event and I'm going to wear my viking helmet draped with a teal boa for the survivor lap! Since it's a local event, I know lots of the people participating and that will make it fun too. There is an open invitation at our team camp site for people to just come hang out and visit for as long as they want. It's all about supporting one another and helping to raise money for local assistance and research. :)

I'm hoping today is the end of the bone pain and that maybe Jeremiah and Mommy can take a snooze a little later on. The little stinkpot thinks play time is around midnight and then again at 4:30am or so. He's all bright eyed and smiley...cooing away...can't possibly be upset with him but I AM tired!!!!   Happy and tired. :)

Thanks for your donations.....WOOOO HOOOOO!!!!!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby makes 3 Relay for Life
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 20 Jun 10 - 10:24 PM

Michelle, try to get PayPal in there and you'll get even more folks donating, is my guess. I can donate either way.

Early July is pretty close, so PLEASE PROMISE us that you'll take every precaution to stay hydrated, rest when you need to, and sit out the end if you have to. Okay? No donations are going away if this event is too soon after you finished chemo to do the whole thing. We'd rather have you stay healthy than finish the race and make yourself feel bad again.

Okay. Soapbox off. :)

This is certainly going to be a year you won't quickly forget.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: SINSULL
Date: 20 Jun 10 - 08:51 PM

Me too.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: Bobert
Date: 20 Jun 10 - 08:28 PM

Count me in fir $20... Hey, it's a start...

Relay is such a fine organization...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 20 Jun 10 - 07:37 PM

Hello Friends,

    In just a few short weeks, the actual date being July 9th and 10th, I am going to be walking in the American Cancer Society Relay for Life. I am looking for donations or people to sponsor me for this amazing event! My goal is to raise $500.00 for my team, The Angel Walkers. I am not one to ask for donations and I hesitate to ask any of you here because you have ALL been so incredibly supportive of me in more ways than I can count.....BUT.....the money raised for The Relay For Life is something I have also benefited from (transportation reimbursement for my many trips downstate for treatment, wigs, counseling, support groups, help to find my way through the medical maze) and I know how it important it has been for me. The money is raised for the things I've mentioned but also for education and research for ALL cancers. I think that's an important point to make as we all know and love people who have had cancer that isn't breast or colon (although reasearch for those is very important too...just saying they aren't THE ONLY cancers out there). Would you please consider helping me to meet my goal?
    I am working on getting a site set up with the Relay For Life so donations can be made with a credit card for those who prefer to do things that way. In the meantime, if you would like to help, you can send me a check (PM me for my mailing address please) made out to The American Cancer Society. They will send you an acknowledgement and receipt for tax purposes. Every bit helps. EVERY SINGLE CENT.
    Thanks for giving it some thought! Commercial over. For now. *GRIN*

Love to you all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 20 Jun 10 - 01:17 PM

What a fabulous Fathers Day this must be for Pete! Have a great time, all of you, and take it easy since you're at that painful stage. Even if you do a rain check, today will still be very special.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 19 Jun 10 - 11:52 PM

I'll second that!

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: maeve
Date: 19 Jun 10 - 08:00 PM

I am happy for you, Michelle.

maeve


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 19 Jun 10 - 07:52 PM

Ahhhhhhhhhh.   A day at home. Lots of playtime with my son. Assembling the pack and play (OMGosh....this thing is RIDICULOUS and wonderful all at once!) with Pete. Jeremiah loves his new play space!

My bones are hurting....what else is new? I've put off taking the pain meds as I wanted to enjoy the day with my family but now it's getting late and I really am needing them. Pete is making pizza from scratch, Jeremiah is dry, fed and snoozing away....so it's time.

I decided you guys are right....I'm not going to rush around with the baby nor am I going to sell any instruments right now...I don't care if it happens today or in a few months.

Being home with my family makes my heart happy beyond words.

I ordered a onsie for Jeremiah's first Relay for Life (coming up next month)....it has a blue teal ribbon and says, "I wear teal for my mommy."

:) Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: jacqui.c
Date: 19 Jun 10 - 12:57 PM

MMMMmmmmmm........

Baby smell - wonderful!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 18 Jun 10 - 11:29 PM

They say don't make any big decisions immediately following a big medical procedure. It sounds like a good musical exchange - because, of course, if the instrument you get is one you'll actually play, you'll be happy. But still, will that wait a week or two? Once you have it, but even before then, you have a new and appreciative (and captive. . . ) audience for your playing and singing. :)

When you're to the point where you are free of those aches and pains, have you seen those baby tummy packs? I loved them with my children. Admittedly, hot weather will make you both sweat, but if you can use it around the house or in malls, etc., those tummy packs mean you have perfect eye contact with that little one and he can hear your heart beat if he lays his head down on your chest to sleep while you walk. And you can lean over a little and kiss the top of his head and get that baby smell you'll know for the rest of your life.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: Bobert
Date: 18 Jun 10 - 10:14 PM

Tie-dyed Jeremiah???

Great!!! Gotta start 'um off early...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 18 Jun 10 - 10:06 PM

Whew. Long day. I did go to the craft fair however I only walked around half of it. It's not that big (only 1 square block) but it was HOT and crowded which meant lots of standing still in one spot....not good for me today as it makes my leg bones hurt even more than when I'm walking about. Soooo....I did half and am content with that. Jeremiah got to meet some new friends but overall I kept his stroller tops up...the sun was just too strong and he cries when it's in his eyes...who can blame him?
I have attended this particular craft fair for YEARS and every year they have a tie-dye stand full of t-shirts, skirts, and stuff. My husband LOVES that kind of thing and while he and I have our own tie dye stuff, Jeremiah does not...at least until now! I got him a little purple and teal tie-dyed onesie....*GRIN* I'll get some photos of him in it up sometime soon. He's just too cute.

Ok. So. I started pain meds this evening. Pete is home all weekend so he will help...of course he will! A local music shop is having a trade in weekend....thinking about getting rid of my guitar (never has fit me right...I need a more narrow fret board), electric violin (what was I thinking?) and mandolin (never play it) for a small Baby Taylor which I have fussed around with before and that fits me well. We'll see. I'm running low on energy and almost would just like to stay home for the next month or so.

:) Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: mouldy
Date: 18 Jun 10 - 08:55 AM

Wow! You are doing so well, Michelle. Just don't get carried away, although I think you are well-versed in the pattern of after-effects. Little J will still be there to show off when you aren't on the sleepy meds, so just go with what feels right on the day.

However, I suspect that the "Proud Mummy Mode" has properly kicked in now, and may override what you know are going to be temporary (if nasty) side effects of medication! I BET you get to your craft fair!

Andrea x


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: Tannywheeler
Date: 18 Jun 10 - 08:47 AM

In re: HAIR
In 1987-88 my mom went thru surgery, chemo, radiation--& baldness. Hair came in salt&pepper (more salt) & a standup ripple like Elsa Lanchester in "Bride of Frankenstein". As a baby/toddler she was "tow-headed"(almost white-blonde). About 6wks. before she died she was in her bathroom at home & I heard her cry out. Terrified, I ran in & she was leaning on the counter next to the sink shaking with laughter. Around the base of that almost-6-inch salt&pepper ripple were soft, golden curls!!! Life is still full of surprises. Lucky Jeremiah, a mom full of surprises & noticing all of them. What a good start. I send him a Granny-Tanny hug. I know it's an awful job, but please do it for me.
BTW, in the Faulk family, large & loving, the saying was, "That child's not gonna learn to walk until he/she's 5 or 6." Everyone wanting to hold & carry him/her around. Tw


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: Catherine Jayne
Date: 18 Jun 10 - 08:35 AM

Congratulations on counts Michelle! The photos are gorgeous. What a handsome and adorable little boy you have. I'm so glad that everything is working out for you.

Love Khatt xxx


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 18 Jun 10 - 07:56 AM

JimmyT!!!!!!!!!!!!!   

   Have FUN FUN FUN with those flies!!!!!!!!!!!

    Craft fair this morning and then taking it easy...too much running. Bones starting to ache. BLAH. However, there is a sleeping baby boy right in front of me.......can't be SO bad, right?

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the r
From: GUEST,jimmyt
Date: 17 Jun 10 - 10:02 PM

Michelle! I came on here tonight after a long absence to tell you I have gotten the flies out your husband tied for me and am excited to be going to Canada next week to use them! I had no idea you have been through such terrible times. Sounds like the cloud has a silver lining though and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers! I will send photos of the fish I catch on these beautiful flies! jimmyt


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: Rapparee
Date: 17 Jun 10 - 08:20 PM

Good for you! But take it easy. You've still got to get your strength back.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: Sorcha
Date: 17 Jun 10 - 06:47 PM

I am SO HAPPY FOR YOU!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 17 Jun 10 - 05:09 PM

LF-- sorry, glitch in schedules here results in probably no scooter this time. If this changes I will PM.

~S~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo done - mommy is on the run!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 17 Jun 10 - 03:15 PM

Give yourself the time and space you need. There will be plenty of time to show the baby to friends, as tempting as these post-chemo trips are. Don't overdo, now you have two of you to look out for.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 17 Jun 10 - 02:28 PM

Always try church office fone first (lv msg). Church also is unlocked a lot during Laurel, in which case help yourself and leave it at the ER if church is locked when you are ready to return scooter. Pat D also has key, and I think Ed V does too (via his Columbarium purchase). I bet Sherry has one too.

If all else fails try Cn CS cell and we can usually zip over.

~S~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 17 Jun 10 - 02:10 PM

Spent this morning at a Look Good Feel Better program put on by the American Cancer Society. I went before I lost all my hair and had forgotten what to do when you don't have eyebrows or eyelashes so I went for a refresher.....took Jeremiah along with me and met some nice people and passed on helpful tips to a woman just beginning her chemo adventures. Felt good to be able to offer something useful!

We also stopped to at my yoga instructor's house so she could meet Jeremiah who slept the entire time!

We are back home now but will need to go out again as my Nana has come to visit (she's staying at my moms) and she is anxious to meet our son. :) Then Nana and I will take the baby to a concert my mom is singing in tonight.

So far, all is well on the side effect front. Thanks for the offer of the scooter Susan...if I should need it, I'll give you (or do I call the church) a call. who

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 17 Jun 10 - 09:20 AM

LF-- scooter? If you can figure out how to incorporate it with Jeremiah, and if you want to use it, you'll find it in the church from dinner time tonight till Sunday afternoon.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: SINSULL
Date: 17 Jun 10 - 08:07 AM

All good news. This feels like the end of a very satisfying novel. And they all lived happily ever after...
Get some rest.
SINS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: Bobert
Date: 17 Jun 10 - 07:11 AM

If not shocking pink, at least she has the wig...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 17 Jun 10 - 06:17 AM

how about shocking pink?

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 17 Jun 10 - 05:31 AM

Now THAT brought the tears to my eyes. But truly, dear Michelle- you've been running and flying every since this whole thing began!

INDEED!

New hair may be platinum blonde.... kewl easy to put in temporary funky colour dyes. Manic Panic!   While the hair is still short you could do stencil patterns, flowers and leaves, birds and butterflies, etc.

or words


I WILL SURVIVE with music notes.

New Mommy!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 17 Jun 10 - 01:28 AM

Spent the day getting new clothes for Jeremiah and introducing him to his namesake and other friends. I am beyond exhausted and have slept for most of the evening....Pete and Jeremiah were worn out too and have been sleeping also.

I am tickled to tell you that they have a children's consignment shop in the town where my husband works. I've been collecting clothes for a baby for some time now but there are many that won't work due to size for JT...so I took them in to the shop. I was able to get him a complete wardrobe for this season and with my trade in clothes, I spent less than $3.00!!!! EXCELLENT!!!!

On the chemo end, the aftermath has begun with the metal yick mouth. My bones are doing ok....even though I was on my feet ALL DAY! So far, no aches at all, just tired.

Susan,

   Funny you should use the analogy of the stuff they tell you on planes....take care of the mommy first, then the child as I was thinking about that just today too.
    I know I will need some help in the upcoming days and am going to have to ask someone to come over and help. I am aiming to keep the pain at bay until at least Friday afternoon. The Laurel Festival is coming up and I desparately want to attend the craft fair on Friday morning with Jeremiah in tow. Usually there are several old friends floating about that event to run into, chat with, etc....it's part of the fun and given this year, I am anxious to see old friends and catch up.
    Anyway, yes...I will need the pain meds that knock me into space and I am going to have to allow someone in the house to help keep an eye on our beautiful boy (even though he currently sleeps a great deal of time....normal for his age). I don't want to risk being asleep when he is up and I may not hear him.
    Good news for the day...my hair is growing and no more meds to slow that process down!! I wonder what color it's going to be...right now it looks to be extremely light blonde, possibly white!!

Going to bed. Love to you all. I'm one day closer to full flight!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: gnu
Date: 16 Jun 10 - 01:10 PM

Run like the wind... sniff.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 16 Jun 10 - 10:51 AM

LF, you may know that I ran a home daycare for a number of years (way pre-CS). My most fragile client was a tiny preemie who came to me on a home apnea monitor. Her nurse came to train me on infant CPR and customize it to preemies, and she taught me how to run the apnea monitor that would come with Jamie. My thought when I mutually interviewed with Jamie's mom was, if I can't choose what challenges I get with MY kid, who am I to turn down an "at risk" daycare kid? I will simply have to learn what to do!!! And then DO IT. That is the job kids require....

My scariest day with her was not the start, but the time much later when her doctor weaned her (and her parents and then me) off the monitor. The day was left to me, for my stopping the hook-ups for every nap.

The day I did it I laid her on my shoulder in one of her favorite drop-off-to-sleep positions and I just rocked her, skin to skin, while she napped for her usual hour and a half. During that time God and Jamie made my skin learn of Jamie's relaxed, reliable strength. I absorbed how safe she really was.

I looked back over all the giggles at hookup time and how she had hated the removal of the hookups when I peeled them back off after the nap. I thought how glad she would be-- never having to be "peeled" again. I felt how totally limp she was on my shoulder and how strong and steady her breathing and heartbeat were. I could see that she had been ready for a long time, and that I was the only slacker left in her circle of care.

Other kids present needed attention briefly during this nap, so I just got up, tended to them one-handed, and went back to the rocker. Jamie almost purred, she slept so soundly.

When her mama pickerd her up she said she had done much the same thing the first night they went un-hooked. She suggested I keep the monitor for a few weeks in case I got nervous. She was done with it. Soon I was too, and the nurse picked it up from my place.


What made this work was that I had a plan, and I had a backup adult steps away "on call" who could help a little-- or run the whole show if needed-- or just BE there if I got nervous.

My plan was that if another kid needed me "on the hop," I'd quickly lay Jamie down on a safe, prepped rug and wake her up as I lay her down on my way to whatever crisis had called me. (Apnea babies only ap when asleep.) All the kids in my home that day were in plain sight the whole time-- I was doing this in an apartment and we had an open-concept kitchen/playroom.



Another time with a precious, wee one was little Robbie S. I forget what the problem was (Carla could tell you) but tiny Robbie and young mama were both at SSMH. Robbie was on 24-hour sats monitoring. Mama really needed to sleep a few hours... so I came in and took Robbie for 4 hours, in a rocker next to her bed. The nurse came in and showed me how sats go up with skin contact and up even more with back-rubbing/patting.

So I held and patted and rubbed Robbie in a slow dance-rhythm. When the sats machine stopped beeping, and held 95's steady.... mama fell out HARD and slept as well as HE was sleeping. I told her as she argued, "I know.... he'd rather be with you... it's OK if you don't sleep.... just let me love him for a little while, OK?"

Her body fell her to sleep.... because it was where the wisdom was.

===

OK, that's the background behind this: TAKE YOUR PAIN MEDS. Have a second adult with you and make a GOOD PLAN.

Because like the flight attendant on an airplane will tell all the mommies about oxygen for mommie first-- ya gotta take care of YOU FIRST. JTL will count on you to do that, and need you to do it so you can take the best care of HIM.

Later in life that will be one area where you will wish (all parents eventually do) that you had taken better care of YOU.

If you look back you will see so many things I told you... perhaps several tads earlier than you were ready to hear them. :~) This is probably another one, momma. Yeah I know-- he's your kid not ours. :~) Try to trust a leetle bit.

===

When will Miss Vee be coming to meet Mr. JT?

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 16 Jun 10 - 08:36 AM


Only 2 more weeks of chemo aftermath and I'm going to run like the wind.



Now THAT brought the tears to my eyes. But truly, dear Michelle- you've been running and flying every since this whole thing began!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 16 Jun 10 - 04:09 AM

sending more hugs & love

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 16 Jun 10 - 12:54 AM

You summed it up very nicely, Michelle. I know you'd have gotten through fine if the earlier adoption had happened, but this one has happened, and you'll be fine with it also. It'll be easier this way, all things considered, certainly. Too bad for that child in foster care. I hope he/she gets lucky and finds long-term loving care.

I've even thought about looking into it - my kids are just so great, maybe the luck would hold out and I could have a good influence on another child as well? Some of them actually prefer single parent families, or parents with no children at home. Amazing how versatile the system is when there aren't enough foster families around.

Take care this next week or two, get through them one day at a time. If ever you feel despair wash over, simply put Jeremiah in his crib and give yourself time to work through the chemo talking to you. (Don't listen to the chemo - you'll be fine!)

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 10:30 PM

SRS,

   Let me give you something to share.....

    In May of 2010, Pete and I had an adoption fall through. We had met both birth parents (separately), jumped through all the hoops, Mom gave birth and signed the papers. Dad refused to sign the papers but was on his way to jail for 6 years for selling cocaine to a police officer. That baby went directly from the hospital into foster care. The nursery here was ready, our family was ready and our hearts were broken. Six months later I would be diagnosed with uterine and ovarian cancer and the reasons for that adoption not working out became clear. There would have been no way that we could have taken care of a baby during all the surgeries and treatments in the manner which we would have liked. I'm sure we COULD have done it but it would have been difficult and not to our liking.
   Then a week ago Monday I was supposed to have my last chemo treatment. As you know, they sent me home due to a low platelet count. If I had had the treatment, I would have not come home early and we would have not gotten the call about Jeremiah. Initially, we thought we would be picking Jeremiah up late Tuesday night but drama ensued as it frequently does with adoption and it wouldn't be until Friday afternoon when we were told to come pick him up.
    I had my last chemo treatment today. Everything looks wonderful according to my oncologist. My CA-125 test even dropped 2 more points to 16.2. Anything under 35 is fantastic...so as you can see, it's in a very healthy range which makes my heart sing!
    Jeremiah came at THE PERFECT time. I am healthy and we will be able to take care of him the way we want to and the way he deserves. When asked about how I wanted to celebrate the end of my chemotherapy I really couldn't come up with anything other than I want to spend time at home with my family. I think God heard me and made our family complete, enabling me to REALLY be home with our family.....nothing could possibly make Pete or I happier. NOTHING.
   Looking back, it's like everything has fallen into place after months of being in both emotional and physical pain. The words elude me at the moment, but the timing of all of this is incredible.

Gives me goosebumps, really.

Only 2 more weeks of chemo aftermath and I'm going to run like the wind.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 08:11 PM

What Bobert said!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 08:11 PM

Mt fear and hesitation is about the concern of it returning and not being under the constant medical eye. Normal, yes.

But remember how clearly your body told you something was wrong. If needed, it will tell you again. Trust.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: Bobert
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 07:55 PM

Might have been a bumpy last lap but, hey, like they say, "Anything that doesn't kill you makes you stronger"...

So proud of you, Michelle...

"Hey" to the youngin' from Uncle Bobert...

BTW...


































...it's over!!!

B:~)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 06:48 PM

Jeremiah was next to the bed as we were in a hotel room. He sleeps in his own room, in a crib at home during the night and some day naps.

Mt fear and hesitation is about the concern of it returning and not being under the constant medical eye. Normal, yes.

More soon. Sleeping baby in my arms.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 04:21 PM

...sheer elation, a little fear and hesitation and relief....

LF, gotta tell ya, that is totally normal. Cancer/Chemo has been your "identity" for a significant period of time. It's always hard to give up something that has kept us alive, and that we have identified with-- no matter how nasty it was, that's how human beans are wired-- little bit of Stockholm Syndrome there Cn CS can expand upon.

Just be kind to yourself on all levels of all feelings, as you adjust to letting go of the chemo schedule-- the moment they tell you that you can. JTL will help with that! Some of that will be under your conscious control. Some of it will not. Just ride the waves with as much Grace as you can, and let the rest [the self-evaluating] go.

===

BTW there are actually people who say not to keep the baby by the bedside. Screw that! Keep him where you want him. He'll tell you when close is "too close."

As far as babythread-- YES, and (IMO) best if kept in short threadlengths with new threadnames as he moves thru phases (or you do as a mom).

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 03:09 PM

Am I the only one who has been tempted to share an expurgated version of this story with friends at work, but know I'd burst into tears telling it? Good tears mind you, but still, tough in the workplace.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 02:39 PM

Hooray! I lost a thread this morning, letting you know that I was holding you in my heart as the procedures began. Safe home, dear one, and let everyone help you out this week- Jeremiah knows who the real mommy is, and he will thrive all the better for getting to know the loving community that surrounds him!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 02:25 PM

Thirty more minutes and I get to see my husband and baby and NO MORE CHEMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am a very tired, happy girl. Mommy and baby will sleep all the way home....good thing Daddy is driving, huh?

:)

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: ClaireBear
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 02:00 PM

What an incredible mommy you are. What an incredible spirit you have. Bless you, three times three.

Claire


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 11:00 AM

Little Jeremiah was up often last night. He wasn't necessarily crying but rather cooing in his sleep. He was right near me so I think I was way tuned into every little sound. Needless to say, sleep was nearly impossible for me. That's ok. He was really only up 3 times, and up for good at 5:00am when we had some fun Mommy and Baby time...cooing, giggles, singing...playtime!

As for my last chemo. They accessed my port just fine. For whatever reason, the actual port has settled further into my chest a little deeper today....maybe from all the baby holding action. No matter, just meant a few slightly uncomfortable pushes. Then it was off to see the doctor to find out the results of the bloodwork.

Platelets: WAY up. GOOD NEWS!
Hemoglobin: UP! GOOD NEWS!
White blood cell count: Below the acceptable line. But wait...thre are two parts that they count, the first part was too low. The Dr. said that if the second half was a particular number or higher, it would be a go for my treatment. I asked him the list of questions I had written down while we waited for the other half of the white blood cell count to come in. The doctor said that even if it was a little low, he'd be willing to push it and let me have the treatment anyway. The numbers finally came in and the 2nd half was WAY up!!! Treatment is a GO! I am currently sitting in the chemo chair, pre-steroids and meds taken, 3 cups of water at my side (saves wandering around with the chemo pole as I am here alone today), port is being flushed and actual chemo meds starting soon. THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pete has Jeremiah back at the hotel. We had hoped to bring him back here where I am even if just to show him to the nurses but no one under age 16 is permitted back here for both Jeremiah's sake and that of others receiving treatment. I'm bummed but I understand. My nurses will be going out to the waiting room when Pete brings my lunch so they can see Jeremiah...they are all very excited! ring

I will have to wait until the end of the day or later tomorrow to find out the really important numbers, that of the CA-125. I am praying that they have stayed stable or fallen some. A dramatic rise indicates tumor activity.

I am tired and will be able to sleep during this treatment. I have mixed feelings about it being the last one.....sheer elation, a little fear and hesitation and relief.

I'm sure today won't be the end of my story or at least this thread. I still have my 2 weeks of recovery from this treatment and am working on figuring out how I will do with Jeremiah on the painful days....definitely can't do pain meds with a baby around!!! I have friends that will help...I know they will. All I have to do is ask. Some have already offered. Realisitically I KNOW I will have to take them up on it but I'm feeling a little selfish in that I don't want to pass Jeremiah off to anyone else just yet...even if it is for only a few hours!
Ok sweet people, I'm going to drift for awhile. Do ya'll really want a thread just about Jeremiah? I am keeping a blog about him but I'm unsure just how many baby stories people really are interested in hearing!!!! I don't mind sharing, as you know...I like to write and do it a LOT!

Lator Gators!

Michelle
Petal
Miss Maybelle
Mommy
:) :) :)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 10:27 AM

I agree BTW about a new thread (post-chemo) for JTL. I think LF ought to start it and lead it.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 09:33 AM

I have to say, the course of this thread and the rocket ship to the moon stunt at the end make this one keeper!

Take care this week, Michelle. Get past the last of the chemo and you're ready for liftoff!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 08:52 AM

:~)

~S~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 15 Jun 10 - 06:58 AM

sleep well


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 14 Jun 10 - 10:26 PM

:) :) :)

Goodnight my friends.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre-last chemo coming up & incredible news!
From: Bobert
Date: 14 Jun 10 - 08:45 PM

Ol' hillbilly gonna be ridin' shotgun