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LilyFestre-Mommy+Daddy+Baby...now on to Life!

katlaughing 14 Jan 10 - 05:15 PM
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Tig 14 Jan 10 - 08:28 PM
jacqui.c 14 Jan 10 - 09:17 PM
Ebbie 14 Jan 10 - 09:26 PM
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Leadfingers 14 Jan 10 - 09:44 PM
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VirginiaTam 15 Jan 10 - 02:35 AM
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JennieG 15 Jan 10 - 06:57 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 15 Jan 10 - 07:50 AM
maeve 15 Jan 10 - 07:56 AM
SINSULL 15 Jan 10 - 08:30 AM
Tinker 15 Jan 10 - 08:49 AM
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Stilly River Sage 15 Jan 10 - 11:51 AM
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Ebbie 15 Jan 10 - 12:36 PM
Tinker 15 Jan 10 - 12:42 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Jan 10 - 12:58 PM
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ClaireBear 15 Jan 10 - 02:21 PM
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ClaireBear 15 Jan 10 - 04:34 PM
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VirginiaTam 15 Jan 10 - 04:59 PM
VirginiaTam 15 Jan 10 - 05:35 PM
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katlaughing 15 Jan 10 - 09:09 PM
maeve 15 Jan 10 - 09:24 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Jan 10 - 09:43 PM
Bat Goddess 15 Jan 10 - 09:49 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Jan 10 - 09:54 PM
wysiwyg 15 Jan 10 - 11:30 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Jan 10 - 11:47 PM
open mike 16 Jan 10 - 02:09 AM
VirginiaTam 16 Jan 10 - 04:34 AM
GUEST,WYS-out 16 Jan 10 - 08:03 AM
Bobert 16 Jan 10 - 08:44 AM
catspaw49 16 Jan 10 - 09:34 AM
SINSULL 16 Jan 10 - 10:20 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 16 Jan 10 - 10:48 AM
Stilly River Sage 16 Jan 10 - 12:29 PM
gnu 16 Jan 10 - 12:46 PM
Peace 16 Jan 10 - 12:52 PM
jacqui.c 16 Jan 10 - 01:03 PM
SINSULL 16 Jan 10 - 01:29 PM
alanabit 16 Jan 10 - 03:13 PM
catspaw49 16 Jan 10 - 03:13 PM
Stilly River Sage 16 Jan 10 - 05:05 PM
katlaughing 16 Jan 10 - 05:45 PM
Stilly River Sage 17 Jan 10 - 03:34 AM
Sandra in Sydney 17 Jan 10 - 05:21 AM
GUEST 17 Jan 10 - 07:25 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 17 Jan 10 - 07:43 AM
Stilly River Sage 17 Jan 10 - 11:17 AM
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Stilly River Sage 17 Jan 10 - 04:28 PM
GUEST 17 Jan 10 - 06:23 PM
gnu 17 Jan 10 - 06:38 PM
GUEST,WYS-out 17 Jan 10 - 07:25 PM
catspaw49 17 Jan 10 - 09:10 PM
GUEST,Tinker 17 Jan 10 - 10:37 PM
catspaw49 17 Jan 10 - 10:55 PM
Tinker 17 Jan 10 - 11:13 PM
Stilly River Sage 18 Jan 10 - 01:34 AM
Janie 18 Jan 10 - 06:43 AM
Leadfingers 18 Jan 10 - 07:36 AM
SINSULL 18 Jan 10 - 08:22 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 18 Jan 10 - 08:28 AM
John MacKenzie 18 Jan 10 - 08:31 AM
GUEST,wys-out 18 Jan 10 - 12:15 PM
LilyFestre 18 Jan 10 - 08:37 PM
catspaw49 18 Jan 10 - 09:18 PM
maeve 18 Jan 10 - 09:37 PM
katlaughing 18 Jan 10 - 10:06 PM
Stilly River Sage 19 Jan 10 - 12:17 AM
Catherine Jayne 19 Jan 10 - 03:20 AM
Leadfingers 19 Jan 10 - 06:27 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 19 Jan 10 - 07:45 AM
SINSULL 19 Jan 10 - 08:58 AM
GUEST,wys-out 19 Jan 10 - 10:04 AM
Tinker 19 Jan 10 - 10:32 AM
jacqui.c 19 Jan 10 - 12:14 PM
GUEST,wys 19 Jan 10 - 01:20 PM
Stilly River Sage 19 Jan 10 - 02:07 PM
GUEST,wys-out 19 Jan 10 - 02:08 PM
SINSULL 19 Jan 10 - 02:14 PM
SINSULL 19 Jan 10 - 02:20 PM
GUEST,wys-out 19 Jan 10 - 02:33 PM
LilyFestre 19 Jan 10 - 03:23 PM
Stilly River Sage 19 Jan 10 - 03:33 PM
SINSULL 19 Jan 10 - 03:34 PM
katlaughing 19 Jan 10 - 03:39 PM
VirginiaTam 19 Jan 10 - 04:00 PM
SINSULL 19 Jan 10 - 09:07 PM
LilyFestre 20 Jan 10 - 03:49 AM
JennieG 20 Jan 10 - 06:11 AM
SINSULL 20 Jan 10 - 10:06 AM
jacqui.c 20 Jan 10 - 11:44 AM
Stilly River Sage 20 Jan 10 - 12:04 PM
John MacKenzie 20 Jan 10 - 12:17 PM
gnu 20 Jan 10 - 12:46 PM
VirginiaTam 20 Jan 10 - 01:32 PM
John MacKenzie 20 Jan 10 - 02:00 PM
LilyFestre 20 Jan 10 - 02:34 PM
SINSULL 20 Jan 10 - 02:35 PM
SINSULL 20 Jan 10 - 03:08 PM
jacqui.c 20 Jan 10 - 03:20 PM
SINSULL 20 Jan 10 - 04:00 PM
VirginiaTam 20 Jan 10 - 05:11 PM
LilyFestre 20 Jan 10 - 05:32 PM
Stilly River Sage 20 Jan 10 - 07:42 PM
Maryrrf 20 Jan 10 - 10:38 PM
SINSULL 21 Jan 10 - 09:19 AM
LilyFestre 21 Jan 10 - 10:24 AM
SINSULL 21 Jan 10 - 10:50 AM
Stilly River Sage 21 Jan 10 - 11:00 AM
SINSULL 21 Jan 10 - 11:55 AM
Stilly River Sage 21 Jan 10 - 12:07 PM
SINSULL 21 Jan 10 - 01:40 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 21 Jan 10 - 06:58 PM
LilyFestre 21 Jan 10 - 09:52 PM
Stilly River Sage 21 Jan 10 - 10:44 PM
katlaughing 21 Jan 10 - 10:48 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 22 Jan 10 - 07:17 AM
SINSULL 22 Jan 10 - 08:05 AM
jacqui.c 22 Jan 10 - 08:13 AM
Tinker 22 Jan 10 - 11:41 AM
catspaw49 22 Jan 10 - 11:46 AM
SINSULL 22 Jan 10 - 03:48 PM
Janie 22 Jan 10 - 04:27 PM
John MacKenzie 22 Jan 10 - 04:30 PM
Stilly River Sage 22 Jan 10 - 06:56 PM
Liz the Squeak 22 Jan 10 - 07:06 PM
SINSULL 22 Jan 10 - 07:17 PM
LilyFestre 22 Jan 10 - 10:52 PM
Stilly River Sage 23 Jan 10 - 12:56 AM
jacqui.c 23 Jan 10 - 08:14 AM
maeve 23 Jan 10 - 08:23 AM
LilyFestre 23 Jan 10 - 08:27 AM
maeve 23 Jan 10 - 08:36 AM
John MacKenzie 23 Jan 10 - 08:39 AM
jacqui.c 23 Jan 10 - 08:49 AM
SINSULL 23 Jan 10 - 12:52 PM
wysiwyg 23 Jan 10 - 02:17 PM
Mrs.Duck 23 Jan 10 - 02:47 PM
LilyFestre 23 Jan 10 - 07:22 PM
maeve 23 Jan 10 - 07:25 PM
jacqui.c 23 Jan 10 - 07:27 PM
Bobert 23 Jan 10 - 08:06 PM
VirginiaTam 24 Jan 10 - 07:09 AM
Sandra in Sydney 24 Jan 10 - 08:04 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 24 Jan 10 - 08:07 AM
LilyFestre 24 Jan 10 - 09:40 AM
SINSULL 24 Jan 10 - 11:14 AM
Stilly River Sage 24 Jan 10 - 11:55 AM
jacqui.c 24 Jan 10 - 01:14 PM
LilyFestre 24 Jan 10 - 02:09 PM
VirginiaTam 24 Jan 10 - 02:37 PM
katlaughing 24 Jan 10 - 10:27 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 25 Jan 10 - 08:21 AM
Stilly River Sage 25 Jan 10 - 06:58 PM
SINSULL 26 Jan 10 - 09:50 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 26 Jan 10 - 10:07 AM
LilyFestre 26 Jan 10 - 10:19 AM
SINSULL 26 Jan 10 - 12:14 PM
SINSULL 26 Jan 10 - 12:39 PM
Stilly River Sage 26 Jan 10 - 01:17 PM
Stilly River Sage 26 Jan 10 - 03:48 PM
John MacKenzie 26 Jan 10 - 03:53 PM
SINSULL 26 Jan 10 - 04:18 PM
wysiwyg 26 Jan 10 - 05:28 PM
jacqui.c 26 Jan 10 - 07:25 PM
LilyFestre 26 Jan 10 - 07:49 PM
Stilly River Sage 26 Jan 10 - 11:28 PM
Tinker 26 Jan 10 - 11:59 PM
Janie 27 Jan 10 - 02:22 AM
Sandra in Sydney 27 Jan 10 - 07:20 AM
VirginiaTam 27 Jan 10 - 07:43 AM
John MacKenzie 27 Jan 10 - 08:06 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 27 Jan 10 - 08:54 AM
SINSULL 27 Jan 10 - 09:00 AM
kendall 27 Jan 10 - 09:04 AM
jacqui.c 27 Jan 10 - 09:10 AM
SINSULL 27 Jan 10 - 12:47 PM
LilyFestre 27 Jan 10 - 08:11 PM
SINSULL 27 Jan 10 - 08:36 PM
wysiwyg 27 Jan 10 - 10:21 PM
Janie 27 Jan 10 - 11:37 PM
jacqui.c 28 Jan 10 - 07:15 AM
LilyFestre 28 Jan 10 - 07:39 AM
SINSULL 28 Jan 10 - 07:53 AM
Tinker 28 Jan 10 - 10:31 AM
Stilly River Sage 28 Jan 10 - 11:27 AM
SINSULL 28 Jan 10 - 11:45 AM
Stilly River Sage 28 Jan 10 - 02:24 PM
wysiwyg 28 Jan 10 - 03:32 PM
LilyFestre 28 Jan 10 - 07:03 PM
jacqui.c 28 Jan 10 - 08:16 PM
SINSULL 28 Jan 10 - 08:59 PM
LilyFestre 29 Jan 10 - 10:25 AM
VirginiaTam 29 Jan 10 - 10:37 AM
SINSULL 29 Jan 10 - 05:06 PM
LilyFestre 29 Jan 10 - 05:08 PM
LilyFestre 29 Jan 10 - 06:34 PM
Stilly River Sage 29 Jan 10 - 09:24 PM
Sandra in Sydney 29 Jan 10 - 09:29 PM
VirginiaTam 30 Jan 10 - 04:17 AM
LilyFestre 30 Jan 10 - 07:55 AM
LilyFestre 30 Jan 10 - 07:58 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 30 Jan 10 - 08:02 AM
SINSULL 30 Jan 10 - 08:27 AM
LilyFestre 30 Jan 10 - 08:57 AM
Sandra in Sydney 30 Jan 10 - 09:24 AM
Stilly River Sage 30 Jan 10 - 10:43 AM
katlaughing 30 Jan 10 - 11:02 AM
SINSULL 30 Jan 10 - 11:06 AM
VirginiaTam 30 Jan 10 - 11:19 AM
Maryrrf 30 Jan 10 - 11:32 AM
jacqui.c 30 Jan 10 - 04:32 PM
SINSULL 31 Jan 10 - 12:47 PM
LilyFestre 31 Jan 10 - 03:54 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 31 Jan 10 - 04:56 PM
SINSULL 01 Feb 10 - 08:56 AM
LilyFestre 01 Feb 10 - 10:19 AM
katlaughing 01 Feb 10 - 10:41 AM
LilyFestre 01 Feb 10 - 10:48 AM
Tinker 01 Feb 10 - 11:07 AM
Catherine Jayne 01 Feb 10 - 11:07 AM
jacqui.c 01 Feb 10 - 11:10 AM
wysiwyg 01 Feb 10 - 11:31 AM
SINSULL 01 Feb 10 - 11:40 AM
LilyFestre 02 Feb 10 - 11:25 AM
wysiwyg 02 Feb 10 - 11:28 AM
jacqui.c 02 Feb 10 - 02:33 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 02 Feb 10 - 03:26 PM
Janie 02 Feb 10 - 03:52 PM
Sandra in Sydney 02 Feb 10 - 05:32 PM
SINSULL 02 Feb 10 - 07:31 PM
LilyFestre 02 Feb 10 - 09:23 PM
wysiwyg 02 Feb 10 - 09:50 PM
LilyFestre 03 Feb 10 - 10:17 AM
maeve 03 Feb 10 - 10:21 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 03 Feb 10 - 10:37 AM
wysiwyg 03 Feb 10 - 10:39 AM
LilyFestre 03 Feb 10 - 10:58 AM
wysiwyg 03 Feb 10 - 10:59 AM
SINSULL 03 Feb 10 - 11:29 AM
VirginiaTam 03 Feb 10 - 02:19 PM
wysiwyg 03 Feb 10 - 02:24 PM
SINSULL 03 Feb 10 - 03:59 PM
gnu 03 Feb 10 - 04:12 PM
maeve 03 Feb 10 - 04:17 PM
Bobert 03 Feb 10 - 04:19 PM
wysiwyg 03 Feb 10 - 04:46 PM
Janie 03 Feb 10 - 06:14 PM
LilyFestre 03 Feb 10 - 06:16 PM
maeve 03 Feb 10 - 06:30 PM
gnu 03 Feb 10 - 06:32 PM
Stilly River Sage 03 Feb 10 - 07:10 PM
wysiwyg 03 Feb 10 - 07:12 PM
wysiwyg 03 Feb 10 - 07:15 PM
jacqui.c 03 Feb 10 - 07:15 PM
SINSULL 03 Feb 10 - 07:19 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 03 Feb 10 - 07:25 PM
Bobert 03 Feb 10 - 07:25 PM
Leadfingers 03 Feb 10 - 07:29 PM
wysiwyg 03 Feb 10 - 07:34 PM
LilyFestre 03 Feb 10 - 08:08 PM
Janie 03 Feb 10 - 08:45 PM
Sandra in Sydney 04 Feb 10 - 04:51 AM
kendall 04 Feb 10 - 07:24 AM
maeve 04 Feb 10 - 08:01 AM
wysiwyg 04 Feb 10 - 09:10 AM
SINSULL 04 Feb 10 - 09:11 AM
Cuilionn 04 Feb 10 - 10:42 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 04 Feb 10 - 01:49 PM
VirginiaTam 04 Feb 10 - 01:58 PM
katlaughing 04 Feb 10 - 03:25 PM
LilyFestre 04 Feb 10 - 09:01 PM
maeve 04 Feb 10 - 09:04 PM
Stilly River Sage 04 Feb 10 - 10:27 PM
Stilly River Sage 04 Feb 10 - 10:28 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 05 Feb 10 - 08:13 AM
Catherine Jayne 05 Feb 10 - 08:32 AM
SINSULL 05 Feb 10 - 08:51 AM
VirginiaTam 05 Feb 10 - 12:47 PM
LilyFestre 05 Feb 10 - 01:13 PM
SINSULL 05 Feb 10 - 01:24 PM
jacqui.c 05 Feb 10 - 01:43 PM
VirginiaTam 05 Feb 10 - 01:47 PM
wysiwyg 05 Feb 10 - 02:00 PM
gnu 05 Feb 10 - 02:14 PM
SINSULL 05 Feb 10 - 03:03 PM
wysiwyg 05 Feb 10 - 03:09 PM
Bobert 05 Feb 10 - 04:30 PM
SINSULL 05 Feb 10 - 04:36 PM
katlaughing 05 Feb 10 - 05:03 PM
Sandra in Sydney 05 Feb 10 - 06:15 PM
wysiwyg 05 Feb 10 - 09:04 PM
Bobert 05 Feb 10 - 09:18 PM
LilyFestre 06 Feb 10 - 11:15 AM
jacqui.c 06 Feb 10 - 11:23 AM
wysiwyg 06 Feb 10 - 11:57 AM
LilyFestre 06 Feb 10 - 12:19 PM
SINSULL 06 Feb 10 - 12:36 PM
katlaughing 06 Feb 10 - 01:41 PM
wysiwyg 06 Feb 10 - 03:36 PM
Stilly River Sage 06 Feb 10 - 04:03 PM
wysiwyg 06 Feb 10 - 05:23 PM
LilyFestre 07 Feb 10 - 10:44 AM
wysiwyg 07 Feb 10 - 01:31 PM
LilyFestre 08 Feb 10 - 09:47 AM
SINSULL 08 Feb 10 - 10:07 AM
LilyFestre 08 Feb 10 - 10:25 AM
wysiwyg 08 Feb 10 - 10:37 AM
LilyFestre 08 Feb 10 - 03:20 PM
wysiwyg 08 Feb 10 - 03:30 PM
jacqui.c 08 Feb 10 - 03:50 PM
LilyFestre 08 Feb 10 - 03:59 PM
wysiwyg 08 Feb 10 - 04:07 PM
SINSULL 08 Feb 10 - 04:18 PM
LilyFestre 08 Feb 10 - 05:17 PM
wysiwyg 08 Feb 10 - 05:32 PM
katlaughing 08 Feb 10 - 06:08 PM
jacqui.c 08 Feb 10 - 07:13 PM
Bobert 08 Feb 10 - 07:19 PM
LilyFestre 08 Feb 10 - 07:45 PM
katlaughing 08 Feb 10 - 11:28 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 09 Feb 10 - 08:01 AM
SINSULL 09 Feb 10 - 08:10 AM
Rowan 09 Feb 10 - 04:49 PM
LilyFestre 09 Feb 10 - 07:14 PM
SINSULL 09 Feb 10 - 07:19 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 10 Feb 10 - 07:55 AM
jacqui.c 10 Feb 10 - 08:18 AM
wysiwyg 10 Feb 10 - 08:20 AM
Sandra in Sydney 10 Feb 10 - 08:41 AM
LilyFestre 10 Feb 10 - 04:49 PM
SINSULL 10 Feb 10 - 04:52 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 10 Feb 10 - 05:31 PM
katlaughing 10 Feb 10 - 05:42 PM
wysiwyg 10 Feb 10 - 07:19 PM
Sandra in Sydney 11 Feb 10 - 12:56 AM
Stilly River Sage 11 Feb 10 - 02:01 AM
VirginiaTam 11 Feb 10 - 02:49 AM
jacqui.c 11 Feb 10 - 07:51 AM
LilyFestre 11 Feb 10 - 08:24 AM
wysiwyg 11 Feb 10 - 08:39 AM
SINSULL 11 Feb 10 - 08:43 AM
maeve 11 Feb 10 - 08:46 AM
LilyFestre 11 Feb 10 - 10:09 PM
Stilly River Sage 12 Feb 10 - 01:24 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 12 Feb 10 - 09:17 AM
wysiwyg 12 Feb 10 - 11:24 AM
LilyFestre 12 Feb 10 - 08:42 PM
Sandra in Sydney 12 Feb 10 - 08:55 PM
wysiwyg 12 Feb 10 - 09:14 PM
wysiwyg 12 Feb 10 - 09:28 PM
Rowan 12 Feb 10 - 10:03 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 13 Feb 10 - 07:18 AM
LilyFestre 13 Feb 10 - 07:26 AM
LilyFestre 13 Feb 10 - 07:46 AM
Bobert 13 Feb 10 - 08:27 AM
LilyFestre 13 Feb 10 - 09:03 AM
LilyFestre 13 Feb 10 - 09:21 AM
maeve 13 Feb 10 - 09:26 AM
LilyFestre 13 Feb 10 - 09:59 AM
maeve 13 Feb 10 - 10:39 AM
wysiwyg 13 Feb 10 - 10:42 AM
Stilly River Sage 13 Feb 10 - 10:52 AM
katlaughing 13 Feb 10 - 12:58 PM
wysiwyg 13 Feb 10 - 04:19 PM
TheSilentOne 13 Feb 10 - 05:12 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 13 Feb 10 - 08:12 PM
VirginiaTam 14 Feb 10 - 06:55 AM
wysiwyg 14 Feb 10 - 08:38 AM
LilyFestre 14 Feb 10 - 08:56 AM
wysiwyg 14 Feb 10 - 09:14 AM
LilyFestre 14 Feb 10 - 09:47 AM
wysiwyg 14 Feb 10 - 11:51 AM
Rowan 14 Feb 10 - 03:31 PM
wysiwyg 14 Feb 10 - 07:31 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 14 Feb 10 - 08:19 PM
LilyFestre 15 Feb 10 - 06:45 AM
jacqui.c 15 Feb 10 - 07:39 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 15 Feb 10 - 07:44 AM
Sandra in Sydney 15 Feb 10 - 08:29 AM
wysiwyg 15 Feb 10 - 10:08 AM
SINSULL 15 Feb 10 - 10:16 AM
LilyFestre 15 Feb 10 - 10:44 AM
wysiwyg 15 Feb 10 - 12:08 PM
VirginiaTam 15 Feb 10 - 12:23 PM
LilyFestre 15 Feb 10 - 09:34 PM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Feb 10 - 12:27 AM
LilyFestre 16 Feb 10 - 08:24 AM
Revelations 16 Feb 10 - 08:30 AM
SINSULL 16 Feb 10 - 09:22 AM
LilyFestre 16 Feb 10 - 10:38 AM
maeve 16 Feb 10 - 10:50 AM
wysiwyg 16 Feb 10 - 11:58 AM
wysiwyg 16 Feb 10 - 12:12 PM
wysiwyg 16 Feb 10 - 12:19 PM
LilyFestre 16 Feb 10 - 12:22 PM
wysiwyg 16 Feb 10 - 01:48 PM
LilyFestre 16 Feb 10 - 02:11 PM
VirginiaTam 16 Feb 10 - 02:12 PM
VirginiaTam 16 Feb 10 - 02:32 PM
gnu 16 Feb 10 - 02:44 PM
wysiwyg 16 Feb 10 - 03:53 PM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Feb 10 - 05:33 PM
SINSULL 16 Feb 10 - 06:49 PM
LilyFestre 16 Feb 10 - 07:16 PM
Stilly River Sage 16 Feb 10 - 07:31 PM
Bobert 16 Feb 10 - 07:37 PM
Bobert 16 Feb 10 - 08:00 PM
Bill D 16 Feb 10 - 08:25 PM
catspaw49 16 Feb 10 - 08:29 PM
gnu 16 Feb 10 - 08:29 PM
Bill D 16 Feb 10 - 08:34 PM
Severn 16 Feb 10 - 08:48 PM
Bobert 16 Feb 10 - 09:03 PM
wysiwyg 16 Feb 10 - 11:03 PM
LilyFestre 17 Feb 10 - 06:25 AM
Sandra in Sydney 17 Feb 10 - 10:26 AM
Stilly River Sage 17 Feb 10 - 10:27 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 17 Feb 10 - 11:17 AM
VirginiaTam 17 Feb 10 - 12:57 PM
open mike 17 Feb 10 - 02:01 PM
wysiwyg 17 Feb 10 - 03:01 PM
SINSULL 17 Feb 10 - 03:59 PM
LilyFestre 18 Feb 10 - 08:06 AM
Stilly River Sage 18 Feb 10 - 11:20 AM
Sandra in Sydney 18 Feb 10 - 04:34 PM
LilyFestre 18 Feb 10 - 07:09 PM
SINSULL 19 Feb 10 - 09:54 AM
Ebbie 19 Feb 10 - 10:47 AM
LilyFestre 19 Feb 10 - 12:31 PM
katlaughing 19 Feb 10 - 12:43 PM
gnu 19 Feb 10 - 02:15 PM
jacqui.c 19 Feb 10 - 02:16 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 19 Feb 10 - 02:28 PM
GUEST,Jack Sprocket 19 Feb 10 - 03:33 PM
LilyFestre 20 Feb 10 - 08:25 AM
VirginiaTam 20 Feb 10 - 11:59 AM
jacqui.c 20 Feb 10 - 03:53 PM
Severn 20 Feb 10 - 05:21 PM
Janie 20 Feb 10 - 06:55 PM
LilyFestre 20 Feb 10 - 09:18 PM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Feb 10 - 08:33 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 21 Feb 10 - 09:20 AM
LilyFestre 21 Feb 10 - 12:30 PM
gnu 21 Feb 10 - 12:50 PM
SINSULL 21 Feb 10 - 12:55 PM
Stilly River Sage 21 Feb 10 - 01:27 PM
LilyFestre 22 Feb 10 - 08:41 AM
SINSULL 22 Feb 10 - 08:49 AM
GUEST,Neil D 22 Feb 10 - 09:23 AM
wysiwyg 22 Feb 10 - 10:21 AM
jacqui.c 22 Feb 10 - 11:19 AM
LilyFestre 22 Feb 10 - 11:41 AM
SINSULL 22 Feb 10 - 12:09 PM
Stilly River Sage 22 Feb 10 - 01:17 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 22 Feb 10 - 03:43 PM
VirginiaTam 22 Feb 10 - 03:44 PM
Bobert 22 Feb 10 - 03:52 PM
jacqui.c 22 Feb 10 - 05:04 PM
katlaughing 22 Feb 10 - 05:27 PM
Leadfingers 22 Feb 10 - 05:52 PM
Leadfingers 22 Feb 10 - 05:54 PM
Rowan 22 Feb 10 - 10:06 PM
SINSULL 23 Feb 10 - 08:14 AM
LilyFestre 23 Feb 10 - 09:58 AM
katlaughing 23 Feb 10 - 10:25 AM
Ebbie 23 Feb 10 - 10:35 AM
jacqui.c 23 Feb 10 - 10:47 AM
GUEST,Neil D 23 Feb 10 - 11:04 AM
wysiwyg 23 Feb 10 - 12:00 PM
VirginiaTam 23 Feb 10 - 01:33 PM
SINSULL 23 Feb 10 - 01:41 PM
Bobert 23 Feb 10 - 04:08 PM
VirginiaTam 23 Feb 10 - 05:35 PM
gnu 23 Feb 10 - 05:59 PM
Stilly River Sage 23 Feb 10 - 06:06 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 23 Feb 10 - 06:20 PM
Bobert 23 Feb 10 - 06:31 PM
LilyFestre 23 Feb 10 - 07:03 PM
Bobert 23 Feb 10 - 07:18 PM
Sandra in Sydney 24 Feb 10 - 08:50 AM
LilyFestre 24 Feb 10 - 10:55 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 24 Feb 10 - 12:01 PM
Stilly River Sage 24 Feb 10 - 12:15 PM
wysiwyg 24 Feb 10 - 12:24 PM
maeve 24 Feb 10 - 12:43 PM
Ebbie 24 Feb 10 - 12:56 PM
Stilly River Sage 24 Feb 10 - 04:11 PM
SINSULL 24 Feb 10 - 04:16 PM
GUEST,Eye Lander (not logged in) 24 Feb 10 - 05:33 PM
LilyFestre 24 Feb 10 - 07:27 PM
LilyFestre 24 Feb 10 - 07:35 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 24 Feb 10 - 08:00 PM
Sandra in Sydney 25 Feb 10 - 12:58 AM
VirginiaTam 25 Feb 10 - 03:57 PM
Stilly River Sage 25 Feb 10 - 04:20 PM
Rowan 25 Feb 10 - 04:54 PM
wysiwyg 25 Feb 10 - 10:09 PM
maeve 26 Feb 10 - 05:38 AM
LilyFestre 26 Feb 10 - 10:23 AM
SINSULL 26 Feb 10 - 10:31 AM
katlaughing 26 Feb 10 - 10:41 AM
LilyFestre 26 Feb 10 - 10:47 AM
VirginiaTam 26 Feb 10 - 12:49 PM
Rowan 26 Feb 10 - 05:47 PM
wysiwyg 27 Feb 10 - 09:48 AM
LilyFestre 27 Feb 10 - 10:03 AM
wysiwyg 27 Feb 10 - 11:22 AM
wysiwyg 27 Feb 10 - 01:00 PM
LilyFestre 27 Feb 10 - 04:26 PM
LilyFestre 28 Feb 10 - 06:58 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 28 Feb 10 - 08:17 AM
LilyFestre 28 Feb 10 - 09:30 AM
jacqui.c 28 Feb 10 - 09:45 AM
LilyFestre 28 Feb 10 - 10:00 AM
wysiwyg 28 Feb 10 - 11:02 AM
VirginiaTam 28 Feb 10 - 04:54 PM
katlaughing 28 Feb 10 - 05:24 PM
Sandra in Sydney 28 Feb 10 - 05:37 PM
katlaughing 28 Feb 10 - 05:49 PM
maeve 28 Feb 10 - 05:51 PM
Severn 28 Feb 10 - 09:56 PM
Stilly River Sage 28 Feb 10 - 11:27 PM
wysiwyg 01 Mar 10 - 09:35 AM
SINSULL 01 Mar 10 - 11:00 AM
wysiwyg 01 Mar 10 - 04:52 PM
jacqui.c 01 Mar 10 - 07:51 PM
Rowan 01 Mar 10 - 09:01 PM
maeve 02 Mar 10 - 06:19 AM
SINSULL 02 Mar 10 - 08:42 AM
Stilly River Sage 02 Mar 10 - 09:10 AM
SINSULL 02 Mar 10 - 01:16 PM
VirginiaTam 02 Mar 10 - 02:19 PM
Micca 02 Mar 10 - 02:39 PM
wysiwyg 02 Mar 10 - 02:46 PM
SINSULL 03 Mar 10 - 08:04 AM
wysiwyg 03 Mar 10 - 09:02 AM
VirginiaTam 03 Mar 10 - 01:55 PM
wysiwyg 03 Mar 10 - 02:18 PM
Sandra in Sydney 03 Mar 10 - 07:26 PM
wysiwyg 03 Mar 10 - 09:06 PM
GUEST 04 Mar 10 - 05:24 AM
GUEST,Eyelander 04 Mar 10 - 05:26 AM
Janie 04 Mar 10 - 07:15 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 04 Mar 10 - 07:52 AM
SINSULL 04 Mar 10 - 08:08 AM
jacqui.c 04 Mar 10 - 10:16 AM
VirginiaTam 04 Mar 10 - 01:58 PM
maeve 04 Mar 10 - 06:44 PM
katlaughing 04 Mar 10 - 07:05 PM
LilyFestre 04 Mar 10 - 07:19 PM
Sandra in Sydney 05 Mar 10 - 01:56 AM
VirginiaTam 05 Mar 10 - 02:44 AM
Bobert 05 Mar 10 - 07:16 AM
LilyFestre 05 Mar 10 - 07:44 AM
LilyFestre 05 Mar 10 - 07:47 AM
SINSULL 05 Mar 10 - 08:06 AM
Sandra in Sydney 05 Mar 10 - 09:21 AM
SINSULL 05 Mar 10 - 10:35 AM
VirginiaTam 05 Mar 10 - 01:43 PM
Stilly River Sage 05 Mar 10 - 02:01 PM
Bobert 05 Mar 10 - 05:24 PM
Ebbie 05 Mar 10 - 05:32 PM
Bobert 05 Mar 10 - 07:42 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 06 Mar 10 - 08:30 AM
wysiwyg 06 Mar 10 - 11:07 AM
LilyFestre 06 Mar 10 - 01:04 PM
katlaughing 06 Mar 10 - 02:25 PM
VirginiaTam 06 Mar 10 - 02:36 PM
wysiwyg 06 Mar 10 - 05:43 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 07 Mar 10 - 07:29 AM
jacqui.c 07 Mar 10 - 07:29 AM
maeve 07 Mar 10 - 07:33 AM
GUEST,SINS 07 Mar 10 - 04:52 PM
LilyFestre 07 Mar 10 - 05:03 PM
LilyFestre 07 Mar 10 - 11:27 PM
Ebbie 07 Mar 10 - 11:58 PM
katlaughing 08 Mar 10 - 01:20 AM
LilyFestre 08 Mar 10 - 08:05 AM
SINSULL 08 Mar 10 - 08:20 AM
SINSULL 08 Mar 10 - 08:26 AM
katlaughing 08 Mar 10 - 11:03 AM
SINSULL 08 Mar 10 - 11:21 AM
wysiwyg 08 Mar 10 - 11:23 AM
LilyFestre 08 Mar 10 - 03:17 PM
VirginiaTam 08 Mar 10 - 03:33 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 08 Mar 10 - 03:41 PM
gnu 08 Mar 10 - 03:46 PM
Rowan 08 Mar 10 - 05:14 PM
Bobert 08 Mar 10 - 05:27 PM
katlaughing 08 Mar 10 - 06:22 PM
Stilly River Sage 08 Mar 10 - 06:46 PM
maeve 08 Mar 10 - 09:54 PM
wysiwyg 09 Mar 10 - 04:16 AM
LilyFestre 09 Mar 10 - 06:11 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 09 Mar 10 - 07:31 AM
SINSULL 09 Mar 10 - 09:00 AM
wysiwyg 09 Mar 10 - 11:19 AM
LilyFestre 09 Mar 10 - 02:16 PM
SINSULL 09 Mar 10 - 02:20 PM
VirginiaTam 09 Mar 10 - 02:51 PM
Stilly River Sage 09 Mar 10 - 02:51 PM
Rowan 09 Mar 10 - 05:36 PM
LilyFestre 10 Mar 10 - 07:06 AM
SINSULL 10 Mar 10 - 08:08 AM
Sandra in Sydney 10 Mar 10 - 08:50 AM
wysiwyg 10 Mar 10 - 09:53 AM
wysiwyg 10 Mar 10 - 02:56 PM
gnu 10 Mar 10 - 02:59 PM
LilyFestre 10 Mar 10 - 05:05 PM
wysiwyg 10 Mar 10 - 05:10 PM
jacqui.c 10 Mar 10 - 07:15 PM
wysiwyg 11 Mar 10 - 11:01 AM
LilyFestre 11 Mar 10 - 05:00 PM
SINSULL 11 Mar 10 - 08:07 PM
Sandra in Sydney 12 Mar 10 - 12:57 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 12 Mar 10 - 06:40 AM
maeve 12 Mar 10 - 06:44 AM
LilyFestre 12 Mar 10 - 02:27 PM
jacqui.c 12 Mar 10 - 02:53 PM
SINSULL 12 Mar 10 - 02:56 PM
katlaughing 12 Mar 10 - 05:07 PM
wysiwyg 12 Mar 10 - 07:50 PM
LilyFestre 13 Mar 10 - 01:14 AM
Sandra in Sydney 13 Mar 10 - 02:52 AM
katlaughing 13 Mar 10 - 03:10 AM
VirginiaTam 13 Mar 10 - 05:32 AM
wysiwyg 13 Mar 10 - 06:35 AM
LilyFestre 13 Mar 10 - 08:57 AM
Dharmabum 13 Mar 10 - 09:32 AM
jacqui.c 13 Mar 10 - 10:10 AM
SINSULL 13 Mar 10 - 12:05 PM
VirginiaTam 13 Mar 10 - 12:17 PM
wysiwyg 13 Mar 10 - 02:17 PM
Ebbie 13 Mar 10 - 07:46 PM
LilyFestre 13 Mar 10 - 08:59 PM
wysiwyg 13 Mar 10 - 10:14 PM
LilyFestre 14 Mar 10 - 12:19 AM
LilyFestre 14 Mar 10 - 12:47 AM
Sandra in Sydney 14 Mar 10 - 01:26 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 14 Mar 10 - 08:05 AM
VirginiaTam 14 Mar 10 - 09:52 AM
LilyFestre 14 Mar 10 - 10:35 AM
SINSULL 14 Mar 10 - 11:45 AM
wysiwyg 14 Mar 10 - 12:35 PM
LilyFestre 14 Mar 10 - 03:01 PM
Stilly River Sage 14 Mar 10 - 03:51 PM
Sandra in Sydney 14 Mar 10 - 06:49 PM
wysiwyg 15 Mar 10 - 07:10 AM
SINSULL 15 Mar 10 - 08:24 AM
LilyFestre 15 Mar 10 - 08:34 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 15 Mar 10 - 08:51 AM
LilyFestre 15 Mar 10 - 09:50 AM
wysiwyg 15 Mar 10 - 12:28 PM
LilyFestre 15 Mar 10 - 08:31 PM
katlaughing 15 Mar 10 - 09:25 PM
Rowan 16 Mar 10 - 12:38 AM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Mar 10 - 12:46 AM
Severn 16 Mar 10 - 02:52 AM
VirginiaTam 16 Mar 10 - 03:36 AM
VirginiaTam 16 Mar 10 - 03:38 AM
LilyFestre 16 Mar 10 - 08:03 AM
SINSULL 16 Mar 10 - 08:26 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 16 Mar 10 - 08:57 AM
wysiwyg 16 Mar 10 - 10:01 AM
LilyFestre 16 Mar 10 - 10:39 AM
SINSULL 16 Mar 10 - 10:57 AM
LilyFestre 16 Mar 10 - 11:00 AM
wysiwyg 16 Mar 10 - 11:18 AM
LilyFestre 16 Mar 10 - 09:39 PM
LilyFestre 17 Mar 10 - 12:49 AM
Sandra in Sydney 17 Mar 10 - 03:13 AM
VirginiaTam 17 Mar 10 - 03:42 AM
LilyFestre 17 Mar 10 - 09:54 AM
katlaughing 17 Mar 10 - 10:14 PM
LilyFestre 17 Mar 10 - 10:45 PM
Sandra in Sydney 18 Mar 10 - 05:09 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 18 Mar 10 - 08:02 AM
SINSULL 18 Mar 10 - 08:12 AM
wysiwyg 18 Mar 10 - 11:42 AM
LilyFestre 18 Mar 10 - 10:08 PM
Rowan 18 Mar 10 - 11:25 PM
wysiwyg 19 Mar 10 - 12:54 PM
SINSULL 19 Mar 10 - 01:09 PM
gnu 19 Mar 10 - 02:21 PM
katlaughing 19 Mar 10 - 06:42 PM
LilyFestre 19 Mar 10 - 07:55 PM
SINSULL 19 Mar 10 - 08:01 PM
SINSULL 19 Mar 10 - 08:03 PM
Stilly River Sage 20 Mar 10 - 01:17 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 20 Mar 10 - 08:00 AM
LilyFestre 20 Mar 10 - 08:13 AM
SINSULL 20 Mar 10 - 12:28 PM
LilyFestre 20 Mar 10 - 09:56 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 21 Mar 10 - 08:31 AM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Mar 10 - 09:06 AM
LilyFestre 21 Mar 10 - 09:21 AM
SINSULL 21 Mar 10 - 10:51 AM
LilyFestre 21 Mar 10 - 11:02 AM
katlaughing 21 Mar 10 - 12:25 PM
jacqui.c 21 Mar 10 - 02:45 PM
wysiwyg 21 Mar 10 - 08:24 PM
LilyFestre 21 Mar 10 - 09:53 PM
wysiwyg 21 Mar 10 - 10:53 PM
Stilly River Sage 22 Mar 10 - 01:58 AM
SINSULL 22 Mar 10 - 08:47 AM
VirginiaTam 22 Mar 10 - 03:24 PM
LilyFestre 22 Mar 10 - 07:05 PM
Sandra in Sydney 22 Mar 10 - 08:38 PM
SINSULL 22 Mar 10 - 08:44 PM
jacqui.c 23 Mar 10 - 10:42 AM
katlaughing 23 Mar 10 - 10:56 AM
SINSULL 23 Mar 10 - 11:13 AM
GUEST,tam logged out 23 Mar 10 - 03:14 PM
katlaughing 23 Mar 10 - 03:17 PM
Stilly River Sage 23 Mar 10 - 05:53 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 24 Mar 10 - 07:41 AM
jacqui.c 24 Mar 10 - 08:03 AM
LilyFestre 24 Mar 10 - 10:59 AM
SINSULL 24 Mar 10 - 11:13 AM
LilyFestre 24 Mar 10 - 12:51 PM
katlaughing 24 Mar 10 - 01:03 PM
wysiwyg 24 Mar 10 - 01:29 PM
LilyFestre 24 Mar 10 - 01:50 PM
wysiwyg 24 Mar 10 - 03:13 PM
LilyFestre 24 Mar 10 - 03:41 PM
katlaughing 24 Mar 10 - 04:40 PM
jacqui.c 24 Mar 10 - 05:08 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 25 Mar 10 - 07:54 AM
LilyFestre 25 Mar 10 - 08:08 AM
SINSULL 25 Mar 10 - 08:11 AM
Micca 25 Mar 10 - 01:06 PM
VirginiaTam 25 Mar 10 - 03:15 PM
LilyFestre 25 Mar 10 - 07:00 PM
LilyFestre 25 Mar 10 - 08:35 PM
Micca 25 Mar 10 - 08:43 PM
LilyFestre 25 Mar 10 - 10:50 PM
Sandra in Sydney 26 Mar 10 - 02:38 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 26 Mar 10 - 08:22 AM
LilyFestre 26 Mar 10 - 08:28 AM
SINSULL 26 Mar 10 - 09:03 AM
Sandra in Sydney 26 Mar 10 - 10:49 AM
Ebbie 26 Mar 10 - 11:43 AM
Stilly River Sage 26 Mar 10 - 12:10 PM
LilyFestre 26 Mar 10 - 02:42 PM
maeve 27 Mar 10 - 10:56 PM
LilyFestre 28 Mar 10 - 07:35 AM
VirginiaTam 28 Mar 10 - 08:18 AM
Bobert 28 Mar 10 - 09:47 AM
SINSULL 29 Mar 10 - 09:35 AM
LilyFestre 29 Mar 10 - 11:46 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 29 Mar 10 - 02:44 PM
KT 29 Mar 10 - 03:05 PM
SINSULL 29 Mar 10 - 04:38 PM
wysiwyg 29 Mar 10 - 04:58 PM
Stilly River Sage 29 Mar 10 - 07:14 PM
LilyFestre 29 Mar 10 - 09:38 PM
KT 29 Mar 10 - 09:46 PM
katlaughing 29 Mar 10 - 09:58 PM
Sandra in Sydney 30 Mar 10 - 01:48 AM
maeve 30 Mar 10 - 07:03 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 30 Mar 10 - 08:17 AM
SINSULL 30 Mar 10 - 08:24 AM
Sandra in Sydney 30 Mar 10 - 08:27 AM
VirginiaTam 30 Mar 10 - 08:39 AM
LilyFestre 30 Mar 10 - 08:41 AM
Stilly River Sage 30 Mar 10 - 10:30 AM
LilyFestre 31 Mar 10 - 06:57 AM
Bobert 31 Mar 10 - 07:47 AM
LilyFestre 31 Mar 10 - 07:53 AM
GUEST,SINS at work 31 Mar 10 - 08:23 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 31 Mar 10 - 08:46 AM
GUEST,Neil D 31 Mar 10 - 09:22 AM
VirginiaTam 31 Mar 10 - 09:45 AM
jacqui.c 31 Mar 10 - 07:21 PM
SINSULL 02 Apr 10 - 12:05 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 02 Apr 10 - 06:00 PM
gnu 02 Apr 10 - 07:06 PM
LilyFestre 02 Apr 10 - 07:33 PM
LilyFestre 02 Apr 10 - 08:10 PM
gnu 02 Apr 10 - 08:24 PM
SINSULL 04 Apr 10 - 12:49 PM
LilyFestre 04 Apr 10 - 01:20 PM
Stilly River Sage 04 Apr 10 - 01:48 PM
LilyFestre 04 Apr 10 - 05:25 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 04 Apr 10 - 06:38 PM
SINSULL 05 Apr 10 - 10:04 AM
GUEST 05 Apr 10 - 11:05 AM
Stilly River Sage 06 Apr 10 - 01:04 AM
SINSULL 06 Apr 10 - 07:57 AM
Sandra in Sydney 06 Apr 10 - 08:22 AM
jacqui.c 06 Apr 10 - 08:30 AM
LilyFestre 06 Apr 10 - 05:50 PM
GUEST,Wys cookie broken 06 Apr 10 - 08:16 PM
jacqui.c 07 Apr 10 - 07:57 AM
SINSULL 07 Apr 10 - 08:16 AM
Bobert 07 Apr 10 - 08:31 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 07 Apr 10 - 10:34 AM
katlaughing 07 Apr 10 - 12:29 PM
Sandra in Sydney 07 Apr 10 - 09:09 PM
LilyFestre 07 Apr 10 - 10:17 PM
LilyFestre 07 Apr 10 - 11:35 PM
Sandra in Sydney 08 Apr 10 - 02:40 AM
LilyFestre 08 Apr 10 - 07:49 AM
SINSULL 08 Apr 10 - 08:59 AM
LilyFestre 08 Apr 10 - 10:38 AM
wysiwyg 08 Apr 10 - 11:54 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 08 Apr 10 - 01:16 PM
LilyFestre 08 Apr 10 - 09:11 PM
LilyFestre 08 Apr 10 - 10:40 PM
Stilly River Sage 09 Apr 10 - 01:01 AM
maeve 09 Apr 10 - 06:51 AM
SINSULL 09 Apr 10 - 11:02 AM
VirginiaTam 09 Apr 10 - 06:29 PM
LilyFestre 09 Apr 10 - 07:50 PM
Bobert 09 Apr 10 - 08:09 PM
LilyFestre 09 Apr 10 - 09:00 PM
Severn 09 Apr 10 - 09:07 PM
LilyFestre 09 Apr 10 - 09:21 PM
wysiwyg 09 Apr 10 - 10:55 PM
SINSULL 10 Apr 10 - 01:26 PM
LilyFestre 10 Apr 10 - 03:49 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 10 Apr 10 - 07:20 PM
katlaughing 10 Apr 10 - 09:48 PM
LilyFestre 10 Apr 10 - 10:22 PM
Sandra in Sydney 11 Apr 10 - 04:11 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 11 Apr 10 - 08:25 AM
Bobert 11 Apr 10 - 08:45 AM
LilyFestre 11 Apr 10 - 01:16 PM
SINSULL 11 Apr 10 - 02:30 PM
VirginiaTam 11 Apr 10 - 02:41 PM
katlaughing 12 Apr 10 - 12:00 AM
Rowan 12 Apr 10 - 08:38 PM
LilyFestre 12 Apr 10 - 09:05 PM
Sandra in Sydney 12 Apr 10 - 09:24 PM
LilyFestre 13 Apr 10 - 09:48 AM
VirginiaTam 13 Apr 10 - 10:14 AM
SINSULL 13 Apr 10 - 10:19 AM
maeve 13 Apr 10 - 10:33 AM
LilyFestre 13 Apr 10 - 10:33 AM
maeve 13 Apr 10 - 10:51 AM
Sandra in Sydney 13 Apr 10 - 11:30 AM
katlaughing 13 Apr 10 - 12:05 PM
LilyFestre 13 Apr 10 - 12:13 PM
wysiwyg 13 Apr 10 - 12:50 PM
LilyFestre 13 Apr 10 - 02:23 PM
LilyFestre 13 Apr 10 - 02:26 PM
gnu 13 Apr 10 - 05:24 PM
LilyFestre 13 Apr 10 - 10:23 PM
LilyFestre 14 Apr 10 - 12:02 AM
LilyFestre 14 Apr 10 - 12:24 AM
Stilly River Sage 14 Apr 10 - 12:53 AM
LilyFestre 14 Apr 10 - 07:41 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 14 Apr 10 - 07:50 AM
jacqui.c 14 Apr 10 - 08:56 AM
LilyFestre 14 Apr 10 - 07:40 PM
Sandra in Sydney 14 Apr 10 - 08:57 PM
SINSULL 14 Apr 10 - 09:11 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Apr 10 - 12:26 AM
Rowan 15 Apr 10 - 02:12 AM
LilyFestre 15 Apr 10 - 05:42 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 15 Apr 10 - 06:01 PM
LilyFestre 15 Apr 10 - 06:13 PM
Micca 15 Apr 10 - 08:24 PM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Apr 10 - 04:20 AM
Micca 16 Apr 10 - 05:20 AM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Apr 10 - 06:35 AM
maeve 16 Apr 10 - 06:57 AM
LilyFestre 16 Apr 10 - 07:25 AM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Apr 10 - 10:16 AM
katlaughing 16 Apr 10 - 10:44 AM
SINSULL 16 Apr 10 - 11:06 AM
katlaughing 16 Apr 10 - 04:52 PM
LilyFestre 16 Apr 10 - 05:50 PM
Bobert 16 Apr 10 - 08:51 PM
katlaughing 17 Apr 10 - 12:15 AM
Rowan 17 Apr 10 - 12:54 AM
LilyFestre 19 Apr 10 - 06:15 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 19 Apr 10 - 07:23 AM
Sandra in Sydney 19 Apr 10 - 07:25 AM
wysiwyg 19 Apr 10 - 08:55 AM
Stilly River Sage 19 Apr 10 - 01:04 PM
LilyFestre 19 Apr 10 - 07:50 PM
wysiwyg 19 Apr 10 - 07:54 PM
Bobert 19 Apr 10 - 08:24 PM
Sandra in Sydney 19 Apr 10 - 09:24 PM
Rowan 20 Apr 10 - 12:44 AM
LilyFestre 20 Apr 10 - 07:43 AM
maeve 20 Apr 10 - 07:53 AM
Sandra in Sydney 20 Apr 10 - 08:08 AM
SINSULL 20 Apr 10 - 08:11 AM
kendall 20 Apr 10 - 08:14 AM
GUEST,Neil D 20 Apr 10 - 08:29 AM
mouldy 20 Apr 10 - 09:00 AM
Rowan 20 Apr 10 - 07:03 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 21 Apr 10 - 07:32 AM
LilyFestre 21 Apr 10 - 07:36 AM
maeve 21 Apr 10 - 07:42 AM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Apr 10 - 08:16 AM
Micca 21 Apr 10 - 09:06 AM
SINSULL 21 Apr 10 - 09:33 AM
Stilly River Sage 21 Apr 10 - 10:53 AM
katlaughing 21 Apr 10 - 05:24 PM
gnu 21 Apr 10 - 06:09 PM
LilyFestre 21 Apr 10 - 08:07 PM
maeve 22 Apr 10 - 04:42 AM
LilyFestre 22 Apr 10 - 08:25 AM
Sandra in Sydney 22 Apr 10 - 09:33 AM
jacqui.c 22 Apr 10 - 01:38 PM
LilyFestre 22 Apr 10 - 04:59 PM
jacqui.c 23 Apr 10 - 02:25 PM
Cuilionn 23 Apr 10 - 02:32 PM
SINSULL 23 Apr 10 - 02:37 PM
VirginiaTam 23 Apr 10 - 03:23 PM
katlaughing 23 Apr 10 - 04:43 PM
LilyFestre 23 Apr 10 - 04:51 PM
Ebbie 23 Apr 10 - 05:05 PM
wysiwyg 23 Apr 10 - 09:09 PM
jacqui.c 24 Apr 10 - 07:41 AM
LilyFestre 24 Apr 10 - 04:48 PM
wysiwyg 24 Apr 10 - 08:32 PM
LilyFestre 24 Apr 10 - 09:13 PM
LilyFestre 25 Apr 10 - 09:07 AM
wysiwyg 25 Apr 10 - 09:28 AM
LilyFestre 25 Apr 10 - 12:30 PM
VirginiaTam 25 Apr 10 - 01:19 PM
jacqui.c 25 Apr 10 - 02:06 PM
LilyFestre 26 Apr 10 - 12:45 AM
LilyFestre 26 Apr 10 - 10:33 AM
Stilly River Sage 26 Apr 10 - 10:50 AM
wysiwyg 26 Apr 10 - 11:33 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 26 Apr 10 - 02:40 PM
wysiwyg 26 Apr 10 - 05:48 PM
LilyFestre 26 Apr 10 - 06:45 PM
wysiwyg 26 Apr 10 - 06:46 PM
KT 26 Apr 10 - 07:10 PM
Bobert 26 Apr 10 - 07:32 PM
LilyFestre 26 Apr 10 - 08:10 PM
Ebbie 26 Apr 10 - 09:03 PM
Bobert 26 Apr 10 - 09:33 PM
jacqui.c 27 Apr 10 - 08:46 AM
SINSULL 27 Apr 10 - 09:01 AM
maeve 27 Apr 10 - 09:01 AM
VirginiaTam 27 Apr 10 - 02:51 PM
LilyFestre 27 Apr 10 - 04:41 PM
jacqui.c 28 Apr 10 - 08:15 AM
wysiwyg 28 Apr 10 - 11:23 AM
LilyFestre 28 Apr 10 - 11:33 AM
wysiwyg 28 Apr 10 - 11:52 AM
LilyFestre 29 Apr 10 - 03:16 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 29 Apr 10 - 07:38 AM
Sandra in Sydney 29 Apr 10 - 07:48 AM
LilyFestre 29 Apr 10 - 08:32 AM
LilyFestre 29 Apr 10 - 09:19 AM
jacqui.c 29 Apr 10 - 09:46 AM
wysiwyg 29 Apr 10 - 11:20 AM
LilyFestre 30 Apr 10 - 01:14 AM
VirginiaTam 30 Apr 10 - 04:05 AM
Bobert 30 Apr 10 - 06:54 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 30 Apr 10 - 07:22 AM
LilyFestre 30 Apr 10 - 08:28 AM
LilyFestre 30 Apr 10 - 08:29 AM
VirginiaTam 30 Apr 10 - 08:58 AM
Stilly River Sage 30 Apr 10 - 10:59 AM
wysiwyg 30 Apr 10 - 11:15 AM
SINSULL 30 Apr 10 - 11:43 AM
jacqui.c 30 Apr 10 - 01:34 PM
LilyFestre 30 Apr 10 - 10:20 PM
LilyFestre 30 Apr 10 - 10:31 PM
Sandra in Sydney 01 May 10 - 08:12 AM
Bobert 01 May 10 - 09:43 AM
jacqui.c 01 May 10 - 11:17 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 02 May 10 - 08:04 AM
LilyFestre 02 May 10 - 11:04 PM
Sandra in Sydney 03 May 10 - 03:07 AM
SINSULL 03 May 10 - 08:33 AM
Janie 03 May 10 - 09:45 AM
LilyFestre 03 May 10 - 11:18 AM
jacqui.c 03 May 10 - 11:29 AM
LilyFestre 03 May 10 - 11:31 AM
Stilly River Sage 03 May 10 - 06:43 PM
maeve 04 May 10 - 02:41 AM
LilyFestre 04 May 10 - 06:29 AM
LilyFestre 04 May 10 - 08:16 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 04 May 10 - 08:17 AM
Sandra in Sydney 04 May 10 - 08:44 AM
gnu 04 May 10 - 08:44 AM
LilyFestre 04 May 10 - 09:13 AM
LilyFestre 04 May 10 - 09:54 AM
Sandra in Sydney 04 May 10 - 10:00 AM
SINSULL 04 May 10 - 10:05 AM
Stilly River Sage 04 May 10 - 12:17 PM
LilyFestre 04 May 10 - 05:52 PM
LilyFestre 05 May 10 - 01:39 PM
SINSULL 05 May 10 - 01:42 PM
Stilly River Sage 05 May 10 - 06:08 PM
Sandra in Sydney 05 May 10 - 06:35 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 05 May 10 - 06:41 PM
LilyFestre 05 May 10 - 10:51 PM
maeve 05 May 10 - 10:57 PM
Sandra in Sydney 06 May 10 - 03:14 AM
Bobert 06 May 10 - 07:02 AM
LilyFestre 06 May 10 - 11:59 AM
LilyFestre 06 May 10 - 01:37 PM
VirginiaTam 06 May 10 - 01:50 PM
jacqui.c 06 May 10 - 01:55 PM
LilyFestre 06 May 10 - 06:51 PM
Sandra in Sydney 07 May 10 - 05:01 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 07 May 10 - 08:21 AM
LilyFestre 07 May 10 - 09:16 PM
LilyFestre 08 May 10 - 10:28 AM
wysiwyg 08 May 10 - 11:28 AM
LilyFestre 08 May 10 - 10:39 PM
Bobert 08 May 10 - 11:08 PM
Sandra in Sydney 08 May 10 - 11:36 PM
LilyFestre 09 May 10 - 12:16 AM
katlaughing 09 May 10 - 12:47 AM
SINSULL 09 May 10 - 02:33 PM
Ebbie 10 May 10 - 09:55 AM
Rowan 10 May 10 - 06:07 PM
LilyFestre 10 May 10 - 09:20 PM
LilyFestre 10 May 10 - 10:25 PM
LilyFestre 11 May 10 - 02:59 AM
Sandra in Sydney 11 May 10 - 04:48 AM
SINSULL 11 May 10 - 08:09 AM
LilyFestre 11 May 10 - 01:57 PM
SINSULL 11 May 10 - 02:02 PM
Sandra in Sydney 11 May 10 - 07:33 PM
LilyFestre 11 May 10 - 10:36 PM
Stilly River Sage 12 May 10 - 12:09 AM
SINSULL 12 May 10 - 08:00 AM
VirginiaTam 12 May 10 - 09:31 AM
VirginiaTam 12 May 10 - 09:33 AM
SINSULL 12 May 10 - 10:58 AM
Sandra in Sydney 12 May 10 - 11:13 AM
LilyFestre 12 May 10 - 05:47 PM
SINSULL 12 May 10 - 07:16 PM
Sandra in Sydney 13 May 10 - 03:28 AM
jacqui.c 13 May 10 - 07:56 AM
Bobert 13 May 10 - 08:35 AM
LilyFestre 13 May 10 - 03:33 PM
Sandra in Sydney 13 May 10 - 06:07 PM
LilyFestre 14 May 10 - 07:04 PM
Sandra in Sydney 14 May 10 - 09:57 PM
kendall 15 May 10 - 07:05 AM
gnu 15 May 10 - 07:10 AM
jacqui.c 15 May 10 - 07:21 AM
wysiwyg 15 May 10 - 09:52 AM
SINSULL 15 May 10 - 11:01 AM
LilyFestre 15 May 10 - 01:12 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 May 10 - 01:24 PM
LilyFestre 15 May 10 - 01:46 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 15 May 10 - 01:47 PM
VirginiaTam 15 May 10 - 02:24 PM
JennieG 16 May 10 - 02:28 AM
LilyFestre 16 May 10 - 08:45 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 16 May 10 - 08:51 AM
Stilly River Sage 16 May 10 - 11:30 AM
Sandra in Sydney 16 May 10 - 12:23 PM
mouldy 16 May 10 - 01:19 PM
wysiwyg 16 May 10 - 02:27 PM
LilyFestre 16 May 10 - 10:29 PM
Stilly River Sage 16 May 10 - 11:51 PM
LilyFestre 17 May 10 - 06:56 AM
Stilly River Sage 17 May 10 - 12:12 PM
LilyFestre 17 May 10 - 12:47 PM
LilyFestre 17 May 10 - 12:52 PM
LilyFestre 17 May 10 - 12:56 PM
jacqui.c 17 May 10 - 01:29 PM
wysiwyg 17 May 10 - 02:58 PM
Bobert 17 May 10 - 03:57 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 17 May 10 - 05:18 PM
Sandra in Sydney 17 May 10 - 09:56 PM
LilyFestre 17 May 10 - 09:59 PM
katlaughing 17 May 10 - 11:56 PM
Stilly River Sage 18 May 10 - 12:30 AM
VirginiaTam 18 May 10 - 02:42 AM
wysiwyg 18 May 10 - 08:42 AM
LilyFestre 18 May 10 - 10:00 AM
SINSULL 18 May 10 - 11:50 AM
Stilly River Sage 18 May 10 - 01:54 PM
wysiwyg 18 May 10 - 02:07 PM
LilyFestre 18 May 10 - 04:21 PM
LilyFestre 18 May 10 - 04:29 PM
LilyFestre 18 May 10 - 04:44 PM
wysiwyg 18 May 10 - 05:13 PM
katlaughing 18 May 10 - 05:59 PM
LilyFestre 18 May 10 - 06:31 PM
Sandra in Sydney 18 May 10 - 07:29 PM
Bobert 18 May 10 - 07:46 PM
Pistachio 18 May 10 - 07:47 PM
LilyFestre 18 May 10 - 07:57 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 18 May 10 - 08:32 PM
SINSULL 18 May 10 - 09:09 PM
katlaughing 18 May 10 - 09:26 PM
Bobert 18 May 10 - 09:29 PM
Stilly River Sage 18 May 10 - 11:56 PM
VirginiaTam 19 May 10 - 02:47 AM
LilyFestre 19 May 10 - 03:18 AM
wysiwyg 19 May 10 - 10:40 AM
LilyFestre 19 May 10 - 11:40 AM
LilyFestre 19 May 10 - 12:15 PM
wysiwyg 19 May 10 - 12:52 PM
SINSULL 19 May 10 - 01:13 PM
jacqui.c 19 May 10 - 04:04 PM
SINSULL 19 May 10 - 04:16 PM
LilyFestre 19 May 10 - 04:32 PM
SINSULL 19 May 10 - 05:02 PM
LilyFestre 19 May 10 - 09:32 PM
LilyFestre 19 May 10 - 10:39 PM
Bobert 19 May 10 - 10:47 PM
My guru always said 20 May 10 - 03:23 AM
Sandra in Sydney 20 May 10 - 03:58 AM
jacqui.c 20 May 10 - 06:35 AM
Bobert 20 May 10 - 07:26 AM
LilyFestre 20 May 10 - 07:39 AM
LilyFestre 20 May 10 - 07:42 AM
SINSULL 20 May 10 - 07:57 AM
wysiwyg 20 May 10 - 10:22 AM
Stilly River Sage 20 May 10 - 11:31 AM
katlaughing 20 May 10 - 07:24 PM
Bobert 20 May 10 - 08:01 PM
LilyFestre 20 May 10 - 08:50 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 21 May 10 - 08:22 AM
wysiwyg 21 May 10 - 10:43 AM
SINSULL 21 May 10 - 11:38 AM
LilyFestre 21 May 10 - 05:52 PM
jacqui.c 21 May 10 - 07:20 PM
Sandra in Sydney 21 May 10 - 08:45 PM
LilyFestre 21 May 10 - 10:48 PM
Bobert 21 May 10 - 10:53 PM
Sandra in Sydney 22 May 10 - 03:16 AM
jacqui.c 22 May 10 - 11:08 AM
Tannywheeler 22 May 10 - 11:37 AM
VirginiaTam 22 May 10 - 11:54 AM
LilyFestre 22 May 10 - 03:59 PM
LilyFestre 22 May 10 - 04:23 PM
LilyFestre 22 May 10 - 08:01 PM
Bobert 22 May 10 - 08:13 PM
katlaughing 22 May 10 - 11:33 PM
Stilly River Sage 23 May 10 - 01:17 AM
LilyFestre 23 May 10 - 01:55 AM
VirginiaTam 23 May 10 - 04:57 AM
Sandra in Sydney 23 May 10 - 05:28 AM
VirginiaTam 23 May 10 - 10:25 AM
katlaughing 23 May 10 - 12:20 PM
LilyFestre 23 May 10 - 12:27 PM
LilyFestre 23 May 10 - 12:51 PM
Ebbie 23 May 10 - 01:08 PM
Bobert 23 May 10 - 01:08 PM
LilyFestre 23 May 10 - 01:12 PM
gnu 23 May 10 - 03:31 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 23 May 10 - 05:11 PM
wysiwyg 23 May 10 - 08:18 PM
LilyFestre 23 May 10 - 09:03 PM
LilyFestre 23 May 10 - 09:39 PM
LilyFestre 24 May 10 - 03:35 AM
Sandra in Sydney 24 May 10 - 05:47 AM
katlaughing 24 May 10 - 08:47 PM
Stilly River Sage 25 May 10 - 01:08 PM
wysiwyg 25 May 10 - 04:08 PM
Ebbie 25 May 10 - 05:31 PM
LilyFestre 25 May 10 - 06:42 PM
Bobert 25 May 10 - 07:39 PM
jacqui.c 26 May 10 - 08:53 AM
LilyFestre 26 May 10 - 08:47 PM
LilyFestre 26 May 10 - 10:35 PM
Stilly River Sage 26 May 10 - 11:40 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 27 May 10 - 09:05 AM
SINSULL 27 May 10 - 09:57 AM
GUEST 27 May 10 - 10:44 AM
SINSULL 27 May 10 - 10:46 AM
VirginiaTam 27 May 10 - 04:36 PM
gnu 27 May 10 - 05:19 PM
LilyFestre 27 May 10 - 08:24 PM
Bobert 27 May 10 - 08:59 PM
LilyFestre 28 May 10 - 12:40 AM
Little Robyn 28 May 10 - 12:51 AM
Sandra in Sydney 28 May 10 - 01:41 AM
wysiwyg 28 May 10 - 11:36 AM
SINSULL 28 May 10 - 12:02 PM
Stilly River Sage 28 May 10 - 12:55 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 28 May 10 - 06:11 PM
wysiwyg 29 May 10 - 03:52 PM
gnu 29 May 10 - 03:58 PM
Bobert 29 May 10 - 08:55 PM
Ebbie 29 May 10 - 09:43 PM
VirginiaTam 30 May 10 - 05:05 AM
LilyFestre 30 May 10 - 10:05 AM
wysiwyg 30 May 10 - 11:38 AM
LilyFestre 30 May 10 - 01:02 PM
wysiwyg 30 May 10 - 02:01 PM
LilyFestre 31 May 10 - 07:53 AM
Bobert 31 May 10 - 09:18 AM
LilyFestre 31 May 10 - 11:36 AM
Tannywheeler 31 May 10 - 01:24 PM
katlaughing 31 May 10 - 01:25 PM
LilyFestre 04 Jun 10 - 05:27 PM
Bobert 04 Jun 10 - 06:24 PM
Stilly River Sage 04 Jun 10 - 06:38 PM
LilyFestre 04 Jun 10 - 08:08 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 05 Jun 10 - 09:11 AM
Bobert 05 Jun 10 - 09:25 AM
LilyFestre 05 Jun 10 - 10:06 AM
LilyFestre 05 Jun 10 - 10:19 AM
Sandra in Sydney 06 Jun 10 - 06:55 AM
LilyFestre 06 Jun 10 - 09:40 AM
SINSULL 06 Jun 10 - 12:58 PM
Stilly River Sage 06 Jun 10 - 05:38 PM
gnu 06 Jun 10 - 05:55 PM
VirginiaTam 07 Jun 10 - 05:07 AM
LilyFestre 07 Jun 10 - 07:13 AM
SINSULL 07 Jun 10 - 07:52 AM
Bobert 07 Jun 10 - 08:14 AM
LilyFestre 07 Jun 10 - 10:32 AM
Bobert 07 Jun 10 - 11:15 AM
SINSULL 07 Jun 10 - 01:15 PM
VirginiaTam 07 Jun 10 - 02:07 PM
wysiwyg 07 Jun 10 - 02:19 PM
jacqui.c 07 Jun 10 - 03:22 PM
LilyFestre 07 Jun 10 - 04:47 PM
jacqui.c 07 Jun 10 - 04:59 PM
LilyFestre 07 Jun 10 - 05:37 PM
wysiwyg 07 Jun 10 - 06:45 PM
LilyFestre 07 Jun 10 - 07:02 PM
LilyFestre 07 Jun 10 - 07:14 PM
Sandra in Sydney 07 Jun 10 - 07:39 PM
Bobert 07 Jun 10 - 08:14 PM
SINSULL 07 Jun 10 - 08:25 PM
wysiwyg 07 Jun 10 - 08:33 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 08 Jun 10 - 08:34 AM
LilyFestre 08 Jun 10 - 10:09 AM
Sandra in Sydney 08 Jun 10 - 10:54 AM
SINSULL 09 Jun 10 - 09:39 AM
LilyFestre 09 Jun 10 - 12:30 PM
wysiwyg 09 Jun 10 - 01:36 PM
katlaughing 09 Jun 10 - 01:45 PM
LilyFestre 09 Jun 10 - 01:54 PM
Ebbie 10 Jun 10 - 09:56 AM
katlaughing 10 Jun 10 - 10:37 AM
wysiwyg 10 Jun 10 - 11:41 AM
wysiwyg 10 Jun 10 - 11:43 AM
LilyFestre 10 Jun 10 - 05:54 PM
katlaughing 10 Jun 10 - 06:13 PM
Bobert 10 Jun 10 - 06:22 PM
Sandra in Sydney 10 Jun 10 - 06:40 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 10 Jun 10 - 07:42 PM
LilyFestre 11 Jun 10 - 09:57 AM
Bobert 11 Jun 10 - 08:10 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 12 Jun 10 - 02:48 PM
LilyFestre 12 Jun 10 - 09:51 PM
Ebbie 12 Jun 10 - 09:59 PM
Bobert 12 Jun 10 - 10:00 PM
LilyFestre 12 Jun 10 - 10:48 PM
LilyFestre 12 Jun 10 - 10:49 PM
katlaughing 12 Jun 10 - 10:59 PM
KT 13 Jun 10 - 03:09 AM
Little Robyn 13 Jun 10 - 03:19 AM
VirginiaTam 13 Jun 10 - 04:40 AM
gnu 13 Jun 10 - 05:29 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 13 Jun 10 - 08:35 AM
wysiwyg 13 Jun 10 - 08:41 AM
Tannywheeler 13 Jun 10 - 09:18 AM
SINSULL 13 Jun 10 - 10:18 AM
Stilly River Sage 13 Jun 10 - 11:40 AM
Ebbie 13 Jun 10 - 12:01 PM
mouldy 13 Jun 10 - 02:16 PM
wysiwyg 13 Jun 10 - 02:22 PM
VirginiaTam 13 Jun 10 - 05:49 PM
wysiwyg 13 Jun 10 - 06:29 PM
gnu 13 Jun 10 - 07:16 PM
ClaireBear 13 Jun 10 - 08:53 PM
jacqui.c 13 Jun 10 - 08:58 PM
wysiwyg 13 Jun 10 - 10:59 PM
Sandra in Sydney 14 Jun 10 - 07:26 AM
Bobert 14 Jun 10 - 07:38 AM
LilyFestre 14 Jun 10 - 08:08 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 14 Jun 10 - 08:42 AM
Stilly River Sage 14 Jun 10 - 11:00 AM
ClaireBear 14 Jun 10 - 12:28 PM
LilyFestre 14 Jun 10 - 08:34 PM
Bobert 14 Jun 10 - 08:45 PM
LilyFestre 14 Jun 10 - 10:26 PM
Sandra in Sydney 15 Jun 10 - 06:58 AM
wysiwyg 15 Jun 10 - 08:52 AM
Stilly River Sage 15 Jun 10 - 09:33 AM
wysiwyg 15 Jun 10 - 10:27 AM
LilyFestre 15 Jun 10 - 11:00 AM
ClaireBear 15 Jun 10 - 02:00 PM
LilyFestre 15 Jun 10 - 02:25 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 15 Jun 10 - 02:39 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Jun 10 - 03:09 PM
wysiwyg 15 Jun 10 - 04:21 PM
LilyFestre 15 Jun 10 - 06:48 PM
Bobert 15 Jun 10 - 07:55 PM
wysiwyg 15 Jun 10 - 08:11 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Jun 10 - 08:11 PM
LilyFestre 15 Jun 10 - 10:30 PM
Stilly River Sage 16 Jun 10 - 12:54 AM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Jun 10 - 04:09 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 16 Jun 10 - 08:36 AM
wysiwyg 16 Jun 10 - 10:51 AM
gnu 16 Jun 10 - 01:10 PM
LilyFestre 17 Jun 10 - 01:28 AM
VirginiaTam 17 Jun 10 - 05:31 AM
Sandra in Sydney 17 Jun 10 - 06:17 AM
Bobert 17 Jun 10 - 07:11 AM
SINSULL 17 Jun 10 - 08:07 AM
wysiwyg 17 Jun 10 - 09:20 AM
LilyFestre 17 Jun 10 - 02:10 PM
wysiwyg 17 Jun 10 - 02:28 PM
Stilly River Sage 17 Jun 10 - 03:15 PM
wysiwyg 17 Jun 10 - 05:09 PM
Sorcha 17 Jun 10 - 06:47 PM
Rapparee 17 Jun 10 - 08:20 PM
GUEST,jimmyt 17 Jun 10 - 10:02 PM
LilyFestre 18 Jun 10 - 07:56 AM
Catherine Jayne 18 Jun 10 - 08:35 AM
Tannywheeler 18 Jun 10 - 08:47 AM
mouldy 18 Jun 10 - 08:55 AM
LilyFestre 18 Jun 10 - 10:06 PM
Bobert 18 Jun 10 - 10:14 PM
Stilly River Sage 18 Jun 10 - 11:29 PM
jacqui.c 19 Jun 10 - 12:57 PM
LilyFestre 19 Jun 10 - 07:52 PM
maeve 19 Jun 10 - 08:00 PM
Sandra in Sydney 19 Jun 10 - 11:52 PM
Stilly River Sage 20 Jun 10 - 01:17 PM
LilyFestre 20 Jun 10 - 07:37 PM
Bobert 20 Jun 10 - 08:28 PM
SINSULL 20 Jun 10 - 08:51 PM
Stilly River Sage 20 Jun 10 - 10:24 PM
LilyFestre 21 Jun 10 - 06:19 AM
Tinker 21 Jun 10 - 08:13 AM
LilyFestre 21 Jun 10 - 08:16 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 21 Jun 10 - 09:36 AM
Tinker 21 Jun 10 - 09:45 AM
wysiwyg 21 Jun 10 - 09:53 AM
LilyFestre 21 Jun 10 - 10:36 AM
Stilly River Sage 21 Jun 10 - 11:12 AM
LilyFestre 21 Jun 10 - 11:36 AM
wysiwyg 21 Jun 10 - 12:09 PM
LilyFestre 21 Jun 10 - 12:19 PM
wysiwyg 21 Jun 10 - 04:01 PM
LilyFestre 21 Jun 10 - 08:05 PM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Jun 10 - 10:03 PM
LilyFestre 28 Jun 10 - 10:09 PM
LilyFestre 28 Jun 10 - 10:15 PM
wysiwyg 28 Jun 10 - 11:15 PM
Sandra in Sydney 29 Jun 10 - 04:00 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 29 Jun 10 - 07:54 AM
Bobert 29 Jun 10 - 08:41 AM
Noreen 29 Jun 10 - 08:48 AM
LilyFestre 29 Jun 10 - 11:01 AM
ClaireBear 29 Jun 10 - 03:32 PM
gnu 29 Jun 10 - 03:35 PM
VirginiaTam 29 Jun 10 - 04:42 PM
LilyFestre 29 Jun 10 - 05:28 PM
LilyFestre 29 Jun 10 - 05:48 PM
Stilly River Sage 29 Jun 10 - 06:01 PM
Noreen 29 Jun 10 - 06:23 PM
LilyFestre 29 Jun 10 - 07:32 PM
wysiwyg 29 Jun 10 - 11:13 PM
VirginiaTam 30 Jun 10 - 02:42 AM
LilyFestre 30 Jun 10 - 07:56 AM
LilyFestre 30 Jun 10 - 07:59 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 30 Jun 10 - 08:05 AM
Sandra in Sydney 30 Jun 10 - 10:33 AM
wysiwyg 30 Jun 10 - 10:54 AM
jacqui.c 03 Jul 10 - 12:23 PM
wysiwyg 05 Jul 10 - 11:34 AM
LilyFestre 05 Jul 10 - 01:40 PM
LilyFestre 05 Jul 10 - 09:43 PM
LilyFestre 06 Jul 10 - 09:45 AM
Stilly River Sage 06 Jul 10 - 10:45 AM
Sandra in Sydney 06 Jul 10 - 10:49 AM
Bobert 06 Jul 10 - 12:40 PM
LilyFestre 07 Jul 10 - 07:19 PM
Bobert 07 Jul 10 - 08:19 PM
LilyFestre 07 Jul 10 - 08:58 PM
Sandra in Sydney 07 Jul 10 - 09:46 PM
Bobert 08 Jul 10 - 08:34 AM
Stilly River Sage 09 Jul 10 - 12:29 AM
wysiwyg 10 Jul 10 - 11:54 AM
LilyFestre 10 Jul 10 - 12:52 PM
Noreen 10 Jul 10 - 02:14 PM
Stilly River Sage 10 Jul 10 - 02:19 PM
Sandra in Sydney 11 Jul 10 - 03:18 AM
wysiwyg 11 Jul 10 - 08:49 AM
LilyFestre 11 Jul 10 - 01:28 PM
Sandra in Sydney 11 Jul 10 - 11:10 PM
Stilly River Sage 11 Jul 10 - 11:31 PM
LilyFestre 13 Jul 10 - 10:27 PM
VirginiaTam 14 Jul 10 - 02:47 AM
Sandra in Sydney 14 Jul 10 - 10:43 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 14 Jul 10 - 06:02 PM
LilyFestre 14 Jul 10 - 09:06 PM
LilyFestre 19 Jul 10 - 09:04 PM
jacqui.c 19 Jul 10 - 09:05 PM
Bobert 19 Jul 10 - 10:04 PM
Stilly River Sage 20 Jul 10 - 01:49 AM
Sandra in Sydney 20 Jul 10 - 04:26 AM
VirginiaTam 20 Jul 10 - 03:12 PM
wysiwyg 20 Jul 10 - 04:04 PM
LilyFestre 20 Jul 10 - 06:44 PM
wysiwyg 20 Jul 10 - 11:01 PM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Jul 10 - 06:26 AM
GUEST, All Of Us at Mudcat 22 Jul 10 - 11:18 PM
Stilly River Sage 23 Jul 10 - 02:04 AM
LilyFestre 23 Jul 10 - 02:39 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 23 Jul 10 - 06:05 PM
Stilly River Sage 24 Jul 10 - 04:28 PM
Severn 24 Jul 10 - 11:35 PM
Ebbie 25 Jul 10 - 07:45 PM
Bobert 26 Jul 10 - 10:05 AM
GUEST,USPS postal pixie 26 Jul 10 - 11:27 AM
LilyFestre 26 Jul 10 - 11:34 AM
LilyFestre 26 Jul 10 - 12:42 PM
LilyFestre 26 Jul 10 - 12:44 PM
Stilly River Sage 26 Jul 10 - 12:45 PM
katlaughing 09 Aug 10 - 11:09 PM
LilyFestre 11 Aug 10 - 01:52 PM
katlaughing 11 Aug 10 - 04:14 PM
gnu 11 Aug 10 - 04:24 PM
VirginiaTam 11 Aug 10 - 05:45 PM
Sandra in Sydney 11 Aug 10 - 08:55 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 12 Aug 10 - 09:38 AM
Bobert 12 Aug 10 - 10:56 AM
Stilly River Sage 12 Aug 10 - 12:12 PM
LilyFestre 12 Aug 10 - 08:28 PM
Stilly River Sage 12 Aug 10 - 08:46 PM
Sandra in Sydney 13 Aug 10 - 02:15 AM
LilyFestre 13 Aug 10 - 10:04 PM
Sandra in Sydney 13 Aug 10 - 10:14 PM
VirginiaTam 14 Aug 10 - 01:42 PM
LilyFestre 14 Aug 10 - 07:49 PM
wysiwyg 08 Sep 10 - 10:29 AM
LilyFestre 20 Sep 10 - 09:55 PM
Bobert 20 Sep 10 - 10:05 PM
LilyFestre 20 Sep 10 - 11:41 PM
Sandra in Sydney 21 Sep 10 - 05:09 AM
SINSULL 21 Sep 10 - 08:57 AM
wysiwyg 21 Sep 10 - 12:56 PM
LilyFestre 21 Sep 10 - 05:55 PM
wysiwyg 21 Sep 10 - 06:13 PM
LilyFestre 21 Sep 10 - 06:41 PM
katlaughing 21 Sep 10 - 06:48 PM
SINSULL 21 Sep 10 - 07:05 PM
jacqui.c 21 Sep 10 - 07:59 PM
wysiwyg 21 Sep 10 - 08:17 PM
Stilly River Sage 21 Sep 10 - 08:35 PM
SINSULL 22 Sep 10 - 08:31 AM
SINSULL 22 Sep 10 - 06:17 PM
Stilly River Sage 22 Sep 10 - 07:26 PM
LilyFestre 23 Sep 10 - 04:09 PM
SINSULL 23 Sep 10 - 06:51 PM
katlaughing 23 Sep 10 - 08:29 PM
SINSULL 23 Sep 10 - 08:56 PM
katlaughing 23 Sep 10 - 11:44 PM
LilyFestre 30 Sep 10 - 10:45 PM
maeve 01 Oct 10 - 12:28 AM
Stilly River Sage 01 Oct 10 - 12:44 AM
katlaughing 01 Oct 10 - 01:11 AM
GUEST,Ebbie, housesitting 01 Oct 10 - 01:14 AM
wysiwyg 01 Oct 10 - 04:08 AM
LilyFestre 01 Oct 10 - 11:36 AM
wysiwyg 01 Oct 10 - 11:44 AM
Stilly River Sage 01 Oct 10 - 01:10 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 01 Oct 10 - 01:41 PM
katlaughing 01 Oct 10 - 04:28 PM
LilyFestre 01 Oct 10 - 06:06 PM
Stilly River Sage 01 Oct 10 - 07:16 PM
LilyFestre 02 Oct 10 - 04:08 PM
GUEST,mg 02 Oct 10 - 07:12 PM
LilyFestre 02 Oct 10 - 09:22 PM
katlaughing 02 Oct 10 - 10:41 PM
LilyFestre 02 Oct 10 - 10:58 PM
Stilly River Sage 02 Oct 10 - 11:07 PM
VirginiaTam 03 Oct 10 - 08:38 AM
GUEST,Ebbie, housesitting 03 Oct 10 - 11:27 AM
mg 03 Oct 10 - 03:34 PM
katlaughing 03 Oct 10 - 03:59 PM
LilyFestre 03 Oct 10 - 09:00 PM
LilyFestre 03 Oct 10 - 11:26 PM
Little Robyn 04 Oct 10 - 04:10 AM
LilyFestre 04 Oct 10 - 05:01 PM
Sandra in Sydney 04 Oct 10 - 08:58 PM
wysiwyg 04 Oct 10 - 09:57 PM
SINSULL 05 Oct 10 - 12:54 AM
LilyFestre 11 Oct 10 - 09:01 PM
katlaughing 11 Oct 10 - 09:12 PM
Bobert 11 Oct 10 - 09:18 PM
Sandra in Sydney 12 Oct 10 - 01:11 AM
Stilly River Sage 12 Oct 10 - 01:39 PM
LilyFestre 31 Oct 10 - 11:36 AM
wysiwyg 31 Oct 10 - 11:41 AM
VirginiaTam 31 Oct 10 - 12:44 PM
LilyFestre 31 Oct 10 - 01:27 PM
Stilly River Sage 31 Oct 10 - 03:55 PM
Sandra in Sydney 31 Oct 10 - 07:28 PM
LilyFestre 31 Oct 10 - 08:04 PM
LilyFestre 01 Nov 10 - 08:52 PM
maeve 01 Nov 10 - 09:01 PM
Stilly River Sage 01 Nov 10 - 09:02 PM
Sandra in Sydney 01 Nov 10 - 11:00 PM
LilyFestre 02 Nov 10 - 04:32 PM
maeve 02 Nov 10 - 09:36 PM
LilyFestre 03 Nov 10 - 11:40 AM
katlaughing 03 Nov 10 - 04:44 PM
maeve 03 Nov 10 - 05:10 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 04 Nov 10 - 09:52 AM
Sandra in Sydney 04 Nov 10 - 05:33 PM
LilyFestre 12 Nov 10 - 04:45 PM
Stilly River Sage 12 Nov 10 - 05:40 PM
Sandra in Sydney 12 Nov 10 - 05:49 PM
LilyFestre 16 Nov 10 - 11:11 AM
Stilly River Sage 16 Nov 10 - 11:31 AM
LilyFestre 16 Nov 10 - 12:00 PM
Bobert 16 Nov 10 - 04:47 PM
LilyFestre 16 Nov 10 - 05:06 PM
katlaughing 16 Nov 10 - 10:35 PM
Sandra in Sydney 17 Nov 10 - 06:04 AM
SINSULL 15 Dec 10 - 01:36 PM
LilyFestre 15 Dec 10 - 05:21 PM
Stilly River Sage 15 Dec 10 - 09:18 PM
katlaughing 10 Jan 11 - 06:20 PM
LilyFestre 10 Jan 11 - 09:52 PM
Ebbie 11 Jan 11 - 03:22 AM
Sandra in Sydney 11 Jan 11 - 04:08 AM
Bobert 11 Jan 11 - 04:26 PM
LilyFestre 11 Jan 11 - 06:16 PM
maeve 11 Jan 11 - 06:33 PM
Stilly River Sage 11 Jan 11 - 08:20 PM
mouldy 12 Jan 11 - 02:41 AM
Sandra in Sydney 12 Jan 11 - 10:00 AM
LilyFestre 12 Jan 11 - 01:03 PM
maeve 12 Jan 11 - 01:05 PM
mouldy 12 Jan 11 - 01:07 PM
Little Robyn 12 Jan 11 - 02:00 PM
LilyFestre 12 Jan 11 - 02:08 PM
mouldy 13 Jan 11 - 02:39 AM
LilyFestre 15 Jan 11 - 10:47 PM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Jan 11 - 01:51 AM
LilyFestre 28 Jan 11 - 01:19 PM
maeve 28 Jan 11 - 01:25 PM
Stilly River Sage 28 Jan 11 - 04:41 PM
Bobert 28 Jan 11 - 10:03 PM
LilyFestre 28 Jan 11 - 10:42 PM
Stilly River Sage 28 Jan 11 - 11:09 PM
LilyFestre 16 Mar 11 - 05:55 AM
Sandra in Sydney 16 Mar 11 - 06:40 AM
maeve 16 Mar 11 - 09:15 AM
Stilly River Sage 16 Mar 11 - 12:16 PM
Sandra in Sydney 17 Mar 11 - 04:51 AM
maeve 17 Mar 11 - 07:10 AM
LilyFestre 17 Mar 11 - 10:16 AM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 17 Mar 11 - 07:01 PM
Sandra in Sydney 18 Mar 11 - 11:36 AM
katlaughing 18 Mar 11 - 07:24 PM
Bobert 18 Mar 11 - 08:40 PM
Stilly River Sage 19 Mar 11 - 02:20 AM
LilyFestre 19 Mar 11 - 04:21 PM
LilyFestre 31 Mar 11 - 01:57 PM
olddude 31 Mar 11 - 03:00 PM
Bobert 31 Mar 11 - 05:24 PM
LilyFestre 01 Apr 11 - 01:31 PM
AllisonA(Animaterra) 01 Apr 11 - 04:32 PM
Sandra in Sydney 01 Apr 11 - 10:00 PM
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Subject: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: katlaughing
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 05:15 PM

Over in the decluttering thread, a few of us have been following along as LilyFestre/Michelle went through some very scary medical procedures which ultimately wound up diagnosing her with uterine cancer. She got the final biopsy results a couple of days ago and they are performing a hysterectomy, tomorrow. She's to go in at 6a and have the surgery at 730a. They told her it was a slow cancer so they hope to be able to get it all. They will not know until they are in there just what all they will have to take.

She has been terrified, but is prepared. She and her husband are leaving now to spend the night in a motel near the hospital as it is a couple of hours from their home.

Anyone who would like to post good thoughts, prayers, etc. please know they will be greatly appreciated. Lots of calm energy would be good. it's just been so scary for her. (Please no horror stories.)

Thanks a bunch. Her husband will have limited internet access, so I hope we will hear fairly soon how she did.

kat (with Michelle's permission)


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Bobert
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 05:19 PM

Warm thoughts and prayers from the Blue Ridge...

Bobert


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Peace
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 05:25 PM

Please tell Michelle she has my very best wishes for a complete recovery.

Bruce M


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: maeve
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 05:38 PM

You already know you are held in prayer here, Michelle. Remember that you and your husband have many unseen friends thinking about you and sending what strength and support we have.

maeve


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: John MacKenzie
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 05:42 PM

Michelle, wear a hat lined with foil, and all will be well. {It was you told me that remember?}
I believe this is a fairly common and successful procedure, so don't worry, just get well soon.

John


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 06:02 PM

You know you are loved, dear one.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Mrs.Duck
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 06:15 PM

All the very best wishes for a speedy recovery from Geoff and me and the ducklings.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST,WYS-out
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 06:19 PM

Kick some BUTT! :~)

You already know all the rest.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: catspaw49
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 06:32 PM

Hi Michelle!

I am a bit of a lurker at times on some threads and I have followed your story. Ya' know, you have some really good friends on that thread and even more out here in the rest of the Mudcat village. You have support coming from all sides, myself included, but let me go a different way. The surgery is scary but like Maggie told you, it'll be a different story in a few weeks.

I always liken getting one of these diagnoses (and then doing the surgical/medical follow-up) to riding an elephant downhill......sit back, hang on, and try to stay aboard!

Now really what I mean by that is that if you have done everything you can, have Docs you believe in, and have things laid out as best you can for the time frame, just get on with the procedures and don't worry yourself nutso about everything. What's the point? You're doing it.....RIDE ON!!!!

I've had a lot of folks I know who have faced life threatening illnesses. The ones I always admired the most were real winners with one trait in common. The winners refused to be defined by the illness. They did all the things they needed to do and then got on back to living their life. Work hard at getting well and when you have done all you can, work hard at living.......but enjoy the entire ride!

I've never met Maggie but I'd like to. She's one who obviously lives life every day and I don't think there's anything that could ever takeover her life. Handle the situation and do the best you can then get on with living........I think that's our Stilly River Sage.

Take a few deep breaths......it can be you too. A lot of 'Catters believe in you. Attack the disease, do all that is needed, then get on with living your life.

Much Love....

Pat


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 07:01 PM

Michelle,
Remember to pay attention those last moments before you go under. Then dream away until you wake in recovery with the worst behind you.
We will all be with you.
Mary


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welc
From: Rowan
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 07:25 PM

All the best, Cobber.

Cheers, Rowan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 07:33 PM

Thanks, Pat. I wish I had the confidence you do (what's that you're smoking?) But there is a lot of moral support over there on the de-clutter threads--we all share the advice wealth and all move forward. We talk amongst ourselves, understanding that there are probably folks who come to just read along, and a few who probably come to chuckle at the baby steps we sometimes manage, but at least we're all moving forward.

Here's the bear, Michelle. It's a significant one in the family, my sister carried it all of the way from London for my first child's first xmas (Moonglow was born in 1988).

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Tig
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 08:28 PM

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((XXXXXXX))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Lots of love and healing hugs
Tig
xxx


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: jacqui.c
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 09:17 PM

I've been down that road, six years ago now. It is frightening.

I'll be thinking about you tomorrow and looking forward to hearing that it has all gone well.

Lean on your husband and friends for as long as you need them but know that this too shall pass. Six years on and I rarely remember it.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Ebbie
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 09:26 PM

I like that bear, Stilly- I can see him dancing.

Michelle, as others have said in different words, now is a good time to lie back and "leave the driving to us. Remember that slogan? It is one I often use. Here's to a quick recovery and a fresh appreciation for friends. You have made a lot of good ones.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: maire-aine
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 09:39 PM

From the de-clutter thread: "...image … of a very strong group of Mudcat women forcefully chasing the cancer away."

This reminds me of something that happened when I was working with a community organization in SW Detroit many years ago. We were finishing a planning meeting (for a big actions against a large local bank) and one of the people, a pastor of a n'hood church, summed up the meeting by saying "the Sisters are tough". Damn straight, the sisters are tough. Go get 'em, Sister Michelle.

Maryanne


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Leadfingers
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 09:44 PM

Michelle - Hang in there kid ! Fond memories of 2005 at Susan's !


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST,WYS-out
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 10:01 PM

More than a few thoughts, here, for Michelle's mom, Bonnie. That is one tough and yet ultimately tender lady. She and Michelle have ridden the Cancer Train with too, too, TOO many dearly loved friends in the last several years. I cannot think of two better-equipped ladies to drive that train now.... while I wish they didn't have to, I can only take my hat off to them both. You'll see-- in no time Michelle will be telling us how she licked that fear.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Tinker
Date: 14 Jan 10 - 10:44 PM

Ahh, Bonnie..... and Michelle's husband.... loved ones all... remember there is a calm haven here. Goodness knows there is a crowd of folks here who have been through some tough times. Know that we stand with you too.....


Blessings and Light

tinker


who is pulling out a few well loved bears for a morning photo op to greet your return.....


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 12:06 AM

She'll have to grin and Bear it once she's back on line, apparently! The use of a bear came up on the other thread because having a pillow or a stuffed toy to squeeze and stabilize the muscles around the surgery site really helps if you have to cough or sneeze.

This is the story I told about my mother's bear in the other thread:

    When my mother went to the hospital for a large surgery (can't remember which one, she had several) there was a woman in the bed next to her who loaned her a teddy bear. "It helps to hug it tight if you have to cough," she said, and it really did. When Mom got out of the hospital she bought herself a good teddy bear about that same size and named it Betty, after the wonderful woman who loaned her the first bear. And in her will, she left that bear to my sister's best friend's cat, because the cat used to always curl up with that bear when my mom was cat-sitting.


SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welc
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 02:35 AM

michele

I have 3 friends who have gone through same variously between 5 and 14 years ago. All are well. All still are clear of cancer. All crazy wonderful ladies.

You are gonna be ok, Angel. Lots of love and light headed your way. Even a reminder in my work Outlook to take a moment at 7:30 eastern standard time to give thought and energy to the medical staff and you.

tamara


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Catherine Jayne
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 04:28 AM

Thinking of you.

Sending you lots of healing energy for a speedy and full recovery.

Much Love

Khatt xxx


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: JennieG
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 06:57 AM

Michelle, best wishes and thoughts from me too.

Cheers and hugs
JennieG


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 07:50 AM

I'm picturing light and wisdom and strength guiding the doctor's hands right now and throughout the surgery.

And for you, Michelle, a release of the stress and fear that has been gripping you, and the patience and courage to heal. We love you, woman!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: maeve
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 07:56 AM

You are surrounded by loving folks here- male and female.

maeve


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 08:30 AM

I have decorated a very special room for you over in the Mudcat Recovery Ward.
We are waiting for you.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Tinker
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 08:49 AM

NOw the decorated room is a high honor...... or sureal


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST,WYS-out
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 10:36 AM

Michelle, here's one you will love. Think "recovery ward." Think "bedpans." Think "Mudcat attic." Think about it.... OK: I just got done emptying TWO of those (VERY full) and setting up a third. THAT was fun! :~)

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 11:11 AM

Did Liz have a hand in decorating the Mudcat Recovery Ward? Plenty of booze and chocolate, right?


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 11:29 AM

I AM IN CHARGE OF DECORATING!
Liz is in charge of debauchery - so yes, lots of chocolate and booze.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 11:51 AM

Will there be pink flamingos?


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 11:53 AM

Will there be pink flamingos?


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Ebbie
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 12:36 PM

"Mudcat attic.", Susan? Seems like I hear more about cellars. :)


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Tinker
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 12:42 PM

The attic is for wandering mudcatters, the cellar..... well it's been pretty well explained.


Tinker

who has spent time in both Mudcat attics and cellars....


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 12:58 PM

By now, our girl is no doubt sleeping off one helluva hangover and is free of cancer.

Doesn't that make you want to smile?

I think I'll go buy a round in the Mudcat Tavern!

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 01:24 PM

I'll go check on her room preparations in the recovery ward. Ratched keeps starching the sheets.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST,WYS-out
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 01:44 PM

Still no calls here AFAIK.

IMO that would be GOOD news.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST,WYS-out
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 01:46 PM

Oh, sorry, forgot to answer Eb. Michelle will understand the reference-- she helped decorate the Mudcat Attic Dorm, and had a particular reaction to one item with which we furnished it. (She will explain if she wishes.)

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 01:57 PM

Room is ready. A lovely sunny yellow, pale yellow flannel sheets, sunflower pillows, and daffodils in a banana jar. Bright and cheerful. But if she hates it I have a pink number ready as well.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST,hg
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 02:06 PM

Michelle, I wish you an uncomplicated procedure and a speedy recovery! I'm sure you will be fine. Your mudcat friends will help you through...


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 02:08 PM

All of that yellow will be a great background for all of the brown bears.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: ClaireBear
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 02:21 PM

Michelle, all my support from afar. I went through a similar procedure for cervical cancer 5 years ago, and I stand with you now. You'll be fine. All that golden light will surely make it so. Not to mention all those bears...

Claire


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Severn
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 02:36 PM

All the best thoughts from one who survived small-cell cancer in the lymphatic system a couple of years ago and, it being in full remission am able to stand, grinning it down. You'll come out of it like a champ and will have a lot of friends here cheering you on as they did for me. We've got your back.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST,WYS-out
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 03:01 PM

Still no incoming calls here, but Hardi did just issue an outgoing cell call letting Bonnie know that Michelle and she are still in "our" prayers (which Michelle and perhaps Bonnie will understand includes all of her MudBuds), and inviting a callback when she is ready to let "us" know anything. (They know Friday is technically a day off and they may be holding calls for that reason.)

Animaterra, pls see contemporaneous post in decluts thread.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 04:08 PM

Stilly - you DO mean stuffed brown bears? Right? Toys? After that whack on the head I thought I better ask. I am not about to shovel out that room every few hours, you know.

It's always something. SIGH


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 04:28 PM

If we bring in real bears, I suspect they had better be Pampered, bears, don't you think?

Susan--you're making me dizzy! I'm going to ask a clone to move any of today's update posts that actually have news about Michelle over here from the de-clutter thread so people can find it and not have to wade through our dust kittens and stacked up cardboard boxes. If posts are similar, we'll let the pixies have them (so maybe they'll leave some of the rest of our threads alone!). Makes this much easier on the general population to know what in heck we're talking about sometimes. But thanks for your efforts!

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST,WYS-out
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 04:34 PM

SRS, there is no need to move ANYthing. I've taken care to put, in each thread, what belongs in each thread, and it was not I who created the multiplicity of threads. So please-- just leave it! (Or YOU will be making ME dizzy.)

Still no word on Michelle here-- SRS has the hospital's name and number so she may get news before I do.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: ClaireBear
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 04:34 PM

SINS< bears do that in the woods. You got any woods in there? If not, no worries.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 04:47 PM

Bears do it whereever they are locked in. Miss Stilly is not quite herself after the accident in the Tavern. And Nurse Ratched is not happy about the extra work load - heh heh a pun.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welc
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 04:59 PM

I hear Curmudgeon may be taking his intravenous antibiotics in Sinsull's recovery ward too. So Michelle, you won't be lonely. You can listen to all the bleeps, whirrs and glurps in between his grousing about the noise from his machines.

You too can fight over the laptop and who gets to read which thread first. Although I think Tom will probably ask you to read his to him as his eyesight is not great, by his own admission. Don't let him make you do all the work though. You are not his bleeding secretary.

Mary? May I donate a little get well fairy and a pack of playing cards to the room?

When my little Hilary had to have liver biopsy, she didn't want to take deep cleansing breaths as the doctors and nurses told her she must. Very important to keep lungs strong and clear. So I bought her this set of paint pens that you had to blow the paint out of the end.   Don't think she got on too well with them as I ended up giving them away.

If I still had them though, would definitely donate to the recovery ward. Imagine Michelle and Tom blowing paint at each other and all over Mary's freshly decorated room.


tam      

slinking off before Mary catches me


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welc
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 05:35 PM

Forgot to mention that at 12:30 UK time (7:30 EST) My outlook popped up a reminder to think on Michelle and the surgical team. Conveniently my lunch time so I could dedicate about 45 solid mintues to this project.

I searched for google images of healing thoughts and healing hands.

Every good one I found, I contemplated and wished it into Michelle's mind and the surgeons hands.

http://img03.picoodle.com/img/img03/8/5/9/f_healinghandm_ab57f27.jpg

http://www.fredpayne.com/healing/images/pages/thoughts_are_things.jpg

http://www.massagemag.com/cms/images/stories/healingpowerofbreath.jpg

http://theserviceconnection.org/tsc/media/UserFiles/image/handsincircle(1).jpg

http://userserve-ak.last.fm/serve/252/25659751.jpg

http://static.squidoo.com/resize/squidoo_images/-1/draft_lens3594402module233215

http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/79/l_b6a347d07ab84a23a598430b6072ae4

I hoped it worked.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 06:12 PM

Never came across those sets of images. I have kids in the house, so I'm more likely to see stuff like this.

I wouldn't call before late tomorrow at the soonest, and only then if we haven't heard anything. It was important enough to get her in for this vital surgery that no one said much to her about the first couple of days after such surgery. But it isn't any fun, and calls from relative strangers, even well-meaning ones, probably should wait a while.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 07:34 PM

I can tell you from personal experience that Michelle will probably be virtually knocked out for the next twenty four hours and will be unlikely to be taking any phone calls, unless things have changed dramatically in the last six years.

Good thoughts coming from Boston.

Jacqui.c on Kendall's session on the laptop.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: ClaireBear
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 07:48 PM

From my experience I can add that it seemed too much trouble to look at flowers, read cards, turn over...in fact, about all I could manage was to listen to music on my Walkman (it'd be an iPOD these days I guess), which helped drown out the hospital sounds. (They stuck me in a maternity ward for my cancer-related hysterectomy, so as I lay there in physical and mental distress I was surrounded by new mothers and streams of their jubile visitors.)

I was in for about a week.

Does she have an iPOD, or, if it would help, is there someone who could lend her one? I don't have one (still using the Walkman) plus I'm too far away, but maybe someone back there could help?


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST,WYS-out
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 07:51 PM

Still no calls or voicemails here. I can tell you tho that her last voicemail, from ydy afternoon EST when she left word on the surgery time, was very upbeat, well-breathed, and looking fwd to being "cancer free by this time tomorrow" (which is now today and hours ago).

Of course, flowers are always appropriate and can be delievered promptly-- if anyone cares to send them who already has the hospital info-- and I'm sure that she would appreciate knowing in a tangible way about the recovery ward party going on already. I suspect she'd rather not have missed that-- and she does love to decorate.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 09:05 PM

Husband here.

I just got home. Everything went OK. They do not have a room for her yet so she was still in the recovery room when I left sleeping. She had stag 2 ovarian cancer and uterine cancer. They are confident that they got it all but want to follow up with some chemo to make sure.

Pete


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: katlaughing
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 09:09 PM

Thank you, Pete. Really appreciate your letting us know.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: maeve
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 09:24 PM

Thank you, Pete. I'm checking this thread before bed. Best wishes for a smooth recovery...for both of you.

maeve


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 09:43 PM

Thank you, Pete. I know how big a shock this is for you, also, and we appreciate your taking the time to fill us in. Take care of yourself. I'm glad they caught it.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Bat Goddess
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 09:49 PM

Sending lots of white light and positive thoughts.

Arghh! Let's get everybody cancer-free -- this is getting a bit overwhelming.

Linn


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 09:54 PM

How is Cancer Staged.

FYI.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: wysiwyg
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 11:30 PM

Good to hear the recov. rm news.

Hardi also got a call from Bonnie (still near hosp), pretty upbeat. Plans underway to try to go see Michelle, maybe Monday-- Bonnie and she are aware weekend is overfull with a big funeral we must attend tmrw before the Sat. svc.

Husband-- SRS wanted to know if Michelle desires a phone call. If she wants that and has her cell with her, pls follow up with Stilly River Sage. (I think she does not have M's cell number nor does M have SRS's.)

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 15 Jan 10 - 11:47 PM

Michelle has my phone numbers, and has a bonus number that was a typo (someone named Stephanie, she tells me). Oops!

They're all going to be so wrung out for a while.

I think I need to get out another bear to keep the first one company. Actually, I have a lovely large rabbit here that would work like one of those big long pillows used for sleeping alongside someone, for resting a leg on, etc. He'd like to come down off the top of the cabinet that appeared in a recent declutter thread.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: open mike
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 02:09 AM

best wishes...and hope you come thru with flying colors...


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc wel
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 04:34 AM

Good to hear from Michelle's Pete. SRS that info link... thought provoking, scary and damned good to know.

Still here wishing healing thoughts at Michelle.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST,WYS-out
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 08:03 AM

SRS-- good. I'd brain-farted.

Let's slow down on what we think the docs said/meant and what is ahead for LF. It's early days, yet. Next challenge she is most likely to face is path report-- the waiting for the more in-depth post-surg path-- and the immediate post-surg practical stuff (as I know many of you know lots about).

Michelle's own posts (when she gets back to them) will be our best guide as to how she needs us to respond, and I think it will be most realistic to expect her to be all over the map as she settles into whatever treatment plan the docs send her home with. Small steps.


Pete-- please, be extra careful with the long drives back and forth. And if you are not already boarding the critters, we can highly recommend the lady near you at Woodbine. If you can use any other kind of help, please know that you are welcome to contact Hardi thru the parish office or home phone, both of which I believe give his cell#.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Bobert
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 08:44 AM

Stage 2, as far as camcer goes, is a good thing so I guess a...

...hooray is in order here!!! Hooray!!!

Now, Pete, here's the hard part... Ya' gotta do all the housework and cookin' and other yucky womenz things fir a couple weeks and, oh yeah... Ya' gotta be nice, too... Sorry, pal... Thouhgt you'd rather hear that from another guy... Kinda hard takin' them kinds of things from a womenz 'cause they sound too much like orders... Know what I mean???

Anyway, just do 'um an' yer lovely wife will love ya' for it an' all the goopy stuff and...

...tell her that all the Mudders is wishin' her a speedy recovery and a happy gardening season... Oh yeah... She can get all her seeds ordered while she's recoverin'... It's time anyway for them...

Bobert


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: catspaw49
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 09:34 AM

Its all good news and thanks Pete for bringing it. I know both of you needed some real info and now you know........Knowing is always better!!!

I know......then again, I ain't always better......'course that's a personal problem and one the Docs can't fix............well, maybe a shrink.........................

Spaw


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 10:20 AM

Pete,
Thank you for the update. It was kind of you to take the time given all you have on your plate. Michelle is physically and emotionally spent right about now. But the cancer is gone and the chemo will slam the door hard.
SRS - thanks for the link. Michelle is going to be OK.
That is good news.
January 16 and I am wishing 2010 away already. All you sick people get well NOW!
Love and good thoughts, Michelle,
Mary


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 10:48 AM

Thanks, so much, Pete, for taking the time to update us. Take care of yourself, ok?

Still holding Michelle and all of us in a circle of light .


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 12:29 PM

It's a bright sunny day here today--that's a great mood lifter. I hope it's bright for your part of PA. Michelle, get up and walk around a little. They put wheels on those poles if you're still attached to anything. My daughter complained that I kept making her hike through the floor after her spleen surgery, but with each walk she felt better.

My only other advice, if you're wearing a hospital gown - Mind the Gap!

;-D

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: gnu
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 12:46 PM

I missed this thread completely! Darn.

Thoughts and prayers.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Peace
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 12:52 PM

Sometimes a guy's prayers ARE answered.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: jacqui.c
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 01:03 PM

Thanks for the update Pete.

Michelle - I am so glad that the surgery went well. Remember that we are all here and watching your progress.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 01:29 PM

The most painful part of that first walk is the five o'clock shadow. OUCH!
Sorry if that made you laugh. Laughing hurts too.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: alanabit
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 03:13 PM

Thanks for the update. Here is another hoping you see off that cancer and get on with living normally. Best wishes to both of you.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: catspaw49
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 03:13 PM

Ah laughing ain't so bad..........but don't sneeze.

Spaw


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 05:05 PM

That's what the bear is there for, to hold on tight.

Story on myself, and don't hurt yourself laughing:

I had surgery in early fall, right after the height of swimming season, and of course one wants to keep the pubic from being public, so I'd trimmed and edged the delta down to a short half-moon. My surgery was vaginal, so they did a trim upward from down below. When I got a look at myself in my first shower I know the glow of embarrassment must have shown through the curtain, and I could imagine the operating room chuckle at the short goatee the prep nurses left in place, just like in Playboy. Oy.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: katlaughing
Date: 16 Jan 10 - 05:45 PM

You do have a way with words when speaking of delicate matters, esp., SRS!*bg**

Mine was done the same way, but I don't remember any goatee, nor does Rog!LOL!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 03:34 AM

Apropos of nothing, here's a Paula Poundstone routine. Good for a few chuckles. :)

(I'm up late, drank too much caffeine this evening).


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc wel
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 05:21 AM

I was at a festival this weekend & came back to the good news.

hugs to Michelle (gentle ones & only when appropriate) & Pete.

I never thought to take one of my multitude of teddies to hospital last year. Last week I had my 12 month CT scan for my cancer op last year & only scar tissue can be seen - apart from the very interesting stuff like bones & other bits that belong there!

sandra


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 07:25 AM

Husband here again,

Was pretty tired so I did not post last night. She was in good spirits yesterday. She is eating and drinking good. I walked with her up and down the halls. She is on some good pain meds so she is sleeping a lot. We talked and think it's best if people wait to Monday afternoon to call so she can get her rest. The weather is suppose to be bad today so I am not sure if I will make it down. Her mom is there so I will post what I am told tonight if I do not make it down.

Take care,

Pete


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 07:43 AM

Thanks, again, Pete! Just keep giving Michelle our abundant love- hope she can feel it! Keep taking care of yourself, too.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 11:17 AM

Pete, thanks again for the update.

If you want to print this thread out and take it to Michelle, the way to do it to save paper is to look at that line between each post. It has links for "Post - Top - Forum Home - Printer Friendly - Translate" in each instance. Click on Printer Friendly and it scrapes out a lot of the intervening stuff, and gives you a document that can be carried to the hospital for sharing, if she doesn't have a laptop there.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 12:02 PM

Walking is the best thing. Hard at first but it gets easier each time. All good news. Thanks, Pete.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST,WYS-out
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 02:26 PM

Oh, no worries, Maggie. Pete's an old hand at Mudcat. He knows his way around here, well.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 04:28 PM

I could hardly wait to get out of the hospital to get some decent food. And sleep through the night without someone coming in every couple of hours to take blood. When Moonglow was in the hospital we took turns sleeping down there to keep an eye on the comings and goings. Even though they have the best of intentions, it still helps to have an advocate present. I'm glad Michelle has Pete and her mother trading off on this.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 06:23 PM

If "local" snow conditions hereabouts permit, Hardi and I are def going to go see her tomorrow (unless word of early discharge surprises us), so if there are any offthread messages to convey, feel free to PM them to me by, oh, I think I can log in around noon and print if the church puder is free.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: gnu
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 06:38 PM

Just say HI & best wishes.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST,WYS-out
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 07:25 PM

Oh yes, of course-- that we will do.

~S of earlier guest post~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: catspaw49
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 09:10 PM

Oh yeah....By all means Susan. And ask her if she has a goatee......and tell her we're all getting a bikini wax in her honor........Tell her we'll pay for one for Pete and Mom too..................


Spaw


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc wel
From: GUEST,Tinker
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 10:37 PM

'Spaw there are some limits to my commitment to declutter.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: catspaw49
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 10:55 PM

I can understand that Tink, but try to look at it more as an Artisitic Exercise................

Spaw


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Tinker
Date: 17 Jan 10 - 11:13 PM

Spaw, I've deleted two posts prior to posting.....

It's still the Sabboth.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 18 Jan 10 - 01:34 AM

Spaw, she's going to hurt herself laughing if you don't watch it.


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From: Janie
Date: 18 Jan 10 - 06:43 AM

Coming to this thread very late, Michelle. Sending all good thoughts your way.

Janie


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Leadfingers
Date: 18 Jan 10 - 07:36 AM

Glad to hear that things are progressing satisfactoraly


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 18 Jan 10 - 08:22 AM

New day. One day closer to going home and getting on with life.
Michelle, If you want me to smack Spaw for you, just say the word.
SINS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 18 Jan 10 - 08:28 AM

I think a group smacking is very much in order. Think how cathartic it will be.


Meanwhile....

<<>>


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: John MacKenzie
Date: 18 Jan 10 - 08:31 AM

Spaw will love that!


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From: GUEST,wys-out
Date: 18 Jan 10 - 12:15 PM

Printed just a few pages of this for Hardi to take to Michelle, up to:

14 Jan 10 - 06:15 PM (#2812126)
Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Fri. Surgery- comfort etc welcome
From: Mrs.Duck

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: LilyFestre
Date: 18 Jan 10 - 08:37 PM

Wow.

Hello Everybody!!!! Thanks for all the good wishes, prayers, love and laughter.

I am home. Dr. came into my room about 3:00 and told me that people who can walk, pee, pass gass and eat even a tiny bit need to get out! He, of course, was kidding.

More details later. I am exhausted and going to sleep.

Susan and Hardi....I don't know how close you were to Danville but I'm really sorry that I wasn't able to notifiy you earlier in the day. I just didn't know.

I had a particularly painful night last night and thought for sure I'd be there at least one more day.

Details tomorrow or the day after.

I'm a sleepy puppy who is very glad to be home in her own space.

Love....lots and lots of love to you all.

(((((((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: catspaw49
Date: 18 Jan 10 - 09:18 PM

HEY!!!!! LOOK WHO SHOWED UP AND SOUNDING PRETTY DAMN GOOD!!!!!!

Even the way you come through the ether sounds so much better. Glad to have you back. Now get on with the healing and the followups and just (need I say this again?), get on with your life!

My best to both of you!


Spaw


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From: maeve
Date: 18 Jan 10 - 09:37 PM

Welcome home, Michelle.

maeve


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From: katlaughing
Date: 18 Jan 10 - 10:06 PM

Yes, welcome home!!


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From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 12:17 AM

I was planning to call during the late afternoon, but I see I would have missed you, with the time difference. (My kiddo called to say she was coming down, so I ended up racing around to get dinner stuff in place.)

You have my number--I'd like to hear how things went. It sounds like you're well on the mend. There will be times when things hurt for a while, that's part of the process, but I think after a couple of days at home I was getting by with ibuprofen (my sister and I have compared notes about this kind of surgery--there seems to be a high pain threshold in the family--so your mileage may vary).

SRS


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From: Catherine Jayne
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 03:20 AM

Welcome home Michelle. Sending you lots of healing energy for a full and speedy recovery. (((Hugs)))


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From: Leadfingers
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 06:27 AM

Nice to see that you are home and posting here again !


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From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 07:45 AM

Doing the happy dance! Yay, Michelle!


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From: SINSULL
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 08:58 AM

Welcome home Michelle.
But after all the work I did on your room at the Mudcat Recovery Ward, I expected you would at least try the bed out once.

Isn't it wonderful to be in your own space with no lights blinking, lines buzzing and alarms screaming not to mention the moaning from the next bed?
Rest! Be well.
That's your job for now.
Mary


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: GUEST,wys-out
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 10:04 AM

LF, please do not worry about (or use your strength apologizing here or in email about) our ride to Danville. :~) We take a lot of rides like that, always enjoy the time together they afford, and it is NEVER a burden to take them. In this case, for instance, a second parishioner also had been in the same hospital and originally it was to have been a double-call for Hardi but she ALSO got sprung early-- and as far as we are concerned that is always good news, not an inconvenience for us. We just wished that the weekend schedule had not been so heavy (a faraway Saturday funeral, a Sunday emergency) that there was no way to attempt it sooner. I believe Hardi plans a call or visit later this week but we just got emailed news of another faraway funeral this week, and we have not hooked up yet for joint schedule planning. I'm not sure he can find your house by himself.... he'll be in touch I am sure.

Sorry to put all this here, but I'm not sure what-all you are keeping an eye on, and I'm off and running now....

Don't forget to pat yourself on the back for your pre-surg house-prep to nest back into, as you regain your strength and your daily routine-- I say a loud AMEN to Spaw's post. He's never wrong, as I continue to re-discover on a regular basis. LOL-- you can always trust his "gut." :~) That focus on the nice life you've built? Go for it!

~S~


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From: Tinker
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 10:32 AM

Yeah you are home!!! I still owe you a few bear photos, I confess I've been a little crazy getting some work stuff done... but I haven't forgotten..... Rest and Relax... whoops that's actually the name of our local sexton service.... but not bad advice regardless...


Tinker


No Spaw they do not provide "that" kind of house call......


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: jacqui.c
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 12:14 PM

I bet you're glad to be home.

Rest up, let everyone else do anything that can be done. Right now it's all about YOU!


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From: GUEST,wys
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 01:20 PM

Folks pls keep in mind that her primary home-thread is the Declut one, more than this one. That's more likely to be the main place she's following till she's better.

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 02:07 PM

She can follow it, but she'd better not de-clutter anything heavier than a facial tissue. . .

;-D


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From: GUEST,wys-out
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 02:08 PM

Too late. She already got ahead of hersel'.

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 02:14 PM

Since The Gilded Lily chose to post her news here, I suspect she will be checking in once in a while. The Recovery Ward is still awaiting a visit. Sorry Michelle, Jacqui is in your room in a drunken stupor. You may not want to disturb her. We will get your bears for you later.
Mary


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 02:20 PM

Do as I say not as I do.
I came home to an empty house from the hospital after my surgery and moved a large television twice until I found where I was most comfortable. I guess tidying a table isn't too bad.


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From: GUEST,wys-out
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 02:33 PM

Yes, she did post here. She has since posted elsewhere and I suspect may continue to do so. If you remind her, there, to post here, you will just be adding to her not-resting, though.

Do whatever you decide to do-- I'm just telling you that your posts are more likely to be seen in the other thread, for today.

~Susan (with Hardi's guidance)


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: LilyFestre
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 03:23 PM

No worries about where to post, I'm poking around as it gives me something to do when I'm awake...which isn't much.

Feeling kinda drifty and wonderful in the same breath to know that you all are sending out good thoughts and sometimes some silliness too. You're all making my heart really happy.

I'm off for a nap. Sweet dreams my friends.

Love to you all

Michelle


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From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 03:33 PM

I could use a nap. . .


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 03:34 PM

I nap at my desk at work occasionally. Long story for another time.

Meantime,sweet dreams, lady.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: katlaughing
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 03:39 PM

Have a nice nap, Michelle...it gives your body lots of time to heal up. I am about off for one myself. Take care.


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From: VirginiaTam
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 04:00 PM


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From: SINSULL
Date: 19 Jan 10 - 09:07 PM

Two years ago I had a miserable cold. I took two days off but had to get back to work, so I did. A co-worker gave me Day-Quil assuring me that it was non-drowsy. I should have known better. I simply can't tolerate any of that stuff.
Now, our offices are freezing cold. The thermostat reads 75 and we are all shivering. People actually wear their coats with hoods up when it gets really bad.
I was cold; I was sleepy; I fell sound asleep at my desk with my MMario shawl over my head. Now most of you know I DO NOT SNORE. So when I did not snore, I attracted the attention of the entire office.
I awoke to find people watching from over the cubicle walls, taking pictures with their cell phones and, in short, enjoying the moment thoroughly. I still haven't lived it down. And the pictures still circulate.
Rest, Michelle.
I am on guard. No pictures will be taken. No recordings made...but that is another story.


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 03:49 AM

It's 3:37am and I'm wide awake. Hm. I suppose my sleeping schedule will be wonky for awhile and that's ok! For the first time since my surgery, I am up at this time without being in a ton of pain. Excellent! My day was a lazy day....did my breathing treatments, had the visiting home health people here, walked and puttered (a very small amount of puttering)and slept on and off all day. I talked to a few people on the phone but not for long...starts to make my abs hurt after about 10 minutes. I also received a basket of beautiful springy flowers...pinks, purples, soft yellows, white and greens. And NO MUMS! YAY! Mums always make me thing of funeral sprays....NOT what I want in my house!

One of my staples fell out. Not sure how that happened...but I had lifted my nightgown to check things out and it was just laying there. I'm also getting itchy where the staples are and sometimes they are a little bit pokey. I don't know if that's normal or not and will call the Dr. in the AM to find out. I do NOT want an infection.

And Mary...if someone WERE to take pictures while I was sleeping, they could probably use them in a cold medicine commercial....hair all pulled back, no make up, giant jammies that are bright blue with daisies and bumblebees, a dark green prayer shawl and for a special accessory...as we all know accessories MAKE the outfit, how about some drool? P~R~E~T~T~Y!!!!!!!

Ok....body is calling for more sleep.

Night all.

:) Michelle


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From: JennieG
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 06:11 AM

Good to hear you are awake and coherent! Look after yourself and don't do any heavy furniture moving for a day or two yet.

Cheers
JennieG


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 10:06 AM

I don't think I drooled at the office.

My staples fell out on day 4. That's when they said I could go home. They told me it meant things were healing properly. Redness is a concern. Check regularly for that.

Have they let you take a shower yet? I had to wait for the staples to come out.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: jacqui.c
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 11:44 AM

Good to hear from you Michelle.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 12:04 PM

So far I've been spared staples.

It sounds like you're coming right along!

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: John MacKenzie
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 12:17 PM

Ooh sexy jammies Michelle ☺☻
You sound good from here, keep up the good work.

John


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From: gnu
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 12:46 PM

Indeed. Good to hear.


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From: VirginiaTam
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 01:32 PM

bit of itchiness is indication of healing so long as there are no angry red streaks. that'd be infection.

good to read you are up and about. has my little package arrived yet?


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: John MacKenzie
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 02:00 PM

When the staples fell out of my magazine, it fell apart. So I'd be careful if I were you Michelle :)


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: LilyFestre
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 02:34 PM

I went to the healing mass at church today and fell asleep about 5 minutes after the service on the ride home. My staple area is kind of itchy and a little bit pokey and the nurse said both of those are fine. The itchiness is actually a sign of healing, so GOOD! I have been able to take a shower...actually, I could have had one the day after my surgery if I wanted but waiting until the following day....just can't have the water aimed at my incision area...it's ok to be wet and even if soap gets on it....but no direct water pressure allowed.

It's hard for me to believe but this is only my 2nd day at home. Feels like much longer and I feel like I should be doing more but am going to just hang out and nap like I'm supposed to. :)

And John? The jammies have now changed to a green and navy blue plaid, complete with white compression stockings.....I'm telling you, I am BOOTIFUL! And my prayer shawl is right here too..........

;) Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 02:35 PM

MacKenzie, come over here so I can whack you this side of your head.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 03:08 PM

OOOOHHH Compression stockings. Do they have iodine stains on them? Mine did. I got in trouble with the head nurse because I cannot stand to have my feet covered. Despite being totally immobile I was able to slip them down from my thighs to my feet and off. This meant I was stuck in a plastic sleeve from a compression machine. They couldn't get me out. LOL I am sockless at work; sockless at home. I hate socks. If I had my way I would be barefoot all the time.

You will be very tired for a long time. You have had an enormous shock to your body as well as a huge dose of drugs. As they work out of your body, you will feel stronger but honest - six weeks before it's all gone.

Enjoy your rest. Wish I could nap whenever I feel like it.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: jacqui.c
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 03:20 PM

I feel like I should be doing more

That's a good sign of recovery but please try and ignore it! You really do need not to do anything other than getting well. This is a major operation and lots of rest is the best way to heal, take it from one who's been there! Enjoy having the time to read, listen to music, whatever you enjoy doing and that daily life doesn't usually allow you much time for.

(Sorry if I sound a bit bossy - just very concerned.)


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: SINSULL
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 04:00 PM

The more you do, the longer the recovery AND you could damage the stitches. Sit down; lie down.
Bossy SINS


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From: VirginiaTam
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 05:11 PM

Yes Michelle - rest is your primary business. No feeling bad or wrong about that.

Barefoot Mary is my Barefoot sister. Me too. I hate having my feet covered. My toes poke out from under the covers even if it is freezing.

Are you sure that smacking the Mack isn't exactly what he's hoping for?


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -Surgery UPDATE comfort etc welcome
From: LilyFestre
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 05:32 PM

No worries gang, I AM taking it easy....lots of naps. I am getting up to get myself water or to the bathroom and that's about it. I sleep a lot and have to remind myself that this is only my 2nd day at home. Feels longer to me. My mom got me a Grabber thing so I can at least pick up stuff that I drop or knock over instead of having to ask my husband who is doing EVERYTHING....I hate to ask him to do even more, especially the small stuff, you know?

Michelle who's off to read for a bit


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 07:42 PM

Michelle,

Do you have a hobby like embroidery or knitting or crochet, something you can do seated or lounging? It might help the time feel more like you're doing something without any physical strain.

As you feel better you'll be able to move around and do a little more every day, but there is a wall--you'll know it when you hit it--that can sneak up on you. I remember going to the store or a couple of short errands, and just suddenly feeling like I had to stop, sit, and sleep. It is a colossally tired feeling, and I suspect everyone discovers it at some point after surgery. It's not a bad thing--it lets you know you have to pace yourself, and after a while you will be well enough to not have to worry about it.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Maryrrf
Date: 20 Jan 10 - 10:38 PM

I just want to add my good wishes to this thread - glad you are on the mend and home!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 21 Jan 10 - 09:19 AM

Day 4. Are you shedding staples everywhere? Careful they are mean to step on.

Good morning Michelle.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 21 Jan 10 - 10:24 AM

Good Morning,

   I lost one staple the day before yesterday and today I have one that looks like it might come out. I'm not messing with them. I have an appointment on Tuesday for the Dr. to take them out.
   I am having some pain this morning but not in my incision area....rather off to the side of it. I don't know if it's where something was removed, scraped or just phantom stuff...but it's bothersome. I've been kind of panicky this morning too. It's my first day of having ANY time alone and it's only for a little over an hour but it's the first time in about a month and a half. I took a shower and am dressed and my mom will be here shortly. She is taking me to have lunch with some church friends I haven't been able to see in some time and then I'll either sleep at her house or she will bring me home and I will sleep here. She's made dinner for us and will be hanging out with me until Pete gets home.
   I don't know why but I just don't want to be alone.

I'm watching Clean Sweep and taking notes for days ahead. :)

Much love from a much too jittery Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 21 Jan 10 - 10:50 AM

Deep breaths, Lily.
You have been through a LOT emotionally and physically. If you need your mother to come earlier, call her.

That pain may be stitches or "moved" tissue. But let the doctor know about it. If it becomes worse today, call the doctor. Don't wait.
When I turned a certain way, I had a sharp pain from scar tissue that continued for two years. But don't take any chances on ripped stitches or infections.

I am amazed that you are up to getting dressed and going to lunch. Go easy girl! Your body has been hit by a Mack truck. Jittery is normal -
you are recovering from a life threatening surgery.

Let us know when Mom arrives. OK?


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 21 Jan 10 - 11:00 AM

Michelle, you may find that you're sitting differently, moving differently, as you compensate for the surgery spot, so you may be using muscles that aren't accustomed to such use.

When you're out, if it is nice weather, let the sun shine on your face for a little while. I find that is such a great boost if my mood is low. I think it's a combination of nerves sensing the sun, the light coming in through the eyes (or lids) and the vitamin D that you're making. This is something good with or without surgery. :)

Give yourself a few more days before you start weaning yourself from round-the-clock company. At least until the staples have come out and the high power pain medications are finished. Did they tell you when you can drive?

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 21 Jan 10 - 11:55 AM

The told me six weeks before I could drive. But I wanted to go back to work after three weeks and I think that was used to stop me. LOL

Have you weighed yourself, Michelle? I remember being thrilled at losing ten pounds in two days.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 21 Jan 10 - 12:07 PM

Mary, having major organs removed is not a recommended weight loss method. I hope you're not considering it. :)

Michelle, you'll have to visit the Recovery Ward. They've had the place set up for your arrival for several days now. Just watch where you're walking, and don't let them smother you in bears.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 21 Jan 10 - 01:40 PM

LOL We are having a Biggest Loser contest at work. I borrowed a hacksaw and announced that I would win even if it meant taking off a leg. Some believed me.

My loss was dehydration and a five pound fibroid. If I never have surgery again it will be too soon.
M


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 21 Jan 10 - 06:58 PM

Oh, Michelle, what you are feeling is normal. I hope you had a fine day with mom and friends. Keep being gentle with yourself and know that we are still holding you in love.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 21 Jan 10 - 09:52 PM

Today was too much. I was falling asleep at the table. Spent the next 6 hours sleeping at Mom's. Another staple fell out. Some questionable stuff is going on around my navel so I called for Home Health to come tomorrow and check it out. The last thing I want or need is an infection.

I'm staying home tomorrow and probably until next week when I have my Dr.'s appointment. I overdid today. Found my wall. BANG.

And weight? I'm down about 20 pounds since December. Can't eat much...nurse said my appetite would be the last thing to come back. Mom brought me home with a pot roast, complete with veggies. Normally I LOVE that but today it just doesn't smell good to me. Pete enjoyed it for his dinner and is unhappy with me that I didn't have any. I had yogurt. I'm not hungry and most stuff is just unappealing. And garlic? Something I previously used LOTS of...now the smell of it makes my stomach churn.

Anyway.....I'm tired, have been kinda teary today too.

Goodnight Friends.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 21 Jan 10 - 10:44 PM

Anesthesia probably is a contributor to how you're feeling now--it takes a while to get it out of your system. It was always a kind of low grade hangover for me.

Also, depending on what your ovaries were doing in their end stage, you may have hormones that were doing some unusual things. At some point, if you haven't already, your doctor may give you (or you may want to ask for) information on hormone replacement therapy. There are so many factors that go into it--family history is a big one. What did other women in your family experience? Osteoporosis, breast cancer, types of arthritis, other diseases, anything like that?

Christiane Northrup has some good books on Women's Health, with appendices full of extra information and resources. You may have seen some of her lectures on PBS during their pledge drives over the years.

For now, sleep, don't overdo, and I'm glad you have the home health folks coming over to check you out again. When surgical wounds heal they are different than when a simple cut scabs over. Ask lots of questions!

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: katlaughing
Date: 21 Jan 10 - 10:48 PM

And tell Pete how lucky he is to get the whole pot roast all to himself.**bg**

Rest, rest, and rest some more.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 22 Jan 10 - 07:17 AM

What Maggie and Kat said. Anaesthesia and hormones- you can't fight that! Yoghurt is very good. Listen to your body and eat what feels good to you!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 22 Jan 10 - 08:05 AM

Myteary day was Day 3 after the surgery. It was part relief, part hormones, part pain, part loss - you have had a huge chnage in your body and your life.

To this day, I can't tolerate garlic. If I eat anything with garlic in it, I taste a bitter metallic taste for hours afterwards. Go figure.

Now lady. Stay at home and rest. You have had major surgery. It takes six weeks to fully recover. The anaesthesia alone takes weeks to work its way out of your sytem. No going out unless it is to a doctor. I am surprised you weren't given these orders by your doctor. Mine gave it to me in writing.

Find a good book. Read until you fall asleep. Nibble on whatever appeals. Spoil yourself. You have earned it.

Mother SINS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: jacqui.c
Date: 22 Jan 10 - 08:13 AM

When I had the last hernia op I was given strong painkillers that took my appetite away completely. The smell of food made me feel ill.

Yoghurt is good if you like it, just follow the dictates of your body on what food can be tolerated right now. When Kendall couldn't eat recently I made up drinks of whole milk, ice cream and strawberries - the doctor confirmed that, for a short while, that would help put some nourishment in him that he couldn't cope with otherwise. The energy drinks you can buy can also help.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Tinker
Date: 22 Jan 10 - 11:41 AM

Trust yourself.

Listen to your body.

Take time to heal.


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From: catspaw49
Date: 22 Jan 10 - 11:46 AM

Eat the livin' hell outta' whatever sounds good to you.   I think what you're feeling on that is more related to surg/anasth than anything else. My weirdest one was sweet potato. I hated the damn things all my life and suddenly I LOVED them. We eat them maybe once or twice a week........go figure.

Hopefully you won't have a taste for broiled sea bass..........


Spaw


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 22 Jan 10 - 03:48 PM

OK I'll bite...why not, Spaw?


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Janie
Date: 22 Jan 10 - 04:27 PM

Just checking in Michelle. Imagining lovely healing for you.

Janie


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: John MacKenzie
Date: 22 Jan 10 - 04:30 PM

He wants them all to himself. It's my favourite fish to eat, too.
Tam, I'm not a masochist.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 22 Jan 10 - 06:56 PM

Checking in, from the office. I hope you had a restful afternoon. That pot roast is always good reheated--most of them are better after a day or two.

I hope the tender spots are easing up.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Liz the Squeak
Date: 22 Jan 10 - 07:06 PM

Good to hear from you, take it easy - the worst thing you can do now is too much.

LTS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 22 Jan 10 - 07:17 PM

Lily visited some other threads very briefly today. Hopefully she is resting.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 22 Jan 10 - 10:52 PM

I did spend today resting. The home health nurse came and all is just fine and my incision is healing as it should. She said the same thing as some of you did....lots of what I am going through is just the anesthesia working it's way out of my body. I am very teary and anxious. I wonder when it will ever go away. It is a miserable way to be.

She told me I way over did it by going to church on Wednesday and then to lunch on Thursday and I am to STAY HOME, try to eat and walk around a bit. NOTHING ELSE.

I cut back on my pain meds for the past 2 days but think tonight I'll take both pills as I am sore (really kinda feeling like someone has kicked me in the stomach) and they help me sleep...of which I did very little of last night and today.

Many thanks for the continued prayers and healing thoughts.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 23 Jan 10 - 12:56 AM

Michelle,

I think you're doing it right with the pain medications. There seem to be wildly divergent approaches to narcotic drugs--ranging from under-use through abuse. But when you are experiencing pain, the narcotic effect doesn't cause a high because it is soothing the pain. So if you don't need it, use the milder meds, but if you have pain when you try to sleep, then it's doing what it's supposed to be doing. Soothing pain and letting you sleep.

I saw an acquaintance this evening who is an ontological ob/gyn. I mentioned our virtual support system here at Mudcat--he was pleased to hear that you have this online community. Positive thinking and support do have a good effect. And he said you're doing it exactly right--the surgery and the chemo follow-up to be sure to keep it away. That's good to hear, as one in this support group. :)

Make it a really lazy weekend. Find an old movie to watch, or have someone come over and show you a new knitting or crochet stitch, something quite but satisfying. No cruising the local mall for clearance sales, okay? ;-D

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: jacqui.c
Date: 23 Jan 10 - 08:14 AM

Excatly SRS - Michelle, please listen to your nurse and rest up COMPLETELY!

I know how difficult it is just to sit and do nothing - my daughter wouldn't even let me outside her front door for two weeks following my operation and that drove me mad, but it did mean that all my system had to do was to heal. Back then I wasn't doing any craft work so spent my time watching TV and reading - I couldn't even play with my three year old grandson. However, boredom is better than landing up back in hospital.

Take care melove.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: maeve
Date: 23 Jan 10 - 08:23 AM

Good for you, Michelle. I know it's hard to be patient with your body sometimes. I'm glad you have good care.

maeve


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 23 Jan 10 - 08:27 AM

With all this resting, how do I keep my mind positive? I have so much time and despite what the Dr. said, I am so full of fear about maybe they made a mistake. What if it spread? I know there's nothing I can do until I get the pathology and they will treat whatever if need be but it's absolutely maddening and sometimes I feel like I just can't take it.


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From: maeve
Date: 23 Jan 10 - 08:36 AM

Write it all down, Michelle. Get your thoughts, fears, questions on paper. What you do with it then is up to you. You can't control much of what is happening with your body. You can control your responses to it.

Make plans, both short and long term. Learn something new. Call/PM/email/write to friends and family who are proven to be healthy support for you. Plan something special for someone else. Live the moment you are in. Remember that the world is bigger than we individuals are. Good things are happening everywhere. You are one of those good things to many people. Smile. Breathe. Dream. Imagine the best. Plan a garden.

maeve


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: John MacKenzie
Date: 23 Jan 10 - 08:39 AM

All natural worries Michelle, I'd feel the same in your place. You can only place your trust in those guys who did the op. The track record for procedures like yours are very good, so I should relax a bit if I were you.
Same with the tearful aspect, it's probably mostly hormonal, and it's one of those things that go with being female. Or so I'm led to believe ;)
The 3rd Mrs MacKenzie had a hysterectomy, and was very hormonal for a while afterwards.
Crochet, knit, tie flies, read a book.
Don't, jog, sky dive, or trampoline !!
Lots of Catters pulling for you lassie.

John


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: jacqui.c
Date: 23 Jan 10 - 08:49 AM

I learned a lesson fairly early on in life, during the Cold War when, after reading Neville Shute's book 'On The Beach' at too early an age, followed by the Cuba Crisis, my thoughts kept turning to the possibility of nuclear war.

I had many sleepless night s with those fears. when I thought about it I knew there was little I could do at the time and that I was just making myself ill with the thoughts. From then on, every time the thought came into my head I would consciously make myself think of something else - something funny one of my kids had said or done, a song I had heard, a beautiful place that I had visited or wanted to go to, anything to drive the thought away.

It takes some effort to get there, but it does work. When you start thinking that way find some good threads on the 'Cat, that maybe make you laugh, phone someone to have a chat, not about what is happening, but maybe to talk about something that they are doing or to catch up on good news. Whenever the thoughts intrude just tell them that, since you can't do anything about this right now, you do not want to hear what they say.

If you find that the above is not working than talk to your doctor and tell them that these thoughts are making you ill. Sometimes temporary medication may help to ease things.

You have my phone number - if you think it might help call me.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 23 Jan 10 - 12:52 PM

The only place I was comfortable was on my big oversized green corduroy couch - lost it to Alice's kittens when they thought it was a kitty litter.
Anyway...the only TV station I could get was Home Shopping. I had the best time watching these silly people trying to describe pure crap in the most glowing terms. Of course, I couldn't pass up a bargain and ended up with a box of about fifty non-working plastic children's watches. I had ordered three for $10. I must have been the only one to order them. They dumped them all in a box and shipped them.

The "What If's" are your worst enemy right now, Lily. They affect your mental attitude and your healing. Books, CDs, a "project" crocheting or knitting or anything that appeals. Perfect time to set up a recipe file or update an address book. The fear is normal and real.

I kept sanitary napkins in the house for months because I didn't trust that the surgery had been done right. Keep sharing here. Putting your fears in writing takes away some of their power. Call Jacqui or anyone you trust to listen.

One day at a time...


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 23 Jan 10 - 02:17 PM

With all this resting, how do I keep my mind positive?

Well... :~).... there's always music. Music to play at home on one's instruments, music to click to play here, music to find online, CDs within easy reach.......

So, what music is at your disposal and what feel right?

(Addendum to an earlier good suggestion from a wise woman-- the more one writes HERE (at Mudcat), the more "help" will be forthcoming. One can drown in that..... Writing it all out is great, but IMO it's also a good idea to be thoughtful about where you display it. Maybe nowhere but for one's own use on one's own computer?)

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Mrs.Duck
Date: 23 Jan 10 - 02:47 PM

Take care of yourself, Michelle. Give yourself time to heal and try to use the time to catch up on books you wish you'd read, movies you might like to see (on dvd of course) and all the music you never had time to listen to.


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 23 Jan 10 - 07:22 PM

I am looking forward to tonight. Since I've been home, we've been sleeping in our recliners because I couldn't manange the stairs to our bedroom. Tonight we are sleeping in our bed. I can't tell you how much I've missed curling up next to my husband and feeling his protective arms wrapped around me as I drift off to sleep. YAY.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: maeve
Date: 23 Jan 10 - 07:25 PM

Yes. Sweet sleep to you both, Michelle. Having my Truelove beside me makes all the difference.

maeve


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: jacqui.c
Date: 23 Jan 10 - 07:27 PM

Sleep well dear. Sweet dreams.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Bobert
Date: 23 Jan 10 - 08:06 PM

Sniff...

Makes ol' hillbilly wanta get him one of them hystericalectomies so I can come home and snuggle with the P-Vine...


























...not!!!

Glad yer feeling better 'cause it's about time to get seedling going fir the veggie garden...

B~


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From: VirginiaTam
Date: 24 Jan 10 - 07:09 AM

snugglin up to sweetie is wunnerful stuff. hope you take good sense of well being from that snuggle.


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From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 24 Jan 10 - 08:04 AM

when I came out of hospital 12 months ago, one kind friend collected me & fed me a yummy lunch (hospital food is not good) then took me to another friend's place where I stayed two nights & got lots more yummy food & a friendly cat for company, but it was great when I finally got home to my own bed.

keep resting

sandra


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 24 Jan 10 - 08:07 AM

Ahhhhhh, the familiar cozy bed. I hope you slept long and deeply, and woke (will wake? will have woken?) to sweet cuddles and lazy rising.


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 24 Jan 10 - 09:40 AM

Yesterday my husband brought the mail in the house and announced that I had a package. I wasn't expecting anything and when I opened it, I was completely overwhelmed with love.

Jacqui sent me the most beautiful turquoise shawl and a lovely note that left me feeling very, very loved. I cried happy tears and put it on immediately. Within 30 minutes, I was asleep, blissfully asleep without horrific dreams, wrapped in a giant Mudcat hug. It's a kindness I will never forget.

Thank you so very much Jacqui. ((((((((((((((((((Much Love))))))))))))

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 24 Jan 10 - 11:14 AM

Damn! Now I'm all weepy. One day at a time but sometimes one day is really ten miles back to normal. Rest easy, Lily.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 24 Jan 10 - 11:55 AM

Wow! Michelle, having this surgery this time of year was opportune for the Mudcat folks whose common currency for exchange is wool. :)   

It's a beautiful day. I have my nose to the grindstone, taking advantage of being in the middle of the billing cycle to shop for lower rates at several companies. I pulled up a Consumer Reports discussion of insurance prices and satisfaction, and they provided links to sites for comparison purposes. Meanwhile, my organic gardening guru is on the radio. Moving forward. Michelle, I know life goes on for all of us, and you'll be chafing at not being able to act on whatever the current chores or issues are in your life, but they'll wait a little while. Get a seed catalog and plan for what you'll be planting in the garden this year. Maybe someone can set up a little growing kit in a window for you and you can at least watch the seeds sprout and grow indoors. A sign of great things to come!

SRS


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From: jacqui.c
Date: 24 Jan 10 - 01:14 PM

I'm glad you liked the shawl Michelle. We each do what we can and I'm just glad that I can do something that makes people happy.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 24 Jan 10 - 02:09 PM

((((((((((((((Giant Hug)))))))))))))))))


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From: VirginiaTam
Date: 24 Jan 10 - 02:37 PM

Dear Michelle - you have now joined the sisterhood of JacquiC shawl wearers. Mine sits on back of sofa so I can wrap up in an instant.

Yep -- big Mudcat hug and collective healing thoughts and light coming to you (and others) from me at 9:15pm (4:15pm your time).


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: katlaughing
Date: 24 Jan 10 - 10:27 PM

Between Jacqui and MMario, there are quite a few of us who have received shawls...CLICK.

They are pretty special, aren't they? I love both of mine, very much!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 25 Jan 10 - 08:21 AM

Me, too! I'm so glad you have one, Michelle!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 25 Jan 10 - 06:58 PM

Climbing the walls yet, Michelle? Have you been out for a ride, something very sedentary but that gets you out of the house?

We discovered a couple of deadlines this week (one on Wednesday, one on Sunday) so are dashing around filling out papers. I'm headed out the door next with tax stuff and forms to fill out at his Dad's house. Made an interview appointment and nudged his teachers and counselor--no one had turned in their forms yet. Arrgggghhh! Oops, this should be declutter stuff. Michelle, get well soon so we're over in one spot again talking about all of this stuff!

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 26 Jan 10 - 09:50 AM

Getting in and out of the car can pull open stitches. Be very careful.
And don't fall on the ice - MOAN!
SINS looking for sympathy.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 26 Jan 10 - 10:07 AM

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww, poor Sins!!!!!!!


<<< HUG >>>


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 26 Jan 10 - 10:19 AM

(((((((((((((Sins)))))))))))))))

Today I go to get my staples out. I think I will also find out about the pathology.

All I can do is cry.

I am praying that nothing spread and that all the cancer has been removed.

:(


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From: SINSULL
Date: 26 Jan 10 - 12:14 PM

Go ahead and cry Lily. This is very frightening. Who's going with you to the appointment?
The staples will come out easily. The pathology is what it is. You will get through this one day at a time.
Stay strong.
Mary


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 26 Jan 10 - 12:39 PM

Ignore my above post. Cry, scream yell and throw things. You have a right to be frightened and angry - it's a lousy hand you have been dealt.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 26 Jan 10 - 01:17 PM

However, you'll find that if you don't rage and shout and stuff, you're system will be better off.

I've never had staples, but stitches in my foot after bunionectomy hurt like a sun of a gun. They'd been in so long. Your staples are coming out sooner than my stitches did, which helps.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 26 Jan 10 - 03:48 PM

Keeping an eye out for the pathology report. Another big hurdle to cross. Let us know when you can, kiddo!

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: John MacKenzie
Date: 26 Jan 10 - 03:53 PM

Yup, sending positive thoughts your way Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 26 Jan 10 - 04:18 PM

Waiting...
the hardest part of the battle.


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 26 Jan 10 - 05:28 PM

Not everyone finds waiting the hardest. Some prefer it.

Michelle, here we're still focusing on the most positive thoughts and prayers, "even if" and "whatever may be." Because when one gets right down to it-- it's still TODAY that one has and it's still TODAY that we must choose how to live. And today, no matter what the docs may say-- they still, really, only know about "today."

~Susan


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From: jacqui.c
Date: 26 Jan 10 - 07:25 PM

Waiting with you Michelle, every step of the way. I remember how hard was the time between my operation and getting the results of the biopsy.


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 26 Jan 10 - 07:49 PM

The staples came out easily except for a few around my navel which didn't surprise me...they've been red, irritated and oozing. No infection though, so that's good news. Now I'm being held together with Steri-Strips.

The pathology is not back yet. I have an appointment for next week.

They gave me a packet of information about ovarian cancer, good websites, diet, and more but I'm too afraid to look at it.

Also, they said to get an appointment IMMEDIATELY with my home Dr. to deal with this anxiety which hinders healing due to crying, sobbing, heaving, coughing, blowing my nose, etc. I called my local Dr. from the hospital (which is 2 hours away) and have an appointment there first thing tomorrow morning.

Also, I have more pain meds which I've been scrimping on and am needing.

It's been a long scary day for me. Both my surgeons were there, both upbeat but of course they don't have the information to give me. I've been told to concentrate on eating and working on this anxiety stuff (which I hope means a medication adjustment).   I'm now down 28 pounds since December and while I'd like to lose weight, this is NOT the way to do it and I KNOW I need to build up my strength for whatever is to come. I started drinking Boost.....a nutritional supplement drink and the Dr.'s said to go ahead and drink it at each meal.

I feel like I am living on nursing home food and take the same amount of meds to qualify living in one.

Anyway, I'm thankful I can eat SOMETHING, even if it's soft and bland and I'm thankful for the meds to help me get through this.

I'm also thankful for all of you.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 26 Jan 10 - 11:28 PM

Michelle,

Don't just talk to a medical doctor, find yourself a counselor or psychiatrist. They can do a great job in helping you set aside the anxiety. If you don't, it means you're not focusing on positive things, you're not looking beyond the now, you're not working on a plan. If you're focused on the fear, you're letting the cancer win, it is just that simple. So you need to cast out the fear along with the cancer.

Sounds like it is time to go sit in on the yoga class, even if you're not doing anything, just to get back to the breathing and to practicing some discipline in focusing outward.

Good luck--make that appointment, but ask about a counselor also.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Tinker
Date: 26 Jan 10 - 11:59 PM

Hey there.... just to let you know there are folks here through the night as well.

Looking for a place to move forward.... something to busy your mind would be a good thing....


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From: Janie
Date: 27 Jan 10 - 02:22 AM

Such a tough place to inhabit right now, dear Michelle. It is hard to inhabit the present moment out of worry or concern about what may be in the future. Especially when the present moment is painful or uncomfortable as surgery scars heal.

Remind yourself, gently, and without judgement, to be fully present in the moment at hand.


Janie


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From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 27 Jan 10 - 07:20 AM

more hugs as I can't add anything to what has been said.

Maybe just one bit of wisdom from my physio recently - she reminded me one reason my scar is still sore 12 months later (apart from the fact it is in my groin, just above the fold of my leg) - it's not just 12" long, it's several inches deep - duh! I never thought of that.

sandra


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From: VirginiaTam
Date: 27 Jan 10 - 07:43 AM

Checking. I am still on watch and hoping for best possible outcome.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: John MacKenzie
Date: 27 Jan 10 - 08:06 AM


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From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 27 Jan 10 - 08:54 AM

Holding you in love...


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 27 Jan 10 - 09:00 AM

Thanks for the update, Michelle. No news is good news.
Here in Maine the local hospitals offer all sorts of support groups for cancer patient, friends, and families. Everything from yoga and exercise classes to crafts and counseling. Maybe something like that is available by you. It may help to share your fears with people who are in the same place or who have been there and survived.
If you like, I will be happy to search out what is available near you. Just PM me some info on where you live, your hospital, and realistic travel distances.
If something appeals, go for it. If not, no harm done.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: kendall
Date: 27 Jan 10 - 09:04 AM

Well, I sure as hell hate waiting for the results; I always imagine the worst and that is a human trait. I would say that any normal person would be concerned.


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From: jacqui.c
Date: 27 Jan 10 - 09:10 AM

Still here dear.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 27 Jan 10 - 12:47 PM

No infection is very good news, now that I think about. It means your immune system is functioning well - a very good sign.

Still waiting impatiently for results and your doctors' plans for the next steps to Welldom.


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 27 Jan 10 - 08:11 PM

I'm not enjoying the wait at all. It's scary and frustrating and at times, terrifying for me.

My visit to the surgeon yesterday went well and he answered some of my questions which helped to ease my fear.

The staples are out but I'm still having issues around my navel. This morning I went to see my regular Dr. for more help with the anxiety stuff (she gave me sleeping meds???????) and had her look at my incision. She took a sample of the yuck, re-steri stripped my belly and also gave me some antibiotics. I'm hoping that does the trick.

I am sleeping a lot lately.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 27 Jan 10 - 08:36 PM

Sleep can be a good way to turn off the anxieties. Your body needs to rest. And don't forget - the anaesthesia really does take weeks to get out of your system.

I wish I could take away the fear, Michelle. Unfortunately, until you know what the test results are, you can't cope and plan. The What Ifs set in.

The only suggestion I can offer is try to live in the What Is. You are safe at home. The surgery is behind you. You have a loving husband to hold you and help you. You can see, hear, walk, talk, read, sing, laugh, cry - you are in charge of most of your life. Focus on who are. That is real. Try to put away What Might Be. It isn't real, may never happen, and has no real place in today.

We are all praying and lighting candles and keeping your health and healing in our thoughts. Work with us.


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 27 Jan 10 - 10:21 PM

Amen.

~S~


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From: Janie
Date: 27 Jan 10 - 11:37 PM

"Worry does not empty tomorrow of its problems; it empties today of its strengths." - Corrie Ten Boom

Of course you are worried and fearful, Michelle, but find ways to "turn the mind" away from the thoughts that induce the frustration, fear and even terror as much of the time as possible. Some activity that engages as many of the senses as possible in the present can be helpful. The idea is to find ways to tolerate the distress without making it worse. It is not about trying to banish fear, it is about finding ways to not dwell on the fear.

Sending {{{hugs}}} and caring for your well-being.

Janie


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From: jacqui.c
Date: 28 Jan 10 - 07:15 AM

((((((Michelle)))))))


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 28 Jan 10 - 07:39 AM

Feeling very weak this morning...something new. I'm going back to sleep. So tired.

Michelle


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From: SINSULL
Date: 28 Jan 10 - 07:53 AM

The wonders of sleep inducers. They make me feel stupid for 24 hours. But rest and sleep are just what you need. Pleasant dreams.


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From: Tinker
Date: 28 Jan 10 - 10:31 AM

What Mary said.... sleep lets the mind work through it's fears and find places to put all of our concerns and worries without paralyzing the day with inaction.

Sending you love and concern to live the day.


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From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 28 Jan 10 - 11:27 AM

Sleep is also a feature of depression, so don't let it take over your days. When you speak to your doctor, be sure to mention this. You might benefit from keeping a diary--eating, sleeping, medication, it will help you see patterns.

It's a gloomy day here, overcast with drizzle. I can understand wanting to go back to sleep on a day like today!

SRS


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From: SINSULL
Date: 28 Jan 10 - 11:45 AM

Lily just got the sleeping aids from her doctor yesterday so I suspect more sleep is in order for a while. I envy you Lily. I love to sleep and can do it anywhere anytime. I should have a job as a mattress tester.
Are there any comedies you enjoy? Might be a good time to fill your waking moments with fun stuff. Laughter is wonderful medicine.


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From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 28 Jan 10 - 02:24 PM

I missed that bit--yeah, I hear that some sleeping pills can cause a real groggy feeling. That happens to me if I take Benedryl full strength, even at night. By the next morning I'm still feeling it.


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 28 Jan 10 - 03:32 PM

Those sleepies wear off better if you do the whole length of sleep you really need. Even a half hour of waking too early can leave the sleepies running all day. Beware of over-riding that with caff-- wrecks the whole effect. (This has been true of every sleep aid I have used, and I think I have used them all at one time or another.)

~S~


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 28 Jan 10 - 07:03 PM

Home health here today...still having icky oozie issues with my navel. I've had 3 doses of antibiotics and am hoping that will help. In the meantime, my insurance company will be receiving a request to extend the home health visits as my incision is open and draining....and such an odd spot to tend to myself.

I did go back to sleep until about 11:30am when the phone rang, otherwise I could have probably slept a bit longer. No caffeine in my diet lately (no coffee...I know...hard to believe, but true) so I think my body just needs the rest.

Got to get out to WW today...felt good to see my friends. Received an award for having lost 101.9 pounds. Still can't believe it.

Only one crying spell today....a well meaning friend is being really pushy about the pathology of things and right now, I just don't even want to think about it. She was talking about chemo too....nothing horrible but enough to rock my boat a little bit. So....still not a tear free day but it was MUCH better today.

Michelle


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From: jacqui.c
Date: 28 Jan 10 - 08:16 PM

You're doing well Michelle. Let your body decide what it wants to do and if that means sleep, so be it right now. That's when your system can use energy to heal faster.


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From: SINSULL
Date: 28 Jan 10 - 08:59 PM

Turn that phone OFF when you are sleeping, Michelle. Whoever it is can call back or wait for you to call.

WW must have been an "up" moment. Over 100 pounds. That is amazing. Congratulations.

Sounds like your friend is genuinely worried about you if a bit tactless. But if that was your only crying jag, the sleep is helping. One day at a time.

Mary


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 29 Jan 10 - 10:25 AM

I made a call to find out more information and register for the Look Good Feel Better Program that the American Cancer Society has. I had no idea how sad this call would make me feel. :(

My insides are gone and it's very probable that now some of my outsides are going to go too.

OMG.


:(


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From: VirginiaTam
Date: 29 Jan 10 - 10:37 AM

Lilbit, don't think about anything but healing right now. You are worrying and that is not good for you.

Deal with other stuff as and when it happens.

Nuff said!


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From: SINSULL
Date: 29 Jan 10 - 05:06 PM

Some of your insides are gone. So is the cancer. If the outsides go (although I don't quite know what that means) small price to pay for living a long happy life.Those of us with 100 lbs to lose think you are amazingly strong and beautiful.


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 29 Jan 10 - 05:08 PM

Outsides = hair

*Sigh*

You are right, I am worrying about something that is ahead that I am unsure of. And Mary you are also right, it IS a small price to pay to live a long, happy, HEALTHY, life.

I had no idea it would freak me out so much.

(((((((((Thank you for the reminders of the good things in my life))))))

Michelle


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 29 Jan 10 - 06:34 PM

And speaking of GOOD THINGS, guess what I found in my mailbox today? The sweetest little fairy and a head dress that looks like lots of FUN!!!!!

VT, you are too sweet and I loved the card!!!!!!

The fairy is sitting on my desk and I plan to play with the head dress tomorrow....I've never had one!!!!!

Thank you for thinking of me....you brought a smile to my face and I'm sure I'll be having some fun tomorrow too! Now....my sweet little fairy needs a name....Hmmmmmmmmmmmm.........

(((((((Hugs)))))))))

Thank you!!!!!!!!
Much love,

Michelle


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From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 29 Jan 10 - 09:24 PM

I have to get shopping this weekend. I have a couple of things to send to people.

SRS


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From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 29 Jan 10 - 09:29 PM

sending more hugs

sandra


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From: VirginiaTam
Date: 30 Jan 10 - 04:17 AM

Michelle having learned from the JacquiC shawl installment that your fav colour is green, wish I had sent the jade/sage green headdress.

Anyway, I guess you can put that head dress to some fun use.

Whew! what a relief. thought it had gone missing.


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 30 Jan 10 - 07:55 AM

VT,

   I love just about all colors....I am a photographer at heart and know that it is ALL the colors of the world that come together to make this such a beautiful place!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE that you sent me a head dress....I've looked at them on eBay for Ren Fairs (and the dresses too) but never got one. Now I think I might spend some time looking at the dresses and patterns....I mean, I have HALF of the outfit now, right? *G*

Much love from Michelle who is going to church tonight wearing brown boots, black pants, a neon green turtleneck (maybe dark green), white compression stockings, a dark purple hat, a scarf of many colors and a purple coat!!!   See? Lots of colors!

PS. I can't believe you can do beading like that....they are so tiny....that is a gift in itself!

PPS. I've moved the fairy to sit with me...she's right beside my chair with her sweet, delicate wings! <3


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 30 Jan 10 - 07:58 AM

I think medications make you dream strange things. I woke up this morning dreaming about chemotherapy. In my dream they had to remove a 4x4 inch area of skin for each treatment.

*sigh*

Gross & scary.

I'm aiming for dreamless naps and sleep later today!!!

Michelle


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From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 30 Jan 10 - 08:02 AM

Dreams are often just manifestations of our fears. You are "shedding" the fears along with the cancer, and donning yourself with color and brightness and hope. Good for you!
love,
Allison


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 30 Jan 10 - 08:27 AM

Lily,
Only once did I take (read: was I allowed to take) Ambien. I had nightmares but they were in such wonderful psychedelic colors that I loved them. Until you mentioned your dreams, I had forgotten how horrific the dreams themselves were.

Hair - my neighbor in NYC had Hodgkins Lymphoma and underwent chemo twice for it. She never lost her hair. Go figure. Hats will help. But feel free to grieve if it falls out. And remember it will grow back. My niece had long straight hair. Hers came back in all curly and very beautiful.

Do not drive! It was the one thing my doctor harped in. Just getting into and out of the car can pull stitches. A fast slam on the brakes could put you back in the hospital. It is not worth the chance of prolonging your recovery.

I re-read this and I do sound very bossy. Sorry. And feel free to ignore anything that doesn't suit you at the moment.

SINS, in mothering mode.


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 30 Jan 10 - 08:57 AM

Sins,

    The pills I'm taking at night are not sleeping pills per say, they are more to help me relax so I can get a good night's sleep which SHOULD help ease the intense morning anxiety. I was skeptical but you know what? It's working and I am happy to not be balled up in a knot of fear sobbing until 10:00am or later.

   And the hair. I know it's vain but I don't want to lose it...I don't think anyone does....and at this point, for all I know, I might NOT lose it. Not only will I be more hideous than I already am but I have a life long habit of playing with my hair as a comfort....so there's a fear there of taking away something that is self soothing. So...I talked to my hair dresser and if my hair starts to come out, before it gets all scraggly, she is going to put it into lots of little pony tails and cut them off one by one. This will allow me to still be able to feel the softness of my own hair. I've looked at wigs, turbans, hair halos and the like....I don't know what I want in that line so I suppose it will be a wait and see kind of deal. The American Cancer Society has a program called Look Good Feel Better. These classes are run by beauticians and they have all kinds of wigs/turbans/etc for us to try on. They also will do make up tips and send me home with lots of makeup and I believe a wig or two. I had to register with the ACS and requested that my mom be able to come along. The woman on the phone didn't know if that was allowed but later she called me back to say that would be fine and that makes me feel better...to have someone along for support.

As far as driving goes, I ALMOST did some yesterday but decided I was tired and wanted to stay home. I'd like to go to church tonight but because church is about 40 minutes from our home, I'm not sure I'll be going. I hate to ask my husband to drive me there as he is on the road all week and is not interested in going to the service. I MIGHT drive myself. We shall see. The Dr. said that once the staples were out and I was off the pain pills, I could drive. We shall see.

I'm cold this morning (picture this: giant gray sweat pants, a long sleeved, long green and blue flannel nighty, a shawl around my shoulders and a blue blanket in my lap....lookout Miss America, you've got competition!!!!

I have been invited to a baby reception this afternoon and am looking forward to holding the beautiful baby Audrey!

Michelle


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From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 30 Jan 10 - 09:24 AM

Michelle - lucky you can't see me heading off to the loo at a wintery folk festival - faded yellowy or blue ankle-length short sleeved summer nightie, black thermal pants & matching top, hand-knitted Nepalese rainbow wool socks, topped by my big black woollen coat!

I'll look even better next year as these 2 nighties are in the rag bag. I've made 2 new ones: apple green with white spots, & bright yellow with white stars.

One of my friends lost her hair a few times in her chemo, & had a great collection of wigs. She was known to haul off her wig & show off her new curls at appropriate moments!

have fun with the baby.

sandra


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From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 30 Jan 10 - 10:43 AM

Michelle, if you drive that far from home and get too tired before you get home, you're going to have to pull over and have Pete come get you, and someone else is going to have to drive him to where you are. It's going to chafe for a while longer, but when you're tired from something like this, you have to remember to pace yourself.

My browser wants to shut down. Better send this while I can.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: katlaughing
Date: 30 Jan 10 - 11:02 AM

More mothering from here...please be sure not to lift the baby yourself. Let someone hand him to you and be very careful while you hold him. Just as with driving, any sudden movement, a natural lifting up to soothe, etc. would not be good for your incision.

Let's see, you've been home since Jan. 18th. Today is the 30th, so it's been a whole 12 days, not even two full weeks...you might want to slow down a bit, darlin'..for what you've been through 12 days is not a lot of recovery time for MAJOR surgery and to get the anaesthesia out. (That stuff can settle in your muscles for months.) IMO, no church tonight. Even seeing the babe is questionable.

Feel free to tell us if you get tired of the mothering.:-)

kat


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 30 Jan 10 - 11:06 AM

Hideous????
That comment made me think of the Getaway. The first night we are all at our best, a little tired from the commute but up and happy. Day 2, after stating up way past midnight we look a little less attractive. By Day 3, we are all tired and look it, slightly grubby from dressing on the run, and maybe a bit hung over. Outsiders would probably see a bunch of middle-aged messy people who ought to know better. We see only the beauty of friends sharing their music.

No amount of surgery, lack of sleep, crying or just feeling miserable could make you hideous to your real friends. Your husband feels the same way - grateful to have you home and alive. To yourself? That is something you will have to come to terms with. Your cancer group will help you.

With the loss and pain comes a knowledge of how beautiful and precious life is and how fleeting is superficial beauty. It will come to you eventually.


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From: VirginiaTam
Date: 30 Jan 10 - 11:19 AM

what the other mothers said... I am echoing. remember that incision is not only on the surface... it is internal. things have been and will be shifting. don't do anything to encourage unnatural shift.

glad you like the gifts though.

Now I am off to do a happy dance in the declutter thread.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Maryrrf
Date: 30 Jan 10 - 11:32 AM

Hey Michelle, I have not been on Mudcat much lately but am following this thread and want to add my support. A friend of mine had a similar surgery two years ago and is now fine - you will be fine too. Good vibes headed your way!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: jacqui.c
Date: 30 Jan 10 - 04:32 PM

More mothering - give yourself time to heal properly and try not to take risks that might land you back in hospital. As has been said - don't lift th baby, have her sat on your lap and then taken off by others.

Treat yourself kindly, you're worth it.


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From: SINSULL
Date: 31 Jan 10 - 12:47 PM

I'm impressed. Jacqui posted from her Grammy Awards weekend.


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 31 Jan 10 - 03:54 PM

The baby reception was nice...loads of people, many of whom I did not know. An old friend from high school was there so we sat together and chatted. I sat and held the baby for probably half an hour or so and also got to feed her....heaven....I'm telling you, I was in heaven. I didn't stay long as I tire so fast but I'm glad I went!

When I got home, I took a nap...a few hours or so and decided that I wanted to go to church. My husband wasn't interested in driving me over and my Mom is plain old worn out from driving me everywhere so I drove myself. No pain meds for the previous 24 hours and I'd also had a nap. It was fine although I won't be gallavanting around the countryside on a daily basis just yet. It was good for me to go....to hear the sermon, the enjoy the music and just to see other people....also, just the atmosphere makes me feel better.

I will say that the day was tiring and I slept all night and didn't wake up until 10:30ish this morning...something I hardly EVER do. My husband likes to tease if I sleep past 7:30am, he'll tell me I slept the entire day away.

We went to town this afternoon to the feed store (I sat in the car), to lunch (where I had 1/6th of a steak , a side salad and we both got cake to bring home) and then to Walmart. My list was short but of course I needed things from BOTH sides of the store. One complete trip around and I had to sit on the bench for a little bit....totally wore me out. Pete assures me it will get better.

I'll be going to the Dr. tomorrow as the infection is looking worse and is going further up on my incision.

I'm also not feeling as panicked as I had been....now it's more of a quiet, inside panic...instead of the screaming, crying, freaked out panic. Apparently there are stages to how people go through such a diagnosis. My mom keeps telling me, "You're supposed to get mad now, remember?" I've read about the stages and honestly would be happy to feel some anger as anger brings energy with it and has a tendency to do away with fear....I'm just not there yet.

What I do need is a nap.

I love you people. Every last one of you.

Night.

Michelle


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From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 31 Jan 10 - 04:56 PM

'nigh-night, sweet Michelle! You sound as though you're doing very well. Sleep well!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 01 Feb 10 - 08:56 AM

Yeah, Michelle. The anger will come. There are certain steps towards final acceptance. Disbelief, denial, anger, fear, guilt - all sorts of what seem negative emotions but each is a step towards healing. They don't come in any set order. And some come back.

Remember I told you how good it made me feel to throw things? A satisfying smash and the calm after the storm when I got to clean up the mess.

You will experience it differently.

I am amazed you can do as much as you are doing. Wonderful - as long as you recognize when you are tired.


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 01 Feb 10 - 10:19 AM

Yeah well, church wasn't the best idea I had.....I wasn't comfortable at all.....hard seats are painful after just a few minutes...it was good for my spirits but kinda hard on the body.

I am weepy today. The bottom of my wound is healing very nicely but the top....well, it's not. I called my local Dr. today and she's not in. Got to speak to a nurse who said that my surgeon needed to see me. I pointed out that my local Dr. is the one who took a sample of the yuk and gave me antibiotics to begin with and why won't they see me. She passed me on to another nurse who was better. She said they have the preliminary results back to match the infection to the antibiotic. She was going to call the hospital to see about the final results which they may have but not have sent over just yet and at 10:30, the head Dr. comes in and she's going to talk to him about what's going on with me and give me a call back. In the meantime, I'm showered, put some antibiotic cream along my incision, steri-stripped it with my homemade band-aid kind of way because I don't have steri-strips and a 4x4 gauze patch over my belly button area.

I haven't thrown anything yet but I have done some from the gut screaming...no words...just screaming in my empty house. Once it's out, I feel better. And tired. I'm tired all the time and it seems I sleep a lot. That's good for me, I know.

Today I am going to spend the day at Mom's house....most likely on the couch where I will sleep or read. I am hoping to go to yoga tonight...to just sit on my mat or lay down or legs up the wall....whatever is comfy....to just be in a space I love with people I love and am missing (it's been over a month since I've been there I think). No yoga....just yoga people and yoga space....maybe a little yoga nidra...we'll see.

Anyway, I'm amazed that you think I do a lot because I feel like the world's biggest slug. I shower and sleep. Eat, sleep. Pet the dog, sleep. Eat, sleep. Answer the phone and sleep. You get the idea....

And how is it that I can't feel that there are parts of my body missing? That freaks me out. No uterus. No fallopian tubes. No ovaries yet I don't feel an emptiness in those areas.....how come?

What I do feel is that my belly button is trying to escape...feels like it's pulling itself out to make a mad dash to somewhere warm. I don't know. Weird but true.

Michelle who just had Boost and 11 pills for breakfast. YUM.


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From: katlaughing
Date: 01 Feb 10 - 10:41 AM

Michelle, fwiw, I had trouble with part of my incision from heart surgery. It wasn't healing properly. The surgeon looked at it a couple of times and said to just keep putting Neosporin (antibiotic ointment) on it. All that did was make it itch like crazy, which I thought meant it was healing. It was not. It was just getting more irritated. I remembered what the vet had said about not "smothering" my cat's wound as it needed oxygen to heal. He instead told me to use iodine in a diluted solution with water. Finally, I stopped using the ointment and painted my incision with iodine. I had felt, instinctively, that would do the trick and it did. Within a day or two it felt better and healed up quickly after that.

I am not saying that is what you should do, but it worked for me. Good luck.

Oh, and another thing...when I was so ill and feeling useless, i.e. as though I'd done nothing all day, my friend asked me to make a list of everything I did, including usual things such as getting up and going to the bathroom, letting the dog outside, etc. no matter how small and seemingly insignificant, I was to write it down. Then she and I would talk in the evening and after reading her my list it occurred to me I really had done more than I realised. Try it, you'll see.:-)

kat


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 01 Feb 10 - 10:48 AM

Great idea Kat...I think I WILL do that because I do feel rather useless.

Dr. just called and they are giving me a new script for a different antibiotic, one that matches my infection so HOPEFULLY on Wednesday when I go to see my surgeon, he won't have to re-open the incision to pack it due to infection.

Yep. I know ick when I see it.

My special talents are endless I tell ya.

;) Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Tinker
Date: 01 Feb 10 - 11:07 AM

Naming our personal "icks"
Is key if the "icks" you will lick
So diss not the talent
for it keeps you in balance

And add it to the list
(In case it's an action you might have missed)



Not really prime poetry.... but perhaps a giggle...

I'm sending a PM too....


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Catherine Jayne
Date: 01 Feb 10 - 11:07 AM

Still thinking about you and holding you close in our thoughts.

Love and Healing

Khatt x


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: jacqui.c
Date: 01 Feb 10 - 11:10 AM

Michelle - it really does take time and energy to heal. At two weeks I was arguing with my daughter to be allowed to make a cup of tea and the only way I was allowed out was with her and being pushed round in a wheelchair if we went into a shop.

I did feel rather useless during that time but it did me good as I was able to get back to normal life, living alone and working in London, with an hour and a half commute each way, in five weeks from my operation.


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 01 Feb 10 - 11:31 AM

Michelle, about the hard church seats. That wing chair up the aisle-- well, you would not be the first Saturday Nighter to curl up there, and it's easily moved, too, if you want James to put it anywhere you point. Or tell me here, and it will be waiting for you-- one nice spot is in front of the chapel, where the kids' toys and activity bags hang out.

~Susan


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From: SINSULL
Date: 01 Feb 10 - 11:40 AM

Jeez, Tink. Don't quit your day job. You are almost as talented as WAV. Not quite, just almost.

I was housebound for three weeks. Chaos all around me. And I slept - a lot. In a few weeks you will be back to normal. Meantime, be kind to yourself. And watch that infection.


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 02 Feb 10 - 11:25 AM

Well, my incision looks better after only one dose of the new antibiotics....hard to believe, but true. My navel is still a mess and I'm dreaded the poking that is sure to go on tomorrow when I meet with the surgeon. Side effect of the antibiotic? A little bit dizzy and nauseous.

Spent the entire day on Mom's couch yesterday doing NOTHING. Sleeping and watching television....following orders from Dr. Jacqui and Sins. I did good! ;)   I did NOT go to the yoga class as I thought it might just depress me to watch everyone jumping back into chatarangas...something which I love to do and can't right now...so I stayed on the couch.

Today I'm spending the day in my own recliner, feet up, a snuggly blanket with a book and water by my side. Gotta get more fluids in....they can't find my veins when I'm all dehyrated which means MORE needle sticks for me. NO THANK YOU.

And Susan, I'll take you up on the offer for the wing chair at church. I had no idea that the pews would cause that kind of pain....it's why I was so wiggly and holding my prayer shawl over my belly...putting pressure on to ease some of the uncomfortableness.

Off to the recliner! Have a great day everybody! Pathology report comes in tomorrow, please keep your fingers crossed, think positive things or pray for me....please, please, please!

Love to all,

Michelle


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 02 Feb 10 - 11:28 AM

Michelle,

Waiting with you for the news.

Please keep in mind that whatever they tell you, all you really have is today-- and you get to choose how to live it.

~Susan


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From: jacqui.c
Date: 02 Feb 10 - 02:33 PM

Good to hear that you are resting melove. All good thoughts here for the right result from the pathology report, but whatever happens just know that we are here.


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From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 02 Feb 10 - 03:26 PM

Holding you close, waiting with you.


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From: Janie
Date: 02 Feb 10 - 03:52 PM

In a circle, all around. Waiting? Yes. But also very present right here, right now.

Birdwatching anyone?


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From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 02 Feb 10 - 05:32 PM

sending more good wishes

sandra


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From: SINSULL
Date: 02 Feb 10 - 07:31 PM

The pathology report is what it is. We are all here.

Don't come anywhere near me. I have a cold. You do not need to be coughing and sneezing while trying to hold you stitches in place.

Maybe you can distract yourself with plans for a Valentine's surprise for Pete. He has earned it.
SINS


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 02 Feb 10 - 09:23 PM

I'm going to wrap myself up in the shawl that Jacqui sent and melt into the hugs it holds.

There's part of me that says ok....the report will say what it says and we'll find out what's the next step to getting me healthy. Then there's the other part that is scared shitless. I don't want a port. I don't want to be sick all the time. I don't want to lose my hair.

But I DO want to be healthy and so I will do whatever it is I need to do and lean when I need to lean.

What I need now is a hug.

:( Michelle


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 02 Feb 10 - 09:50 PM

(((Michelle)))

OK, now look. What I know FOR SURE is that you are up to whatever challenges lie ahead of you, whether they involve recovering from the surgery and a little post-surg chemo to vibrant health, or whether you have to duke it out a little longer against this damn cancer. I think I know HOW you will do it, too, and it will involve quite a bit of creativity.

The past year or so has been an intense and rewarding time for you, of deciding over and over and over to simply follow the joy. And that's all you have to keep on doing! Joy will lead you exactly where you need to go.

And about those stages of reactions-- screw 'em. OK, if you find yourself in the midst of a hissy fit, you'll know that it's one of the "expected" stages. But you do not need to conform to them or pay attention to them at all-- just recognize, each day, that you are already doing absolutely the best that you can. Not almost-enough, and not according to anyone else's idea of what ought to be possible.

Just assume that you are already doing the best that can be done, and EN-JOY IT.

~Susan


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 10:17 AM

*Deep Breath*


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From: maeve
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 10:21 AM

Breathing here with you, Michelle.

maeve


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 10:37 AM

Amen!


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 10:39 AM

Michelle, do I assume correctly that you are off now on your way to the hospital where you did the surgery?

LIVESTRONG!

Keeping a strong thought (prayers) for you.

~S~


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 10:58 AM

Susan,

    Yes, we are headed to see my surgeon...leaving shortly.

Thanks to all of you for your prayers and good thoughts....they are appreciated more than you know.

Michelle


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 10:59 AM

OK, we'll assume posts made between now and get-back will not be seen til later.

Drive safe, and have FUN with your car-buddy/ies.

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 11:29 AM

And so once again we wait.
Breathing with you, Lily, with a bit of a wheeze. A simple cold and I turn into Sarah Bernhardt.
If and when you are ready to share your news, we'll be here.
Mary


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From: VirginiaTam
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 02:19 PM

quick peek in to add extra good wishes. glad you are resting... waiting with others for news.

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Subject: VTs Color Garden
From: wysiwyg
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 02:24 PM

VT, that is GORGEOUS! As of today I am tagging your artposts by changing my subject line (same trick used when a lyric is added in a thread but the poster has not followed form).

~Susan


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From: SINSULL
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 03:59 PM

Sometimes I find that counting backwards from 100,000 makes the time go faster or me fall asleep...100,000; 99,999; 99,998;99,997...


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: gnu
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 04:12 PM

As in maeve's thread, a lot of peeps are walking anongside. Keep the faith, everyone.


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From: maeve
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 04:17 PM

Still here.

maeve


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From: Bobert
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 04:19 PM

Well, I been on a roll with the Big Guy of late so I asked Him to bring you a basket full of peace...

But until He delivers, warm thoughts and prayers from yer hillbilly gardening buddy...

(((hugs)))

Bobert


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 04:46 PM

Not telling tales (since she posted from the surg trip about where she had gone), but here's some "local" travel-time guidance for you waiting Catters.

Assuming her appt ran on time, and that they zoomed there, and zoomed right back, it's still a tad early to BOLO Michelle. Just please, hold those strong thoughts, and post them here for her return.

~Susan


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From: Janie
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 06:14 PM

also still here....


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 06:16 PM

We are home (got here about 30 minutes ago).

Well, here's the news:

I have to have 3 to 6 rounds of chemotherapy.

I have to have a port (outpatient surgery required).

I will definitely lose my hair.

Ok. But the BIG news is that the ovarian cancer was in Stage 1 which means my prognosis is EXCELLENT. That's what the Dr. said.

So. I'll be having a consultation with the chemo Dr. soon. The actual chemo will start in 3 to 4 weeks depending on how my incision is healing. I do have an infection in my incision but he said it was superficial and wasn't worried about it...said things looked good.

It's the absolute best that I could have hoped for (ok...could do without having to have a port and losing my hair) and I am feeling peaceful about it.

Thank you for the many, many prayers and good thoughts...I don't know how to tell you how it helps, but it does...so thank you.

Also, my handsome husband with the long, dark ponytail said he will shave his head when I shave mine. A friend from high school has a local salon and she and I have had this conversation already....I'm getting mine taken off before it gets scraggly. It's not going to be pretty but it means I get to live my life free of cancer and that's worth the world to me.

My job is to continue to take it easy and heal. I'm off to my recliner.

Love to all of you,

Michelle


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From: maeve
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 06:30 PM

Wonderful, Michelle! Now you can focus on health and joy...plenty of both waiting for you.

maeve


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From: gnu
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 06:32 PM

GOOD OH! Keep the faith!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 07:10 PM

Michelle, that is good news! And though the port sounds like a clunky process, it actually makes the chemo a lot easier. My boss's wife had a port. Did they tell you where they would place it?

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 07:12 PM

GOOD JOB MICHELLE!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 07:15 PM

Hey, what did they say about the uterine cancer?

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: jacqui.c
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 07:15 PM

Great news Michelle. I am so glad for you.

Dr Jacqui says take it VERY easy for now - you will need to build up your energy for the chemo treatment.

What a wonderful husband you have - you can have a race growing your hair back!


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From: SINSULL
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 07:19 PM

WHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
Finally,some good news.
Well done!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 07:25 PM

HUGE SIGH OF RELIEF.

Love, love, love.



(watch your mailbox...)


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From: Bobert
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 07:25 PM

Well, Stage 1 is ceratinly the best news that we could have gotten...

As to the hair??? Two things... First, it will grow back and second, bald women are sexy...

The port thing??? Just details... Beats having to get stuck, stuck and restuck... Especially when the viens aren't cooperatin'... A little out patient procedure and then yer good to go...

B~


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From: Leadfingers
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 07:29 PM

GOOD OH !!!


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 07:34 PM

Oh and ask Ed about port care-- he went thru that at least once with Edith, maybe twice. But don't listen to him if he tells you it was the cancer that took her-- it was NOT; he's still learning how to deal with her loss/dementia and she'd been to the cancer doc just weeks before she passed-- was certified to be still in good remission.

Isn't THAT a trip-- lymphoma is incurable, but she OUTLIVED IT in EVERY WAYS.

(And no, worrywarts, I am not breaking confidentiality-- everyone knows ALL of Ed's business and besides, I'm careful with that stuff.)

Ed would also want (and so would Edith) for me to tell you that she made her best, lifelong friends and fellow-survivors in chemo. That is likely to be your VERY BEST support group, so please be sure to lead the give and take when you go, do not forget to take as much as you give, and carry a pile of cards with contact info so it's easy to stay in touch. And your shawl(s). Chemo can be COLD.

~Susan


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 08:08 PM

About the uterine cancer....that was very well contained and the surgeon called it a "ho-hum" cancer. The ovarian cancer was not only a surprise but had a nodule on it which caused concern. The surgeon said one cancer did not metastisize, I had two separate cancers.

The port is going on my chest just below the collar bone. They said that I will not feel the port going in but I have to be somewhat awake as I have to move my head and neck (so they can put a catheter in a vein in my neck....creeps me out).

Also, I might have to do the first chemo treatment without the port depending on the timeline.

I know the port is a good thing but I still don't like the idea of it. Whatever. I AM GOING TO BE HEALTHY!!!!!

Michelle


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From: Janie
Date: 03 Feb 10 - 08:45 PM

That is all very good news indeed, Michelle.

I think you will likely find the reality of the port to be "small potatoes."


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From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 04 Feb 10 - 04:51 AM

lots of good news & advice here.

sending more hugs & good wishes

sandra


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: kendall
Date: 04 Feb 10 - 07:24 AM

You are going to be ok. Remember, "Steel is tempered by fire, and mankind by adversity." (Seneca)


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From: maeve
Date: 04 Feb 10 - 08:01 AM

Kendall threw Seneca at me too, Michelle. He is correct. We are all going to be the most tempered folks imaginable after our current challenges fade away into memory!

m


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 04 Feb 10 - 09:10 AM

Hey, where do you want your wing chair? Kids' seating or elsewhere?

Believed it or not the sound is pretty OK even back where it now sits-- that's one reason it sits there-- but wherever you want it we can set a chair by it for Bonnie (or whoever you choose). We also have a parish wheelchair. Yes I know you do not need a wheelchair!!! But it has a really comfy seat and is smaller-- a better fit for an aisle placement.

Do you know the Obourn twins (Jean Z and Joan L), who come almost every Saturday night? Their granddaughter/grandniece Heidi often comes with them-- athletic-looking blond preteen with a thick ole shock of hair and a WAY outgoing personality. One of her ministries is to sit with folks. She sat with Joanne N. while Lew was away recovering from HIS chemo... she's quite the snuggler and whisperer... BOLO for her.

I am told that some chemo's knock down the immune system more than others-- Lew had to stay away for a LONG time to be sure he didn't get any nasties (he was pretty fragile in general). Do you have an MP3 player? It's very easy now to record that service-- let me know, OK?

Are you and Pete looking into henna tattooing (temporaries) if you both go Kojak? (I bet you can henna each other.)

~Susan


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From: SINSULL
Date: 04 Feb 10 - 09:11 AM

How wonderful to hear a doctor refer to a cancer as "ho-hum". Some of it really is routine stuff.
You are going to be fine, Lily.
You must be so relieved.
I know I am.
Mary


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From: Cuilionn
Date: 04 Feb 10 - 10:42 AM

Courage and Bold Healing Blessings to you!

If you're going the smooth, shiny head route, you have lots of decorative options. Susan's already suggested henna... A woman in our church acquired a fantastic assortment of headscarves while she was (successfully) fighting breast cancer, and she wore them with such aplomb that us hair-encumbered women felt secretly jealous!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 04 Feb 10 - 01:49 PM

Love, love, love- I'm loving what all these good folks are saying, and of course, I'm still pouring love your way, as well!


I'm glad Cuilionn popped the question- I love to knit hats, so if you want one I'll send you an assortment of pattern ideas to choose from!

Allison


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From: VirginiaTam
Date: 04 Feb 10 - 01:58 PM

I AM GOING TO BE HEALTHY!!!!!

Yes indeed!!!

something to consider - turning one of the side effects of your treatment into a gift....


Locks of Love

You and your Peter might do this and every time you look at each other or in the mirror remember the gift you have given to children.


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From: katlaughing
Date: 04 Feb 10 - 03:25 PM

That's an excellent suggestion, VTam. My daughter has done that several times. It's a good feeling.

Glad to hear your news, Michelle. Congratulations for making it through all of this and for your positive attitude now.

kat


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 04 Feb 10 - 09:01 PM

Today I woke up and for the first time since early December, I felt secure, safe and happy. The bubble of fear that has been sitting inside me is gone....and I hope it's gone FOREVER. Today is also the first time since early December that I haven't cried. I am so very thankful for that!

Susan, about the chair, in front of the chapel would be great!! And depending how my chemo goes, I may have to stay away to protect myself from any infection (as you know my immune system will be low). I do have an iPod and it would be great to be able to still listen to the service.

And chemo caps? Yep...I'm going to need some!!!!

I remain overwhelmed with the kindness of all of you. <3

Much love,

Michelle


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From: maeve
Date: 04 Feb 10 - 09:04 PM

And so the strong woman rejoices!

maeve


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 04 Feb 10 - 10:27 PM

Good for you, Michelle!

Moonglow donated a big chunk of hair to Locks of Love several years ago.

Busy day, got some stuff done, but I've been very tired. I'm convinced it is allergies, a reaction to the mountain cedar (a native juniper).

One of the things I did today was get to the Half Price Books near work and I found the (now belated gifts) books I was looking for.

SRS


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From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 04 Feb 10 - 10:28 PM

Oops-- that was more productivity stuff than get well stuff. Michelle, we're looking forward to you being back on the de-clutter list so we don't do these list faux pax!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 08:13 AM

For years I've been a "hair factory"- chopped off 10 inches every other year or so (yeah, if I've got the ability, might as well!). Now, my DH LOVES it the longer it gets, so I'm on hold for now. But in another year or so, 10 inches will still leave me with long tressees, and the factory will start up again!

Michelle, PM coming. I'm finishing up a sweater for Afghans for Afghans but it'll be done in another week or so and I'll fire up the needles!


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From: Catherine Jayne
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 08:32 AM

Great news Michelle. Glad the bubble of fear is starting to lift.

Here's to full healing.

(hugs)

Khatt xxx


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 08:51 AM

Amazing how you can actually be looking forward to or at least planning for chemo. It is good to see you happy, Lily. You have earned it.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 12:47 PM

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From: LilyFestre
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 01:13 PM

:) Thanks Tam!!!

I just got off the phone with the local American Cancer Society and they are going to send me some wigs to try and to take to a Look Good Feel Better program later this month. The woman who runs it is a beautician and she will be able to trim the wig to fit my face or whatever. They are also sending me some turbans for sleeping in (as many people get cold not being used to having no hair).

I know it's stupid but this really bothers me. I KNOW it's a very VERY small price to pay in turn for wiping out any residual cancer cells. But I watched a video about the woman from Good Morning America who lost her hair during chemo for breast cancer and it just breaks my heart. I know it's superficial and my hair will grow back but it makes me so sad. :(

On that same video, they talked about women who refused chemo in order to keep their hair. I think that's ridiculous....and I will do the chemo with my chin up as best I can...but right now, I feel almost like I'm in mourning.

I wrapped up my hair last night to try and get an idea of what I will look like.

It's NOT pretty.

AT ALL.

*sigh*

I AM GOING TO BE HEALTHY....SCREW THE HAIR.

*sniff*

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 01:24 PM

I wish there were something to say to make you feel better about the hair loss. I have no experience with it.
Many years ago I had the bright idea to permanent my waist length hair. I ended up with an enormous afro. A carful of young Hispanic men pulled up next to me on the street attempting to pick me up until they saw that I was too damn old.
Next day I cut it all off - less than an inch long - and wore hats until it grew in. Most people assumed I had lost my hair to chemo but I had lost it to chemicals. LOL
The hats looked great. I can't usually wear them but hairless they looked great.
Play with turbans and scarves and baseball caps and whatever appeals. Have fun with it. It won't bring your hair back but will make the loss a little more bearable.


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From: jacqui.c
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 01:43 PM

Once you have the wig and some fetching little hats I think being hairless for a while won't be a problem.

Rather than looking at the same old hair, day after day, you will have a selection of headgear to choose from for today's 'look'.


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From: VirginiaTam
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 01:47 PM

heya babe...

I had self-induced alopecia (bald spots) in my mid 20's. So stressed I had picked up a habit of pulling out one hair at a time, twisting it around 2 fingers and cracking the twining with my thumb. It was an OCD thing. Did this for about a year.

It was pretty long at the time and so at first I could hide spots by combing over to one side and putting in side braid. This worked until I started attacking the hairline at my temples.

I got really creative about hiding the damage, using different hair styles and eye catching scrunchies, barrettes and combs. Distraction from the damage was key. I also wore hats. I had a couple of ball caps and a straw fedora. So I guess the same can be done with hair pieces.

I ended up, cutting my hair boy short when the bald places had grown back to about 2 inches. After that I kept it short for the next 10 or 12 years. Which stopped me pulling it out. Nothing to get hold of.

Would you consider cutting it very short now to help you get accustomed to having less hair? Another plus to doing this is that the less volume you have going into chemo, the less alarming seeing that fallen hair may be.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 02:00 PM

This is JUST FOR LILYFESTRE, and only because I know her fairly well IRL.

Michelle, here's a thought about a process I have used, have helped others use, and can heartily endorse.

In brief, I call it "prevenient grieving." Prevenient GRACE is a concept Hardi can fill you in on, in classical theology.

P-grieving as I have experienced it is related, and it's basically doing exactly what you are already doing, BUT with one key difference. I stumbled upon this by accident when I pre-mourned a breakup I knew was coming? (I KNEW it NEEDED to happen but I was afraid of the loneliness?) As I anticipated dumping this one guy, I just cried and cried. But when I actually got the courage to break up with him, I was able to do it "softly," really wished him the best, took responsibility for my own end of the problems, and felt FINE!

So I started using it in peer counseling, and other folks had the same experience, when I combined it with another powerful peer-counseling technique of only looking at the upside of an issue. Looking SO FAR UP that tears and laughter MUST bust out. Loud, active weeping with a big ole grin on the face. With laughter punctuating the heaviness.

And you can do this "hair-mourning" (adding prayer as Hardi suggests?) without a peer/partner!!! With your mirror! You can slick back the hair so it "disappears" and use your mirror to look at it while shouting the triumphant "triple exclamation points" that go with overcoming the cancer. "Hey, cancer, I'm throwing my HAIR at you, and it's powerful hair, so LOOK OUT, cuz yer GONE, baby, GONE GONE GONE!"

Get the idea?

By the time you lose some hair-- do this before the haircut if you can-- the sadness will be gone and the peace will remain.

THE PEACE CAN REMAIN.


Maxine (of cartoon fame) has one item I really like, too, and you can stealk it from her.

Live every day as if Satan shakes when he hears your feet hit the floor. "Oh no! She's awake!"

Well heck, "cancer" can go into any prayer that emotions "the enemy." I bet the BCP is full of them, and it's online, searchable.

===

You see, I don't think strngth equates to efforts to avoid, ignore, or deny ANY feelings that go with all this. I think you just need to put your best self in the driver's seat to meet them head-on. Instead of working hard against inner drives to make yourself feel better in short spells, you can claim peace as a permanent companion, both secularly and spiritually.

(What if cancer is just a mere tool you can use to build that very nice life you and Pete are working on?)

~Susan
cc: Hardi


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From: gnu
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 02:14 PM

Glad to hear you are in better spirits. Keep the faith.


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From: SINSULL
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 03:03 PM

Damn! Jacqui and I saw an amazing hat at a yard sale. It had dredlocks attached. I wanted to buy it. She made me put it down. "Put it DOOOOWWWNNNN, Mary" she said. And I said "But maybe someone will have chemo and need it" "Put it DOOOWWWNNNNN, Mary" she said. And I did.
Now look - it could have been your reggae night hat. Maybe next yard sale season - but hopefully you won't need it by then...


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 03:09 PM

LF, what hat sizes do you and Pete wear?

~S~


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From: Bobert
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 04:30 PM

Okay, this chapter is on it's way out...

Time to start planning the spring veggie garden!!!

B~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 04:36 PM

I bet Jacqui could figure this one out:
http://cgi.ebay.com/Black-Knit-Chemo-Cancer-Hat-Headdress_W0QQitemZ180458691195QQcmdZViewItemQQptZLH_DefaultDomain_0?hash=item2a


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From: katlaughing
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 05:03 PM

If you cut it off in stages, have some fun and dye it some colour you've always wanted to try..bright red, purple, green, you name it..even do stripes!

Some women find they actually feel free-er and more alive and that, as one website said, "I can LIVE with bald." (They were talking about how sad it is that some women don't get treatment because they don't want to lose their hair.)

Melissa Etheridge is one of them. There are some good quotes in her narrative below her picture. On the left, there are other names to click on to see them in all their "glory."

kat


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From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 06:15 PM

Michelle, I can almost sit on my hair, & had decided that if I needed chemo after my op. last year, I'd get it cut off above the usual 4 elastics so I could keep my very loooong pony tail!

Then I'd spend another 10 years growing it back.

sandra


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 09:04 PM

Folks, remember upthread (or in another of these proliferating threads), Michelle already SAID what she planned to do about haircuts. Guess what-- she'll figure it out! :~)

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Bobert
Date: 05 Feb 10 - 09:18 PM

Well, I'll just throw this into the mix...

Fortunately, our Michelle is gonna survive this but...

...when my Judy, who died in 1996 of inflamatory breast cancer had to go thru chemo she lost her hair but...

...hey, that didn't stop her.... She did one of them glamour pic sessions (sans the hair) and I swear that she never looked better... And she was one of them Chez women with long very black hair before but she looked gorgeous!!!

That's all I'm gonna say about hair, or lack there of...

B~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 06 Feb 10 - 11:15 AM

I spent an hour this morning lying awake in my bed, playing with my hair because I can. :)

My hair isn't long enough for Locks of Love so what I'm going to do is have my hair stylist put about 10-15 little pony tails in my hair and clip them at the point closest to my head. I'm going to keep the pony tails so I can feel my own hair whenever I want...it's a comfort thing for me. My stylist will shave the rest off. I'm planning on doing this after the first chemo treatment. They say it starts to come out about 2 weeks after treatment (with the 2 drug combo that I will be getting)....so....it won't be long.

******************************************************************

Pete just walked in the door with the mail. Two packages from the American Cancer Society. They sent me 3 wigs and 3 hats that are really soft and vary in thickness.

*big breath*

This is harder than I thought.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: jacqui.c
Date: 06 Feb 10 - 11:23 AM

We're with you Michelle.


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 06 Feb 10 - 11:57 AM

Michelle, it IS harder than we think, isn't it..... when our own troubles hit? But this is also the kind of time when you find out how strong you really are. I promise you-- the strength is in there. How do I know this? :~) From your stories of the women who raised you. DANG, there is some strong women there, in that lineage-- it's just your time to come into your own, in the strength department. Trust me, they put it in there! :~)

~Susan
cc: Hardi


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 06 Feb 10 - 12:19 PM

It's not that it's harder because it's *MY* problem....I think it must be hard for everyone.
I met the author of Eco-Village (written by a woman who lives at the Eco-Village in Ithaca and helped to get it started) and she talked about community and the strength of the women in particular. There was one woman who was diagnosed with cancer and she was not going to get better. She still did all the treatments necessary to prolong her life, including chemo. I don't recall if she did this before or after her treatments started, but the entire village came together while this woman sat on the ground, on a tapestry cloth, and had her head shaved with all the people surrounding her....she didn't cry but kinda of embraced it.

I don't know why I remember that (as I don't remember much else of what she said) but it has stuck with me.

And yes, I do come from a family of VERY STRONG women on both sides. They all earned their strength in their own ways, as we all do. What can I say? Because they are strong I am too? I don't know that it works that way. I'm doing my best. I don't feel strong at all. I feel clingy, scared, sometimes confident and not myself at all.

I did not try on the wigs. Opening the boxes to look at each wig felt like I was opening a coffin of a dead animal. I did try on the hats. All I can tell you is that it's NOT pretty.

SCREW THE HAIR!! I AM GOING TO BE HEALTHY! I AM GOING TO BE CANCER FREE and if I have to sob every fucking time I look at the wigs, then so be it. I AM GOING TO BE HEALTHY AND CANCER FREE!

And *THAT* is what I have to keep telling myself and keep my focus on.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 06 Feb 10 - 12:36 PM

Maybe the wigs aren't for you especially if you feel you have a dead animal on your head - sorry but that made me laugh.

I don't come from strong stock. Most of the women in my family drink themselves into an early grave when things get tough. So - as I mentioned before - I throw things to get past anger, frustration, sorrow, loss. Do whatever works for you and results in a healthy future.

Moderated sobbing is good. Don't know exactly how you can screw your hair - but whatever works, girl, go for it.

As Jacqui said, we are all here with you.
And, Bobert, everyone once in a while you bring a tear to my eye. That was beautiful.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: katlaughing
Date: 06 Feb 10 - 01:41 PM

Good for you, Michelle. I would only make one suggestion: try saying it in the present tense, i.e. "I AM healthy and cancer-free!" That way it is in the here and now which helps it to become so in your mind and body.:-)


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 06 Feb 10 - 03:36 PM

LF,

Because they are strong I am too? I don't know that it works that way. I'm doing my best. I don't feel strong at all. I feel clingy, scared, sometimes confident and not myself at all.

Yes, THAT is what I meant to convey, not that it's harder because it's you. Just that this is the stuff that lets us know how strong we need to be, and that-- itself-- is a huge motivator for reaching deeper to where the strength is already right there. I would bet that your antecednets found their strengths exactly the same way, and that by the time you came along they were living it and modeling it. Not all of our best mentors do it in words... (which becomes apparent when their young fly out of the nest, discarding whatever words did not work for them, and keeping instead the stuff that DID work).

BTW the all-caps part of your post looked exactly like that, to me. I think they did teach you well, whether it was in words-- or in just loving you exactly as you were.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 06 Feb 10 - 04:03 PM

Son went to ER this morning, might be appendicitis. Surgeon wanted to operate today, but we've seen these symptoms over the years, might be migraine, might be constipation. We'll wait 24 hours, he said a wait of a couple of days would be okay, but if he doesn't feel completely better by tomorrow, we'll take him back.

I started a different thread so those of us with passing ailments of a shorter duration can hash it out. And if Michelle wants to use that as limbo, between the big surgery and before the chemo, that would be good also. Report on the recovery as it is now.

I have a co-worker who bought a fuscia pink wig and a dayglo blue wig. Kind of the straight hair style that Ann Jillian wore. She looks cute.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 06 Feb 10 - 05:23 PM

LF, your chair and the recorded service will be all set.

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 07 Feb 10 - 10:44 AM

Thanks Susan....the chair was perfect and MUCH more comfortable...thank you!!!!

Michelle


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 07 Feb 10 - 01:31 PM

:~) It's too bad more people don't know how comfy church can be. Heck, I've been known to doze off during a service, in that chair. I recommend it! It came BTW from Louise Brown's house. There's a little game on at church about her china cat. Sssssh! So far, none of the other folks who move her to new sleeping spots know who any of the others are!

When I asked James to move it last night, it turned out that the new sexton had already moved it at Fr. Cootiesniffer's request, for you. You'll see a side table and chairside hymnals/BCPs over there soon. Karen C made the kid-print lap-robe years ago, for nursing moms who come to church, but it's also a cozy (if dirty) leg cover.

Feel free to add an afghan or anything you want in there. Don't forget to play with the toys, either! :~) The large basket in there also has great all-new activity bags-- remember that young boy you saw a few times in the summer services? That's Frank. He and his mom redid that whole basket all by themselves, when we noticed kids and kids and kids had dumped all the other contents loose in the basket and lots of pieces were missing. I told your mom the rest of that area's story.

Last night's volunteer solicitation went well-- a snowbird-newsletter-lady stepped up after the service. The other-Bonnie/wedding ring lady.) Please, don't forget you can shed any volunteer job, any time. (That's always true around the whole parish.)

Thanks also for that song request. It meant a lot to us, plus it WORKED!

~S~
(Hardi going away, he will see this later)


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 09:47 AM

My incision is almost looking human! I think that in another week or 2 it will be completely healed over on the outside. So far, I'd say 80% of it is closed....have a couple little pesky spots that are taking their own sweet time....but it's coming!!!!

I wish the surgeons would have drawn a map on the outside of my body from where things were removed because I have these little pains on my left side almost every morning. I think it might be from where the giant cyst was...and maybe the inside is still healing too. I don't know.

Other than that, I'm feeling good. Tomorrow morning I have a consultation with my new chemotherapy Dr. I'm making a list of questions to take. One that I really want to know..and maybe someone here can tell me (if you've been through chemo).....does it hurt while the infusion is going in? After you are all hooked up and just letting the meds drip in, are you in any pain?

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 10:07 AM

Lily - is it time to start a new thread dealing specifically with chemo? You will have a better chance of getting an answer to your questions.
You have come such a long way since this thread began.
Your call.
M


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 10:25 AM

If you think it's appropriate, it's fine with me! This thread has helped me a LOT....sometimes I just sit and reread it over and over. It's been a good thing and I appreciate you doing this so much.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 10:37 AM

That sounds like a great idea.

LF, Hardi does get some updates from these threads (especially when I request that he review my messaging, but also anytime at his discretion). So I will make sure he gets the link to the new thread in his email, but pls continue to assume that his more-timely awareness continues to come from your phone calls and Weds. visits. OK?

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 03:20 PM

Susan,

That's fine. I email him when I need to or go see him. I know he's a busy guy and in no way do I expect him to follow everything I write here.

I'm feeling pretty good today. I went to my appointment, took my car to get fixed, stopped to take care of a bill and dropped off some prescriptions.

Now it's time to relax. :)

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 03:30 PM

Yeh I though you knew that, but I wanted to be sure we didn't get lines tangled up. (This form of multi-level communication is a bit new for us.)

Sounds like a great day-- because each day sounds like a tad more is do-able, and that you are also being really good to yourself with resting when needed.

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: jacqui.c
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 03:50 PM

Michelle - my daughter's mother in law went through chemo - I've emailed her to see if she had a port and if she can give any info or advice.


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 03:59 PM

Thanks Jacqui!!!!!

    That's what I am most worried about now...especially because they put a catheter in a neck vein....totally creeps me out...and the fact that I have to be somewhat awake while they do the procedure (a word I am beginning to HATE)....make a pocket of skin in my chest and stick some plastic in a neck vein.....does NOT sound like fun to me.

On a completely different note, I just found out that in Williamsport, there is a wig bank with over 200 free (new) wigs for cancer patients. Mom and I will be stopping there tomorrow on our way home from the consultation with the chemo Dr.

Hm. I'm gonna have to get over the dead animal thing or tomorrow is going to be a nightmare!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 04:07 PM

There may a few laffs in the following. Or who knows, YMMV....

Sleeping animals? Just need warm skin to wake them up? (Like a kitteh purrs on the radiator?) Becuz as soon as you move they will move too, lively-looking like hair moves as we move? Portable immortal pets, snuggling? Choose one by feel instead of by look? Put it on with eyes closed till it's on?

There are a zillion potential different ways to look at them..... (Pick one for Pete and try it on to be sure it will fit him?)

I know you will find a way to make this fun..... I promise not to bug you about the annual March ladies' guild event..... (I KNOW you will look MUCH BETTER than Fr. C-S looked that day?)

~S~


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From: SINSULL
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 04:18 PM

Be realistic, Lily. Donald Trump looks like something fell out of the sky and landed on his head. Not a good look.

Was that helpful?

Should I head to the CELLAR!?


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 05:17 PM

LOL. You guys crack me up, THANK YOU!

Donald Trump....yeah...it DOES look like something fell out of the sky and landed on his head!!!

And for Father CootieSniffer, he looked like he was having FUN in his wig.

I've been thinking about the wigs....maybe I will go without one....maybe I'll find a new color I've never tried....maybe I'll go for something like what I have now....I'm liking the caps...they look warm and soft.

Speaking of chemo caps, when the box of stuff came the other day and I opened it and burst into tears, Pete was home. He almost immediately put on one of the caps...a white one with black polka dots and a giant sunflower....I couldn't help but laugh. Maybe I'll try some of the wigs on (that we already have here) tonight.....if he will too.

Still..I kinda have this aversion to touching them.

Freaks me out. Kinda like having to touch a worm or something.

Anyway, I'm sure Mom and I will make the best of it and try to find some laughter in the wigs.

Also? I talked with someone who has been through chemo and she said the actual drip time is pain free. That is good news!   YAY!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 05:32 PM

Oh I get it-- you wanna wear HIS wig-- Fr C-S's. We can do that! (I have no idea where it is, don't worry.)

Practice skull-art with hubby, with clown paint? But then ya gotta have those big floppy clown ruffs to go with..... :~)

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: katlaughing
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 06:08 PM

Maybe it would help to know many wigs for cancer patients are made of real hair donated by folks who really care? Then it can be stroking someone else's hair, braiding it for them, pinning it up, etc.?

Bald can be beautiful: Click.

Also, I have been reading blogs and such about baldness in women. Several of them recommend using some makeup to accentuate your facial features. It draws the eye to your face. And, also wear earrings, dangly ones. One person found chemo caps to which they glued bangs (fringe in the UK) so it looks as though you have your hair tucked up.

The main thing the baldness says is you have chosen to FIGHT and DESTROY the cancer cells...your bald head is a symbol of you choosing LIFE. And, that's a GOOd thing!:-)


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: jacqui.c
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 07:13 PM

When SINSULL and I get together and go shopping it can be a riot. We've nearly been thrown out of a number of shops because we have far too much fun trying on hats.

I hope that when you and your Mom get to see the wigs you can maybe have a bit of fun with them. Pictures would be good!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Bobert
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 07:19 PM

No wigs!!!

Bald women are hot!!!

B~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 07:45 PM

If I am going to be bald, I want to look like Melissa Etheridge when she played at the Grammy's with Joss Stone.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R_j3TDhc8vY


She comes in half way through...well worth watching...and Bobert...she is bald and HOT! Agreed!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: katlaughing
Date: 08 Feb 10 - 11:28 PM

Ah, I love Melissa!! That was an awesome performance and she looks beautiful. Good role model for what you are going through! Thanks for the link.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 09 Feb 10 - 08:01 AM

Michelle-me-love, laugh if you can but DON'T feel you have to wear the wigs if it keeps (forgive me) wiggin' you out. You don't have to wear anything you don't want to (except the port- which you are bravely choosing to wear, and lady, you are gonna be stylin' in that!).

Scarfs, caps, or nothing at all - you are a beautiful woman and nothing can change that!

But yes, laugh as much as you can!



(as I've been typing, Joss and Melissa have been serenading me from your link- keep that kind of energy flowing, dear!)


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 09 Feb 10 - 08:10 AM

I moved on to Joplin herself. Wasn't she a wonder?
Sorry for the thread drift but it's been years since I listened to Take Another Little Piece Of My Heart.

Just a thought: my neighbor in NYC had Hodgkins Disease and was treated with chemo. She had wigs and hats at the ready but never lost her hair. Maybe...

Then again, every hair represents a cancer cell on its way to perdition. So fall away.


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From: Rowan
Date: 09 Feb 10 - 04:49 PM

I've sent you a PM on PortaCath-delivered chemo, Michelle.

All the best!

Cheers, Rowan


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 09 Feb 10 - 07:14 PM

My consultation went fine. My chemo Dr. informs me that I have Stage 2A ovarian cancer. My surgeon says Stage 1. Either way, my prognosis is GOOD. I asked a million questions, got to feel how a port will feel (and look) by a model and then what the port actually looks like before they put it in. I had a tour of the treatment rooms and some blood work.

I was in tears in the waiting room, just not wanting to be there, having a hard time believing that I NEED to be there....and this woman who was sitting not too far away asked me if it was my first time there. I said it was. She said she was there for her second treatment. She asked me what stage I was and I told her....she told me she is stage 4.....spread all over her body....she has 6 children. Her husband was with her and she was so calm...almost like she was talking about the weather. I asked her if she had a port and she came over and showed it to me. We started to talk and she was called in for her treatment. Her husband lingered and told me she'd have to do these treatments for the rest of her life. I can't begin to tell you the heartbreak I felt for this family. I don't know her, never saw her before today....but well...I don't know the words to convey the sadness. When I went on my tour of the treatment rooms, she was sitting in a recliner, typing away on her laptop (they have wireless), she smiled and waved to me. I wanted to hug her. Her name is Kristi and I will be looking for her when I go for my first treatment next Tuesday.

My first treatment will be sans the port. That gets put in about 9 days after the treatment...it goes according to when the white blood cell count falls and then starts to increase...they'll put the port in when my numbers are higher.

I am happy to report that I can take one person (at a time) into the treatment room with me. We can play cards, talk, watch tv, eat, whatever...but I do NOT have to be alone. I am blessed to have family to go but also friends who have volunteered to drive me (it's a 3 hour round trip), and to sit with me during my 5 hour infusion.

My mom went with me today and we stopped at the American Cancer Society on the way home to see about a wig. Not only did they give me a wig free of charge but also 2 overstuffed bags of hats/caps/scarves and sleeping caps. I did try on wigs today....cried and laughed too. It got easier after the first few. I think I'm going to be a cap person. I don't like the wig. And like Jacqui pointed out, I don't have to wear a wig!!

Now that I know the chemo start date, I am waiting on my hair dresser....hoping she can get me in the day after my first treatment. This disease has given me so few choices...but *I* will say when my hair comes out....NOT cancer or the chemo.

It's cold and snowing here so I'm making comfort food for dinner.....waffles and sausage.

I'm sleepy and love you all.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 09 Feb 10 - 07:19 PM

You are so incredibly strong, Michelle. Thank you for posting about your first visit.
Mary


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 10 Feb 10 - 07:55 AM

I'm with Mary. Love flowing you-wards!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: jacqui.c
Date: 10 Feb 10 - 08:18 AM

One step closer to a full recovery. GOOD!!!!


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 10 Feb 10 - 08:20 AM

Michelle, you do not surprise me, but you impress me, so much.

I'm glad you met Kristi.

I have a video item saved on my DVR-- I had planned to copy it to VHS but ydy the ()*(&* VCR ate a tape of Ed's so now....

If I cannot copy the item (I think you will want to see it), or find an online view-whole-episode link, I'll shoot clips on my camera, and put them on a flash key for you. So watch your snail-mail next week-- not good items to leave sitting cold, by the road.

Hardi will want to hear all about this, and not filtered by me or by cc. As you know he's had some conference time, away, this week. Saturday after-service would be fine, if you don't make any other plan with him. I believe he may be in the office tomorrow, if I do not manage to kidnap him while he sleeps. Those Cootiesniffers can get so worn out! Especially "sweet" ones.

~Susan


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From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 10 Feb 10 - 08:41 AM

an amazing post about an amazing day

sandra


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 10 Feb 10 - 04:49 PM

GOOD NEWS!!!

My chemo Dr. called this afternoon to let me know the results of yesterday's bloodwork!

Prior to my surgery, my cancer antigen test (aka CA-125) result was over 500. Normal CA-125 is 35. As you can see, mine was ridiculously high. This is NOT used as a diagnostic tool, although sometimes it is an indicator of a malignancy...but more often it is used as a prognostic tool.

Anyway, today the Chemo Dr. called to tell me that my CA-125 is 34!!!!!! That is an amazing and dramatic change that indicates no cancer issues!!!!!!

Also, I've been quite anemic...number required for this test for surgery is 10. My last blood test before I left the hospital showed a result of 7.5. Since that time I've been taking some hefty amounts of prescribed iron pills. As of yesterday's test, my result is 12.5!!!!

All other bloodwork tests came back normal. This means I'm going into the chemo on Tuesday AS STRONG AS POSSIBLE!!!!!!

I told the Dr. that when I got off the phone I was going to do a happy dance and that I loved him!!! He giggled!!!! :)

THIS IS FANTASTIC NEWS!!!! YAHOO!!!!!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 10 Feb 10 - 04:52 PM

Dance away!

And keep your fiber intake up - iron supplements can be brutal.

All good news. Congratulations!
SINS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 10 Feb 10 - 05:31 PM

WAHOO! Dancing with you!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: katlaughing
Date: 10 Feb 10 - 05:42 PM

That's wonderful, Michelle!! WOW!

Sins is right about the iron tabs and fiber. I was taking them but it was taking forever for them to take effect. My girlfriend told me to get some folic acid tabs and they would help immediately. I did and they did. I quit the iron tabs with the doc's permission. You might not want to do it right now, but keep it in mind. We all have/need folic acid as it is required for production of red blood cells.


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 10 Feb 10 - 07:19 PM

But of course you are as strong as you could be!

Rejoice, dance, and LEAN ON THAT.

~S~


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From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 11 Feb 10 - 12:56 AM

joining the dancers!

sandra


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 11 Feb 10 - 02:01 AM

Congratulations, Michelle! Glad to hear the levels are where they need to be! And I concur about the iron--it can bind you up tight. Keep the roughage going through. I staggered the days I took it, figuring taking it every day meant I wasn't using that much anyway (extra goes through). And folic acid also is a big yes. It's a B vitamin, if you can't use all of it, it passes through (though without the constipation iron causes). Folic acid is inexpensive also.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 11 Feb 10 - 02:49 AM

What a wonderful way for me to face work today. With tears of joy and relief.

Holding you tight in my thoughts, Petal.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: jacqui.c
Date: 11 Feb 10 - 07:51 AM

What good news! That was a great way to start my day - I'm sitting here with the biggest grin on my face!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 11 Feb 10 - 08:24 AM

I just have to say that that phone call makes me see the world in a whole other way this morning!!!!!   WOO HOOOOO!!!!   I'm thinking of an adventure....ok..an easy on the body adventure....we'll see!!!!   YAY!!!!


GOOD MORNING WORLD!!!!!!!

XOXOXOXOOXOX

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 11 Feb 10 - 08:39 AM

Here's to LIFE!

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: SINSULL
Date: 11 Feb 10 - 08:43 AM

Take it easy Lily. You'll pop a stitch. LOL So happy for you.
Mary


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: maeve
Date: 11 Feb 10 - 08:46 AM

Wonderful news, Michelle. I believe you have many more triumphs ahead.

maeve


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 11 Feb 10 - 10:09 PM

I decided to spend the day in Ithaca. I spent 2 hours poking around Kohl's. I was in search of an open neck shirt for easy access to the port for my treatments. I ended up with a scoop neck green shirt with 3/4 sleeves and several new plain, short sleeved shirts for later this spring...the price was right and so were the colors!!! I poked around the home goods section too and picked out some new place mats for springtime.

After the 2 hours, I had had plenty. I met Pete for lunch and spent the rest of the day at Barnes and Noble. I found 3 books with a positive spin on how to take care of yourself with the C diagnosis. Not overly medical in nature but rather how to tend to yourself from diagnosis to end of treatment.....all pointed in the direction of getting through. One of the books is called, There's No Place Like Hope. It's full of quotes and short paragraphs about dealing with this stuff from beginning to end of treatment...very upbeat and positive.

I also spent a decent amount of time in the music section listening to a wide range of CDs. :)

One of the books I read through but did not purchase, had a section on nutrition....which is of huge interest to me. I learned that sugar or any refined flour product not only increases my blood glucose levels (which I know) but that that kind of food increases cell production, including cancer cells. YIKES. I try to limit that kind of stuff anyway but that gives me the incentive to cut it out even more. I am NOT going to feed those cells if I can help it.

The phrase, DIE MOTHER F#@K^R DIE comes to mind. Not nice, but TRUE.

I had coffee today for the first time in over 2 months and I'm a little wound. I found out that coffee without sugar isn't half bad!!! (No time like the present to cut out all the sugar I can!)

Anyway, it was GORGEOUS outside today...bright blue skies, sunny and oh yeah, I had breakfast by Buttermilk Falls...completely frozen over except for one small opening where water was rushing underneath the ice.

It was good to be out!!!!!!!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 12 Feb 10 - 01:24 AM

Sounds like a busy and full day, Michelle. And getting off of the sugar would be good for all of us!

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 12 Feb 10 - 09:17 AM

Yeah, I've been hearing about the sugar/cancer connection. Sucks, doesn't it?

Michelle, you are sounding happy and well and ALIVE- keep it up, honey!

(oops- no honey, either? I suppose in moderation...)


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 12 Feb 10 - 11:24 AM

LF, re: Ithaca, sugar, and The phrase, DIE MOTHER F#@K^R DIE comes to mind. Not nice, but TRUE.

===

Ithaca:

1. Guitar Works still there? Isn't there a Moosewood Cafe in that building? If so I recall that it had good, healthy eats, not to mention Guitar Works as CD-heaven and they did a GREAT repair or two for us there (non-guitar) as well. Also good amps, priced fairly. (Maybe you already know all this.)

2. Anytime you want something from this place (tho I know Pete works nearby), just let us know to put it on our list: Oriental market with GREAT stuff, on the road into town, near the Tractor Supply, same side of road, across from Sallie's-- maybe you already know this-- much of their staff is bilingual.... store name coming to me.... Winli. Hard to spot it on the way in, easier to see it on the way out. The Red Cargo rice is superb and lo-glyc, as is the brown jasmine rice. Cheeeeep. A great jarred curry powder is there. All the ingred for making Miso Soup, incl a tofu that does not require refridg. till opened. (!!!)

===

Re: Saying "mean" things to cancer. Short version: There are so many ways in which that battle is just like spiritual warfare; any GOOD reference on spir. warfare (SF) will also work on cancer. One of the most powerful tools in SF is to proclaim the positive rather than engaging the negative AT ALL. This can be done in a number of ways (and is one way I pray for you). Hardi or I have good SF texts. His are Angl. classics, mine are ecumenical. I even know where MINE are. :~)

===

Hardi is minimally briefed to make time to hear your great news and will be back at office-sched-mode tomorrow.

===

As you know, Hardi has this thread's URL to check in at his discretion, but does not read my PMs, so thanks for keeping most of our "chats" in here these days. If a new "Chemo" thread starts, you might want to give him that URL.

~Susan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 12 Feb 10 - 08:42 PM

Well, like I said, it's not nice but it IS true. I am NOT going to feed the cancer cells if I can help it and I DO hope they all starve to death.

Today had been a roller coaster for me and I guess that is to be expected.

I had to stop a med that I was taking at night to help me relax so I could sleep (side effect of this med is that it possibly lower white blood cell count...can't have that going into chemo). I haven't slept more than 6 hours in the last 72 hours.
I am TIRED.

Maybe tonight I will be able to sleep.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 12 Feb 10 - 08:55 PM

wishing you a peaceful rest

sandra


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 12 Feb 10 - 09:14 PM

LF,

I can promise you that anxiety and sleeplessness will run their course, and your body's rhythms will re-assert themselves. (Details tomorrow if wanted). Ride out the short sleep as best you can-- I promise, it gets better.

At Wegman's in COrning I saw a book on anti-cancer nutruition, "One Boite at a Time," intended for cancer pts and their friends. Did not have time to look inside it-- we were ona major low-su=gar recon mission.

~S~


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 12 Feb 10 - 09:28 PM

One BITE at a time, described at Amazon:

http://www.amazon.com/One-Bite-Time-Nourishing-Survivors/dp/1587612194

Descr. from earlier edition (it's also been revised):

Reviews
" Rebecca creates with the intention of nourishing people with cancer, survivors and their caregivers." -- Healing Lifestyles & Spa Magazine

"...Tantalizing recipes that should appeal to just about anybody with taste buds...plenty of useful information and interesting anecdotes." -- House Beautiful: Kitchen And Bath Magazine March,2005.

"A cookbook... with a difference. It educates the reader on how to cook in a healthful manner without sacrificing flavor." -- Knight Ridder/Tribune Book Review, March 07, 2005.

"A gem, especially if you in the diffcult position of caring for a relative or friend who is ill." -- The Baltimore Sun January 14, 2005.


Product Description
Through The Inner Cook, her San Francisco Bay Area practice, chef Rebecca Katz teaches creative culinary solutions to peple navigating the aftereffects of cancer treatments. For those whose appetites have been turned off by illness, Rebecca's ONE BITE AT A TIME is an instant turn-on to good, nourishing food. In this comprehensive cookbook, Rebecca shares delicious, immune-boosting recipes for people living with cancer, their caregivers, and the ever-growing number of cancer survivors.

ONE BITE AT A TIME features more than 85 simple-to-prepare, sumptuous recipes. From little nibbles to satisfying entrees Rebecca's flexible approach is designed for both the individual and the entire family to enjoy. Dishes such as Poached Coconut-Ginger Salmon, Spinach Orzo with Pine Nuts and Feta, Taxicab Yellow Tomato soup and Magic Mineral Broth reinvigorate the appetite with ingredients that help bolster the body's immune system.

To accompany the recipes, Rebecca offers down-to-earth information and helpful advice for those dealing with the culinary ups and downs often experienced during treatment. Learn what friends and family can do to best pitch in; discover easy substitutes for "forbidden" foods; look up "nutrition-at-a-glance" information for each recipe; and see how to wake up taste buds in any dish by using just a few basic staples from the pantry.

Rebecca's caring, humor-filled recipe notes will warm your heart and remind you that, along with a good meal, laughter can truly be the best medicine. Throughout the book's pages, Rebecca's clients attest to this fact, as they share anecdotes of the joyous impact these recipes have had on their lives.

At a time when you may feel that nothing is under your control, something as simple as creating a nutritious, healing dish for yourself or a loved one can be a reaffimation of your humanity and a tangible way to nurture someone you care about.

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-
From: Rowan
Date: 12 Feb 10 - 10:03 PM

Good news, Michelle!

All the best, Rowan


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 07:18 AM

...singing a Lily lullabye...


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 07:26 AM

Allison,

   That did the trick!!! I slept last night for almost 9 hours!!!! YAY!!!!!!!

I feel SO much better this morning!

*******************GROSS ALERT***************

My incision is healed in most places. I still have two small spots just inside the rim of my navel that are healing very slowly....I had antibiotics for them but they are still green....much smaller, but green. The surgeon says they are topical infections and not to worry. And then almost at the top of my incision, there is a spot that did not close and had developed a large, thick black scab. It's been itchy and last night it came off. It's healed underneath, almost 100%! YAY!

*****************************************************

Later Gators!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 07:46 AM

Oh...and more news. My insurance company will only pay 80% of the chemo treatments. ARG. Oh well. I'll be paying for this until I die. No way around it though so I can't worry about it. Better news....they will pay 100% of a "Hair prosthesis" up to $1500.00! That means I'll be able to get myself a nice wig, one fitted for ME, if I want. There's a wig shop near the hospital that I'm going to have to check out. Currently I have 4 wigs, only 1 of which I have tried on (the others were sent to me) and I don't think I'm going to be a wig girl....I'm pretty sure I'm going to be a cap girl!!! They are so much softer and cooler (or warmer depending on the cap) and they don't look like dead animals! YAY!

I also talked to my surgeon's head nurse who really doesn't do any nursing but rather fields questions and soothes nerves. We talked for 20 minutes yesterday. She thinks I 'm a hoot! I told her I found some henna tattoos for bald heads and I might just go ahead and do one...found one of leaves and flowers that I really like!!! Pete said he'd give me $20.00 if I'd do a henna tattoo on my head that says, "This end up!" LOL. It might just be worth it!

Love to all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Bobert
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 08:27 AM

Michelle,

If you talk with the "finance department" at the hospital they can sometimes ***make deals***... Most hospitals have a certain percentage of cost that they finance person is allowed to write off... Of course, the formula is based on income and expenses so if ya'll are million-gazillionaires they probably won't do anythin for you but if yer laike alot of folks with mortgages, bills, etc, they just might help ya'll...

Doesn't hurt to ask...

Heck, I had a colonoscopy and just went in and asked if I could make payment on it and next think ya' know they knocked 25% of the charges off...

Glad yer feelin' better... But 2 hours in a department store worries me... It's a guy thing...*grin*...

B~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 09:03 AM

One more thing....I've taken to asking bald men how to care for my scalp. Last night the local judge was at yoga and well, he hasn't got any hair...so I asked him what he did to take care of his scalp....shampoo? conditioner? He said he just uses soap, water and some moisturizer. And then he went on to tell me that his wife has had breast cancer twice and also lost her hair and I should call her. He gave me their home number and also told me she would be helping to run the next Look Good Feel Better Program and I should sign up. I'm already signed up...it's next week. Cool beans. It amazes me how many people have had cancer....why is it something that is hush hush? I don't know about you but talking with other people helps calm me down and feel better about the process. You can bet that I will talk with anyone, anywhere about my path when I am through this.

Michelle

PS. Anyone here take care of a bald head differently?


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 09:21 AM

Susan,

   Thanks for the information about the book. It so happens I have an article sitting on my table about cancer-fighting superfoods written by Rebecca Katz. Lots of good information there and I'll look for her cookbook the next time we are at Wegmans which may be later today or tomorrow.
   One of the things she said is that people who are going through chemo recover faster and have more energy when they increase their protein to 80 grams daily. She recommends using whey power (which is easily absorbed and won't add upset to the treatment) in smoothies made with frozen fruit and plain yogurt. I'm going to be adding that to my diet as soon as we get to the store.

   I've been to Guitar Works several times with Pete and the Moosewood is a great place to go...I LOVE the juice bar....best grapefruit juice EVER!!! And I do know about the Oriental market you are talking about....never stopped in but next time I'm in Ithaca I will. I appreciate the information.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: maeve
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 09:26 AM

Michelle- My husband's scalp was scorched in the fire. It's been wicked itchy; so he just shaved his head. He is using Bert's Bees Thoroughly Therapeutic Honey & Shea Butter Body Butter. Ingredients include honey, shea butter, mango butter, aloe, and Vitamin E.

I use it for dry skin, too. It's pricey for us, but was the first thing we bought for our comfort the week after the fire. We both like its effect on dry, irritated skin, and it smells pleasantly of honey.

Remember to use a good sunscreen and hat.

maeve


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: LilyFestre
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 09:59 AM

Maeve,

    OUCH. Can you ask him if he uses shampoo or conditioner in the shower? I like Burt's Bees stuff too...so I'll have to find some of that...I like that it's all natural and those products DO smell good!! Great idea! Thank you!

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: maeve
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 10:39 AM

No, Michelle; he only uses very mild soap and avoids overly hot water.

http://www.burtsbees.com/
There is also a store locator link on the site.

maeve


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 10:42 AM

LF,

BaldING folks have tips too-- they usually go first for warmth because you will not believe how much heat loss your scalp can generate.

The good news-- you will be burning a boatload of calories due to that. Yep, a weight-loss furnace.

The bad news-- in warmer weather the sensation is kinda neat but in cold weather it's painful-- so you may go hats now, scarves for spring, henna or other art for summer (if chemo goes that long or for the use of others who may read this).

The other bad news-- sugar/insulin adj.

SLEEPING in hats-- oh yes, bedtime can be cooooollllld. Ya wanna loose hat that pulls way down, seams in the right places for your sleeping position; ya want a variety of weights and textures. "Sallies" is our "pilot" source to see what we are going to like enough to pay for retail versions.

===

The book-- I only saw one copy there.

===

In your travels if you see a yellow store bag like the boxy, reusable bags all the stores have-- later tonight you'll see why we've been looking for one or two. Color-coded songbook totes.

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 10:52 AM

I agree with Bobert--talk to the hospital and see what kind of deal you can cut. The trouble with all of this insurance/no insurance health care is that no one really knows how much anything costs. The hospital gouges the insurance companies hoping to cover the uninsured they have on their books, and your 20% is of a gouged price, or that's my guess. The amount the insurance company actually pays the hospital is much lower than the hospital asked for, so you need to figure out what numbers are really in play and go from there.

Good luck. Getting well in this day and age means not only surviving the medical treatment but also walking the minefield of hospital billing departments. And bills seem to trickle in from all sorts of directions.

SRS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's home, resting:-)
From: katlaughing
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 12:58 PM

We applied to both hospitals here with what is considered a fairly decent income and we get a 35% discount. Well worth talking to the financial dept.

Good to hear you are doing so well!


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 04:19 PM

I like the new thread title. Already Traced so easy to Find.

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: TheSilentOne
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 05:12 PM

just loving the constantly morphing title of this thread...

very good, very positive.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 13 Feb 10 - 08:12 PM

Lily, you sound positively euphoric! What a welcome sound! Keep it up, sweetie!

(my beloved baldy swears by conditioner...)


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From: VirginiaTam
Date: 14 Feb 10 - 06:55 AM

oops! TheSilentOne post was from me... I was on desktop pc and Mudcat was his log in..

Doh!


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 14 Feb 10 - 08:38 AM

VT, I WAS wondering how he could be TSO if he warn't being S.

:~)

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 14 Feb 10 - 08:56 AM

Having myself a mango smoothie for breakfast with the whey powder. It's not bad, not bad at all. :) Next time though, I need more mango!

As it turns out, we are supposed to get quite a bit of snow on Monday night. My first chemo appointment is early on Tuesday morning and the place is about 2 hours away. So...they have this place near the treatment center called The Care House. It's like the Ronald McDonald House but for adults who are undergoing cancer treatment. I called this morning to make reservations for Monday and Tuesday (as I'd like to be nearby for the first treatment in case I have any adverse reactions). First the hospital has to call The Care House to confirm that I am a patient. So now, I'm just waiting to hear if they have room. Bonus? It's only $15.00 a night. We have to make our own beds and change the linens when we leave. Big deal. There are no TVs in the rooms but there is a community room with a television if we want to watch tv. If not, we can read, or cook in the community kitchen. Anyway, I'm hoping it goes through so we don't have to drive these mountains in a snow storm.

Michelle


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 14 Feb 10 - 09:14 AM

LF,

When the CS and I plan these longer trips, we find Weather Underground (wunderground) invaluable. It has settings on the page where you can save your fav. cities to quickly see what weather they are having.

Thanks for showing me Jacqui's knitted caps last night. For a long time our dear Maeve was my best "window in" on the Mainers; the color variety/color/care taken/textures of the caps-- and especially the hatbox Jacqui had sent them all in-- was just as powerful. I knew that lady was special, of course-- but the abstract idea is seldom as powerful as the show and tell. So I thank you for sharing not only the gift from YOUR view, but for enlarging mine in a way that may benefit others as well (tho I am sure you didn't know that).

About the distances hereabouts, and the conversation last night about hats and books that "call" to me sometimes-- We sometimes pick up faraway items for others, and how we reduce the "clutter" about that is to call folks up while looking at items, to see if they are wanted. Is that something that would work for you? I think Hardi has your cell (maybe under Bonnie's name, LOL) on HIS cell and he usually carries it even on his day off (and I sometimes use it to field church stuff ON his day off sometimes so he GETS a real day off.)

About the word picture-- the photog. I'm looking fwd to you modeling your new look. ROLE modeling is what I was trying to suggest, because I think you will be equally gorgeous and graceful. People will see you and think, "Oh, that looks like a yoga person." (I know I will.)

Re: svc recordings. I found a spare cord finally, and that means I can slice up one we have that doesn't poke deep enough into the slot. If we can modify it-- and BTW I have a drawerful that need the mod-- I'll have a cord for you. In the meantime pls do not waste your $$ on one, because chances are it will not fit.

Go get 'em girl. And..... ya might wanna BOLO for the people that will be looking to you as their leader/mentor/comforter/ROLE MODEL..... :~) That teaching cert may kick in at any moment. :~)

~Susan


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 14 Feb 10 - 09:47 AM

Ok. I HAVE to ask. What is BOLO? Buy one lend one? LOL My grocery list often reads, BIG1F (buy 1 Get 1 Free).

Anyway, I can't make sense of it, help please!!!!

Michelle


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 14 Feb 10 - 11:51 AM

Cop talk-- they issue BOLO's.

Be
On the
Look
Out

BOLO

OTOH a "bolo" is a South American throwing thing to catch cattle.

~S~


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From: Rowan
Date: 14 Feb 10 - 03:31 PM

OTOH a "bolo" is a South American throwing thing to catch cattle.
with strings attached.

Cheers, Rowan


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 14 Feb 10 - 07:31 PM

Rowan, isn't the bolo the whole shebang, strings and balls and all?

(yikes, imagery)

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 14 Feb 10 - 08:19 PM

It's also a kind of neckwear...


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Feb 10 - 06:45 AM

I'm up early this morning, packing for a 2 night stay at the House of Care. Tomorrow morning I will have my first chemo treatment via IV.

I'm nervous about it. Scared really.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: jacqui.c
Date: 15 Feb 10 - 07:39 AM

I will be here and thinking of you tomorrow Michelle.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 15 Feb 10 - 07:44 AM

Holding your hand and breathing with you, my dear....


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 15 Feb 10 - 08:29 AM

sending more love & good wishes

sandra


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 15 Feb 10 - 10:08 AM

If you can narrow the fear into a more specific thing, it's easier to know how to meet it.

One way is to name it and then laugh scornfully at the fear.

"I'm scared that xxxxxx. Ha Hah! HAH!, fear, I'm bigger'n you!"

Maxine: Wake every morning as if Satan says, when he hears your feet hit the floor, "Oh NO! She's AWAKE!"

I'll try to remember to print the cartoon where she sez that, for ya.

~Susan


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From: SINSULL
Date: 15 Feb 10 - 10:16 AM

Tuesday will be a busy day in Mudcatville with Kendall in Boston and Lily at chemo.   I believe I will take a nun or two to work to keep me focussed on what's important.
Good luck to both of you.
Much love,
Mary


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Feb 10 - 10:44 AM

More directly, I am afraid that they will have trouble getting the IV in. I am afraid it will burn. I am afraid that I will be sick to my stomach for the next 6 months. I am afraid that it won't work. I'm afraid I'll cry and never stop just looking around the treatment room.

And that's just for this trip. Forget about the port procedure coming up soon.

Leaving soon.

Thank you and much love to all,

Michelle


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From: wysiwyg
Date: 15 Feb 10 - 12:08 PM

Michelle,

Thank you for:

More directly, I am afraid that they will have trouble getting the IV in. I am afraid it will burn. I am afraid that I will be sick to my stomach for the next 6 months. I am afraid that it won't work. I'm afraid I'll cry and never stop just looking around the treatment room.

This is a good spot to share, now, with Hardi as well.

In the vein of my earlier post, I would say this: by the time you read this you will probably have experienced many of the following:

"I was afraid that they would have trouble getting the IV in, and the did, but I handled that well. I was afraid it would burn. It did but discovered that I could handle that quite well. I was afraid that I would be sick to my stomach for the next 6 months, but I realized that all I have to deal with is Today, and today I felt great and [insert the day's blessings]. I was afraid that it wouldn't work but then I realized how blessed I am and how much worse other folks have it. I'm was afraid I'd cry and never stop just looking around the treatment room, and then I remembered all the times Susan and other people have affirmed and welcomed my healing tears, which God sends me when I really need them, though the Holy Spirit which is also called the Comforter."

This is how I pray for you. I'm quite confident that any piece of it that is what you need to hear next, you will hear, and that you will shrug off the rest for a time it may or may not come back to you.

====

What does "lilyfestre" mean, BTW, and what does "Petal" mean?

~Susan


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From: VirginiaTam
Date: 15 Feb 10 - 12:23 PM

Oh no.. I am late in posting.

Well here waiting for your return and hoping all goes easy peasy for you.

Susan - Petal = part of a flower = different kind of term of endearment, like honey, baby, sweetie, sugah, angel.

Yes I wondered about Lilyfestre too


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 15 Feb 10 - 09:34 PM

Tonight I am at the House of Care which is mostly for cancer patients. There are no tv's in the rooms to encourage people to get OUT of their rooms and hang out in community areas like the kitchen, living room/library or one of the tv rooms.

There are some people here who have lost their hair and it bothers me to see them because I know that very soon, I am going to be one of them.

Lots of different people with various diagnosis and stories. Mom and I hung out in the kitchen area where there are several cafe style tables. We played some games, I learned a new one with Dominoes called Turkey Toes....fun! I also read in the living room for a bit and have now retired to our room.

By this time tomorrow, I will either be home or if it is still snowing, I'll be here....first treatment over with.

I am not looking forward to it.

In order to help assist with the IV issues, I've been drinking water like crazy....being dehydrated makes it all the harder to get an IV in.

And btw, I like Petal!!!!   :) Made me smile!

I'll explain LilyFestre another time. For now, I'm tucking into bed and going to try and focus enough to read.

I'm keeping a few things my priest told me in mind.....in particular, "Damn it, I WILL get through this!"

Love and hugs.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 12:27 AM

Susan & Tam - my sister (2 years younger) sometimes calls me Petal & I'd always assumed it was related to Pet - term used by older person to youngster! Our Nan used to call us Pet at times.

sandra


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 08:24 AM

I'm off to my first chemo appointment...slept maybe 2 hours last night. ARG.

It's going to be ok.
It's going to be ok.
It's going to be ok.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: Revelations
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 08:30 AM

Between you and Kendall I slept about wo hours last night too. Mardi Gras, Lily. Fat Tuesday. Celebrate the first step towards total good health and a life.


Yeah - it sucks but that is the best I could come up with.
Love,
SINS


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: SINSULL
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 09:22 AM

No I didn't change my name. Someone has been playing on my computer at work. I am back to SINS.


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From: LilyFestre
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 10:38 AM

It's Mardi Gras and I'm celebrating with a giant ass cocktail of taxol and carboplatin.....too bad it won't have the same effect as a Tom Collins!!!

   I'm in the chemo chair at the moment, lots of anti-nausea pills and steroids have been given. IV in at the first try and right now it's just running saline, taxol to begin in about 15 minutes or so. My nurse is really nice and has answered my bazillion questions.


More later.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: maeve
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 10:50 AM

Thanks for checking in, Michelle. You are doing well!

maeve


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 11:58 AM

Alert: Heart-thawing song link inserted into the following informational post.

~S~

===


New Randy Owen single to benefit St. Jude

"Braid My Hair," the new country single from Randy Owen, will not only serve to launch the country music legend's solo career, but will help children in the fight against childhood cancer.

That's because 100 percent of the song's publishing royalties are being donated to St. Jude Children's Research Hospital by Owen and songwriters Chris Gray and Brent Wilson. The single will hit radio stations in late January.

VIDEO SONG - BRAID MY HAIR

In addition, you can support St. Jude by purchasing a digital download of Owen's new single. Using the media player below, you can hear the single (http://www.weblastonline.com/store/product_info.php?cPath=2&products_id=42&ref=15) and then purchase a copy for $1.99. Fifty-cents of the purchase price will go to St. Jude. In addition, you will receive a free "Braid My Hair" ringtone and $1.00 off of the purchase of Randy's upcoming album release "One On One."

The song is the first single for Gray and Wilson and reflects Gray's experience as a teacher in a children's hospital, helping kids keep up with schoolwork while they underwent treatment for cancer and other conditions. Gray often witnessed the side effects of chemotherapy and knew kids – especially girls – wanted to be able to braid their hair again.

"The song is so real," Owen said, "and I've seen this lived out time and time again with the kids at St. Jude. It's an incredible story done in song."

The song will be featured on Owen's debut solo album, titled One on One, and will hit stores this spring on the newly-formed DMP Records. Owen and his 10-piece band will hit the road later this month for a tour that will extend into the fall.

Owen has long been a supporter of St. Jude, helping to found the Country Cares for St. Jude Kids radiothon program which to date has raised more than $315 million for St. Jude. In 2007, the Thomas family honored Owen with its prestigious Founder's Award.

January 2008
http://www.countrycares.org/content/latest_stories.cfm?content_id=195

===

Saw and recorded the song on CMT Studio 330 Sessions
(Looking for lyrics but so far no luck)

SH


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Subject: Lyr Add: BRAID MY HAIR (Gray/Wilson)
From: wysiwyg
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 12:12 PM

Song linked in post just prev (includes background info) references Locks of Love.

Found the lyric.

~S~

===

BRAID MY HAIR
Written by by Gray/Wilson
As sung by Randy Owen on "One on One" (2008)


1. She could be the first female president
Or be the doctor whose experiment
Finds the cure to what she's in here for;
But right now treatments keep her sick in bed.
That baseball cap never leaves her head
And while she sleeps I sit and dream...
One day I asked her, "What do you wanna do when you grow up?"
I soon found out I wasn't dreaming big enough.

CHORUS: She said, "I'm gonna ride my bike, I'm gonna climb a tree
Gonna fly a kite, score a run in Little League
I'm gonna go to school, make a friend, be able to run again
Take off my mask and just breathe in the air--
But most of all I'm gonna braid my hair."

2. She could question God; Lord, knows I would!
She could just give up; I don't think I could
Be that strong or fight so long.
How can such a little girl have such big faith?
And even through the pain she still prays, saying,
"God will make a way...

CHORUS REPRISE: "For me to ride my bike, for me to climb a tree
I'm gonna fly a kite, and score a run in Little League
I'm gonna go to school, make a friend, be able to run again
And take off my mask and just breathe in the air.
But most of all I'm gonna braid my hair that's down to my waist
Then I'll get it cut so they can make
Locks of love for some little girl who's just like me."

Wonders if she'll ever be
Able to ride her bike, able to climb a tree
Able to fly her kite, and score running little league
Able to go to school, make new friends, be able to run again
Take off her mask and just breathe in the air
And most of all she can braid her hair
She can braid her hair


Source (correx made fr transcription): Braid My Hair lyrics at http://lyrics.cmlyrics.com/

SH


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 12:19 PM

Songs for Battling Cancer

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 12:22 PM

I'm now into my 3rd hour of chemo. I did not have any reaction to the Taxol so that's good. There is a woman sitting across from me who had her surgery with the same surgeon I did and she is on the same chemo schedule as me. We've been chatting up a storm and have already exchanged addresses and emails.
    They also gave me Benedryl at the beginning of the treatment and I'm not getting sleepy. Of course, the meds they gave me ups my blood sugar and right now it's at 415 so that will make me tired too. They gave me 8 units of insulin but I know my body and know that only 8 units isn't going to do squat. They'll have to give me more before I go.

    So far, the weather is looking ok so maybe I can get home tonight. That would be good.

NIght all, I'm off to dreamland.

Much love,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 01:48 PM

I bet your haircut looks like Petals.

:~)

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 02:11 PM

I bet my haircut will look like balding dandelions. :P

Michelle


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 02:12 PM

Wow... What a charge I get when I read the most recent posts.

Michelle... I am still in awe of and inspired by your high flying spirit.

That Braid My Hair song is a tear jerker. In a bittersweet way.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 02:32 PM

Ahhh dandelion seed heads reminded me of a poem I wrote years ago.

SOWING WISHES

Some fairy
has lost her hair

Catch it quick
and you get your wish

But do not look
when you let it go
or the wish won't come true

The closing of eyes
The opening of hands
The curious commingling
Reluctance
Desire

And the last peek

Didn't we know that
holding a gossamer seed

Hope

in our hands
is better than any wish
come true


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From: gnu
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 02:44 PM

T&Ps.


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 03:53 PM

Ah, so Petals DO come in all shapes, sizes, and powers. :~)

I suspected as much earlier and Tam confirms it! :~P

Seriously, all those tears-- they are paying off now.

~S~


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Subject: RE: BS: LilyFestre -UPDATE - she's back in motion!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 05:33 PM

tears in my eyes, too

thanks Michelle for sharing what's happening.

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: SINSULL
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 06:49 PM

Our snowstorm appears to be a wash out. Maybe yours will be too. Thanks for including us un your story, Michelle. Sweet dreams.
SINS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 07:16 PM

And I'm home! YAY!!! So far, no side effects at all, they said that Day 3 is usually rough and then days 7 - 10. I feel pretty good....tired but good.

They got the IV in on the first try.
There was no burning sensation throughout the 6 hour infusion.
I do not feel sick.
I did not cry at all (except this morning when I met a woman in the hall who had a horrific story to tell of her cancer....I went back to my room and just cried out of heartbreak).

Mom told me she was proud of me! :)

I'm looking forward to sleeping in my own bed.

Tomorrow my hair comes off. All of it.

I am ready.

Sweet Dreams My Friends!

Love,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 07:31 PM

Just reading along. Fingers crossed, and amazed at the changes in chemo from when my mother went through it. The idea that you can chat from the computer while you're in there makes it all a lot easier emotionally, I feel certain, along with being able to find information when you need it.

Keep up the good reactions to all of this!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: Bobert
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 07:37 PM

Taxol, if my recollector is recollectin', is from some tree in Mexico... That's kinda what I remember... Seems natural to me...

Ahhhhh, the hair doesn't come out like that... It's alot slower... Heck, like I've said, "Bald womenz is sexy" so I'd just shave the stuff off and beat the side effects at their own little games...

What other drugs are they gonna use, Michelle...

They used to use C.A.T. The "T" was Taxol... I can't remember the other two's names...

What, no port??? Hey, don't make me come up there and install one myself... Jus' funnin'... I'm outta the port business...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: Bobert
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 08:00 PM

Opps!!!

Ignore this slow readin' hillbilly, Michelle...

That's a 10-4 on the hair and the port... Ol' hillbilly now up to speed... You just take it easy...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: Bill D
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 08:25 PM

Taxol is from Taxus brevifolia, the large Yew tree that grows in Washington & Oregon.

It really helps! Hope the Yew helps YOU!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: catspaw49
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 08:29 PM

Wow Michelle..........Ol' Spaw be really impressed. You're becoming an ass kicker ain't ya'?   Far out!

Spaw


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: gnu
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 08:29 PM

Bobert... bald women are not necessarily sexy.

Sexy women are sexy.

Women with spirit, as we have just witnessed, are sexy, cool, and a joy to know.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: Bill D
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 08:34 PM

and I KNEW I had read that they were now getting the drug from other sources! Paclitaxel

(harvesting Yew bark was endangering the population of the trees....now they are culturing the drug(s) from various sources and getting close to synthetic versions)


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: Severn
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 08:48 PM

I haven't posted in a while, but it's time for me to start up again. I had to go through six chemo treatments two years ago for small cell cancer confined to the lymphatic system (now in total remission!). The sessions were MTW every three weeks, with two IVs hooked up to me on Monday (a longer day) and one the next two days.
I'll start posting some of the good and bad experiences as I have time to do so. You have yet another Chemo Sabe to share both the Chemo sob stories and the uplifting things that helped get me and hopefully you through. My stories and tips will be told from a man's point of view.

You are lucky to have a loving mate by your side. I had lots of help from my friends, but I lived and mostly travelled alone. I found that the other in the IV room were of great help and good supportive companionship, and I'm sure you'll find the same. Wonderful nurses, too, though some could hit the vein better than others.


Here, first off, are some travel tips to and from. I brought some of my own food when I could. The oncologists had candy and munchies, but no substantial food. I also brought both books and a CD player with varied music to match whatever kind of mood the long wait put me in. I felt good enough to make the drive, but I set up an emergency network of friends between Rockville and my home in Laurel, about a 25 mile drive, of places I could stop and be welcome if I ever felt faint. I luckily never had to use them, but they were there.

They fill you full of fluids to make you urinate while you are there and a plastic container to measure your constant flow during the day, the volume of which slowly decreases, but I found it easier to go home the back roads with stores and restaurants rather than risk an interstate rush hour jam with no place to go. I often had to make 2-3 "rest stops" on the way home.

Tell me if I'm doing any good. I'll stop if I'm not. tell me if you'd rather like them as PM's

If I am doing some good here, the next installment will be:

THE CHEMO CHROME-DOME THING

Lots of luck and a whole lot of best wishes,
Severn


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: Bobert
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 09:03 PM

Repeat after me, gn-zer...

"Bald womenz is sexy"...

Hey, that don't mean that other womenz ain't, mind you...

B~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 16 Feb 10 - 11:03 PM

Michelle, I'll be out of the BS section for Lent (see prayer chain thread). But I'll see ya's at church.

~S~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 17 Feb 10 - 06:25 AM

Severn,

   Keep it coming! I had an IV yesterday but my next chemo session will be with a port that I am having put in on March 1st. I did tons of drinking before yesterday's treatment to help my veins be more accessible and it worked! Just one stick. All my treatments will be 6 hours. The lady that sat across from me was there for her first treatment too, although she already had her port. It turns out that she had the same surgery as I did and the same surgeon...different cancers but we are getting the same treatment: Taxol and Carboplatin. They say the taxol won't make me sick but rather the preservatives that are in it. So far, I'm good.
    This morning I am off to the salon to have all my hair cut off. My surgeon was very clear that my hair would fall out. I'm not going to wait for it to fall out...it's one of the few things I actually have a say in! Also, the owner of the salon had put me in touch with 2 women who have had the same cancer as I do. I have talked to one of the phone and the other woman I met the day before my surgery and she had made me a prayer shawl (which I absolutely LOVE and haul to every appointment and sometimes church too!). Anyway, they are coming to the salon this morning.....I'm looking forward to meeting Candice and it will be good to see Carol again....who has said she has something for me...it makes me curious! So yeah...once people start talking about their experiences, it is helpful and helps to calm my nerves.
   If I learned anything yesterday, it's to go to the Dr. when you feel like something isn't right in your body RIGHT AWAY. If they send you home and you still think something is wrong, go to the hospital or another Dr. until you get an answer. I met a woman with Stage IV lymphatic cancer yesterday....she spent over 4 months trying to get her normal doc to figure out what was wrong and SHE had to ask for a CAT scan. He saw enlarged lymph nodes and did NOTHING. She finally went to the hospital and they were going to send her home but her husband INSISTED that she was staying and they were going to figure out what was wrong with her. They admitted her and the next day sent her to the hospital where I am going for all my treatments. They had a diagnosis for her THE NEXT DAY. How much time was wasted? How much dangerous growth occured? She lost the use of a leg, arm and her vocal cords....she can now talk but uses a can and the other arm isn't working yet. She's been through a lot and it looks like she might be ok but in the meantime, she's been through HELL. Anyway, I did learn that I need to speak up LOUDLY if something is wrong and it isn't being addressed.

Susan,
   I'll be at the noon service today but will not be there on Saturday (as discussed last week). So...you'll have to wait to see the new do!!!! I am having photos taken all along the way of this adventure and will put together a little media slide show when I can....might wait until I'm totally finished or maybe I'll put it up so folks can see what's happening along the way....whatcha think?

Time to make breakfast.

Much love to all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 17 Feb 10 - 10:26 AM

Michelle, you are attracting a group of marvellous people into your life.

love & hugs to you & all these people.

sandra

many media shows vs waiting for one show?

my vote is lotsa' updates! please.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 17 Feb 10 - 10:27 AM

My mother had some photos taken before, so she'd have the image with all of her hair. I don't remember seeing any during chemo, but there were more afterwards, when her hair was back.

She didn't like the way her hair was falling out in clumps so one day she walked into a barbershop in her neighborhood and told the barber she'd like her head shaved. He took her to a chair in the back so it wasn't in view of passersby and did the haircut, and she wore a soft scarf-like hat until her hair grew back. The bare head felt much better than losing hair in gobs.

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 17 Feb 10 - 11:17 AM

Michelle, you are an amazing phenomenal woman!!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 17 Feb 10 - 12:57 PM

whoop... the thread title changed again!!!

Still here with you, Darlin.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: open mike
Date: 17 Feb 10 - 02:01 PM

Here's hoping yew will come thru this with flying colors.
http://www.dailypainters.com/images/origs/776/flying_colors_ii_.jpg


http://www.whitedragon.org.uk/articles/yew.htm

not sure what this is all aobut (role playing?) but it involved YEW
trees http://runescape.wikia.com/wiki/Yew_tree

here is a close up of the berries
http://www.wildaboutbritain.co.uk/gallery/showimage.php?i=44489&c=17

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Taxus_baccata


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: wysiwyg
Date: 17 Feb 10 - 03:01 PM

...Susan,
   I'll be at the noon service today but will not be there on Saturday (as discussed last week). So...you'll have to wait to see the new do!!!! I am having photos taken all along the way of this adventure and will put together a little media slide show when I can....might wait until I'm totally finished or maybe I'll put it up so folks can see what's happening along the way.... whatcha think?


I've been remembering that you said you'd be away. You will find a few more changes in the wingchair-area.

===

Hardi and I remain grateful that your mom got right on it (and/or you did) when he loudly urged hurrying up what you were first told on scheduling-- that's a benefit to having an "experienced" priest, eh? And I agree LOUDLY that people need to jump right on stuff as you pretty much did with this whole thing. I'd love to see the pics as they come, at church, but I don't have an opinion on putting them up where others can see-- your call (with Pete), really?

GOGOGOGO!!!!

Glad this isn't a BS thread as I ain't in them (Lenty).

(Ya know I started that music thread in your honor, BTW?)

~S~


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: SINSULL
Date: 17 Feb 10 - 03:59 PM

To the top. Join the other wounded warriors with good news.
SINS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 18 Feb 10 - 08:06 AM

I now am as bald as a body can get without using a razor. My stylist gave me the shortest buzz cut ever!!! It's taking some getting used to but it's going to be ok. The rest of this very short hair will fall out on it's own in a week or two. Can I just say that MAN....I had NO idea how much insulation my own hair provided? My head is chilly and so is the back of my neck!

    I also went to a Cancer Support group last night and made some connections...that was good. This morning I am taking my 2 wigs to a program put on by the American Cancer Society called, Look Good Feel Better. It's run by a beautician and she will show us how to care for our chemo skin, how to use make up to brighten pale complexions brought about by the chemo/diet and she will also trim our wigs. Did you know that wigs come with intentionally long bangs so they can be trimmed to fit YOUR face? I had no idea.

    Later in the day I am going to a Ladie's Guild luncheon and then my WW meeting. Both will be my first adventures out in public with no hair but both are very supportive groups of kind people so I'm not too worried about it.

    I'm interested to see how much less time it will take me to get ready this morning since there's barely any hair to wash and nothing to blow dry or style. I bet it cuts my morning routine time in half...YAY!!!!

    Anyway, I'll get working on the slide show so you can see....probably won't be ready until Sunday or so. Day 3 of my treatment (tomorrow) is supposed to be a rough day with bone aches and nausea.....here's to hoping that it isn't!!!

Love to all,

Michelle

PS. Susan.....thank you for the new thread in the music section...that's pretty darn special and I imagine it will touch many, many people!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 18 Feb 10 - 11:20 AM

Sounds like you have everything in hand, Michelle!

I remember that my boss' wife had to stop doing the yard work because of the exposure to sun, for one thing. I can see why advice in cosmetics and skin care will make a difference in continuing to look like your normal self. Sans the hair, of course. :)

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 18 Feb 10 - 04:34 PM

Michelle, you're an inspiration!

You're the perfect example of what sharing a problem can do!

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 18 Feb 10 - 07:09 PM

Ok.

First tummy upset. I've taken my nausea meds and am slowly drinking some Boost as my tummy is pretty empty and they say that's when you start having problems. Kinda hard to keep something in there when you just aren't hungry.

Anyway, it's been a busy day, more friendships made with women in my same boat....it amazes me how many people have cancer. I had NO idea.

When I am through this, I am going to volunteer to help others through too.....it's amazing what it does for the spirit. AMAZING. And you are all part of that too....you've helped me through every step of the way and there will never been enough words to cover the thank you and love that I have for all of you.

Now it's time to snuggle up with my kitty Dan and just rest. Another Dr. appointment in the early morning (plus the 2 hour drive) unless I'm feeling gross and then we'll rearrange. It's a visit with my surgeon so he can check my incision and see how it's healing (almost completely healed now...YAY!!!)....anyway, it's not a major appointment and can be put off a day or two if needed.

Gotta snooze.

Love to all,

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: SINSULL
Date: 19 Feb 10 - 09:54 AM

A can of ginger ale or Pepsi, warm. Pour a little in a glass until it is flat. Sip. It may help. And if it doesn't it isn't nearly as gross as Boost on the way back up.

Soda crackers to nibble just to keep something in your tummy.

Cold head? Now you know why so many hats.
LOL
Look for some, a bit more exotic, next week.

SINS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slayi
From: Ebbie
Date: 19 Feb 10 - 10:47 AM

Lilyfestre, this thread has become a spirit lifter of its own. I would add that you needn't feel that you have to remain so positive- it is normal to have severe downs also- but your approach and response to your new 'adventure' is inspiring. Thank you.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 19 Feb 10 - 12:31 PM

Day #3 after taxol and carboplatin chemo cocktail = being hit by a bus.

My bones ache EVERYWHERE. My shoulders and legs especially but I mean everything just aches...ankles, wrists, neck, hips and even my eye sockets.

I went to my appointment this morning...the surgeon checked my incision as well as the internal stuff...everything looks GREAT and I don't have to see him until late April.

The port goes in on March 1st. Next Chemo is March 9th. Right now I'm going to suck down some tylenol and heat up the heating pads.

Unbelieveable how yesterday I felt fine and today it hurts just to sit. ARG. Good news...it's only temporary...should last about a week.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: katlaughing
Date: 19 Feb 10 - 12:43 PM

One thing about pain that my doc told me, not as comforting as heat, in some ways, but she said pain and cold travel the same pathways in our bodies and cold trumps pain every time, it will just kick pain out of the way, so using ice packs can really help with bad pain. I went to a massage therapist who basically said the same thing. When she feels a lot of pain she gets out her ice packs, including one large enough to cover her back. I'll bet your eye sockets would feel better even if you didn't want to ice your whole bod.:-)

Thanks for posting esp. when in such pain.

kat


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: gnu
Date: 19 Feb 10 - 02:15 PM

kat... "Thanks for posting esp. when in such pain."

Ebbie... "... your approach and response to your new 'adventure' is inspiring. Thank you."

Ditto and ditto!!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: jacqui.c
Date: 19 Feb 10 - 02:16 PM

Still here - I check this thread daily.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 19 Feb 10 - 02:28 PM

Lost my post- what I said was, you are a truly beautiful woman, dear Michelle!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: GUEST,Jack Sprocket
Date: 19 Feb 10 - 03:33 PM

I've only just come across this- best wishes, may you have all the luck we didn't have! May the healing spirits of Moses Maimonides, Lister, Fleming and Pasteur be with you, may Madagascar periwinkles hover about you, may all the pain you defy in the treatment be rewarded with love and pleasure three googolfold, and may you tell the tale an age from now.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 20 Feb 10 - 08:25 AM

Lots of pain last night and this morning in every joint I own. I slept maybe 2 hours....got up and called the on call people. New drugs coming in 4 hours......a bit of narcotics....bring it on. I freaking HURT.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 20 Feb 10 - 11:59 AM

The ice pack treatment works a treat on Rheumatoid arthritis pain. But if I am cold (as one may be after chemo and in mid winter) ice may not be useful.

I think mild to moderate pain killers, absolutely zero caffeine (this includes chocolate) and as much sleep as your body and pain will permit may be best.

Luckily for me, when I am in pain, I want to sleep, naturally. Sleepiness seems to come along with the pain. Guess it is my body's own pain defense. Unluckily for me, I fight it and keep soldiering on.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: jacqui.c
Date: 20 Feb 10 - 03:53 PM

Sorry to hear about the sleepless night melove. Hope the drugs work well.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: Severn
Date: 20 Feb 10 - 05:21 PM

I wrote this over on the recovery ward thread and had meant to write it here, where a whole series of "Chemo Chromicles will hopefully be posted. So I cut-and-pasted the proper portion over here as well, with a few additions and revisions to make it easier for Michelle to refer to. Here is a description of feeling completely drained as you hopefully never have in your life.
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Welcome to what I call "Dishrag Days", where you feel like you have no energy whatsoever and you feel like a wet noodle. Sad to say, it only got worse for me. My Chemo treatments were three weeks apart, and whereas that time was not enough to flush out all the meds and toxins out of one's system, the number of bad days I spent increased after each treatment. I had to shop on the good days and stock up, because I didn't feel like even moving or getting out of bed much on the real bad ones, A good time to catch up on your reading. Sometimes sound or TV bothered me, sometimes it didn't. Sometimes I didn't want to do any of the options, but couldn't sleep either making me feel like there was no place for me to goand nothing for me to do to obtain relief. one can not know how it feels or how to properly describe the feeling unless, alas, you've experienced it yourself.

It might have just been me, but all the medicines they sent home with me with the caution messages about don't drive or even look askance at a piece of heavy machinery didn't make me tired at all, even the pain meds. I had to go back after almost a week of non-sleep and get issued some Ambien, which worked. When the dishrag days were over, I went against orders and quit the pain and sleeping pills until the next time that I became a wet noodle again, as I was a little bit scared of them. By the time of my sixth treatment, the Dishrag Days had gradually increased to about half of the three weeks or more. There were occaisional times of nausea and I remember watching the Porcelain Bowl as much as the Super Bowl.

After my sixth and last Chemo treatments, which were Mon.-Wed., around Friday night I was suddenly unable to keep food down from the cumlative effects of the meds still in me. I had a follow up Oncology appointment scheduled on Monday, and I tried to hold out. I tried the method I used when I had a bad flu and would start out with Ginger Ale and saltines or tea and toast and gradually work other food back in me, but it wasn't working. I probably should've gone to the horse-spittal late Sat. or Sun., but I waited until Monday.

They took one look at my blood sugar level after they finally hit a vein and rushed me back into the "hallowed halls of IV" from which I'd thought I'd graduated. It turns out my blood sugar had spiked to 1100 and I probably should have had a coma or stroke. The Doc will yell at you if your level goes over 200. When I finally got home, I found I had put a few things into wierd places, but it would be a while before I went home.

I was sent in an ambulance two buildings down the road to Shady Grove Adventist Hospital. While I was awaiting admittancde, it took them four people to be able to find a vein and successfully draw blood--I was THAT dehydrated! I spent that night, March 17th, in the ICU (peek-a-boo!) and I spent three days in various hospital rooms. It turns out that the shugar spike had given me permanent diabetes, so ironically enough, the date from which I could no longer hoist a pint was St. Patrick's night. I had gotten a Sheffield tankard as a get well present from a UK Catter friend, and, of course, since you can't drink alchohol during Chemo, I couldn't use it for its intended purpose until I actually got well. Now I couldn't ever hoist a pint of brew in it. The abstention during Chemo made it easier to accept and adapt to total alchohol abstainence.

Let that be a warning! You have a mate to take you to the emergency room if the nausea persists like that. I have the diabetes under control, but it'll alawys be there and I have had to adjust my living and eating habits accordingly.

Another food topic. Part of what they were giving me in my IVs was Cisplatin (sp?) which contains Platinum. I couldn't eat red meat, because the drug made it taste like iron. I couldn't eat canned food because you could taste the can in the food. It'll take a while after your treatments end until you'll be finally able to eat red meat. and canned food again.

When I'd been through those last days of constant nausea, my throat was so raw and sore that I had to eat nothing but soft foods for some time. Allpesause, pudding and Jello (all sugar-free because of my diabetes) creamy soups,boiler bags of Indian curry from Trader Joe's and scrambled eggs became favorites.

They'll very likely give you stule softeners to counteract the effects of the other meds. The pain pills, especially, tend to constipate.

This will be all for tonight. More stories soon (more pleasant ones) and any questions that you might have, feel free to ask here or by PM.

But there WILL be those bad days when you haven't hardly the strength or will to move, like a nasty flu, so notify your partner what to expect. Effects vary with the individual person. I'm just telling you my tales. It may affect you differently. they might be putting different meds in you.

Good luck and best wishes!


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slayi
From: Janie
Date: 20 Feb 10 - 06:55 PM

fwiw, Michelle, while my sister was going through chemo, and later radiation treatments, (she had breast cancer) thinking about the good the treatments were offering, as well as reminding herself that the treatments would come to an end and she wouldn't always feel so rotten helped her get through them.   She would say that it didn't help the sickness or pain, but it did help, a little, to decrease the accompanying misery, and that every little bit helped her to get through it.      She also eschewed keeping a" stiff upper lip" and allowed and accepted all the sympathy, empathy, and physical caring and support any of us could offer, did not hesitate to tell us what she needed, when she needed it, and to tell us to bug off and leave her alone when she needed that. That was more than 20 years ago, so I don't know if the chemo treatments and what can be done to mitigate have changed much since then.

As I've said before, I don't post often, but am still here, as are many others.

Janie


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Subject: RE: LilyFestreUPDATE*CA*Seeking Chemo Starts Slaying!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 20 Feb 10 - 09:18 PM

Severn,

   I hear you about not wanting to read or watch tv or listen to any sounds but just lying in misery wondering when it's going to end. That was my day today. My bones hurt everywhere. I can't even begin to stress that enough.

    My mom stopped by, called from the top of the hill and said she had some goodies for me. Pete went out to meet her at her car (there was no way I could do that walk today) and she had flowers,a balloon, 2 cups of ice cream from McD's (which I really like and shared with my honey), vanilla pudding and 6, yes, SIX bags of frozen mango...it seems to be what I am living on these days. It's a a fairly long drive for her to get over here and clearly out of the way. She is so incredibly thoughtful!!!!

    I finally got to take the percocet and I don't think it kicked in until the second dose but then I did get some sleep and when I woke up, I just layed in my bed thanking God for some relief. :)

    Now that's worn down and I just took some more (after buffering my belly with more mango) in hopes that I will be able to sleep or at least be pain free in bed tonight.

    Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre - Cancer-Seeking Chemo Is on Target!
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 21 Feb 10 - 08:33 AM

wishing you a restful evening.

sandra


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre - Cancer-Seeking Chemo Is on Target!
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 21 Feb 10 - 09:20 AM

Holding you in my heart...


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre - Cancer-Seeking Chemo Is on Target!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 21 Feb 10 - 12:30 PM

I'm doing better today and am keeping a steady stream of pain medication going. I'm doing a whole lot of nothing other than watching tv, playing on the laptop and mostly just resting. I also called the woman who started her chemo the same day as me, taking the same meds and we have almost an identical diagnosis...ALMOST. I was curious to see how she was doing and she too is having excruciating leg pain that seems to be somewhat better today.

    I am so blessed to have a husband who is taking excellent care of me. He just made me lunch, knowing full well I'd eat only a few bites. He made it anyway. I love you Pete!!!!!

    So...no news today, just taking it ultra easy.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre - Cancer-Seeking Chemo Is on Target!
From: gnu
Date: 21 Feb 10 - 12:50 PM

SOOO glad to hear you are doing better.

Sev... great stuff! Thank you for the info.


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre - Cancer-Seeking Chemo Is on Target!
From: SINSULL
Date: 21 Feb 10 - 12:55 PM

You are very lucky to have a husband who loves you, Michelle. Make sure Pete takes care of himself too.
And for you - one day at a time. That's the best you can do.
Rest well.
Mary


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre - Cancer-Seeking Chemo Is on Target!
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 21 Feb 10 - 01:27 PM

Well, darn. I posted last night but it didn't stick.

You've probably been told to choose your foods very carefully. My mother, for example, couldn't touch any of the cruciferous veggies (broccoli, cabbage, cauliflower) because they really tear up the inside of the intestines on the way through. You're losing a lot of cells other than just cancer cells, and the digestive system just doesn't like that.

I agree with all of those who advise you to look to the future. Get through one day at a time, past this chronic flu, and you will get well and feel wonderful.

Here's wishing you an ache-free day!

SRS


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre - Cancer-Seeking Chemo Is on Target!
From: LilyFestre
Date: 22 Feb 10 - 08:41 AM

Day 6 Post Chemo. I didn't sleep for beans last night even with the Tylenol with Codeine that they gave me. Tylenol never seems to do anything for me. I'll be calling the Dr. to get something different and also to see if heartburn is a side effect of chemo. I'm thinking it is because they gave me Previcet (?) by IV last time. I've had heartburn maybe 2 other times in my life....all I can say is YOUCH.

Overall, I'm feeling pretty good today. It's supposed to be icy out later so I'm going to the grocery store for a few things and then home. Tomorrow is Day 7 which is when my white blood cell count is predicted to drop drastically so I'll spend today cleaning around the house, cloroxing door knobs and such, washing our bedding and just getting things ready for me to flop on our bed for a few days....all as clean as I can get it. I won't be going out on Days 7 -10 for anything.

Gotta get going. Where is that Tums!?!?!? ARG.

Michelle


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Subject: RE: LilyFestre - Cancer-Seeking Chemo Is on Target!
From: SINSULL
Date: 22 Feb 10 - 08:49 AM

Heartburn is a thoroughly unpleasant experience. Lying on your left side with pillows raising your head abov