BS: Depression and Anxiety

Subject: RE: BS: Depression and Anxiety
From: WFDU - Ron Olesko
Date: 30 Nov 05 - 12:43 PM

We could all start sending you messages telling you how wrong you and how important your life actually is, but I think you already realize it is important. You can't control the future, and you realize that too.   It sounds like you need professional help, probably to get back on the meds, and the advice of amateurs here on Mudcat is not of use to you.   Listen to your family, friends and most important - professional help.

You aren't alone.

Subject: BS: Depression and Anxiety
From: GUEST,I'd rather not say
Date: 30 Nov 05 - 12:39 PM

I have been in a period of persistent depression and anxiety for several months, now. I find it nearly impossible to concentrate on my work. I take frequent breaks to check in with the Cat, and also some other boards of personal interest. But while I am doing that, I am anxious about what I SHOULD be doing and what the consequences might be.

Despite the fact that I have my basic needs in life (and then some!) met, I am anxious about what could go wrong and what the future holds. Fire, theft, weather disaster, and anything else. I am also anxious about the future of my job, even though it is not one that is typically sent overseas or sold to another company and I get kudos from my supervisor all the time.

I have taken meds off and on, but I am very afraid of the other damage they might be doing to me, so I am not taking them now. But given my recent outlook on life, I may consider starting again. I guess it would be better than having myself dead. At least, my friends and loved ones would feel that way, I guess.

And then I get to beating myself up for my weakness of character, since I have so much that so many others do not have, and how could I be such an idiot for all this worrying?! I should be so grateful for what I have and who I am!

Nevertheless, it is VERY REAL, and I live with it every minute of every day. Why is life worth living?