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Worst Idea Ever

25 Jul 13 - 05:47 AM (#3541474)
Subject: Worst Idea Ever
From: Max

Never do this. Ever. The internet loves folly.... wait for calmer heads in the morning...

   ---Published by: The Balls to Hit Send Press

Tonight I found out that I'm actually, seriously crazy. So did some other people. No one was hurt, but... I was in a reality altogether different than the other members of a moment we weren't even sharing. I expect I don't know what will come in the morning but I'm packing for whatever each next minute holds. I backed up mudcat and put it on my Dropbox account as one of my first tasks... :) ...assuming mudcat even exists...

I'm heading for wellness with both hands.


25 Jul 13 - 05:53 AM (#3541477)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: severed-head

Best wishes Max.
Take it easy.
Garry


25 Jul 13 - 06:13 AM (#3541482)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: GUEST,Rev Bayes

>> ...assuming mudcat even exists...

I'm pretty sure I've been way to busy to just be a subroutine of the contents of your head. That business in '87, for example.

Good luck. Don't be ashamed of it. You wouldn't be ashamed of having flu.


25 Jul 13 - 07:05 AM (#3541495)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Pete Jennings

Healing thoughts across the ocean, Max. Take care.


25 Jul 13 - 07:13 AM (#3541496)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: maeve

Respect and support from me, Max.


25 Jul 13 - 07:28 AM (#3541499)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: gnu

Ditto.

Thoughts and prayers.


25 Jul 13 - 07:34 AM (#3541501)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Amergin

Shit, Max...I've been there plenty of times...it comes with the bipolar territory.

You just need to step back for a bit...and maybe focus your thoughts as jumbled as they may be...into something you love, like music.

Most of all, take care of yourself.


25 Jul 13 - 08:45 AM (#3541517)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: GUEST,Noreen at work

Hey Max, not folly at all- you are amongst friends.

Sending calm, loving thoughts your way. It WILL get better!

Hugs

Nx


25 Jul 13 - 08:45 AM (#3541518)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Leadfingers

At least we seem to have Mudcat again now ! Hang Loose Max .


25 Jul 13 - 09:48 AM (#3541540)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Amos

Coraggio, Max. BRilliance gets lonely. A small price to pay. Find some real things to love and it will get better.

A


25 Jul 13 - 10:07 AM (#3541549)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Ebbie

{{{{Hugs all around}}}}


25 Jul 13 - 10:16 AM (#3541551)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: bobad

Sometimes you just gotta change the channel.....be well Max.


25 Jul 13 - 10:46 AM (#3541565)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: GUEST,perp

WTF??????????????


25 Jul 13 - 11:05 AM (#3541573)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: GUEST,leeneia

Max, you wrote "Tonight I found out that I'm actually, seriously crazy. So did some other people."

But did you really find out you were crazy? We had a friend once who was acting crazy. It was the result of diabetes. Something like that could be happening to you.

Maybe somebody dropped some "bad acid" in your beer last night. Maybe you are suffering the after-effects of a head injury.

Whatever it is, mental illness or something else, go to an expert and find out the real answer.


25 Jul 13 - 11:08 AM (#3541575)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Elmore

Hang on. Take the best care of yourself that you possibly can.


25 Jul 13 - 11:33 AM (#3541586)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: ClaireBear

Thinking of you and not sure what to say. But do, indeed, hang on -- with fingers, toes, and teeth if necessary. Much love from one who has walked on the edge a lot recently.

Claire


25 Jul 13 - 11:37 AM (#3541590)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: gnu

leeneia... good advice. I'll bet Max is on top of it.


25 Jul 13 - 12:51 PM (#3541620)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Amos

Also--feel free to let us know a bit more about what happened.


25 Jul 13 - 12:54 PM (#3541622)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Little Hawk

Hmm. Good luck with that, Max, whatever the problem is.


25 Jul 13 - 01:21 PM (#3541632)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Crowhugger

There's a saying I find rather comforting for times like this: "If you're not living on the edge you're taking up too much space."

With both hands already working in the same direction you're on the right track. Pointing your feet that way, too, can't hurt. Hugs...


25 Jul 13 - 04:10 PM (#3541685)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Jeri

I have no clue what this is about, but that's the point, isn't it?

Max wrote "Tonight I found out that I'm actually, seriously crazy. So did some other people."
If you didn't already know you were batshit whacko, I'm surprised. Although it's possible you weren't aware that, although you've been a frequent rider on the crazy train, you didn't know all its stops.

You're driving the thing, though, so ride it somewhere better. If you sold my secrets to the NSA, bring them coffee--they're gonna need it. If you sold Mudcat to foreign investors, FU (unless they're Canadian). If you're in rehab, nothing matters more than getting healthy. If you went all-in on that dental floss farm, I hope it's the organic, non GMO stuff. And if the people you were with are good people, they'll delete the videos of the incident, or at least put a blurry dot thing over your face.

...and one last thing: I don't think you should go fishing any more. Every time you go out in the back of beyond to kill and eat things, something freaky happens.

Love, me


25 Jul 13 - 05:11 PM (#3541705)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Alice

My best wishes going out to you, Max. Three years ago, I was digging holes in the skin of my face during my sleep because of stress. I have scars from it. I thought I had a rash that would not heal, as it spread from all over my forehead to my eyelids. The third doctor I saw, a dermatologist, said, "That is from stress. You are digging into your skin in your sleep." I knew I was nuts from stress, but who would have thought that could happen, too?

Take care.
Alice


25 Jul 13 - 06:42 PM (#3541729)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Sandra in Sydney

best wishes, Max


25 Jul 13 - 06:55 PM (#3541733)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: KT

Hey, Max. Holding you in heart and mind up in this corner. Please post when you're up to it and let us know how you're doing. You know we all care about you.
KT


25 Jul 13 - 08:21 PM (#3541756)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Jeri

Max, seriously, anything you need...


25 Jul 13 - 08:25 PM (#3541757)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: GUEST,hg

free therapy and butt kickings just call
love, harpgirl


26 Jul 13 - 04:40 AM (#3541864)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: gnu

Jeri... "Laughter is the best medicine." That's for giving us the dose.


26 Jul 13 - 01:16 PM (#3542058)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Dead Horse

If you wanna know what REAL stress is, just ask my accountant. :-)


26 Jul 13 - 02:36 PM (#3542095)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: GUEST,Stim

No one else in the room could see what you were dealing with, so of course they're not going to get it. Let that go.

I don't know what it was either, whether the sensory or emotional inputs that were screwed up, or whether your processes weren't working they way they usually do or whatever--I do know that the trick is to figure out what is malfunctioning and develop alternate strategies.

If you are hearing voices that aren't there, figure out how to recognize the ones that are there and deal with them exclusively. If you're swamped with paranoiac fears, figure out how to sort them from the regular fears...etc.

Maybe some meds will help, and maybe it will pass, but till then,identifying the bad stuff and developing compensatory strategies is the way to go. I know, it's easy to say, but not so easy to do, but so much of life is like that. With effort and persistence, you can make it work, maybe not like before, but in a way you can live with.

There are way more of us out here keeping it together that way than you can possibly imagine...and you don't realize it, because most of the time, we are making it work.


26 Jul 13 - 11:08 PM (#3542258)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Janie

Whatever has shaken you, Max, holding you in my thoughts with loving kindness.


27 Jul 13 - 06:42 AM (#3542321)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: maeve

You and your monkeys are worth the effort it will take to sort things out, Max. You have loving support and encouragement and laughter from those who care about your happiness- including me.


27 Jul 13 - 06:54 AM (#3542326)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Pete Jennings

Been two days...anyone heard how Max is?


27 Jul 13 - 10:24 AM (#3542364)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Big Mick

Max is taking care of himself just now, Pete. Out of respect for his privacy, that is all I will say. He will be fine, and his family and friends are helping out right now

At a time like this it is a good thing to reflect on the marvelous gift of himself that Max has given us with Mudcat. The opportunities it has provided me, the scholarship, the friendships, and even the verbal slugfests, they have all enriched my life beyond description. We used to refer to Mudcat as a village. In those days that was a good description. As Max deals with this "bump in the road" let all of us that consider this village of ours be as supportive and loving as possible. He has sacrificed much over the years to keep it going. He knew it was a lifeline for many.

Get well, buddy. We need you.

Mick


27 Jul 13 - 10:38 AM (#3542368)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: frogprince

And an "Amen" to all that's been said here in appreciation for Max, and in our concern for his well being.


27 Jul 13 - 12:49 PM (#3542416)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Crowhugger

Thanks for the update Mick, much appreciated.


27 Jul 13 - 02:32 PM (#3542443)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: open mike

thanks for the best idea ever.....which is this our favorite cyber village....where we come for solace, relief, information, venting and more....a great therapy place....what goes around comes around...may
you find what you need to go forward.....here or elsewhere....we are here for you....cyber hugs and best wishes ....


27 Jul 13 - 04:06 PM (#3542464)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Janie

Max, so many of us appreciate and value what you have made possible for us with Mudcat. But don't mistake us saying that as meaning you and your well-being matter because you are the creator of the opportunity for this community to exist.

It is true we wouldn't know you or one another for the most part without you birthing and raising Mudcat. But the good thoughts, prayers, and intentions surrounding you now are not offered because we "owe" you. They are offered because we care about you. It simply happens that we know you because of this community.

Caring is not earned. It just is.

May you dwell in your heart.

Janie


27 Jul 13 - 07:15 PM (#3542511)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: gnu

Wonderful posts. Truely heart warming. Such is Mudcat. Such is Max and everyone he has assembled. Thanks Max et al.

Means a lot to me.


27 Jul 13 - 07:53 PM (#3542526)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: GUEST,leeneia

thanks, Big Mick. I was really worried.


27 Jul 13 - 10:12 PM (#3542554)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)

Max, light and love flowing your way.

Mick, thank you yet again.


29 Jul 13 - 10:15 PM (#3543380)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Noreen

Thanks for the update, Mick.

Do let us know if there is anything to do.

x


29 Jul 13 - 10:42 PM (#3543387)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: open mike

What would Kat do?

we must carry on

with this village

here and all of

our Mudcat neighbors..


30 Jul 13 - 10:08 AM (#3543552)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: GUEST,highlandman at work

Best wishes, Max.
Looks like things are in good hands here for now... take the best care of yourself.
Blessings
-Glenn


30 Jul 13 - 10:12 AM (#3543556)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: GUEST,9

Get well, Max.


30 Jul 13 - 10:23 AM (#3543559)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: GUEST,flyingcat(moira)

Thinking of you Max, hoping you come out of the other end safe and sound. (((xxx)))


30 Jul 13 - 12:34 PM (#3543611)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Bonnie Shaljean

Do whatever it is you need to do to find your way back. Be kind to yourself. Cut yourself lots of slack. Take it easy, one step at a time. Know that we're here for you.

B xxx


30 Jul 13 - 11:13 PM (#3543767)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: gnu

Last post tonight fer me. Nuff said.

gnight Max... take care buddy.


31 Jul 13 - 01:31 PM (#3543990)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: KT

Thinking of you every day, Max - In the garden pullin' weeds or slugs, or picking fresh kale & snow peas, or hiking in the mountains and looking out over the grand view before me, wishing you well. Hang in there, Max.
KT


31 Jul 13 - 01:45 PM (#3543995)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: gnu

KT... I wanna hang out with Max... sounds like a good time! 'ceptin fer the slugs eh? Not that I prejudge, of course. How d'ya cook em up? Red or white wine?


01 Aug 13 - 01:21 PM (#3544346)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: KT

Gnu, no cooking required. Just soak 'em serve 'em some beer.....


01 Aug 13 - 07:38 PM (#3544435)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: gnu

Oh MY! I read yer post again. Apparently, I was soaked in beer when I read it. I would like to hang out with Max but I'd also like to hang out with you with the weed, the kale, the peas and even the slugs. Gee whiz! I get so easily confuzzled these days!

Oh well, my heart was in the right place. Oh Crap! My BP pill! And I didn't take my BP before I mowed the lawn.... see what I mean?


01 Aug 13 - 08:11 PM (#3544444)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Ebbie

" Just soak 'em serve 'em some beer..." KT

KT, you are all heart. lol


01 Aug 13 - 08:13 PM (#3544445)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Jeri

If you guys just want to blab about stuff, could you maybe start a BS thread to do it?


01 Aug 13 - 08:41 PM (#3544457)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: gnu

Well, Jeri. I had two reasons for posting what I was posting. First and foremost, to keep this thread very active so everyone gets to see it. Secondly, to try to add a little humour and let Max know, if he does check in, that people are keeping this thread at the top of the page because we care about him and, hopefully, giving him a laff or two.

Having said that, my work here is almost done.

Max - You take care of you on accounta YOU need you and yer family needs you. I can't speak for anyone else but if you ever need anything that I can help with in any way, I will do all I can for you... same offer you made me a while back. Yer one a the good guys.

gnightgnu Max.


01 Aug 13 - 09:50 PM (#3544479)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Janie

What gnu said.

And love to you, Jeri. Your care and concern for Max, who you know much better than do I, is palpable.

Not much of a moon tonight Max, but care and concern don't need moonbeams on which to travel. We folks love our metaphors and images simply because we understand they provide a focus. But we are many focused hearts and minds sending out care and concern. May you experience yourself surrounded by the light and love of many hearts and minds.


03 Aug 13 - 07:42 PM (#3545242)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: GUEST

Sooo....wot's happening wit da Man? The bounce to the bottom seems to be fixed, is He out of some institution now?


03 Aug 13 - 08:16 PM (#3545253)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Bobert

If you are reading this, Max, just know that craziness happens and it un-happens... Do what you need to to do to make it un-happen and remember...

...exercise is one of the things that makes things un-happen...

B~


04 Aug 13 - 06:16 AM (#3545390)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: GUEST,kendall

Where the hell have I been? This is the first I've heard of this!
Max, my friend, there are damn few people I like and respect more than you. Take care of yourself, I wonder if you know how loved you are?

The measure of a person is not how much you love, but how much you are loved.


05 Aug 13 - 06:09 AM (#3545711)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Waddon Pete

Be well, Max.

Best wishes,

Peter


06 Aug 13 - 08:43 AM (#3546098)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: bobad

"Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead."
      - Charles Bukowski


06 Aug 13 - 10:23 AM (#3546135)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Ron Davies

"I've always been crazy but it's kept me from going insane"---Willie, Waylon or somebody similar.


09 Aug 13 - 05:54 AM (#3547198)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: gnu

Jus wonderin. Jus waitin...


25 Aug 13 - 07:43 PM (#3552799)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: GUEST,hg

Well, Max...your insurance has probably run out and they've sprung you, so how are you?


love, hg


26 Aug 13 - 06:17 AM (#3552920)
Subject: RE: Worst Idea Ever
From: Nigel Paterson

My Dear Max, I owe you much & can do little that will be of any practical help for you. Your visionary creation, Mudcat, has enabled my Wife & I to live with & work through the loss of our daughter. If only there was something similar we could offer you in return.
                   We hold you in our loving thoughts, imagining you well & restored to good health.
                                     With all the Love we can muster,
                                                                                     Nigel & Ann Paterson.
                                                                                     xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx