OBIT: Ezra Milan - One year ago, today 10 Mar 2010

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: wysiwyg
Date: 17 Apr 09 - 08:36 AM

[no words]

~S~

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: SINSULL
Date: 17 Apr 09 - 10:38 AM

You're right Becca. The first step into the next phase of her life. Damn, this must be so hard for her.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: gnu
Date: 17 Apr 09 - 10:40 AM

Truly.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: wysiwyg
Date: 17 Apr 09 - 12:22 PM

From all I have heard of Ezra, I am sure that he would want Meghan to be kind to herself, to do whatever it takes to be as strong as she can be, to be happy, and to have as many good things in her life as she is able to have.

I am sure that returning to work will not FEEL like any of that.... because the heart says that it's never the "right time." But support for her, here, will still mark the passage of this waiting, even as she gets back into the routine. May she always find us right here, ready with a fresh word of encouragement.

~Susan

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: Hawker
Date: 17 Apr 09 - 03:14 PM

Still sending love and healing thoughts to all, holding your hands and praying. feel helpless but its the best I can offer :0(
Cheers, Lucy x

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: Liz the Squeak
Date: 17 Apr 09 - 03:36 PM

There comes a time that no matter what the circumstances, life must return to its normal pattern. I hope someone is watching over Meghan, making sure she takes care of herself as she spends her energy watching for Ezra.

(((hugs)))

LTS

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: Bobert
Date: 17 Apr 09 - 05:16 PM

Bobert

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: GUEST,suzi
Date: 17 Apr 09 - 06:15 PM

What WYSIWYG said...... luv and hugs.    Suzi. x

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: wysiwyg
Date: 18 Apr 09 - 05:38 AM

Good morning.

~S~

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: maeve
Date: 18 Apr 09 - 10:09 AM

Familiar routines and some new horizons lie ahead.
Good morning, Meghan.

maeve

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 18 Apr 09 - 03:28 PM

I don't post here often, but not a day goes by without a check-in, and a loving thought and prayer for Meghan and the whole network of family and friends hoping and waiting.

Allison

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: SINSULL
Date: 18 Apr 09 - 07:35 PM

And Good night. Rest easy Meghan. One day at a time; one step at a time.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: Neil D
Date: 18 Apr 09 - 07:56 PM

Just home from the hospital and checking in,still in our thoughts.

                                     Neil and Christina

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: gnu
Date: 18 Apr 09 - 08:13 PM

Neil.... how are things with youse?

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: GUEST,winterbright
Date: 18 Apr 09 - 08:18 PM

Just because I don't post daily doesn't mean you're not in my thoughts.
Continued prayers...

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: Bobert
Date: 18 Apr 09 - 08:32 PM

Bobert

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: Tinker
Date: 19 Apr 09 - 12:09 AM

Thought of you today as I cleaned up the garden. Still checking in, still praying, waiting in community.

tink

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: Neil D
Date: 19 Apr 09 - 04:10 AM

Gnu,
   Hangin' in there. Doing well actually. Hope all is well wit youse too.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: My guru always said
Date: 19 Apr 09 - 04:37 AM

Still sending positive thoughts!

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: wysiwyg
Date: 19 Apr 09 - 11:39 AM

Been away, but still "here."

~Susan

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: SINSULL
Date: 19 Apr 09 - 12:03 PM

A kayaker was lost in Casco Bay right around the time Ezra disappeared. His body had been found. I pray the sea is willing to give us back Ezra as well.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: kendall
Date: 19 Apr 09 - 12:24 PM

I'm no longer convinced that the sea has him.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: katlaughing
Date: 19 Apr 09 - 02:20 PM

Nor, I, Kendall. I haven't *felt* water ever for him.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: maeve
Date: 19 Apr 09 - 02:37 PM

Still here, just can't always post.

maeve

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: Dan Schatz
Date: 19 Apr 09 - 07:44 PM

The other night my son asked to see the video of Kendall singing "Let the Lower Lights Be Burning."   As I listened it watched I thought of Ezra, and it brought tears to my eyes.

Dan

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: Janie
Date: 19 Apr 09 - 08:27 PM

Love and Light.

Janie

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: SINSULL
Date: 19 Apr 09 - 08:30 PM

The letter "D" in fancy script keeps working its way into my thoughts. From the beginning I knew he did not disappear at Dimillo's or the pizza place. He walked towards home. Danforth Street maybe?
Or the big "D" in Damn it!

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: Janie
Date: 19 Apr 09 - 09:28 PM

Kendall or Becca,

Would it be too painful to share some anecdotes regarding Ezra to give an idea of who he is?    In one sense, it does not matter at all. On the otherhand, it would good to be able to have some sense, however limited, of the "suchness" of him to focus on in the mind and heart.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: Celtaddict
Date: 19 Apr 09 - 10:32 PM

Meghan, Becca, Kendall, and all.
We are still holding all of you in the light.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: maeve
Date: 20 Apr 09 - 04:50 AM

Good morning, Kendall, Meghan, Becca - Here's another new beginning with birds singing wildly outside. Pink violets and bloodroot's white stars are in bloom.

Love,

maeve

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 20 Apr 09 - 05:05 AM

I haven't said much up until now.

I am approaching anniversary of loss of my daughter and very recently a friend (another catter who shall be nameless) lost his son. So I am breaking my self-imposed decision to keep my thougts minimal.

Why is it so hard to cope with the loss of a young person? Historically, it is not so long ago that many children often did not survive their parents. Illness, accidents, wars took them. I wonder, were parents better prepared for such circumstances a hundred years ago?

I should say having had a dream some 2+years after my daughter's death that she had just disappeared, it felt worse than knowing she had died. The not knowing what had happened to her was more than I could bear.

So - I am still checking, still hoping for resolution, still hurting in concert with you all.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: wysiwyg
Date: 20 Apr 09 - 01:07 PM

Here, even when the Cat is down.

~Susan

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: wysiwyg
Date: 20 Apr 09 - 06:13 PM

(((VT)))

~S~

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: maeve
Date: 20 Apr 09 - 07:08 PM

Goodnight to all who are hurting. That common pain opens hearts to compassion.

maeve

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: kendall
Date: 20 Apr 09 - 07:26 PM

Janie, he was a young man of mixed race. Good looking, well built, attractive, well spoken. He worked as a manager of a local sports shop. He worked when he was supposed to and was quite trustworthy.
Whenever I needed help he was right here and he refused to take any payment.
His only crime was being a young man in the wrong place at the wrong time.
I still haven't gotten a reply from the Chief of Police.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: LilyFestre
Date: 20 Apr 09 - 08:18 PM

Continuing to peek in and think of you & your family daily.

Michelle

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: SINSULL
Date: 20 Apr 09 - 09:22 PM

Janie,
Meghan and Ezra married very young and learned most of their lessons the hard way. They came through the hard times together with intelligence and dignity. Things were finally all falling into place for them. They had their own home, good jobs, and a good future together.
I don't even remember what I needed done. Ezra showed up with Meghan and her brother Thomas and his girlfriend. All young and beautiful and decent. All willing to help. Maybe they delivered the futon from Kendall and Jacqui's.
I spent very little time with him and Meghan - and always at Morse gatherings. I was always struck by their maturity and dignity - a strange word to use but the only one that fits. They had fun and laughed and were young but there was always a maturity far beyond their years.
I wish I understood what has happened.
Mary

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: wysiwyg
Date: 20 Apr 09 - 10:09 PM

Good night, all.

~Susan

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: Janie
Date: 20 Apr 09 - 11:44 PM

Thanks Kendall and Sins. Even knowing that little bit will help to hold a more vivid and personal image of each of them in my mind and heart.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: SINSULL
Date: 21 Apr 09 - 08:08 AM

Kendall posted this a few years back:

This is a sample of her (Meghan's) writing. She wrote this when she was not yet a teen ager.


Little Girl



I saw the eyes of an old woman

In the young face of a child.

It was experienced and knew much

Though tender, pained and mild.



I saw the posture of a weakened woman

In a body that had known a sad childhood.

She carried herself without meaning

Following orders without thinking if she should.



I saw the strength of a warrior

In a heart that knew only to survive.

It brought itself to face each day

And yet it was barely alive.



I saw the spirit of an aged soldier

Inside the lost soul of a mere baby.

It had fought many battles

And now it was crying "save me".



I saw a little girl

Who had grown up far too fast.

She had already lived her life

Though she barely had a past



I saw all this,

And it broke my heart to see.

And then I looked a little closer

And saw the little girl was me.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: kendall
Date: 21 Apr 09 - 08:33 AM

That still gives me goose bumps.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: SINSULL
Date: 21 Apr 09 - 08:44 AM

What i know of Ezra I know through Meghan. When they were together she was still that little girl in an elegant woman's body.Ezra was her match. Janie will understand what I am saying.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: Becca72
Date: 21 Apr 09 - 09:26 AM

Ezra would drop everything to help any of us in a heartbeat, as has been said.
The one thing I want to add is to watch them together, when he looked at Meghan he absolutely adored her and everyone in the room could feel it.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: SINSULL
Date: 21 Apr 09 - 10:09 AM

I know I am not explaining this well but Meghan and Ezra together have a maturity and dignity all wrapped up in an almost childlike innocence. Neither would ever willingly leave the other.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: maeve
Date: 21 Apr 09 - 12:49 PM

You've all three expressed it beautifully. I thank you for your efforts, Kendall, Becca, and Mary.

maeve

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: kendall
Date: 21 Apr 09 - 01:28 PM

Life is trouble. Only death is not...(Zorba the Greek)

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: wysiwyg
Date: 21 Apr 09 - 11:27 PM

Night, all.

~Susan

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: SINSULL
Date: 22 Apr 09 - 08:00 AM

Another day; another prayer.

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: maeve
Date: 22 Apr 09 - 08:39 AM

In spite of the rain or because of it, I wish you a very good morning.

maeve

Subject: RE: BS: Good thoughts needed, please
From: wysiwyg
Date: 22 Apr 09 - 09:08 AM

Sunny, breezy spring day here is drying the ground out from yesterday's rains.

~Susan