Matt - am I right supposing you read my last message before you posted your last one? If so, let me tell you:
Yes, you are an asshole and so am I. What's the problem? All the others are as well. It may be a little hard to realize that you aren't one of the few (if there are any) non-assholes in the world, but there is no need to destroy everything, there isn't even a need to destroy anything because of that.
That's why I created the concept of a "really-true-asshole" for my own thinking. They are few, but there are some. Beware of them, because they are destroying things. During the last years I learned much of how they work inside of themselves, because there are/were some in my life. It would take too long to explain everything I think to know, but IMHO one of the reasons for them being as they are is that they never had the guts to realize that they are as well an asshole as everybody. Please mind: they are not evil because of this, they are only unable to avoid themselves doing evil things.
So welcome to the world of humans, Matt. You are one of us, I know, and the reaction of the other ones I saw here tells me that they also know - it makes me happy to see that I'm not the only one. But you don't seem to know. Try to learn it, it's true.
And don't be too afraid of those "really-true-assholes". There are too few of them, and we can always "outfight" them by just being the normal, average assholes we are. That takes a little patience and constancy because it means having to wait until they destroy themselves. They will - relatively fast. But it will never work by destroying ourselves at once just because we can't bear owning only five percent of their stupidity. Nobody will ever be able to reduce his own stupidity to zero. If that's your aim ... (another reason for them being as they are is that they try hard to believe in their zero-stupidity ... but still ... but still ... *small grin*)
And I'm also glad to see you back again. *BIG GRIN*