BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: GUEST,celticAnnie
Date: 02 Jan 03 - 11:57 AM

Is there any chance that this thread can be started again simply as 'Hesperis' Mudcat Diary', or something like that.

Anne

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 02 Jan 03 - 01:25 AM

Well, had a great New Year so far. My website is back up, completely renovated (though there are still bugs to work out, of course). Visit it! It's really cool.

I'm working on the business plan and on an education. Hero6 is going great, we get a few more percentage points of final music each week.

So, here's wishing everyone a great new year.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 28 Dec 02 - 03:04 AM

Carol - PM on the way.

Marion - Afternoon or later is great, I'd love to see you. (And return a certain key.)

Bobert - Yeah, cottage industry is definitely the plan.

Amos - Thanks for the encouragement.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: Bobert
Date: 27 Dec 02 - 07:24 PM

Think cottage industries. Some folks are making a nice living selling on ebay. Of course you have to find a supplier of stuff who is willig to let you act as a marketer but this doesn't involve any capital. There are ebay seminars that are held here and there. Just an idea that allows you to work at home and on the pudder...

Real glad to hear about yir new significant other...

Bobert

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: GUEST,Marion
Date: 27 Dec 02 - 06:25 PM

Hi Hesperis. I remember how to get there; what sort of time frame are we talking? (I have a thing in Mississauga in the afternoon, so playing and travelling will take up a large chunk of the day).

Marion

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: Little Hawk
Date: 25 Dec 02 - 12:29 PM

Boyfriends are easy to find when you're young and beautiful, but good ones are not quite so easy to find. Sounds like you've found a good one. That certainly makes for a happier Christmas!

I went out today and took some digital photos of the snowy scenes to send to my new friends in Trinidad. Those who long for a "white Christmas" have not wished in vain this year. It's beautiful out there.

So, I'm sending my very good wishes to you and the new bf on Christmas Day 2002!

- LH

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 25 Dec 02 - 08:36 AM

It's a white Christmas! The streetcars' rumble is quieter than usual. The new boyfriend invited me to a lot of his family events, and I've been totally stuffing myself on fantastic food. Then I woke up hungry at 7 am this morning! Couldn't believe it.

I didn't do much for the Solstice, just recognized that the light had returned, which really seems to be reflecting in my life right now. I got my cheque from welfare for January already! So I don't have to worry about that for a whole month. ;)

I still want to start the business, but am not sure if welfare will *allow* me to start it. If I get a subsidy I can start it and will probably be able to cover the expenses of the business itself, otherwise I'll be out of money in less than a month... kinda can't start a business with cashflow like that.

The bf says I need more "real" work experience to start a business... but my gut instinct is to be self-employed and eventually employ others. Although he has started a business in the past, he prefers the security of a paycheck, I prefer the security of knowing where I stand. I also make a much better boss than employee!

The other option is going back to school, but for that, anything that I'm interested in is either full already for January or at a private school. If the osap loan won't even cover tuition... there won't be anything left to live on, which is why I didn't go to that school in October...!

The bf is really sweet. He loves computers and has an artistic eye, so that's perfect. I kinda like someone else too, but the other someone isn't in the country, so the bf doesn't really have much competition, I guess. >;)

Here's hoping that you are having a wonderful Christmas too.

Love and hugs!

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: mg
Date: 24 Dec 02 - 03:55 PM

congratulations on the housing and the new boyfriend. Merry Christmas. mg

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: CarolC
Date: 24 Dec 02 - 03:39 PM

(((((((((((((((((((HUGS for you, Hesperis)))))))))))))))))))))

(Sometime you're going to have to tell me about this new boyfriend of yours! A PM perhaps?)

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 24 Dec 02 - 02:12 PM

Right now, it's Christmas, I do have housing I can afford, I'm going to several friendly feasts, and I'm just setting everything else aside for a bit.

Merry Christmas! Love and hugs to all!

Any TO mudcatters are invited to a New Years' Eve DAY open house at my new boyfriend's place. PM for directions.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 23 Dec 02 - 11:44 PM

Yeah, I know Matt. Wish he'd post more, but haven't seen him aroudn lately, and I can pretty much just keep up with this thread right now.

Thanks guys.

After Christmas I'm going to go park out at the welfare office, just to make sure I get the January cheque... then I can decide better what to do.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: wysiwyg
Date: 21 Dec 02 - 09:56 PM

Sorry, that was my really screwed-up computer burping, when what I would want to say is, Hess, hang in there. Our three kids, I am sure, have felt and gone through much of this. I don't say that lightly... one, for example, has been as sick as you have been and, in some ways, sicker and less safe... anyway, she finally got the major pieces lined up so she could work with them, and is getting the rest of her life on track from that foundation, and it's coming along pretty well. What I am trying to say is, you can make it. I did. Many of us did. Young people facing tough times are. I know you can do it. I know it can be done, and I know you are one of the ones who can do it.

Hess, did you ever *meet* Mudcatter Matt R? I think you came here after he "left." I wish you two could talk. Man, has he had it rough. I think he could encourage you better than anyone else here. He was back posting an update on how he's been doing, not long ago.... why not PM him a hello and make his sporadic acquaintance. Tell him I ("da Flooz") sent you.

~Susan

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: wysiwyg
Date: 21 Dec 02 - 09:49 PM

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: CapriUni
Date: 20 Dec 02 - 05:29 PM

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Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 20 Dec 02 - 05:24 PM

Still haven't heard back from my worker about the self-employment program. I asked for an appointmemt and haven't even got a phone call... I'm so impressed with SS right now.

Still don't have a phone in my new room, the landlord got laid off after I moved in, and kinda couldn't get the phone installed.

Had a fight with my mother, basically challenged her that she doesn't talk to me enough, and now she's really not talking to me. At least now nobody's going to tell me to go live with my parents if my situation is really this difficult. I don't have parents.

Got a bill from the Academy of Design, sent to my former address, and something saying that my osap application couldn't be processed because I didn't have a birth certificate. Guess they didn't get my email cancelling my application. I called them, and they're going to be reasonable about it, but I'm meeting with someone tomorrow to make sure everything goes smoothly.

I'm getting really sick of trying to strategize ways out of this mess and having none of the ways work, no matter how much energy I pour into it.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 14 Dec 02 - 12:07 PM

Thank you!

I've been trying to figure out how to start the business anyway, since trying to job search was way too much pressure. I'm just not a corporate person, and don't want to be - ever. Do it's about 30 times as difficult to look for work since it's going completely against the grain.

I also have at least one customer, and don't want to have to send him elsewhere. It rankles.

So... will be discussing how to get on the welfare self-employment program next week.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: CarolC
Date: 14 Dec 02 - 09:04 AM

Hope you're feeling better now. I figured I better put a link to your birthday thread here in case you aren't on-line for a bit and you miss it.

Happy Birthday Hesperis!

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 10 Dec 02 - 09:29 PM

I am a year older, since Sunday. Was throwing up on Friday, was still sick on Saturday, and on Sunday was just happy to be hungry. Didn't have the best birthday ever, for sure. No presents, no cake, only my new boyfriend and my best friend remembered. Got to talk online with my mother, though, so that was good.

The room isn't working out. There's stale smoke, mice, and stale Indian cooking smells from downstairs. Also, my landlord doesn't speak English too well, and wants to go back to Mexico. So, looking - again.

I've been trying to go to a job search program, and have been having a lot of difficulty jsut getting to it. I will be getting my welfare cheque, hopefully later this week, but right now I'm not doing that well.

I'm just worrying too much. Again.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: Marion
Date: 03 Dec 02 - 12:30 PM

Hesperis, please check your PMs.

Marion

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: CarolC
Date: 30 Nov 02 - 05:33 PM

He's great!

;-)

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 29 Nov 02 - 09:57 AM

Thank you! That was the perfect thing to say. *Hug*
How's the hubby? ;)

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: CarolC
Date: 29 Nov 02 - 12:13 AM

Big bummer about the program. I think the water in the well is going to keep getting higher for you (until you eventually reach the rope yourself). You sound so much more in command of yourself and your situation than you did even just a few weeks ago. It looks and sounds to me like you have been and are growing a hell of a lot from your experiences. And getting much stronger. It looks and sounds to me like you're building your life one gruelling brick at a time, but it looks like you are building something lasting and very important.

I think you are doing/will do some amazing things with your life.

(((((((((((((((BIG hugs))))))))))))))))

Carol

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 28 Nov 02 - 10:29 PM

Didn't get into the program.

Here's how I feel.

LH - Thanks for letting me know about Selkie's death. I'm glad it seemed peaceful.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 21 Nov 02 - 10:01 PM

Well, hopefully I didn't make too much noise today. And it was good to talk to you the other day. Looking forward to tuesday. ;)

My friend who might make a good roommate will only stay in town if she gets into the program too... otherwise she's going back to Kingston. So I'll be looking at at least January for getting a couple of people together to rent a room, since we won't hear until sometime this weekend now.

The room I looked at earlier yesterday is ok, the carpet is a bit TOO new and plasticky... but I'll probably take it. I tried to talk to the landlord about moving in a week earlier than the beginning of next month for another $100... but he didn't seem to understand. I'm not too sure this is the best place for me, but it's literally the only thing I've found that's SOMEWHAT close to one of the areas in town I want to live.

And if I can't move in a week early and pay him something for this month, then I'll have to kjeep looking or be in trouble with welfare, which sucks. The room is empty right now... so I really don't understand why it's a problem for him. *Shrug*

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: Marion
Date: 20 Nov 02 - 12:31 AM

No worries Hesperis, I think you're the lowest-maintenance guest I've ever had. Seems like all that either of us ever does is sleep and leave! I guess we'll have to make an appointment for it if we're actually going to share a meal or song or conversation.

Cheers, Marion

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 19 Nov 02 - 06:08 PM

Still haven't heard if I got into part 2 of that program. Either the choice of who to cut is really difficult, or the person doing the choosing is sick. Probably both.

So, still crossing the ol' fingers.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 18 Nov 02 - 11:33 AM

Thanks, Marion.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 15 Nov 02 - 08:29 PM

The room isn't working out. Now I have to figure out how to leave without it being illegal in the eyes of welfare. Much fun.

If anyone knows anyone in TO who doesn't smoke, doesn't have pets, and is looking to rent a room, please PM! If I get a couple of people together we can rent a 3-bdr apartment for $450 each inclusive... that would really be good.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: CarolC
Date: 10 Nov 02 - 12:00 PM

Crossing fingers here, too. Good luck!

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: GUEST,cookieless hesperis
Date: 09 Nov 02 - 10:29 PM

I think the presentation went well. I won't find out for a couple of weeks, unfortunately.

I wish everyone in my group gets in... unfortunately only 20 out of 45 people will get into the full program.

*Crosses fingers*

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 06 Nov 02 - 07:11 PM

Ok, found out I got into Phase 1 - basically a shortlist. I need to get on the next shortlist, and then on the final list. First shortlist was 45 people, second is 30, final is 20 people who actually get funding. I'm doing a workshop right now and have a presentation tomorrow that will help determine if I get to the final group or not.

Good thing I didn't cancel the welfare appointment.

In the first part, you don't actually get funding, so I can definitely get welfare for one, maybe 2 months, plus SOME start-up money for last month's rent, etc.

Anyway, g2g plan the presentation.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: CarolC
Date: 04 Nov 02 - 03:37 PM

YEEHaaaaa!!!!!

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: katlaughing
Date: 04 Nov 02 - 12:24 AM

One day at a time, Susan...let her catch her breath, eh?:-)

sirepseh...great news, keep yer chin up!

luvyakat

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: wysiwyg
Date: 04 Nov 02 - 12:15 AM

And after the program, what? How long is it?

~Susan

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: Willie-O
Date: 03 Nov 02 - 06:22 PM

Good stuff. Upward bound. Yay Hesperis.

W-O

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: GUEST,cookieless hesperis
Date: 03 Nov 02 - 06:04 PM

...who will soon have internet again. ;D

Can't ALSO take welfare, that's kinda really illegal. But I'll ask if I can get the community start-up fund from them anyway so that I can pay rent monthly instead of weekly, and get a few items I'll need.
If not, it'll be a bit tighter, but still doable. This program is $250 per week, which is about twice as much as welfare, and is actually a reasonable living allowance if you budget. (As in, I actually HAVE a food budget after everything else that's essential!)

Jande - MIDI KEYBOARD! Please. ;)

LH - I'll pay you back at $50 per week starting three weeks from now. Thank you!

Black Walnut - Thanks. I had a lot of fun at that Acoustic Harvest thing.

Marion - Nice to finally meet you.

Rick and Heather and everybody else - I'm ok, you can stop worrying now. Thanks for all the prayers and encouragement.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: black walnut
Date: 03 Nov 02 - 07:12 AM

Good stuff!

~b.w.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: wysiwyg
Date: 02 Nov 02 - 10:07 PM

Can't ALSO take welfare?

~S~

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: mg
Date: 02 Nov 02 - 07:48 PM

congratulations. That is just wonderful.

mg

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 02 Nov 02 - 07:36 PM

I thought I hadn't got in because I hadn't heard from them, so I applied for welfare, which just plain felt wrong. So I called the entrepreneurial program and told them that if I didn't hear soon I'd have to apply for welfare and it's difficult to start a business on welfare... three hours later I got the call.

I GOT IN! Start on monday.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: black walnut
Date: 01 Nov 02 - 03:02 PM

Any news yet, H.?

~b.w.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 30 Oct 02 - 05:20 PM

Origins? The lyrics are a more Modern English version of Shelley's "Skylark", so that should have no copyright problems.
The music is written by me.

The song may be performed freely by any artist for the purpose of informing people about the plight of the English Skylark, which is suffering from habitat loss and from chemical use on farmland.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: Amos
Date: 29 Oct 02 - 02:52 PM

Way to go, Hes!!

BTW, I PMd you about your Skylark song -- can you let me know about it? QUestion of origins, written by whom?

Thanks, dearie....


Sorry for the thread creep.



A

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: katlaughing
Date: 29 Oct 02 - 01:13 PM

Yea!! Good news keeps piling up! Wonderful!

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: GUEST,cookieless hesperis
Date: 29 Oct 02 - 01:08 PM

The workshop yesterday was fantastic!!!!!!!!!! So many relevant speakers... one guy was asked to speak about his successes, and talked about his failures instead, it was one of the most motivating of the mini-talks.

So much information to go over in my mind, so many wonderful people who are not satisfied to settle for the daily grind... wow.

There was one computer geek there who gave me really good advice about how to go about what I want to do, two people in entertainment that I can now email for advice... wow. WOW!

And there was a draw at the end for a cell phone. I won.

As soon as I can get it set up it'll be very useful, as it's been difficult to contact people about apartments or other help as I don't really have a number where they can reach me, I can only access the phone if I have money or if the other people at the shelter aren't using the free one (ha!), and I can only access free internet when I can get to it. So this is absolutely fantastic.

I never thought I'd have a cell phone.

In other news, found a couple of possible 3-bdr apartments, need one or two people to share it with for $450.

Also, I have not heard back from the government entrepreneurial program yet, they are still going through the applications. I'll hear by the end of the week.

*CROSSES FINGERS*

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: Little Hawk
Date: 24 Oct 02 - 08:38 PM

Yup, sounds good. Keep at it. I'm sure you will find workable solutions out there.

- LH

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: katlaughing
Date: 24 Oct 02 - 07:18 PM

~Sirepseh~, those all sound very good and positive. Good luck and we'll keep up with the good thoughts. Thanks for keeping us posted.

kat

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: GUEST,cookieless hesperis
Date: 24 Oct 02 - 06:08 PM

Just checking in quickly from the library.

There's a workshop about women and self employment tonight, I'll be going to that. There's a workshop on monday about non-standard self employment, such as in entertainment fields. I'll be going to that.

Tomorrow I have an appointment with someone about another program, and will be dropping off my complete application for the government-subsidized youth entrepreneurial program at the same time.
Got one letter of reference, thank you so much, it's kick-ass! Will be getting the other one tonight.

Had an appointment with the housing worker today, it looks as though either co-op or sharing a 3-bedroom with a couple of other people would be the best option. I have names of nice people who want to share for $500 or under, and I want to share for $400 or under. So, we'll see how things turn out.

Thanks for being there, all of you. *Hug*

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: hesperis
Date: 22 Oct 02 - 11:22 AM

Still looking. Found free internet that is IE instead of *urgh* netscape... however it's a little too far to walk, and it's only open in the mornings. But at least I have some kind of computer access.

Still alive.

Subject: RE: BS: Making Dreams Come True? --Hesperis
From: mg
Date: 18 Oct 02 - 02:06 PM

that is wonderful news. mg