good luck mate and keep on going, i know the medication dont always help, in many cases it makes it worse, or it did in my case, as i say i only speak for my self and my experiences, ive seen and heard some real crap from so called enlightened people, its like saying im not racist i know one and often speak to them, what crap, dont talk about it, do it, whatever your it is, as i say im probably at some point gonna either get well again and live my life albeit changed somewhat, i doubt if i will ever run my own company again, or be in a position to not worry about bills etc, or im gonna not be around no more. thats the cold stark truth of it. again thats just me. others have different needs, but most of all the most common need to all of us, is tolerance and understanding , not bloody sympathy, and lukewarm words.