BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: GUEST,Guest from Sanity
Date: 10 May 12 - 09:15 AM

Kat, anger and depression are very much the same thing, except anger going out, is just anger, usually mixed with frustration..depression, is anger turned inward, with a sense of hopelessness.
Anger, can be an addiction, to satisfy your receptors(in the nervous system)...much like fear, or lusts....lose the anger with your will, and discipline...before long, you can break the addiction. Re-channel, that energy, into your music. It can come out in several different ways, such as love, fun, something spiritual etc etc... The results just might NOT make you very angry..or the people around you!..The frustration and hopelessness will subside....but remember, art for therapy might be good therapy, but might not be great art. That's where 'craft' comes in.
I honestly wish you the VERY best....turn that unrequited passion into a masterpiece!!!!!!!

Highest Regards!!!

GfS

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Megan L
Date: 10 May 12 - 09:26 AM

GFS if you had read Kats post you would have seen the magic words Iron injection the depression is not the result of misplaced anger it is oxygen deprivation. Human brains do not cope very well with low oxygen levels.

Hope the injections have you up and bouncing around like the wee lambs i passed on my way to town this morning.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: GUEST,Guest from Sanity
Date: 10 May 12 - 10:15 AM

I read it, Megan...but when all systems are running at peak, the biological system processes better. You sound like you want someone to stay down...Misery DOESN'T HAVE to enjoy company...it's just an excuse not to want to escape into happiness.

GfS

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: katlaughing
Date: 10 May 12 - 11:06 AM

Here I was a day ahead of myself. The infusion will be tomorrow, as in Friday!

Thank you, Megan, I really DO appreciate your comments.

GfS, I understand the psychological and metaphysical quite well, as does the therapist I go to when I feel a need. The depression is not ongoing; it comes from some problem which arises. I love myself and am not angry at myself. Any anger comes with things over which I have no control. I will not go into any more on the subject. Thank you for your best wishes and, now, please do NOT turn this thread into one of those types of threads in which you go back and forth until the true purpose of the thread is lost. Thank you.

To the rest of you, thanks, very much.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Stilly River Sage
Date: 10 May 12 - 12:48 PM

Kat, good luck with that treatment. Did they offer a reason why this might be needed - a dietary omission, etc? Is it something you can prevent in the future? Taking iron supplements too often can cause constipation, but once or twice a week should help the blood without binding up the bowels.

SRS

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 10 May 12 - 09:28 PM

I'm still "oomphing" for you!

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: katlaughing
Date: 10 May 12 - 11:22 PM

I cannot take the tabs,SRS, and they would take too long to build up. One of my kidneys is tiny with little blood flow, probably from birth and the other one has been trying to take up the slack all of my life, apparently. I didn't have any trouble until I did the Atkins high protein diet. The docs believe it had a deleterious effect. (I'd done it for a few months, losing 50lbs, but I do NOT recommend it.)


The kidneys produce something, can't remember what, which helps to make red blood cells. When they don't do that as well as should be, one may become anaemic. Anyway, it's a balancing act between protein, sodium, and medicine which help the kidneys out.

I feel apprehensive, though I also feel all is well. I have been looking forward to it as I know I will feel better, though it will take 3 or 4 more sessions. I just hope to get some sleep tonight OR while there as I am taking a benadryl and alprazolam (xanax) before going there.:-)

Thanks for keeping me in your thoughts, folks.

luvyakat

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Janie
Date: 10 May 12 - 11:57 PM

You lovely person, Kat. Know you are surrounded by light, love, care and concern.

Janie

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: katlaughing
Date: 11 May 12 - 10:58 AM

Thank you, so much, Janie. I appreciate it. We will be heading out in about thirty minutes. The actual infusion is at 11a RMT.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: ranger1
Date: 11 May 12 - 08:03 PM

Hope all went well, Kat.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Bobert
Date: 11 May 12 - 08:10 PM

Still holding your hand, Kat...

B~

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: maeve
Date: 11 May 12 - 08:33 PM

Checking in, kat; lovely sunset in Maine tonight.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: katlaughing
Date: 11 May 12 - 09:03 PM

I'm crying right now for the kindness of you for checking in.

It went well in that I showed no allergy symptoms, so far. The first nurse was a bit of a prat. Seemed as if all she cared about was the bare minimum..left a lot to be desired including having to start an IV line in the bend of each elbow and having one bleed out and the other one she pulled the needle out of a little sheath too soon, so tried to wiggle a "limp dick" sheath into my arm! LOL.

Then along came sweet, sweet Anya who got one started bingo on the top of my forearm so no bending to be worried about; handed me the tv/nurse call control and the chair control AND put an extender on the O2 line, so I didn't have to drag a bottle into the bathroom with me as I'd had to when the other gal was there and made sure I knew she thought I was a slacker. Well guess what? I get to request Anya next time and shall!

That will be next Friday, along with an echo-cardiogramn, the the following two Fridays and that should do it. It won't be so scary next time now that I know what to expect.

Thanks, again, everyone.

luvyakat

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 11 May 12 - 10:08 PM

Ouch, ouch, ouch! I hate IV needles. Glad you finally got Anya!

I'm very glad that on the whole things worked out well for you today.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 11 May 12 - 10:25 PM

me too

love from sandra

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Megan L
Date: 12 May 12 - 02:03 AM

Weel done lass I am sure you will feel the benefits soon and be back to us in full force. Unlike me who is always here fool force.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 12 May 12 - 07:16 AM

Blessed Anya! When I was pregnant many years ago and had regular bloodlettings, there was one nurse known as the Vampire, because she ALWAYS made me bleed, and not in a good way!

Just checking in, and glad to see so many Mudcat Angels chiming in. Love you, dear one!

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: fat B****rd
Date: 12 May 12 - 07:28 AM

Maintaining best regards from Scotland X

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 15 May 12 - 02:42 AM

how did I miss this thread?   I'll tell you how. I've been lost on the wrong side of the veil myself for the last 6 months. Frantically trying to tear a hole big enough for me to get through it.

Sorry Kat you are now in my thoughts. Hope things get better for you.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: katlaughing
Date: 17 May 12 - 03:21 PM

VTam, you've bee through so much...I hope you get to feeling better and do NOT mean the other side of the veil! (Which makes me think of the old DOORS song,Break on Through. Just the refrain, not the rest of the lyrics!) Thank you for taking the time to post.

FB & Megan, you know my heart is in Scotland. Thank you, too

Bert, you are such a blast! Tks.
2Ls, you, too. I love thinking off Mudcat Angels, too.

I could really use some calming, restful energy today and tomorrow. The side effects have made this a very rough week. Look at the side effects and I can just about tick off every one of them.

love all,

kat

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 17 May 12 - 08:22 PM

Today, tomorrow, and beyond. Sending my energy.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Bert
Date: 17 May 12 - 08:30 PM

You're welcome katmeluv, you know you are my favorite, just don't tell Tree;-)

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Janie
Date: 17 May 12 - 08:44 PM

Surrounding you in light and love, Ms. Kat.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Bobert
Date: 17 May 12 - 08:53 PM

This,too, will pass, Kat...

Better days a'coming...

B~

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: katlaughing
Date: 17 May 12 - 10:52 PM

Dear Friends, your support, so freely given, even in the midst of your own challenges, is also wonderful. Please don't feel slighted in any way if I didn't mention all of you by name.

I am honoured and blessed by you all. (Some kind of weird thing happened in the middle of typing: my computer decided its own mind about line breaks.      

I am sure that is a sign to go lie down and see if I might get some sleep. It's been a bit elusive.:-)

I'll see you all on the flipside!

luvyakat   

P.S. two of them, really. The kidney doc said we don't have to do them all in four weeks as my hemoglobin is a low tolerable. We'll know more   after lab results.

P.S. Part the Second, Bert, I won't tell if you won't tell.:-) I would not want Tree mad at me for any reason. I hope she's better, now.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Megan L
Date: 18 May 12 - 02:35 AM

Ah Kat my dear ye see thats the trouble wie learnin tae read if we couldny we never would know what we should be feeling :) Keep up the progress and dream of sunny Orkney, some day you will be able to run round the Ring of Brodgar but please DO NOT watch Billy Connely before visiting :)

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 18 May 12 - 02:47 AM

calming, restful energy heading your way

also love & hugs

sandra

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Bert
Date: 18 May 12 - 01:36 PM

Thanks kat, she is getting better slowly. I think the reason she doesn't like me spending too much time here is all the mudcat women;-)

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: fat B****rd
Date: 18 May 12 - 03:34 PM

What Sandra in Sidney said.
Charlie X

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: katlaughing
Date: 18 May 12 - 11:42 PM

Glad to hear that, Bert.<:0

I had a fairly good night's sleep and felt very calm this morning before and after about half way through the echo. I had to lie in a very uncomfortable position on my left side. Even with my own memory foam pillow, I developed a major headache. I've never had a migraine, but this sounded like. I was in excruciating pain. We bought some lunch which was awful, then went back for the IV Iron,but it was not happening. The nurse took one look at me and asked me if i'd like to postpone. I did. Could not get out of there fast enough and home to bed. I am reschedule for the second iron infusion next Thursday. I slept from when we got home, 1130a, off and on, until almost 7p!

Thank you, very much.

luvyakat

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: AllisonA(Animaterra)
Date: 19 May 12 - 07:34 AM

Keeping the love flowing, darling. Sleep is good!

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 19 May 12 - 11:23 PM

One step at a time.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Bert
Date: 20 May 12 - 07:13 AM

One step at a time is good, BUT NOT IN YOUR SLEEP!!!

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Janie
Date: 20 May 12 - 10:23 AM

It is a lovely morning here, Kat. Hope it is where you are also.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: katlaughing
Date: 20 May 12 - 06:52 PM

lol, bERT! tHANKS, AGAIN, TO YOU STEADFAST FRIENDS. This is really the first time I've been out bed and stayed up for anything length of time today and a lot of yesterday.The headache from Nurse Ratched came back from hell...she even tried to get me toss my breakfast, a very benign smoothie. Called the doc on call, with my history of sensitivities to meds, he said to go back bed, take two heat packs and call him in the morning...well, not literally, but that's he meant to say! It has helped. I don't remember the last time I had a headache like that, the Tylenol I used was like a spitball at Goliath.

I have an appt. with my osteopath tomorrow afternoon. I am sure she will be able to help with an adjustment.

There's some other stuff, but that'll do for now. Depression keep rising but the therapist wants me to wait until after the next inusfion on Thursday, then i'll see my doc on friday get the results of the echo by then. If my heart shows up a happy camper after all the mauling I went through, I'll be pleased regardless. I'm trying to keep "in the pink, on the road to wellville" in my mind!

luvyakat

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 20 May 12 - 07:32 PM

seconding that thought

love from sandra

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Bert
Date: 20 May 12 - 08:21 PM

There are a couple of headache types that Doctors often don't tell you about.

One is the hangover that you didn't earn headache, that can be caused by a lack of B vitamins.

Another is the odd time of day for no specific reason headache which can be caused by a lack of protein.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Megan L
Date: 21 May 12 - 02:28 AM

"In the pink on the road to Wellville" Ah Kat my dear if you stand in the pink by the roadside make sure you use plenty of sun lotion or we will have to call you Lapsterlaughing (an orcadian Lobster)

Mind you lass at my age the less pink folk see the safer it is for thier sanity :) Keep smiling it worries the hell out of folk.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 21 May 12 - 04:47 PM

We'll be waiting for you when you have more energy. In the meantime, get all the rest you need. Sorry about that headache.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: YorkshireYankee
Date: 22 May 12 - 12:35 PM

Missed this thread when it first appeared (am trying to get "caught up" on Mudcat after not partaking for 3-4 weeks).

Kat, I've long admired how generous and supportive you are to so many others on Mudcat. And I suffered from low iron once and remember how very hard it was to keep going...

You are an inspiration to many of us on here; I hope things are on the upswing for you from here on in.

Hugs and 'ooooomph' abounding,

Vikki/YY

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: ClaireBear
Date: 22 May 12 - 12:50 PM

Katmeluv, I missed this thread too. Psychic hugs, thoughts of strength and rest, and a song or three are headed in your direction. Be well.

Claire

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Neil D
Date: 22 May 12 - 11:09 PM

Kat, we're still keeping you in our thoughts. Get all the rest you can. The Tylenol that works for my headaches is the Tylenol migraine or the generic equivalent, even though they aren't migraines. They combine acetaminophen, aspirin and caffeine so they aren't so easy on the stomach, but they do kick the headache.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: katlaughing
Date: 23 May 12 - 02:39 PM

Thanks, folks for your kind words and suggestions. The osteo manipulated that twisted neck & preztel contorted shoulder of mine and the headache has been gone since, but then the cardio called after looking at the echo. It wasn't grim, but Rog and I both have some work to do (eating and walking-wise) if I want to be around much longer, but then, of course, docs have to "lay it on the line." I am working with a healer, have you all to help out with such generosity, and my Rog and grandson, Morgan, to give me an immediate boost. I love it, when Morgan came in this morning, he knew serious stuff has been going on. We've always talked of how I'll always be here, in some form, for him, even when I die. I reminded him of that, today. Have gave me a nod, looked me right in the eyes and said, Um-hum, I know mama, then gave me a big hug.. He is an old soul.

I was thinking about having told my cardio I still have three more books to get published. Then, this morning I thought about starting a "What's your greatest achievement?" thread, but didn't. If I had , it would be writing my books, but before that or anything else, it would whatever hand I've had in shaping Morgan's life having been in it from the start. Other than Life, I'd say that's the great gift I've ever received, too.

I will be around, just taking it easy until we're done with the iron infusions. Please remember I do appreciate all you say and do.

luvykat

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 23 May 12 - 09:25 PM

That's what I like, appreciation!

We'll be here after you finish taking it easy.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: katlaughing
Date: 23 May 12 - 11:11 PM

Thanks, CL! I forgot to say if anyone knows an expert seamstress to please send them to the surgeon who put in the metal aortic valve to show him how it's done. Apparently it is not that uncommon for the skin to not heal quite as much as they'd like over the stitches, so there is leaking just as there was before that big, nasty surgery took place! (Last year I thought the cardio was joking when he said there may be a loose stitch or two!)I am over being angry and there's something else going on which is just as dicey, life-wise, but nothing of "immediate" concern. So, we're good to go once I've got the iron topped off.

I am filling up with Light, Life and Love and so happy you all are part of it!

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 24 May 12 - 07:59 PM

Seamstress? Tailor? If my meme and pepe were still alive . . . among other things, they ran a haberdashery. I hardly remember my pepe, but my meme could do anything with a needle and thread. Mom wasn't as skilled, and I'm far less so. Maybe you need to ask one of the people on the sewing machine/quilting thread!

I'd be more than happy to teach penmanship to doctors, though! Most of them need it!

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Bobert
Date: 24 May 12 - 08:18 PM

Walk!!!

My late uncle lived with cancer for 25 years and was an inspirational speaker at cancer groups... His advice... Ya' gotta eat... Ya' goota poop and...

...ya' gotta walk!!!

Now do it...

B~


♥ ♥ ♥ This mudelf likes and concurs with that advice! It begins with the first step. . .

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Bert
Date: 24 May 12 - 08:18 PM

I dunno about oomph but you can get some oom pah pah here

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: katlaughing
Date: 25 May 12 - 04:44 PM

That's one of my fav. scenes, Bert. Thanks.

I feel kind of numb, right now. Some important things seem to be worse, now, than they were last year, health-wise, yet alternatives may involve needing to go away to a a major uni-hospital, etc. We are going to try getting me back on track with the juicing, meds, and a few other things. Thank goodness, our primary care doc is an internal pro and does not think the specialists here are all "god." Looks like, now, another thing to start looking into is funding, what the ins. co will cover, what else I may qualify for, etc. UUUggghhhh, I'll I want to do is lie down, sleep, then get my books finalised. In stead it's doc visits, test, grandson two weeks until 1/2 day summer school, then half days.

Subject: RE: BS: Need some extra 'oomph' thoughts, please
From: Janie
Date: 25 May 12 - 07:31 PM

Post 100 is chock full of light, love and loving kindness beamed right at you.